Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Use and Release ❯ Use and Release ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer: You can't own something that you are a slave to.

 

Secondary disclaimer: You might recognize ideas in here from other stories, that's because I've been reading a lot of NGE fan fiction lately. Some of it has given me ideas and I can't even remember half of the stories I've read so if you recognize something let me know and I'll give credit where it's due.

 

 

A/N: I just wanted to play around in the NGE universe a bit. I'm a little addicted to it right now and different story ideas pop into my head like this one. This one is gonna stay a one-shot, unlike my others that may expand at some point. I have another NGE story that's in the works, but until I get more ideas fleshed out it won't be posted. Plus I have to do a major re-write on what I've gotten done so far.

 

Oh yeah, I'm taking more from the manga than the anime. I like that Shinji more, he actually has some of a spine. Even though I'm taking some things this will be a MAJOR AU so things will be changed. Anywho, on with the angst!

 

Warning Please Read: This is a dark story. I can't say what it features as that would be a giveaway, but if you read even two pages of it you'll know what I mean. This is not suitable for all audiences. If things like underage sex and explicit talks of sexual acts (not that this will have any lemons) disturb you then leave now. That's as close as I can get to telling you. Personally I'm having some problems even writing it, but I want to get this idea down on paper so it'll leave me alone. You've been warned, don't bitch at me if your delicate sensibilities are offended by this story.

 

 

Use and Release

By: Ryllen

 

Men's locker room, Nerv

 

“Why did you disregard my orders Shinji?” Misato's question quickly pulled Shinji out of his brooding. Ever since he had read the entry in the Third Child Supervision Record he hadn't quite been able to forget it.

 

Flashback---

 

“Why does Misato keep a stupid critter like you anyway,” Shinji rhetorically asked the alcoholic penguin before observing the room he actually hadn't had to clean so far. Of course…The owner herself is quite a slob, he thought to himself before seeing a book on the desk. Project - E Third Child Supervision Record…HUH!?

 

Sunny. Subject had bruise on right cheek after encounter with Toji Suzuhara (age 14). Do not regard as problem, but will wait for Intelligence report on cause of problem.

 

End Flashback---

 

Misato had known that he'd been hit, and she hadn't done anything. Sure, she acted like a caring guardian, but wouldn't someone who cared make him talk about getting decked? Not that Shinji was an expert, he'd never had experience with it, but he'd seen plenty of examples of different children being coddled by their parents or pressured to open up by their parents.

 

“I can overlook the fact that you let those two into the entry plug,” Misato began after Shinji didn't say anything, “But what do you think would have happened if you hadn't been able to defeat that angel?”

 

“I'm sorry Misato-san,” Shinji apologized morosely. Nothing was going to change from the last place he lived, he knew that for a fact now, he was just waiting for the other shoe to drop, and he knew it would eventually.

 

“I'm sorry isn't good enough! I'm your Operations Supervisor! You have an obligation to follow my orders,” Misato yelled losing her patience, “Understand?”

 

“I…I know,” Shinji replied sadly, “I'm only a pilot…Your subordinate. That's all I am to you.”

 

“What else did you expect,” Misato asked incredulously, “Did you want me to be your surrogate mother?”

 

“Did you want us to live together because it's easier to keep an eye on me? I mean…That's okay. But at first I actually thought you cared about me,” he told her with a very weak smile on his face.

 

“What are you saying,” she all but shouted. Where on Earth did he get the idea that I cared about him, she mentally grumbled. She was just using him as a live-in housekeeper, cook, and it was easier to keep an eye on him if he lived with her.

 

“Anyway, I don't see what the big deal is,” he groused. Before he could make any more comments he experienced something that only confirmed that Tokyo-3 was no better than living with his so-called Ojisan.

 

“Just what do you think your duty is?” When Shinji didn't answer she just said, “That's all. Go home.” With his reaming done she quickly left the locker room in hopes of calming down before she had to face him again. She wasn't sure she could keep her temper in check right now. Shinji just stood up mechanically and proceeded to follow the orders he had been given, just like he was conditioned to. Once home he made sure his chores were completed for the day before setting dinner the in the fridge for Misato and heading to bed. He was given the next day off of school to recover from the battle so he decided to get some rest before cleaning the apartment top to bottom in hopes of staving off what he knew was coming. When Misato returned later that night she was glad that he was nowhere in sight as she still hadn't calmed down enough to deal with him, but a few beers, a relaxing shower, and a good night sleep would take care of that. Hopefully by the time she got back from work tomorrow she would be able to look at him again without wanting to make him a walking bruise.

