Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ The Dark Prince Emerges ❯ Dreams ( Chapter 8 )

Disclaimer: I don't own NGE, but I bid $30 for Daisuke Matsuzaka.

 

I'll have to admit that I'm shocked. Figured that nobody was paying attention to this story anymore, but once again I'm proven wrong. People like this body of work & I now will see this to the end.

 

This chapter is going to be written almost exclusively in first person format. We're going into the minds of the major characters here.

 

This Chapter's soundtrack: Young Jeezy “Stay Strapped” Let's get it!!

 

Aight time to get Freudian in this bitch.

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The Dark Prince Emerges

Chapter 8: Dreams

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(Rei Ayanami)

 

I always wind up here every time I fall asleep. Here in front of this lake, with him right there waiting. I want to believe that he's waiting for me. Every time I find myself running to him hoping that this time it's for real. I hug him, kiss him, hold him as long as I can until I notice Asuka behind me. From then on all I can see is her face, how hurt her eyes look. Then I watch as she turns away saying something in a low voice, but I know what it is. `I hate you First Child.'

 

What would happen if Ikari came back? I ask myself that question every day, but I'm afraid of the answer. Would it mean the end of my friendship with Asuka? I don't want to lose something that precious to me. Or what if he picks Asuka over me? How would I react?

 

I hoped that one of us would find someone else, but that's impossible. We are both in love with the same person. Then there's the possibility of Ikari already happy with some other woman, or that we'll never see him again. I know that sooner or later I may have to leave hope behind and move on, but to what? I guess to my life before Ikari, a life both lonely and empty. I pray that never happens.

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(D.D.)

 

The sky, it's blood red, then again it always is in my mind. It's almost eerie. The tombstones I'm staring at don't help either. They're the tombstones of my dead homies. Paco, Roller, Lil'Blood, Knives, Pirata, Shadow, Big X, & Silky. All of them got blasted while I was gone. I kind of feel guilty for that, but all of them told me that they understood why I wasn't there, still hurts though.

 

Well, I'm not just standing here to get a self-inflicted guilt trip. I got good news. It's almost over. All that's left is for Shinji to waste his pops & then I can finally blow Pertrova's brains out. My folks will truly rest in peace after that. Hell, after that I'm retired from this job, I'm fucking done.

 

It's kind of fucked up if I start to think about it. I'm pushing my search of vengeance with such a religious ferocity that most people would think that I'm a crusader. Yet at the same time I'm a gangsta. That's a living contradiction if I ever heard one. Oh well, I can't help it. I was pretty much raised by both aspects. Either way I'm going to end this game on my terms. It's just a matter of time now before I'm set free to drop this mask that has haunted me for a decade. Then I can finish my degree without any more roadblocks. The only thing I can't predict is if I'll die from gang retaliation. Like the old saying goes `Once a King, always a King”.

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(Dion De Valera)

 

I can't believe I'm doing this again; I'm letting my job dictate my life. Here I am sitting in my desk with paperwork stacked up to my eyeballs. I don't know why I just can't stop doing this to myself. At this rate I really couldn't blame Sharon if she just walked out on me. Yet somehow I know that she won't. Knowing her, she would have done it a long time ago. Thank goodness for love.

 

This case is kicking my ass. Nearly every theory I can think of has turned up shit. Either Katsuragi is a true criminal mastermind or I'm not looking in the right spot. But where else I can turn? This was obviously an inside job. Someone from NERV had to be involved, but whom? I looked at every name on that list that was given to me. All of those people have solid alibis; I didn't leave any name unchecked. All those people really did move on from their work at NERV. I even checked my Triad connections & apparently none of them were approached by Katsuragi. The only other people I can think of are former pilots of those machines, Touji Suzuhara & Shinji Ikari.

 

Suzuhara was a pilot only once before one of those Evangelions crushes the entry plug he was in. That left him with two prosthetic limbs for the rest of his life, which has turned out to be a charmed one. He has got to be one of the luckiest people of Earth. Who else can claim to win the lottery almost right after they got married? The prosthetics he has can give him a motive & he clearly has the money to pay a good hit man. But then who can he find to pull this off?

 

Ikari on the hand is a mystery. The kid disappeared right before someone popped the lid off SEELE. No one has been able to find out his whereabouts since. For all I know the kid might be dead already. Then there are those drawings on the cards. Some drawings like them were on his file, but then again a lot was in that thing. This kid was the definition of depression. All the psychological evaluations done on him showed that he didn't value his life that much. The only other major point was the hidden hatred of his father.

