Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ I USED to be an angry Poet... ❯ But You Still Don't Hear Me ( Chapter 7 )

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But, You StillDon't Hear Me

by iloveanimecartoons

Original Version: October 27, 1998

Revision: February 12, 2008

Isn't it funny how unspoken words can be read so quickly but spoken words and dropped hints can be disregarded even quicker?

You know, I've had my eyes on you, too

I know you've been looking, thinking, wondering how it could be with me

But, you stilldon't get it

You still don't hearme

I've gone from associate to buddy to thinking about being more than plutonic

A little more intimate

To frustrated, longing, hoping and eventually saying, “Fuck it!”

I'm so turned off, but, I'm so turned on

And every time I'm near you, I wonder, “Damn, what's going on?”

Between us, I mean

You have helped me to find a person in me that I almostdidn't wanna know

But, it's a good thing—a greatthing

I've found so much in you and you've helped me find a better me

Still, I'm wondering if wewere meant to be

To be or not to be

The question is, “Should it be you & me?”

Should this you and me

Become one as we?

Or should we just be friends?

I guess that all depends

See, your eyes areopen so I knowyou see me

You're lookinglike you're paying attention…

But, are you really hearingme?

And, oh, there's nothing like absence to make the heart grow fonder

There's alsonothing like the slight feeling of betrayal Ifeel when your eyes begin to wander

Or the way you're so “friendly” with the opposite sex whenever I'maround

Acting like you're mad `cause I don't jump for joy at your presence

So, when I say hello, you walk away as if I'm nothing

Does thatmake any sense?

But, you stilldon't hear me

Your ears seem to be preoccupied by some other females words

their suggestions

their phone numbers

or maybe their tongues

But, I guess you'll never understand where I've been coming from

You started this shit so don't be surprised when I make it end

See, you wanna play `Like Me Enough to Pump Up MyEgo'—how could you do this to a friend?!

I thought we were morethan this petty ass shit to the point that, even if we're notcommitted

I could feel I have the kind of friend in you that we couldn't come un-benefited

But, I guess I've been talking too long to myself

Because even slightlydigging you, I'm ruining mymental health

I don't know anymore what you want out of me

Cause I send mental and verbal messages, but you stilldon't hear me

I think I fuckin' hate you!!

Yeah, I bet you heard that…