Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Episode 27: Once More With Feeling ❯ Chapter 1

Episode 27:
Once More With Feeling

Author's note: Having been able to watch the entire series of "Neon Genesis Evangelion" earlier this year, and having been completely disappointed by it, I decided to write an episode 27 - not to resolve all of the plot threads and unanswered questions that the series left; that would require effort, and this series isn't worth that.

This episode fixes things my way.

Warning: If you love "Neon Genesis Evangelion" and think it's the greatest anime series of all time, then you will completely hate this fic (unless you try to find hidden meanings in it that aren't there). If, however, you recognize "Neon Genesis Evangelion" for the badly-written, pretentious shit that it is, then read on and enjoy!

I don't own "Neon Genesis Evangelion", not that I would ever claim it as my own. That piece of shit belongs to Gainax.

I wrote this story on Sunday, December 17, 2006, from 8:00 AM to 9:26 AM and from 12:48 PM to 3:29 PM, and on Monday, December 18, 2006, from 2:52 PM to 3:31 PM and from 5:35 PM to 5:36 PM. Comments and questions, both good and bad, are welcome. Enjoy!

The final case of Shinji Ikari...

What do you want from me?

You.

I thought it was over.

It's not.

Well, here we go again.

Why do you despair?

Because nobody loves me.

Why do you despair?

Because nobody loves me!

Why do you despair?

Because my father doesn't love me!

Why is your father important?

I don't know! Because he is!

Do you love your father?

I...I don't know.

Do you love your father?

I don't know!

Do you love your father?

I don't know, damn it!

Why love?

What?

Why love?

What?!

Why love?

What?!

Why love?

What?!

Why love?

What?!

Why love?

What?!

Why love?

What?!

Why love?

Help!

Why love?

Help!

Why love?

Help!

Why love?

Help!

Why love?

Help!

Why love?

Help!

Why love?

Help!

Why love?

Stop it!

Why love?

Stop it!

Why love?

Stop it!

Why love?

Stop it!

Why love?

Stop it!

Why love?

Stop it!

Why love?

Stop it!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Go away!

Why love?

Because, without it, we'd have nothing!

Isn't that better?

Is it?

Who do you love?

I don't know.

Rei Ayanami?

No, not her. Well, I did touch her breast, but that was an accident.

Rei Ayanami?

No.

Rei Ayanami?

No!

"Don't you like me, Shinji?"

"Rei! Well, sure, I like you, but not like that."

"Why not?"

"What?"

"Why don't you like me like that?"

"I don't know."

"Don't you love me?"

"I..."

"That's just like you, Shinji! It's always I, I, I!"

Misato.

Do you like her?

"I..."

"I is for beasts, Shinji! Answer the fucking question! Do you like me or not?!"

Do I?

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know.

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

Do you love Misato?

I don't know!

"Shinji, you're such a pain!"

Asuka.

This one, Asuka Langley Soryu.

"No, not her. She's annoying."

"And you're not?!"

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I'm annoying?

Yes, you are.

I never thought about it that way before.

Think.

About what?

Think.

About what?

Think.

About what?

Think.

About Asuka?

"Watch me perform, Shinji!"

"Misato! Where are we?"

"We're at the nightclub where I perform, silly!"

"You sing?"

"Of course, I sing!"

"I didn't know that."

"There are a lot of things that you don't know about me."

"Really?"

"Now, have a seat and enjoy the show."

"Okay."

"Fly me to the moon
and let me play among the stars.
Let me see what Spring is like on Jupiter and Mars.
In other words, hold my hand!
In other words, darling, kiss me.
Fill my heart with song
and let me sing forever more.
You are all I long for, all I worship and adore.
In other words, please be true!
In other words...yeah, right! Dream on, Shinji!"

Not her, then.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Not her.

But I love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

Do you?

I do love her.

What about Rei?

I said no!

"Don't you love me?"

"I..."

"Stop with the I. I is annoying."

"I is? But I am the I. I am what is myself."

"My turn to sing. Please vacate the stage, Misato."

"No way. This, I gotta hear."

