Original Stories Fan Fiction ❯ Fire burns, the ashes remain. ❯ Scattered past, worried minds, lets hope you see tonight. ( Chapter 1 )

Fire burns and ash is left.

Chapter one:

Scattered past, worried minds, lets hope you see tonight.

 

“Sweet lovely girl now you're 13 when sinners are reborn and come out on the darkest nights looking for innocents like you.”

 

 

Things were always jumbled I knew they were I went to school drunk maintaining a perfect 3.7 GPA, being the punching bag, dating assholes and pretending I wasn't a little queer. My parents were out of town, I was at Alex's house as usual sitting on his back porch on the swinging chairs. Smirnoff in one hand a cherry smoke in the other.

Rocking back and forth gazing at the rain I wasn't wearing anything but panties and Julian's black button up shirt. It was 4 in the morning I wasn't very hungry I just snuggled into the shirt smelling his spring fresh shirt. Above my head I heard the wind chimes play a song felt the twin black mascara trails down my face go dry.

I didn't look the same or feel the same my hair was now red with blonde my eyes were stony and my pupils were always shifting and no one could tell if I were lying or telling the truth or both. My Rokr cell phone in hand I brought the drink to my lips drinking it till the last was gone than chucking it far as I could satisfied when I heard the glass break when it hit the wall.

 

Will drive you!
Will drive you!
Will drive you!
MAD!

 

I jumped at hearing song play on my cellular device than jumping when I felt another weight on the chair making it swing and the chains rattle. It didn't surprise me seeing my lovely red sitting there abs rock hard his pants unzipped showing peeks of his black boxers. He took the lit cig pressing it to his lips taking a long lazy drawl from the cancer stick and blew it in my face enveloping us in cherry scent. “Been awhile I heard the song…why so glum my little Lolita?” I didn't know what a Lolita was yet but he said it in an endearing tone but I had a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach it meant something bad.

 

ROXANNE
You don't have to put on that red light
Walk the streets for money
You don't care if it's wrong or if it is right
ROXANNE
You don't have to wear that dress tonight
ROXANNE
You don't have to sell your body to the night

 

I didn't answer him just gazed at the glass strewn on the grass ignored how he was blowing smoke into my face or how he was kissing the side of my neck or that he was holding a bottle with my lovely inside. My mouth watered at that sight he rolled my sleeve up he looked down at me in shame. “My lovely bell I found this…what was in it.” He gripped my arm and my mouth was in a thin tight line. I was defiant, stubborn a girl who did wrong who was losing the battle within. “…Something to help me sleep you idiot…” He glared angrily at me than hit me upside the head and I grinned as he began yelling profanely at me. I merely put the ear buds in.

 

His eyes upon your face
His hand upon your hand
His lips caress your skin
IT'S MORE THAN I CAN STAND!

 

Acting like I didn't know or care I knew he had given up. He was trying to make me stop drinking but he had the same addiction. I didn't take any of the tranquilizers I preferred to stay up and drink to my hearts content. I wasn't taking any of the medicine and he knew it. I gazed down at my fishnet stockings both ending at my thighs and noticed a speck of blood on the inside of my leg. Confused I looked up and there was Julian his knuckle red and swollen dripping blood. He yanked my head back roughly kissing me until my lips bruised and left me swinging back and forth there. Taking the cap off another Smirnoff I giggled insanely and drank half of it already. Something was going wrong in me I wasn't being the same girl anymore. I was breaking and molding myself into the Jasmine girl they called me.

 

 

Why does my heart cry?
ROXANNE!
Feelings I can't fight!
You're free to leave me but
Just don't deceive me!
...And please believe me when I say
I LOVE YOU!

 

I felt more than goddamned insane I was scared out of my wits in the new world I was in. Alex and Julian were use to it being raised in this world; after all it was meant for them not me. In this world I was addicted in the new things; I lay down resting my heavy lead body on the cushions. Alex came out not a minute before the song ended angry as he stared at my nearly naked form. “Did you have-“ I shook my head no he shut up walked towards me trailing his hand in-between the mounds of flesh known as breasts growing and fingering the piercing on my belly button than the golden virgin Mary necklace around my neck. “Skin so soft…”

 

My soul left me. Even my
shadow left me. I don't have a will to live because I can't convince you to not sell yourself, Roxanne!

 

I shut up immediately I knew he was very sensitive and knew better than to interrupt unless I wanted another cold shoulder. “So soft, flesh like honey eyes made from sunrise, lips like berries sweet and inviting. Do I dare?” He hesitated when he leaned in towards my lips which were in a pout, “Steal a kiss like a robber would a bank? Her fiery soul untamable I can't help but desire to break her. Is it possible? To break something that has already been broken? I can't help but grin inside at all the scorn she holds to a soul like mine.” He gazed at me up and buttoning up the shirt, “With angelic grace and sensual ways this little girl holds my heart in a tight grip does she know? Know of the power she holds over me? Know that each gaze of hers burns me to the soul? Her body made from glass molded curved perfect to the touch,” Hands on my hips he gripped them gently his dark smoldering gaze burning into my eyes and I just turned my head and scoffed.

 

You don't have to put on that red light!
You don't have to wear that dress tonight
ROXANNE!
You don't have to put on that red light
ROXANNE!
You don't have to wear that dress tonight!
ROXANNE!
ROXANNE!
ROXANNE!
ROXANNE!

 

“Alas, I'll Pray to god that he didn't know what he's done sending me an angel in the form of a child. I'll be a sinner just this moment until I can break free from Lolita for good.” He leaned in kissed my cheek and left me to mope. I didn't know at all what Lolita was I would have asked around but it just embarrassed me to no end. I looked at my piercing counting 8, three on my left four on my right one on my belly and the extra one? On my tongue where the little chain and ball hid. Opening my mouth I took the little earring off it and threw it as well.

 

Why does my heart cry?
Feelings I can't fight!
ROXANNE!
ROXANNE!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!

 

I should have know when it hit the wind chime and both items fell on the floor with a clang it was a hint of the future. The shadows of it when it fell made it look like a person with something in its arm. I shivered not from the cold but I don't know. I stood walking inside shutting the glass door behind me walking inside the cold empty house where Julian lay on the couch fast asleep, looked up to the stairs where I saw Alex drinking and giving me a dark look. I should have known right than and there that things were going to be taking a dark turn but if I did know I don't think I'd be where I am today.

 

A/N:

These are based off my expeirence's and my past. I never knew what would happen at the time still don't now, I decided to turn it into a story and try and see through my own eyes and others. You can review if you want never have before.