 

Wait a fucking minute, He hates his father, & has been missing for a decade? Oh shit why I didn't see this before. Those two are tied together somehow. Suzuhara is in the Japanese upper class. He can have access to a lot of assassination squads because of his status in that class & those people are almost the most despicable, corrupt group of bastards that I've ever seen. Maybe he did put a hit on the old men & whoever he hired may have found Ikari. They probably offered him the chance to get revenge on his father & he accepted. I know this is a way far-fetched theory, but I burned out all other options. Like the old detective ode goes `If you burned out all logical theories to a crime, then the most illogical theory must be the truth'. Hopefully I'm right this time or I have gone completely nuts.

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(Shinji Ikari)

 

There are two doors in front of me. One to the left, one to the right, they are labeled too. The one on the left says Asuka, the other says Rei. Behind them are all the memories that I have with each girl. I still don't remember some of them; I was too fucked up back then to remember them, let alone anything from back then.

 

I barely thought about them this whole time. I figured that I didn't have a reason to. Now I want to see them again & at least one person over there wants to see me too. Why else would Section 2 try to follow me unless they were ordered to? I guess that Misato really does miss me after all.

 

The girls on the other hand, are another story. I don't know if they want to see me, let alone remember me.

 

I open the Asuka door to find the first thing I see is her on the Over the Rainbow. She was standing on the flight deck with all the confidence in the world. Then there was the synchronization training. Those days were painful, but the got the routine down & defeated Israfel in 62 seconds. Then there was the time she went into a volcano to grab Sandalphon & almost winds up getting killed. I can still see the smile on her face when I saved her. After that it's mostly a blur. Of course there were the insults that she threw at me. I don't think that I could have gone though a day without her either calling me a pervert, a spineless coward, or an idiot. But I think that there was more to her then that front she put on. At least I know now that it was front, hell I put one myself. Yet I doubt that she would care if she ever saw me again.

 

I close that door & open the Rei door. The first thing I see is her in that stretcher all bandaged up. She looked like she was in so much pain that I couldn't let her pilot Unit 01. That's how that devil called my father tricked me into working for him. The only other reason I accepted was to gain his love. Then there was the time we spent at school, she was always staring out the window like she was daydreaming in class. Then there was the time I went to her apartment for the first time. Now that was the uncomfortable situation. I was looking around to see how she lived, it was pitiful. I noticed she had a pair of my father's glasses on her dresser. I picked it up only to find her behind me. She grabbed the glasses & through one of my many acts of clumsiness I wound up on top of her with my hand grabbing her right breast. Then there were the times she put her life on the line like she was disposable, which turned out that she was. I still remember that room with all those clones that scared the shit out me. I avoided Rei from then on. I think that she would remember me, but would greet me in that monotone voice of hers.

 

I close that door and go back to staring at them again. I know what I must do now. I have to sort out my memories, opinions & feelings about them before I see them again. I can't let myself be in limbo or else it would be like I was still the same old Shinji that they knew, because I'm not by a long shot.

 

I guess that by looking at them side by side, they both had something I wanted back then. Asuka had that confidence & Rei had my father's praise. Looking back, I seemed to treat Rei a little better than Asuka, don't know why. Maybe because she didn't treat me like dirt.

 

Then there's myself. I have to sort myself out. I turn around to find my door open with a lot of skeletons inside. I'm not the same person I was ten years ago. The old me would never hurt a fly, & was too afraid to express himself. The person I am now has a lot of blood on his hands. I also got over the awkwardness I had towards girls. Hell I lost my virginity five years ago to a Russian girl. I guess that I can face them now, all I have to do is kill my father & I can drop my gun for the last time.

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(Misato Katsuragi)

 

I'm so close yet so far. I know that Shinji is alive but have no idea where or what he's doing. I still can't picture him harming anything. But he's somehow involved in the deaths of the old men. At least I know he's out there somewhere waiting for us to find him & bring him home, back to Asuka & Rei, which worries me now.

 

I can tell by Asuka's reaction the other night that she won't give Shinji up without a fight. That can spell trouble. Rei on the other hand would be overjoyed to see that boy, but I don't know how that will change her bond with Asuka. Both girls have been through a lot since he left, to bring him back would probably destroy what they worked so hard to gain, I could always hide him once he was found , but those two would never forgive me, might even kill me if I did that. The only certainty is that once he's here all of us will feel complete.