 

After waking up Shinji quickly made breakfast and headed to the shower so he could stay out of Misato's way. He wasn't sure if she was still angry with him or not, but past experience had taught him that until he had received his proper punishment he would need to lay low. As he was drying off he heard the front door shut so he assumed Misato had finished the breakfast he had left out for her and left for work. Since she took her showers in the evening he changed his to the morning so they wouldn't have to worry about waiting for it to free up. Donning some dirty clothes that would double as work clothes he set about doing a serious cleaning job that any professional company would be proud of. Thankfully Penpen had stayed in his fridge as Shinji didn't want to deal with the penguin that day.

 

“Well, I guess Misato's room needs a good scrubbing as well,” Shinji stated as he stood in the doorway. It was even worse than the last time he was in here. There were mountains of beer cans laying about, dirty clothes all over, and did that pile just move? Donning his rubber gloves, breathing mask, and carrying heavy-duty solvent he began the tedious task of cleaning the room completely. It took three loads of laundry just to get the dirty clothes taken care of, not to mention the dent in his favorite frying pan from the pile that did move. But he had finished the room and it only took three hours. Thankfully their building had several washers and dryers so he didn't need to wait around for each load to finish before starting the next. Before he could leave the room Misato's supervision journal drew him again. He didn't want to invade her privacy, but internally argued it was all about him anyway so there shouldn't be a problem.

 

Cloudy. Subject disobeyed direct orders in battle risking the lives of two innocent civilians along with the Eva. Subject seemed to have difficulty understanding being only a subordinate, he seemed to think there was more to the relationship. Subject was under the impression that I cared about him. After correcting that assumption subject developed an attitude which was swiftly dealt with. After dealing with the outburst the subject seemed to become more docile, will have to conduct further testing to see if subject is in the right frame of mind for the plan. If subject continues to display backbone I will push further to remove it.

 

“I knew it,” Shinji said to himself with a sigh. After the way his former guardians treated him he knew what he would need for the so-called test, and luckily he had it in a box in storage. It wouldn't take long to get that box out and have everything ready for when she brought it up. After all, didn't his Obasan tell him that he was worthless except for the things she taught him?

 

(Break)

 

Misato's office, 10 am

 

Misato sighed as she looked over her desk that morning. She had requested an investigation into Shinji's prior living arrangements because she wanted to know if he was raised like a normal child or if he was taught any other useful skills. Obviously his childhood wasn't completely normal, no 14 year old has the domestic skills that Shinji has displayed so far, not that Misato was complaining. She quite enjoyed the fact that she didn't have to lift a finger at home. When Aoba came in with the report from Section 2 that she had requested he looked a little green, but she dismissed it.

 

“Is that the report on the Third Child's prior guardians and living arrangements,” Misato asked.

 

“Yes ma'am,” Aoba responded before passing the folder to her as if just touching it any longer would make him sick.

 

“What is your problem 2nd Lieutenant,” she asked perturbed. It wasn't often that any of the bridge bunnies acted like this.

 

“Ma'am, the prior living arrangements for the Third Child were less than acceptable. Just reading a few lines gave me the urge to vomit,” Aoba answered before running out of the office with a hand over his mouth.

 

“Now, what does this say?” Misato eagerly opened the folder because if Aoba's reaction was any indication then Shinji would have all the training she needed. Serves the little bastard right for making me wreck my car, she thought angrily.

 

Ikari Shinji

Age: 14

Current Guardian: Katsuragi Misato

Current Residence: Confidential

Family: Ikari Gendo, Rokubungi Genma, Rokubungi Akane

Former Residence: Nakamachi 24-1-6, Murashino, Tokyo 180

Former Guardian: Rokubungi Genma and Akane

 

…at age 6 Ikari Shinji began training in domestic skills such as cooking and cleaning. Punishment for failure was severe beatings. Due to standing orders from Commander Ikari Section 2 did not step in at any time. This mode of training lasted for two years until the boy appeared proficient in all housekeeping aspects where he was then expected to keep the house clean without being told to do so.

 

At age 8 Rokubungi Akane began training Ikari Shinji in sensual arts with the same punishment for failure. Based on observations the boy was not only trained, but given specific growth hormones to increase the size of the boy's genitals. The training and hormone therapy lasted for the duration of two years.

 

From age 10 until Ikari Shinji was relocated to Tokyo-3 he was used as a sexual aid by Rokubungi Akane. She also sold his services to her friends after a demonstration of his training. She used harsh words to reinforce her hold over him, telling him that he was worthless except for the skills she taught him. She made sure that the boy never made any friends to reinforce this belief and periodically allowed her husband to beat him within an inch of his life to further break the boy.

 

“Purrrfect,” Misato said happily as she finished the report. Shinji had all the skills that she needed him to have, and she didn't even need to train him! She would still test him, just to make sure that he was up to her standards, plus she wanted to see what the growth hormone had done. After that she would start pimping him out to the ladies at Nerv who were hard up for a good lay like Ritsuko and Maya. Once word started to spread among the ladies she would have even more customers, and it's not like the Commander would care, if he didn't stop it before he wouldn't stop it now. She'd gotten addicted to pimping people out in college when she started doing it to Kaji, not that he minded, and she'd been looking for someone else to use since their breakup.

