Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ Anguish before rapture ❯ Anguish before rapture ( Chapter 1 )

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I’ve thought of this for many days, in thousands of ways, I’ve looked at every angle and gone through hundreds of situations.

But I still don’t know

Its such a quiet thing, to crave, to hunger. It builds up slowly over time.

Its with you so long, always there, a background noise, so faint, yet so steady

So you never even notice.

When it changes.

When does a want, become a need.

Yet despite all else, when it finally makes itself know.

It hits you harder then anything.

You ask yourself. “How did this happen? Where did this come from? Why is this happening?”

But you cant answer.

You try logic and passion, thinking and acting.

But yet it still eludes you.

And just when you think you have it, it darts away, slipping through your fingers.

Try as you might, you can’t seem to get a grip.

And you don’t know why.

Slowly you realize.

You are afraid.

Will it burn?

Will it chill?

Will it be the greatest moment of your life

Or the most crushing blow you’ve ever been dealt.

Just a taste, that’s all you ask

But your lying.

Just one taste is all it takes.

Just one, and it will consume you.

And you want it to.

You want to drown in that passion.

To burn in that fire.

You want to be devoured.

Still you are denied.

“Why?” you ask. They give you the reasons.

But you don’t care.

No is not an answer you are willing to take.

You can ignore it for a time.

You can surround yourself with walls to keep it out.

But you can’t keep it out.

Because its already in.

Sometimes it sneaks into your dreams.

Taunting you.

Teasing you

Haunting you.

Soon the how, the why all disappear.

And you are left with one thing.

One thing that roars inside you.

You want it.

You need it.

So why can’t you have it?