Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ I USED to be an angry Poet... ❯ My First Time Was My Worst Time ( Chapter 14 )

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My First Time Was My Worst Time

by iloveanimecartoons

Original March 28, 1994

Revision February 23, 2008

I guess I'll never fall in love again in life--the strife

Which makes the perfect excuse to never become a wife

Just thinking of my failures, "You're still young," they say

But I made myself to fail in such a hurt and lonely way

I let myself go, and tore my walls down

And, like a fool, fell in love with Mr. Brown

Lovesongs have come on all night--they remind me

Of the dirty, disgusting, filthy--excuse me

I get a little bitter every once and again

Which makes my peeps right--now, that's a real shame

They remind me of love that wasn't worth a dime

And how my first time was my worst time

I really fought the feeling--I was hurt before

But that was like, and this was love, and this hurt more

I wonder, at times, if he thinks of me

If he feels bad that he played me for a fool--then used me

Used me for my sex and available time

To cure his weekend boredom--the filthy slime

That's bitterness again, and on my last line

I'll write:

"I wonder why my first time was my worst time?"