"Like a cruel angel,
young boy, become the legend!
A blue wind is now
knocking at the door to your heart, and yet
you are merely gazing at me
and smiling.
Something gently touching -
you're so intent on seeking it out
that you can't even see your fate yet
with such innocent eyes.
But someday I think you'll find out
that what's on your back
are wings that are for
heading for the far-off future.
The cruel angel's thesis
will soon take flight through the window
with surging, hot pathos,
if you betray your memories.
Embracing this universe and shining,
young boy, become the legend!
Sleeping for a long time
in the cradle of my love,
the morning is coming when you alone will be called
by a messenger of dreams.
Moonlight reflects off
the nape of your slender neck,
stopping time all throughout the world. I want to confine them, but...
So, if two people being brought together by fate
has any meaning,
I think that it is a bible
for learning freedom.
The cruel angel's thesis.
The sorrow then begins.
You held tight to the form of life
when you woke up from that dream.
You shine brighter than anyone else.
Young boy, become the legend!
People create history
while weaving love.
Even knowing I'll never be a goddess or anything like that,
I live on.
The cruel angel's thesis
will soon take flight through the window
with surging, hot pathos,
if you betray your memories.
Embracing this universe and shining,
young boy, become the legend!
A blue wind is now
knocking at the door to your heart, and yet
you are merely gazing at me
and smiling.
Something gently touching -
you're so intent on seeking it out
that you can't even see your fate yet
with such innocent eyes.
But someday I think you'll find out
that what's on your back
are wings that are for
heading for the far-off future.
The cruel angel's thesis
will soon take flight through the window
with surging, hot pathos,
if you betray your memories.
Embracing this universe and shining,
young boy, become the legend!"

Episode 27:
Once More With Feeling.

NEON
GENESIS
EVANGELION
EPISODE27:
And end it all...

The final case of Shinji Ikari continues...

Must it?

What of Kaworu?

Please, no.

Why no?

Just no.

Did you love Kaworu?

I don't know. There wasn't time.

Because you killed him.

Yes.

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

Why killed?

I don't know! I had to - to save the world!

So killed.

Yes.

So killed.

Yes.

So killed.

Yes.

So killed.

Yes.

So killed.

Yes.

So killed.

Yes.

So killed.

Yes.

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Yes.

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Yes.

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Yes!

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Yes!

So killed.

Yes!

So killed.

Yes!

So killed.

Yes!

So killed.

Yes!

So killed.

Yes!

So killed.

Yes!

But you loved him.

Yes!

Do you remember his song?

"O Freunde, nicht diese Töne,
sondern lasst uns angenehmere
anstimmen, und freundenvollere.
Freude, schöner Götterfunken,
Tochter aus Elysium,
wir betreten feuertrunken,
Himmlische, dein Heiligtum!
Deine Zauber binden wieder,
was die Mode streng geteilt:
alle Menschen werden Brüder,
wo dein snafter Flügel weilt.
Wem der grosse Wurf gelungen,
eines Freundes Freund zu sein,
wer ein holdes Weib errungen,
mische seinen Jubel ein!
Ja, wer auch nur eine Seele
sein nennt auf dem Erdenrund!
Und wer's nie gekonnt, der stehle
weinend sich aus diesem Bund!
Freude trinken alle Wesen
an den Brüsten der Natur,
alle Guten, alle Bösen
folgen ihrer Rosenspur.
Küsse gab sie uns und Reben,
einen Freund, geprüft im Tod;
Wollust ward dem Wurm gegeben,
und der Cherub steht vor Gott.
Froh, wie seine Sonnen fliegen
durch des Himmels prächt'gen Plan,
laufet, Brüder, eure Bahn,
freudig, wie ein Held zum Siegen!
Freude, schöner Götterfunken,
Tochter aus Elysium,
wir betreten feuertrunken,
Himmlische, dein Heiligtum!
Deine Zauber binden wieder,
was die Mode streng geteilt:
alle Menschen werden Brüder,
wo dein snafter Flügel weilt.
Seid umschlungen, Millionen!
Diesen Kuss der ganzen Welt!
Brüder, überm Sternenzelt
muss ein lieber Vater wohnen.
Ahnest du den Schöpfer, Welt?
Such ihn überm Sternenzelt!
Über Sternen muss er wohnen.
Freude, schöner Götterfunken,
Tochter aus Elysium,
wir betreten feuertrunken,
Himmlische, dein Heiligtum!
Seid umschlungen, Millionen!
Diesen Kuss der ganzen Welt!
Ihr stürzt nieder, Millionen?
Ahnest du den Schöpfer, Welt?
Such ihn überm Sternenzelt!
Brüder, überm Sternenzelt
muss ein lieber Vater wohnen!
Freude, Tochter aus Elysium,
deine Zauber binden wieder,
was die Mode streng geteilt!
Alle Menschen werden Brüder,
wo dein sanfter Flügel Weilt.
Seid umschlungen, Millionen!
Diesen Kuss der ganzen Welt!
Brüder, überm Sternenzelt
muss ein lieber Vater wohnen.
Freude, schöner Götterfunken,
Tochter aus Elysium,
Freude, schöner Götterfunken!"