 

(Break time, have a stretch)

 

The next morning in Misato's room

 

“Mmm, you were trained very well Shinji,” Misato practically purred as she woke up still holding her charge in her arms. His test had lasted from the moment she got home until late last night. She definitely recommended use of those growth hormones as well. That boy was hung! “Now, you understand how things are going to work Shinji?”

 

“Yes Mistress,” Shinji replied with a fake happy voice. He knew that showing his depression meant punishment, it was always the same. As long as he acted like he was happy with the arrangement then the beatings were far less.

 

“Alright, keep the house clean when you're here, and I'll let you know when and where you have your first client,” Misato told him in a dominating voice before getting up to take a shower. She just knew she was going to be walking funny all day long and a hot shower might just help relax some of those muscles enough she could hide it. She'd have to ask later why he had all those sex toys in his room when she got home last night, but either way, it appeared the boy was stocked for most of the popular kinks. With her shower done and a good meal in her stomach Misato tore up the roads on her way to Nerv trying to think up a way to propose this to Ritsuko. She knew once Ritsuko was on board Maya wouldn't be too far behind. She'd do anything for her Sempai.

 

“Hey Rits, can I talk to you in my office real quick,” Misato asked as she walked up to her hair dyed friend.

 

“What do you need Captain,” Ritsuko asked tiredly from her place on the Command bridge.

 

“Something I think you'll like,” Misato whispered before leading her friend by the hand to her office. Not that Ritsuko attempted to dissuade her too much. She knew when Misato was like this it was better to just play along.

 

“What do you want Misato,” Ritsuko asked once they were seated in Misato's office.

 

“Do you remember the little business I ran back in college,” Misato inquired, hoping she wouldn't have to spell it out for her friend.

 

“When you had Kaji as a man-whore you mean,” Ritsuko said in hopes that she could wrap this conversation up quick so she could finish up her task and go home to bed.

 

“What if I said I had a new and better specimen? I tried him myself last night and he did things I doubt Kaji could ever be trained to do,” Misato replied.

 

“I'd ask where this was going,” the doctor retorted tiredly.

 

“Would you like to give him a try yourself? I'll even give you the first time free,” she cajoled.

 

“Who is this sex god,” Ritsuko asked suspiciously.

 

“The Third Child. Turns out his former guardians trained him well in not only housekeeping, but spent two years training him strictly in sensual arts,” Misato answered without fear of reprisal.

 

“Shinji!? You're trying to whore out the pilot of Unit 01,” Ritsuko asked incredulously.

 

“Why not? His guardians did it for four years, and he seemed to expect it. He had his tools ready when I got home last night,” Misato pointed out.

 

“What do you mean tools,” her friend asked with a small bit of interest.

 

“You know how you have a hard time finding someone to dominate? Well, Shinji has all the props for it, including: whips, chains, crops, dildos, ball gags, etc… I'm not sure where he got it, probably from his Obasan, but he has the props for most of the popular kinks,” Misato clarified.

 

“It'd be a relief to actually have someone submit to me instead of having to submit all the time,” the doctor said wistfully. Misato knew she had her at that point, but couldn't help teasing a little.

 

“What about Maya-chan? Doesn't she submit totally to you,” the captain asked with fake innocence.

 

“I have no doubt she would, but I just don't swing that way. There's something about having a girl with a strap-on that doesn't turn me on as much as a guy,” Ritsuko replied.

 

“So when would you like to try him out,” Misato asked trying to hide her eagerness.

 

“Bring him over tonight and I'll try him out, how long does he last?”

 

“He had me going for nearly 6 hours last night,” Misato replied giddily.

 

“6 HOURS!? Most men don't last 20 minutes, let alone an hour, and he lasted nearly 6,” Ritsuko asked in shock.

 

“Well, technically he could've lasted longer, but I had to work today so we had to stop.” Misato giggled as she answered due to her friend's shock.

 

“Good thing I have the day off tomorrow,” Ritsuko muttered to herself before nodding to Misato and leaving. It was the beginning of a very successful business for Misato.

 

(And stretch 2, 3, 4)

 

Just after Shinji awoke from the trauma of killing Toji

 

“You're awake,” Misato said in an emotionless voice.

 

“Yes Mistress,” Shinji replied sitting up.

 

“You've been asleep for nearly a week, you have plenty of customers to satisfy quickly to make up for your absence,” she told her…employee.

 

“Of course Mistress. Who and where will I begin,” Shinji asked as he stood up nude. Since he had most of the nurses as clients now they didn't bother to put a hospital gown on him.

 

“Me, tonight, after that I'll inform you as to your schedule,” Misato demanded before tossing him clothes, “You've been released, get dressed, you have a lot of work to do.”

