Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Hollow ❯ Introduction ( Prologue )

Hollow

This fan fiction is written by JadedTrowa.

Disclaimer: I do not own Neon Genesis Evangelion, Gainax does, And I will gladly remove all traces of this document if they wish me to. Hopefully they won't sue me >>

Introduction

Silence.

I don't know how long I've been lying here. My head hurts, I feel dizzy, memories flashing through my head unwillingly, and not even the soothing sounds of my SDAT player seemed to calm my nerve. Why can't I sleep? If I hadn't thrown my alarm clock against the wall this morning I'd know what time it is. Why couldn't I have bought a watch? Is Asuka asleep? I hope so. After what happened between us I couldn't' bring myself to face her. So I've been doing what I seem to be good at lately. Hiding. Running. Fearing.

It's been four days now. Since the fight. I still remember it clearly.

Why do you hate me!

I don't hate you!

Yes you do!

You never even look at me like the boys at school do!

I… I'm not like those boys Asuka!

Yes you are! You're as perverted as they are! You just won't show it!

Silence.

I don't know the reason she acted like that. It just kind of happened. One minute I was sitting around, doing my homework, and Asuka was watching some cheesy soap opera, and the next thing I knew, I had insults being thrown at me, left and right. She's been very temperamental lately, ever since the angel invaded her mind. In a way, it raped her. Not physically, her physical tests came back fine; it wasn't something on the outside. Something deeper. In the dark recesses or her mind, the place where you kind of push all the bad memories, so you think you forgot them, but you haven't, they are burned into your mind, like the way a farmer brands his cattle, it never fades, never disappears, only hides itself temporally.

Pain. Silence. Fear. Father.

This is his fault; he wouldn't let me go out in Unit-01 and save Asuka. I can still hear her screams. The way she screamed for mercy. Mercy!

No! I don't want to remember! I want to forget! No! Mama!

I twitched; something snapped me out of my trance, a noise, and faint at first, but growing stronger, and still growing. I raised my head, and looked around, the room seemed dark and luminous. I sort of like the darkness. It brings with it safety. Comfort. Relaxation. I needed that right now, my muscles are so tense, I can barely will myself to move, but somehow I managed to prevail over my mental state and lift myself from the bed. As my feet touched the floor, the sudden chill overthrew me. I knew it had to be early in the morning, extremely early for the floor to be chilled.

I slowly ripped the earplugs out. Looking around, my face surely is sagged, my eyes red and puffy from crying. I hate my face after a bout like this. I look so pathetic. Like a little child who has just been denied his right to visit a friends house and threw a tantrum. I slowly stood, my futon not making a noise as I rose to my feet. Slowly but surely my feet carried me towards the door, my shoulders slumped. I slowly opened the sliding door. Not a lot. Just a little. Just enough to see what the noise was. Yep. I was right. Someone was out there. I could vaguely make out a figure. The light from the fridge illuminating her body. Perhaps it was Misato? No. She was swamped with work at NERV. It had to be Asuka. I was snapped back into reality when I saw her reach in and take out a small carton of milk. She had not come out of her room all day to my knowledge. Neither had I. None of us wanted to face each other. She is so confusing. I can barely manage to control myself around her. She is always misleading me. Hurting me. Insulting me. Who would have thought she even gave a damn about what I thought of her. Sure she was dubbed 'Demon Girl' but I always tend to see right through people.

You're pathetic Shinji!

…

You can't even love yourself!

You come running to me!

I'm just a replacement for Wonder girl!

I cringed. Images of the fight returning still. Why! Why won't they go away! Then thoughts of something completely different. Still images, not clear. Sort of fuzzy. I was standing in a room, watching Unit-01, My father standing. Looking much more calm and smiling. Smiling? I looked around. And that's when the noises came. I blacked out. Then opened my eyes again. Only to see people. Running. Shouting. Father crying.

What's going on?!

The Eva!

She disappeared!

That's not possible!

I snapped out again. This time the sound of the fridge door closing. The seal making the slightest sucking sound and the faint hum of the motor returning to fill the room. This was it. I had to confront her. No more running. I mustn't run away. I mustn't runaway. I watched as Asuka began to move to her door. No! I have to do this! I pushed the door open, not willingly. My hand did it itself. I stepped into the barely lit room. I had to squint to see her. She seemed to halt. My presence was acknowledged. This was it. No turning back now. I sighed once, and drew in a deep breath. Although she knew I was there, she did not turn to face me. She rather stood still. It was menacing the way she stood. I fought the urge to run back to my room. I mustn't run away, I mustn't runaway…

[To Be Continued…]

Authors Notes:

Ok. This is the introduction to 'Hollow'. Before you guys start flaming me. I would like to tell you that this won't have much to do with Angels. Or Evangelions for that fact. It's focused on Asuka's feelings towards Shinji. I also write Gundam Wing fics (Hence the name). I have not seen Evangelion in a -long- time. So forgive me if the knowledge on the subject is somewhat rusty. I much appreciate comments, criticism, feedback, and flames even. If you have any of those. You may contact me through my e-mail addresses.

Yahoo: jadedtrowa@yahoo.com

Messenger: edge161@hotmail.com

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Thanks for reading the Introduction to 'Hollow' I will try and complete the first chapter as soon as possible.