Original Stories Fan Fiction ❯ Cold Warmth ❯ Arora ( Chapter 4 )

Arora

 

Later that night as I finally started to head home, I started to think of the icicle cold blue eyes I saw earlier today. I could not believe that such scary eyes could belong to such a gorgeous man.

I was a little taken aback when he asked me for an application. His eyes frightened me but I sure as hell wasn't gonna let this stranger know that.

I learned if you let any man know any weakness on you they would walk all over you.

But we were so short on staff, and considering that this stranger named Jakobi knew how to bartend I was ecstatic!

I felt a little giddy knowing that I would see him tomorrow, but I could ignore that.

Especially if tomorrow will be as crazy as tonight had been, which it will be more so considering it will be a Friday.

Hell I probably won't even have time to talk to him.

Oh well I was happy I had a new bartender and a new waitress this was great!

As soon as I got home I saw that Crystal was telling the truth when she said she would be out tonight.

I went to my room to go to bed. I turned on my glitter lamp. I love the sparkles. I absolutely loved stars but in the city you couldn't see the stars so well, so I settled for my prettyful blue glitter lamp.

As I lay down in my bed I started to think about my past. On nights I felt lonely my mind would drift off to the days before I moved to this small town.

I was once so infatuated with a man, but who wasn't right.

I thought I loved him more than I could love another, but it was all just lust and the adrenaline rush.

His name was Braden. We met in high school, he was on the football team and I was in the band. He was absolutely gorgeous with his dirty blonde hair, green hazel eyes, almost six feet tall. He was muscular but not in the overkill way.

One night we were both at the same party and someone pushed him into me, he got his drink all over my white shirt and fell on me. We were against the wall.

I felt trapped and on impulse I pushed him off of me.

“I'm sorry, these parties can get a little crazy. One time we had a drunken idiot drop his drink all over this pretty girl.” He smirked.

I laughed “And what did he do to make it up to her?” I asked.

He grinned “He took her to his place.”

I grew excited, noticing that his body was still very close to mine. “Well I don't know if she can go, there is this big test on-“

I didn't get to finish; he crushed his lips against mine with such passion, making his feeling of what he wanted perfectly clear.

I felt a little prudish, I mean I wasn't virgin or anything, but I wasn't the type of girl to sleep with a guy I just met.

But the thought of doing something I never did before made me feel daring, and excited!

I got more into the kiss, and slid my arms under his shirt feeling his muscles. I put my hand on his back and with the passion and excitement dug my nails in. my skin felt prickly and unreal.

I felt like I had a ton of butterflies flying about in my belly.

He took me upstairs to an empty bedroom, and then next thing you know we were both naked. I felt a little self-conscious knowing that he had been with a lot of girls, pretty girls, and I had only been with a few guys. But I ignored it knowing I wouldn't enjoy myself if I worried about such things.

He was about to enter me when I asked him if he had a condom, luckily he did. I mean I was excited and high on the adrenaline of being daring, but I wasn't stupid.

After we finished he kept going on about how amazing I was and how shocked he was he had never met me before.

And I was so shocked when he asked if he could see me again!

Things were amazing for the next few months; we became a hot couple in high school.

We got in the same college as each other. During that time together we would go around the world doing crazy things together, bungee jumping, sky diving, racing, name it we probably tried it.

But even I couldn't believe it when I walked in on him doing cocaine. He was as shocked to see me.

He must have forgotten to lock the door, because he knew that I always just walked into his dorm without knocking.

But then again I got out of band early.

“What the hell are you doing Braden, this shit is going to mess up everything for you!” I shouted in frustration after shutting the door.

His shock quickly turned to anger “it is really none of your damn business Arora!”

I was taken aback, we have had a few fights in our relationship of four years, but he had never ever talked to me in that tone.

I was truly hurt, and a little scared.

“When did you start?” I asked in a flat even tone.

“About a year ago, it is the best rush ever!” his face got so animated, and then he handed me the jar. “Go on try some, you will love it!”

“Braden are you crazy, I am not going to ruin my life over drugs, an adrenaline rush is great, but getting a rush from drugs is not my thing, you know that. I didn't' think it was your thing either.”

He looked very pissed off, and truly frightening “It wasn't but now it is, and once you try it you will quit judging me! So fucking try it!”

He got up and came towards me, I stood up at the same time, I was frightened, and he saw it in my eyes. It seemed as if my fear ignited something in him and he got confident in what he was doing.

Which I learned real fast, he was trying to make me take that God forsaken drug.

“What the fuck are you doing Braden! Have you gone mad, this is crazy, I thought you loved me, why the hell would you try and make me take this crap?!” I asked while fighting him off.

“I don't like the judgment in your eyes, and once you realize how fun it is we can share this amazing moment together!”

“Fuck no you crazy fucktard!” I yelled.

I pushed him away from me and at that same moment shouted “We are over, I am not going to watch you throw you life away, and I am not going to let you drag me down with you!” I went to walk out of the door and that's when everything went dark.

I woke up in a delirious state, at that moment all I new was that I was surrounded by something cold dark and wet, and I was drowning in it!

I started kicking and my head surfaced from the water barely noticing a boat driving away. I could breath!

Once I reached land not sure how long I was swimming or where I was, I went looking for someone, anyone.

I was so scared, and once I stopped shivering, and dried off I remembered everything that happened with Braden.

I just couldn't believe the man I thought I had loved had been doing drugs, and tried to force them down my throat! And then he tried to kill me I thought he loved me.

I was so heartbroken.

I realized my wallet was still in my pocket and I went to find a hotel, I realized I was in St Joseph, right beside Silver beach.

I use to love this beach and now if I ever saw it again I would look at it with a dark memory.

I was broken, inside and out, the man I loved tried to kill me and I started to wish he had succeeded because surely that would have been better than this heartache I felt.

After that I only returned to campus to grab the things that mattered. I carefully made sure not to run into anyone one him or I knew.

I was going to disappear and let him believe he had killed me.

 

I woke up vaguely realizing I fell asleep. I was drenched in sweat, as I often was when I awoke from these dreams.

As I looked at the clock I realized it was already one in the afternoon. I got up and cleaned up the dishes I promised Crystal I would. Made some breakfast.

Watched some TV. Took a long luxurious bath, hell I deserved it I was going to be on my feet all day!