Original Stories Fan Fiction ❯ Cold Regrets ❯ Cold Regrets ( Chapter 1 )

Ever wondered what it would be like… if life was always so simple? Ever had those days you thought like you had something to regret? Like marrying the wrong person or loving someone totally wrong? I know I have. Here I am, sitting in the middle of the park in my childhood town in Oregon. A nice small town, full of green life… well normally during spring and summer, and part of fall. Now… a silvery white blanket covers my sight. And what started out as a quiet night… turned out ugly.

I guess you could say it was my fault.

My husband, Travis, gently man at heart, had gotten a call from his mother, saying that she wanted us to live closer to them. The entire way across the country. Some here in Virginia. I could never leave my family. Travis seemed pretty excited to go. When I came home from work, he was packing the last of his things.

He told me everything his mother had told him.

`Pack your things and come back home.' She had said. `We even bought you a nicer house out here.' As though she thought he wasn't happy. Hell, Travis has been my best friend since we first met on a vacation trip in Japan at the age of 16. He was with a pen pal and was working there to raise money for college. He was a waiter in a restaurant I went to almost every day. And… well, here we are almost 6 years later. Married and owning a house. And now he decides he wants to go home.

The argument we had just a few hours ago, was terrible. It could have been worse. If our 5 year old daughter, Asagi was awake.

`Why would you want to go back now? I cant take Asagi away from her childhood home, or her family.'

“Well, hat about my family? Is that not too her family. Damn it Ally.'

`And why the hell would your mother bye us a house if we own one `here'?'

`Maybe we would have a better life out there. You don't know that.'

“Travis, you had everything you owned packed. You expect me to ant to go with you when you haven't even come to me first?'

After that, it just got worse.

I just didn't understand. I thought he liked it out here. I mean, when we first got married, this was his choice to live out here. So… I was confused and heartbroken.

As I looked down at my watch, it was already past midnight. The lamplights that were scattered across the side walks were lit still, the tops covered with snow, like everything else.

An occasional breeze whipped through, making me tug my winter jacket closer to my body to hold in what ever body heat I still had. Travis had probably already gotten on the plane with Asagi and left. Left me, in a two story empty house.

My mother said I married to quick, but I was sure he was the one for me. We had so much in common, but we were also two very different people. He was a high executive in a blooming tech company. And I was an elementary school teacher.

Could he have left because he wasn't happy? I don't know. Life seemed like a fairy tale before his mother called.

She never did like me, she never thought I was good enough for him. Never will be. Not like Travis just stood by when she openly mocked me on our wedding day.

`I love her. And if you don't approve, then that's a bit too bad, because she is now officially my wife and the mother of my daughter.'

I couldn't help but look down at the two carrot diamond ring he had gotten me. And I couldn't help but smile at all the memories we had. From the first time we met at 16. To Asagi's birth when I was almost 19 to our wedding day a few months later, to the trips we shared and parties we went to. We rarely fought, and when we did, most was just for play. Not always for hurt.

Old memories came to me to. Like how this very park was the one I went to when I was a little girl. The swing set was practically new, but the same no less. I brought Asagi here too.

I remember how I would push her, and beg to go higher and higher and just had to deliver her wishes. While her father stood in front of the swing and just watch silently. She would jump off the swing and he would catch her. She loved it here.

I don't know what to do any more. I was probably left here alone, with an empty house waiting for me. So I just took my place on the swing that swayed back and forth with the gentle winds that played a song on the loose chains on the top. As I looked at its twin next to me, it played a different tune. A different melody. That's how we were. Travis would be the type to play the piano or some different romantic instrument. Me… I would probably end up with a guitar or the drums. If I ever practiced.

As I looked dup at the sky, the clouds of grey and black covered the normal starry ink like night. Soon enough they let go of what they have been holding all day. Snow fell in a fresh sheet. Covering the tracks of the day, setting new ground for the children to play in the morning.

My thoughts, just seemed to sadden, thinking that this was just like the day he proposed to me. I tucked my head down and closed my eyes, and thought for a minute. Would it be so bad if I went to live over there as well? Was it really worth a whole fight, to probably loose our friendship and love over this? Was it really truly worth…

“Ally?”
A voice sprung me out of my thoughts. Once more I gazed down at my wrist watch, almost two now. Where has the time gone?
“I've been looking every where for you.”

Travis. My other half.

“Why haven't you left yet. I thought you'd be on the plane by now.”
”I took the time to think.”

Silence.

“Are you mad?”

His question was simple, yet so full of emotion.

“Truth is… I was thinking to. And if you really want to go back home… I guess…”
”That's the thing. Your right. We have a life here. And my mother tried to take it away. But I guess I got home sick a little that the thought of seeing them again was… well.”
”I know, I know.”
His shoulders were shlumped over. He was mad at himself more than he was at me like earlier.

“I'm sorry. I should have told you before setting any plans at all. I should have came to you.” His voice was full of regret and anger.

He walked over and took a spot on the swing next to me. I reached down for his hand, as they sat there between us, just dangling there. I looked at him and smiled apologetically. As he too, did the same.

“Come on, Asagi's in the car.”
I looked at him for a moment.
”Let's go home, Ally.”
”Home…”
”Yeah. We're not going any where for quite sometime.” His grip on my hand tighten and he pulled me up. My feet sunk in the sand slightly and almost toppled over. I am really thanking the gods for him being there to catch me. He smiled down at me. He was literally like 5 inches taller, me being at 5'7 him being a whole head taller. He place a kiss on my cheek, then held me in his arms, placing one arm around my waist while the other place behind my head. Mine just slung around his neck as I pressed more of myself into his form. I needed him and it was at that point that he needed me too.

“I called my mother, and told her to sell the house out there. We won't need it. So she said that she'd rent it out since there would be a reason in keeping it.”
I giggled. Same old Travis. The anger that was in his eyes earlier… were gone.

He bent down until his nose touched mine. And he smiled, as he kissed me once more on the lips, and draped his arm over my shoulder leading me to the car.

And drove home.