Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ I am me ❯ Prologue

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

I am me

By John82

They were there. Just doing nothing, but to stare. The things that floats in a
LCL filled tanks that surrounds the room Rei is now standing. The things that
look just like Rei. Her sisters. Her clones.
"Who are you?" Rei asked. There was no answer. The clones cannot speak yet as
they are not 'human' yet like Rei is now.
"Who are you?" She asked again, mainly to herself.
"What am I?"
The clones were silence.
"What I am to Commander Ikari? Am I his daughter? No - am I his doll?"
"…"
"Why does he show kindness to me as if I am his daughter and I am not. Why he
does not shows kindness to his son? What is Ikari is to Commander Ikari? I do
not know."
"…"
"And Ikari - there is something strange about him. He is nothing like Commander
Ikari and yet, he, too, shows me kindness. Different than the way Commander
Ikari has shown me. Is he a friend? Or… was it something more?"
"…"
"He told me that I would be a good mother one day. I do not understand then,
but perhaps now I do."
"…"
"And the pilot of Unit-02 - Soryu. What is she is to me? A friend? An enemy?
And why does she refuse to open up to her Unit? Was it pride? What is pride?
Why does she call me 'Wonder Girl'? Was it because she says that I am the
Commander Ikari's favorite?"
As she says that, she puts her hand in one of her pockets and pulled out broken
glasses.
"And this glasses. They belonged to Commander Ikari. Why do I keep it when he
treats me like a doll?"
She then pulls out a photo out of one of her other pockets: it was a old
picture of Commander Ikari - he was younger, he has no glasses and he was also
clean shaved as well. He was smiling. The person on the right of him was a
young woman with a brown hair, was also smiling as well. Her face… Rei has
realized that her face looks just like her face, that was when she now know what
Shinji mean by her being a good 'mother' one day. In the young woman's arm was
a baby, sleeping peaceful. This, Rei thought, must be Ikari.
Rei found the picture when Commander Ikari was looking at the picture when
suddenly the alarm went off and he must have dropped it by accident as he went
to his post. Along the way Rei picked it up and pocketed it, meaning to give it
back to Commander Ikari, but after her second clone died, she, the third clone,
has forgotten about it. That was until she came across it while she was
searching for something to remind her of what she was. The picture came up in
her hand and she revives the biggest shock of her life. This young woman… who
is she? Why does Rei look like her?
Fueled with the need for knowledge, she then went to NERV and accessed the MAGI
computer to search for answers to her question. She soon came up with
information on the young woman; she was Yui Ikari, Commander Ikari's late wife
and also Ikari's mother as well. The information also says that she has died
(disappears) while she was piloting Unit-01. Rei, armed with this information,
went on and accessed Commander Ikari's files. While she has the highest
clearance, Commander Ikari sternly told her not to access his files as he puts
it, "What I have in it is not for your eyes but for my eyes only. Understand?"

Opening the files, she starts to read them. However she was not prepared for
what lies in the files. She discovers that she was half clone of the Yui Ikari
and also other half clone of Lilith. "No…" she moaned. Then she also found
that, in order to be reunited with Yui, Commander Ikari created Rei for that
purpose: to trigger his own version of Third Impact. "No… what have I become?
A monster…" Without warning, a tear runs down her check. Surprised, she touched
the tear with her finger and asks herself, "Is this a tear? Am I crying? This
feels… so familiar." And she stayed there, crying.
Standing before Rei's clones, she now knew what has to done. She could remember
that time when Shinji told her he hated his father. This cause her to slap him
in anger because Shinji has bad mouthed Commander Ikari and Commander Ikari were
very kind to Rei, but now she knew better, it was all a act. Staring at the
broken glasses, she then puts her other hand and starts to twist the glasses.
It breaks in half, and Rei dropped them to the ground.
If Commander Ikari told you to kill yourself, could you do it?
Yes I would.
Then you are a doll!
Soryu. She called Rei a doll.
"A doll? Am I a doll?" she asked out loud. There were no answers from the
clones.
"What am I? Who am I?" With that, she went in other pocket and pulled out a
remote control.
"I am… human. Nothing more. I am not Commander Ikari's doll. I am me. I am
no one else."
She puts her finger over a button, but before she would press it, she added, "I
am sorry. Please forgive me for what I am going to do." She pressed the
button.
The clones in the tank started to scream as they falls apart and the tank were
soon filled with blood.
Rei just stood there. She no longer gives a damn about Commander Ikari.
Rei stood there for a long time when she heard a gasp behind her. She turned
around and saw Commander Ikari and Dr Akagi. "What in God's name…" She begins.
Commander Ikari was the first to recover and asks, calmly, "Rei, what happened?"
Rei was silence. Then she said, "I am not your doll."
Commander Ikari's usual stone face broke. "Why, Rei?" His face now has pain
all over it. "Why?"
Rei said, "You are sick. First, you use people like me like a doll and when you
has no use for them, you just threw them away. Just like Dr Akagi."
Dr Akagi gasped, "Is that true, Commander!?" She was now angry.
Commander Ikari was silence, then he nodded. "You bastard!" She shouted,
slapping him hard, "You said you love me. Liar!" She was sobbing. "Just like
mother…!" She slaps him again.
Commander Ikari suddenly broke down, dropping to the ground, crying. "Yui…"
Both Rei and Dr Akagi were silence. They now knew that Commander Ikari no
longer holds all the cards - Rei burned them all. They stood there, watching
Commander Ikari crying his heart out.
"Yui…"