Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Heaven Nor Hell ❯ Save Me ( Chapter 1 )

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Heaven nor Hell

A boy approximately the age of fifteen tossed back his pure white hair as he drew his forefinger under his nose. This boy looked quite young, yet the sorrow in his eyes reflected a life full of pain and death. The glare from the streetlight created dark shadows that decorated his hair, throwing his face into a labyrinth of shadows. With keys dangled from his index finger, Kaworu lightly tapped his foot as he silently waited for his friend. Finally his friend stepped through the door, the light behind the boy kept his expression hidden before the engulfing shadows, beyond the safety of the haven created by his house. When Kaworu had settled himself on the cold but familiar seat of the motorcycle, he beckoned Shinji to him.

Kaworu- Shinji, get on. If we don't hurry we'll be late to the party."

Shinji smiled at his best friend as he daintily got on behind Kaworu, chasing away his apprehensive mood with happy thoughts. Shinji was a young boy near Kaworu's age but with a slighter and more feminine appearance. His jet-black hair was in a much tidier state than Kaworu's own yet his eyes portrayed the same sorrow that Kaworu's eyes possessed. Lines that should not be upon the face of a fifteen-year-old were etched there in eternal residence. Shinji's eyes were full of longing that would never be fulfilled, he wanted . . .

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At the party Shinji lightly weaved his way in and out of the guests as he kept his eyes trained upon Kaworu. Shinji's voice caught in his throat as Kaworu looked at him. Shinji turned away in surprise, he thought he saw a trace of love in Kaworu's beautiful, boredom glazed eyes. At that moment Shinji's eye caught the dangerous glimmer of steel. With a yell that echoed throughout the hall he knock Kaworu to the ground as a bullet slammed into his chest. Then everything went black. Nothing mattered anymore.

The scream seemed to echo in Kaworu's ears. Shinji's scream "Kaworu". Kaworu caught Shinji just before Shinji's head hit the cold hard marble. With his arm lovingly supporting Shinji's head, Kaworu whispered Shinji's name, but when Shinji didn't answer Kaworu called louder and louder until he was screaming but he didn't shake Shinji in the slightest way, he only lovingly held Shinji in his embrace. Tears poured down his face as he dipped his head. His forehead rested lightly upon Shinji's shoulder. He whispered.

Kaworu- Shinji, I love you.

A small circle of astonished spectators gathered around the cold body of Shinji. Kaworu heard nothing; he was remembering Shinji's hesitant smile when he first saw him. He thought of the time when they had a bath together. He thought of the time he slept over at Shinji's house listening to Shinji breath, dreaming about what it would be like to hold him within his embrace. Now the only embrace Kaworu could give Shinji was the embrace of sorrow as he felt Shinji's body, go cold. Another shot rang out through the air the bullet missing the intended mark by far. Guards tearing their eyes away from Kaworu and Shinji took up the chase. When eventually they caught the assassin they found out it was Asuka.

Asuka- You monster get away from him. How dare you touch him? You stole him . . .

Kaworu gingerly raised his head, agony written clearly upon his face. He said one word.

Kaworu- Why?

Asuka- You stole him.

Kaworu- What do you mean?

Asuka- Shinji said he left me because he didn't love me. It has to be you.

Kaworu- How can you be so sure? If he loves me he has never shown it. He is my closest friend. We fought through the angel attacks together. We have gone through life and death together. How can you kill someone as innocent as Shinji? He loved the world.

Asuka- I wanted to kill you but Shinji jumped in my way. So he deserved to die. Him giving his life up for you only proves that he loves you.

Kaworu- That is why Eva-02 was taken away from you. You're crazy.

With those words echoing in Asuka's mind she was forcefully hauled away. All the while she was mumbling incoherent words under her breath, her body limp within the hold of the two expressionless guards. Suddenly as though a revelation came to her she started to struggle but her futile movements only caused to guards to tighten their grip.

Asuka- I WILL HAVE MY REVENGE KAWORU . . . KAWORU.

Shinji was so light in Kaworu's arms. Gendo Ikari laid his hand on Kaworu's shoulder as though to comfort him but Kaworu pulled away.

Gendo- Kaworu . . .

Kaworu- Keep away.

Gendo- Kaworu calm down. You can't bring back the dead to life. Shinji wouldn't want you to be so sad.

Kaworu- I love him Commander Ikari. I loved him all along. Everyday I dreamed of holding him in my arms as I do now but the only time I can do so now is when he's dead. HE'S DEAD. HE'S DEAD.

