Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ My Wish ❯ My Wish ( Chapter 1 )

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I sit here thinking of my new family
Wishing I could stop the pain
They are all hurt
From broken hearts
From kept secrets
From life
One taught me to be happy
One taught me to be loving
One taught me to be smarter
I can’t help but wonder if I stopped
They taught me these things
Again when I had stopped
For me being here and to not
Not stop the pain
It hurts
But I hope they realized that
I do love them
I am there for them
I will always be there for them

I sit here thinking of my new family
Thinking they come from
Outside my blood
Outside my past
Outside my problems
Inside my heart
Inside my future
Inside my solutions
I have told many they are my sisters
But I wonder if they think so
I have been hurt so many times
I have not been able to take
I have not been able to believe

I know one thinks me of her brother
Her mother has accepted to be my mom
She worries for me
I worry for her
She loves me
I love her
She will sometimes actually argue with me
Even if she knows its pointless
She has been the first to be their for me
I wonder if she will come to me
She knows of my troubles
She knows of my pain
She knows more than I have ever told
She can read me like an open book
But that one time she feared me
Or my actions I don’t know which
I felt a pain I had not felt in a long time

I know another is like me in some ways
She has a mind like mine
She thinks clearly
I believe she has strategy
She knows what I can do
She knows my fears
She knows my mind
Yet I don’t know
If she knows I love her
If she knows she can talk to me
If she loves me
There is not much to say about her
I don’t know if I can say about her
She has been hurt by her friends
She has been left behind
Or taken a step ahead of others
I hope I don’t see the path I am seeing
One of loneliness
One of hurt
One of uncontrolled heartlessness

Oh the other one is trouble
She doesn’t know what kind
She is the one I developed
My feelings for the quickest
We has so much in common
I just don’t know if she knows
She knows why I am alone
Why I don’t accept the thing offered
Why I don’t let emotions out
She knows my personality
She knows when I wear my “mask”
She knows what I what I think of life
I just don’t understand
She has been there for so little
Yet she has held so much
I don’t know what life I would hold
If any because she has saved it

Now I am not saying any of what they know
Or do not know is only for them
But they are my family
As funny as that may seem
I have no future without them
I have no peace without them
I have no life without them
I can’t but want them to be
Be Happy
Be Loved
Be Smarter
They have so much control over me
And yet I don’t know mine
I know they’re Life for me
So in ending of this poem
I only have one wish
And that is to help them
Get through their troubles