 

“Yes Mistress,” Shinji told her as he quickly dressed and followed her like a lost puppy. He assumed that his first customer after Misato would be Asuka. Misato had hoped that Asuka would be like Shinji, but she was too headstrong, but on the positive side she had turned out to be one of Misato's better customers. Misato only demanded that she not leave so many bruises or she'd have to pay extra due to some complaints about Shinji's appearance after a rougher session with Asuka.

 

“Just remember, we only put up with you because of your skills and because you're a pilot. If you ever refuse your duties or quit being a pilot nobody will care what happens to you,” Misato told him coldly. She didn't want him to misunderstand why she was there, it was only a business investment. “Especially now that you murdered the Fourth Child, the only reason you haven't been imprisoned is because we need you to pilot Unit 01. Do you understand Shinji?”

 

“Yes Mistress,” Shinji replied with a depressed air. He already felt bad enough for killing Toji, hearing that everyone branded him a murderer for it and the only reason he wasn't rotting in jail yet was because they needed him in Unit 01 if an angel appears. The next few days went by in a haze of passion as after Misato Shinji needed to please Asuka, Ritsuko, Maya, and two separate nurses in the infirmary of Nerv. Due to time constraints because of his current double bookings Shinji used his older and newer skills to bring each and every one of the women so much pleasure they passed out as the job was finished once the client was asleep. Of course, none of the clients were complaining about the treatment, regardless of how short it was, it was still the best hour they had ever experienced individually. Each act made Shinji draw even more into himself, but he kept up the act that he needed. He was nearing a breaking point he had never been at before and it was making him nervous as he knew nobody would help him if he broke.

 

Unfortunately for Asuka and Rei, Shinji was across Tokyo-3 when the 14th angel showed up, as well as being somewhat distracted so he didn't quite hear the sirens. By the time he answered his phone and made his way to the Geo front Rei was making a headlong dash at the angel with an N2 mine.

 

“Pilot Ikari, where have you been,” Commander Ikari demanded.

 

“I was across town running an errand. I didn't hear the angel alarm nor my cell phone due to the noise at the time. I apologize for taking too long Commander,” Shinji replied as he activated Unit 01. Due to his current feelings Shinji's sync ratio was the lowest it had been since the fourth angel, it was on par with his first sync, but it was enough to use the Eva so nobody commented on it for now. They only hoped it would be enough to save them all, they could figure out a way to raise the sync score later. Shinji caught up with the angel just before it smashed its' way into Nerv headquarters. He tackled the angel to the ground only to catch the eye beams on his left shoulder severing the left arm of the Eva off. From there it turned into a one-sided fight. The angel used it's whip-like arms to throw him against Nerv before sending strikes at Shinji's chest. Shortly into the beating Unit 01 lost power due to the strain of Shinji pushing it so hard at such a low synchronization. It had consumed more power than normal to move at the speed he was used to.

 

“Move! Move dammit! I don't care if I die, but I won't let everyone else go with me,” Shinji yelled to the Eva. “All I've been through will've been for nothing if you don't MOVE NOW!” Thankfully some kind Kami, or rather Ikari Yui, was listening when Shinji was yelling and Unit 01 powered up again. Due to his absolute rage and Yui's willingness his sync ratio jumped above 100 and continued climbing until it hit 400 percent. While Nerv personnel were losing their lunch watching Unit 01 ingest the angel, Shinji was experiencing something completely different from his past experiences inside Unit 01. It wasn't the first time he'd met the consciousness of Unit 01, nor the first time he'd seen his mother inside, but seeing his mother, as if she were a real person, and stark naked was new.

 

“Come closer Shinji,” his mother bade.

 

“Mom?”

 

“You've grown so much…You're so mature now,” Yui said softly.

 

“Mom, why did you have to leave? I was always sad that you were gone. Why didn't you come back,” Shinji asked with tears in his eyes.

 

“I've been here. I've been waiting for you,” She told him lovingly, “I knew you would be here. There's nothing to worry about any more. We'll be together now. We won't part again. Shinji…” With her piece said she embraced him as she did when he was but a child.

 

“What about everyone else? Will they be alright? All the other Eva's have been beaten,” Shinji asked near panic.

 

“You've done enough. You fought so hard for all of them. You suffered so much. You just want to rest, body and soul. Just rest. Listen to me,” she whispered softly as she guided him into a position on his back. “You don't have to go back. You can stay here. Forever.”

 

“What about the others,” Shinji asked again, although not fighting what was happening.

 

“Eva has taken care of the angel, just rest. Stay with me. We will never be parted again my Shinji,” she replied kneeling down next to him and running her fingers through his hair. Shinji just nodded in agreement, deciding to stay with his mother, where he belonged. She was the only person who ever cared, and he would never leave her.