Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ The Lost Tapes ❯ Snuff ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: I don't own NGE, it is the property of GAINAX & God knows who else.

A/N: Well, here I am again. I have another fanfic titled `The Dark Prince Emerges' here & it's incomplete. It's been so long since the last time I updated the story however that I've forgotten how I was going to end it. As some of you know picking up a story after you let it sit for a long time isn't instantaneous.

Since I haven't written any fictional works in a while I need to do something to take the rust off. In other words I need practice. One of the best methods of practice I have seen is from the GZA of the Wu-Tang Clan. He uses themes to test his lyrical ability. The two best examples are the songs `Fame' where he uses the names of celebrities & `Queen's Gambit' where he uses the names of NFL teams.

While I respect GZA's approach I will be going a slightly different route. I'll use songs to write a series of one-shot songfics. They won't be continuous so there will be no plot issues even as they'll be labeled as chapters. I'll be using a mix of Hip-Hop & rock songs for this & will post links to the song so y'all can listen along as you read if y'all want.

When I feel like I have brushed the rust off I'll finish `Dark Prince' but not before it goes through a MAJOR revamping. Looking back some parts of the story didn't make any sense.

Well, enough of me, on with the show! (P.S. If you're wondering about the title of this `story' it's also the title of Nas's album of unreleased tracks.)

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The Lost Tapes

Chapter 1: Snuff (Slipknot)

Link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LXEKuttVRIo&feature=fe edlik

Legend: Italics - song lyric, bold letter - ID of character talking

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The sun began to set on a small apartment in SoHo on a warm summer day. The light gave a haunting look to the living room as the couple that lived there sat on the floor.

A young woman stared at the Sun out the window as it disappeared under the love seat. She was leaning on the wall that separated the living room from the hallway. On the other side of that wall was her boyfriend who was also leaning to support himself.

Normally they would be enjoying each other's company most likely watching TV. It was a Thursday so going out was out of the question as both worked. They would just spend the night at home, sometimes having friends over.

Today was different though.

Today the young man named Shinji Ikari came home early only to have his world shattered by a letter on the kitchen table.

He didn't think anything of the letter from looking at the envelope. It was from the local free clinic that his girlfriend, Asuka Langley Soryu, went to for checkups. It was probably just a reminder of an appointment she had. He found it funny considering she was going to the clinic a lot in the last few weeks up to that very morning.

He wanted to surprise Asuka with a home cooked lasagna and lemon cake since he heard that she might have some of her recent paintings displayed in a prominent art gallery soon. Nothing was concrete yet but he wanted to celebrate her success. He hoped that it would be the beginning of a wonderful ride together.

While Shinji gathered the ingredients for the lasagna his eyes kept looking at the envelope. He noticed that it was already open but he tried to keep his curiosity in check. Eventually though he gave in as he thought that it may be a nutritional guide. Asuka was looking a little ragged for a couple months, but he figured it was because of stress from her trying to sell her paintings. He checked the time stamp on the envelope and saw that it was sent a month ago. He then took the letter out to see if she was put on a special diet.

The contents of the letter were a lot more than he bargained for. As he read it a sense of cold betrayal filled both his mind and his heart. He plopped down on one of the chairs by the table, his body not being able to stand while he read. The sense of betrayal began being replaced with quiet rage. That rage blocked out everything around him to the point that he didn't notice Asuka coming from the hall.

It took her having to gasp when she saw him to bring Shinji back to reality. He looked up to see his girlfriend still dressed in the outfit she went to the clinic with. He looked at Asuka's blue eyes as tears began falling down her face. She looked into his eyes and saw that he was fighting back tears. Yet Shinji's eyes gave away the rage he was feeling. The faced each other for a few minutes, but before she was able to open her mouth to talk he got up from the chair and stormed out of the apartment.

Asuka stood still for two minutes then walking towards the kitchen. She wasn't able to keep her body up though and she began leaning in the wall. She walked in the pattern of the wall reaching the living room before her legs gave out and fell to the floor. Once there she began wailing uncontrollably.

It was a few hours before Shinji came back to the apartment. When he opened the door he saw Asuka on the floor leaning on the wall looking out window. She looked beautiful with the sunlight hitting her face, but he couldn't stare at her long due to rage. He walked into the hall and sat down on the floor and leaned on the opposite end of the wall Asuka was using.

Both stayed on the floor in this position as the air was filled with a cold silence for a half hour. Shinji decided then that he would talk first.

Shinji: Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
Asuka: The air around me still feels like a cage
S: And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

A: So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there

S: Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
A: I don't deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

Asuka turned her head to look at the letter then. She started remembering the letters Shinji mailed her when he was on assignment taking pictures in the Amazon. Those letters were the only thing that kept her going the whole time he was gone. They were especially helpful as she had to spend time in a hospital due to accidently being hit by a bicyclist going full speed while jogging. She half smiled while remembering.

A: I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

S: So save your breath, I will not care
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
A: Is that supposed to be enough?

S: I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
A: I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

S: So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself

S: And I won't listen to your shame
A: You ran away, you're all the same
Both: Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know
A: If you still care don't ever let me know

Both Shinji and Asuka began crying softly as they let their feelings known. Even though Shinji felt like he was irreparably betrayed by Asuka he knew now that both their fates were forever tied together. All the nights they spent making love made sure that there was no escape from this.

While both realized the cold reality they each looked at the kitchen table at the letter that shattered their lives. A letter that read:

Ms. Langley Soryu,

The test results from your blood samples have now come back. Unfortunately those results have confirmed our worst fears.

Your blood samples have come back indicating that you have an advanced case of HIV. The cause can now be confirmed being that the blood transfusion you received following the accident you were involved in was tainted with the virus.

Given the stage of the HIV virus in your system it is too late to administer the proper medication for moderating the virus. You will soon have to be admitted to a hospital for treatment as the virus will reach the status of full blown AIDS and thus become terminal.

Please make an appointment with us as soon as you know these results so that we can make the proper arrangements with the hospital of your choice. If you desire we will also provide counseling for your family and friends during this time. Please also advice your partner to get his blood tested as you have informed us that you and him have had sexual contact without protection since the blood transfusion.

Once again we are very sorry to have to give you this news.