 

This guy in the UN however is another issue. He thinks that I ordered the old men's deaths like I was some sort of Yakuza boss. Nothing that I provided to him is shifting his focus away from that assumption. I pretty much gave him a list of all the personnel that quit NERV. I even put Shinji's name on that list. Damn it why did I do that? Doesn't matter, if Section 2 can't find him I doubt that he'll be able to. Besides, whoever ordered the hit had to be extremely rich. The only person I know that has that much cash is Touji. & awww fuck. Don't tell me that boy did this; I know that he's hardheaded, but not stupid enough to risk everything he has for a vendetta, at least I think so. Fuck, I got to talk to him because if I just figured this out, that UN guy probably has too. Now I have to get to Touji before he does. Please Touji prove me wrong.

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(Asuka Langley Soryu)

 

It's painful watching this, looking at my memories of Shinji. Seeing how I treated him, made him feel like a waste of human space all to hide my feelings. Why did I close myself off to him like that?

 

I always told myself that I didn't need anything, that I was independent. It was all lies. All I was doing was trying to get people to pay attention to me, & when I finally do get it I have to turn it away. What a fool I was back then. If I were to go back in time I would tell Shinji how much I loved him, maybe he would have stayed with me. Maybe we would be married by now, even have a couple of kids. But I can't turn back time. The closest I ever got to show how I felt was kissing him; even then I had to make that uncomfortable for him & act disgusted. I really can't blame him if he comes back & picks Rei over me. I pretty much gave all the ammunition to make that decision.

 

Rei, I can't believe we're stuck in this conundrum. Here we are, in love with the same guy, & if he comes back one of us will be hurt. There is still the suggestion that Misato gave, that maybe he already has someone to love. Somehow I can't accept that. I just can't. But I promised myself to not let this come between us Rei. You are the sister I never had, one of the few people that truly understand me. Hopefully I won't let my emotions get the better of me if that day comes.

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(Touji Suzuhara)

 

Well, here I am in prison, not a real one but the prison in my mind. I let my anger get the best of me. Now I'm in a situation that is completely out of my control & I'm probably going to pay for it.

 

The cell is a small one, 6x8 at most. The bars are rusty ones. There is little, if any light coming from above. The walls are gray; they feel like an iceberg whenever I touch them. Luckily I'm not alone. Outside the cell is Hikari & Yamato. Both of them are crying like I was dead. I try to yell at them to tell them that I'm alright, but they don't hear me. I can see them turn away. I try to reach out to them, but as soon as my hands reach the bars I'm shocked by unbearable cold. I guess I don't deserve them.

 

Now there's a judge in front of me. He looks more like Death that a judge. All I hear now is an evil laughter as he tells me that my soul is destined for Hell. I can't argue with that judgment. What I did was unforgivable. I don't think that there's anyone that can help me get out of this jam. Wait a minute, Misato, she can help me. I have to tell her what I did; maybe she can make it all go away. She has to. I worked too hard to get where I am. I also think that Hikari might be pregnant. I can't let her become a single mother.

Hopefully with Misato's help, she won't have to feel that pain.

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2025 - The Rhine, Germany

 

As the people slept all over the world, one man stayed awake. He had good reason to. His top man was not acting right lately & he thought he knew why. Apparently he along with his friend were going to overthrow him & become the leaders of the organization. That was the only explanation for their behavior. He wasn't going to let them get their way.

 

He knew that both men had people that they cared about deeply. He had to show them that he could reach them. Maybe a little retaliation will teach those two their place.

 

As he walked out of his balcony he saw the moon & stars. The night was clear tonight, but the snow was going to come soon. As he took a sip from the wine glass in his left hand he saw the river reflect the light of the stars. A single thought now crossed his mind.

 

`You two have made a terrible mistake by betraying me. Nobody crosses Alexander Pertrova & lives to tell about it.'

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I know this wasn't as long as the other chapters, it wasn't meant to. Hopefully now you know where I'm taking this story, Oh by the way, now that I know what hentai means. I'll throw those bones in this as well, have to justify the classification. Peace out, One.

 

UPDATE: Wow, I still can't believe it's almost been 3 years since I posted this. I guess it's both my guilty conscience and seeing that other authors are returning to their earlier works that got me back here. I almost got chapter 9 ready a while back but then life got in the way.

 

If you followed this story before you probably noticed that I fixed hopefully all of the grammatical errors in the pervious chapters. I still have to re-work some things & remember how I was going to end this story. Hopefully will have chapter 9 up soon if everything goes right.