With a heart-wrenching sob Kaworu dragged his shaking body from the floor and staggered to the door. Shinji was so light in his arms. Kaworu staggered from sorrow that was tearing away at his heart. He wanted to escape the truth. Shinji wasn't dead; Shinji was alive, ALIVE. Carrying Shinji's body he ran blindly to the forest near the party. Some of the party members made as though to follow them but Gendo Ikari blocked their path.

Gendo- Leave him alone. He just needs to calm down and accept the truth.

Kaworu ran not knowing his course, not knowing his purpose. All he knew was that he needed to escape. He couldn't believe it. He wouldn't believe it. Shinji isn't dead. Shinji isn't dead. Finally Kaworu came to a stop as he neared a cliff. With Shinji's cold body in his warm loving, embrace he sank to his knees near the edge of the cliff. The bottom of the cliff was unsightable although there was no fog or vegetation obscuring the view. The cliff sank into darkness. Kaworu did not notice his surroundings. All of his attention was trained on the cold body of the one he loved with his whole heart but now his love is no more for death holds his love now in his embrace.

Kaworu will never hear Shinji's sweet laughter again. Never again will Shinji sit behind him on his motorcycle with his arms around Kaworu's waist the wind whipping through their hair. Never again will Shinji play his cello as Kaworu accompanied him with the piano, the musical notations brought to life by their instruments. Never again will these everyday occurrences that he took for granted happen again. Shinji was lost to him forever, his love.

Kaworu regretted with his whole heart his hesitance at expressing his love for Shinji. Kaworu raised his head to the heavens before lowering his head once more, gently the starlit sky was illuminated by a red tinge that surround the two with shower of blood. He couldn't live without Shinji, he couldn't. With his arms cradling Shinji's head, the red rain dampening his hair with the sky's own sorrow, in that instant an unearthly glow surrounded him. Kaworu looked deep into Shinji's innocent face, he looked strangely more peaceful in death. The line's that decorated Shinji's face in weaves of experiences and brushes with death, had disappeared from the face of the one he loved, Kaworu took a deep life strengthening breath and felt.

Kaworu- Shinji, I love you. I have loved you since the first day I saw you. Remember you were standing looking at the sunset and I sat on a rock humming? I read all about you in the papers all over the world. I have a diary of your pictures, pictures of us; I treasure that diary beyond all my other possessions. When I first saw you, I thought I would faint. You looked beautiful, the last glimmers of the setting sun playing upon your face, the waves lapping near your feet, and your face framed by your wind swept hair. Do you believe in love at first sight? I do, because on that day I felt it. You're the love of my life; I was so scared that if I told you I loved you, you would pull away. I was so scared. Now I regret my cowardice. Shinji, do you remember the first time I entered The Evolution Project? Remember when we had that bath, and I put my hand over yours? I wanted to tell you my feelings then, but the bravery would not come. I was so scared that you would refuse my love. I treasure the memories of our duets, watching the sunset beyond the far horizon; the very musical notations were brought to life, permeating the air with your vibrancy and innocence. Shinji, how could you leave me behind? How could you?

Kaworu's head lowered, his bangs covering his eyes. Salty tears ran down Kaworu's cheeks and trickled down Shinji's chest into his lap, mingling with the rain that had already gathered there for their farewell. These words were but a summary of all Kaworu wanted to say, but no matter what Kaworu said now Shinji would never hear, his eyes closed eternally in death. From the first day Kaworu saw Shinji he knew that he would never let Shinji leave him behind. If Shinji went, Kaworu knew he would follow.

Eyeing the cliff before them, Kaworu rose gracefully, with his decision clear in his mind he smiled, an upturn of the lips that was turned bitter by sorrow. Walking to the edge of the cliff Kaworu stared down into darkness, unconcerned with the height. Lowering Shinji's feet to the ground Kaworu held him tightly in his embrace. With tears of farewell in his eyes he flung himself head first down the cliff, his arms locked tightly around his love, with a single whisper he was no more.

Kaworu- Shinji, I love you now and forever. You can't leave me alone.

Kaworu lowered the lids of his eyes lightly waiting for the death that he craved. As the bottom of the cliff neared Kaworu felt as though somebody was wrenching Shinji from his hands. Unable to hold on to Shinji, Kaworu's eyes snapped open. Kaworu saw the glimmers of the enemy but before he could pursue he felt soft wings wrap around him then he knew no more.

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