Original Poetry Fan Fiction ❯ The poems of Love, Hate, Broken Hearts and Lost friendships ❯ Untitled ( Chapter 18 )

 

A/n: This has a lot of meaning behind it, it is actually very dark and sad and I made it while I was upset! My ex-friend Erika and her lover, Alex who is also my ex-friend accused me of being jealous of them. I was so pissed off, because I was his friend and just because she spread her legs for him, he never spent time with me. Because I was just a friend and not a play toy, I was mistreated and neglected and then when I complain about it to them, they accused me. But whatever, It's untitled for now. As for the first paragraph, though it sounds like I love him, I don't; what I'm saying is that he was a joy to hang out with and we could have been really tight friends, true and honest and almost like brother & sister.

 

Untitled

 

Don't you realize how happy you made me?

Couldn't you see how we could have been?

Always & forever at each other's side

 

You refused to accept & now all you can do is regret it

You want me to be upset by it, but you can never make me do that

I know the truth & I know you do too

 

She was the one you always choose; Always her over me.

When it came to me, I was last priority

 

When she called your cell, you always answered;

When she wanted you, you'd always go to her.

When she needed help, you always rushed to her aid.

I was never important to you.

So now that you're alienated you turn to me to help you through

 

It's not my job to fulfill your needs.

I'm not the one to give you a free squeeze

I'm not blind, I can see that all of sudden

You want to spend time with me; you want to be closer to me, saying how much you need me

Never when she was around

 

So now you want me?

Does that help you to feel better?

Running back to me because you're hurting

Did you stop to think about me?

I'm hurting here too, a hell of a lot more than you.

But you don't care, now do you?