"You're a lazy, good-for-nothing fuckhead, Shinji!"

"Misato? Why do you say that?"

"I fucking died for you, and you let everyone in the world fucking die!"

"I didn't mean to."

"You're fucking useless, Shinji!"

"I'm sorry."

"You're the most useless persoon on the entire fucking planet, Shinji Ikari!"

"I'm sorry."

"You're a complete failure as a human being, Shinji Ikari!"

"I'm sorry!"

"You're a waster of air, Shinji Ikari!"

"I'm sorry!"

"You're a pervert, Shinji!"

"Asuka! What do you mean?!"

"Hello! You jerked off in front of my comatose body! You're sick!"

"I'm sorry."

"Why don't you just die and leave the world to the rest of us?"

"But I thought the world ended...or was changed...or something..."

"It was all in your mind, Shinji. We are all you."

"You are all I?"

"We are what make up you."

"So I've been talking to myself this whole time?"

"Ja."

"Okay."

"My turn to sing."

"You sing, Asuka?"

"Yes, I sing. Just shut up and listen to yourself."

"Okay."

"I know,
I know I've let you down.
I've been a fool to myself.
I thought that I could live for no one else.
But now,
through all the hurt and pain,
it's time for me to respect.
The ones you love mean more than anything.
So, with sadness in my heart,
feel the best thing I could do
is end it all and leave forever.
what's done is done; it feels so bad.
what once was happy now is sad.
I'll never love again. My world is ending.
I wish
that I could turn back time,
'cause now the guilt is all mine.
Can't live without the trust from those you love.
I know
we can't forget the past.
You can't forget love and pride.
Because of that, it's killing me inside.
It all returns to nothing.
It all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down.
It all returns to nothing.
I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down.
In my heart of hearts,
I know that I could never love again.
I've lost everything,
everything,
everything that matters to me, matters in this world.
I wish
that I could turn back time,
'cause now the guilt is all mine.
Can't live without the trust from those you love.
I know
we can't forget the past.
You can't forget love and pride.
Because of that, it's killing me inside.
It all returns to nothing.
It just keeps tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down.
It all returns to nothing.
I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down.
It all returns to nothing.
It just keeps tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down.
It all returns to nothing.
I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down."

"Is that what I should do? Die?"

Yes.

Why die?

Just die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?

Die.

Why?!

Die!

Why?!

Die!

Why?!

Die!

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< i>Why?!

From Misato:

"You're fucking useless, Mr. Run Away and Listen To My Fucking Tape All Day!"

"I love the music on my tape. I channel the soundwaves into my penis."

From Rei:

"You don't love yourself. Even if no one else loves you, you should love yourself."

From Asuka:

"You're all 'poor me'! Grow the fuck up or die, Shinji!"

"I don't want to! Grown-ups, like my father, cause pain!"

From Misato:

"Fuck you!"

From Rei:

"Fuck you!"

From Asuka:

"Fuck you!"

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

Die!

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Die!

Die!

And end it all.