Original Stories Fan Fiction ❯ Into The Void ❯ Sense of Madness ( Chapter 13 )
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XI.
Into the Void
By: Melissa Norvell
Chapter 13: Sense of Madness
XI.
"Night's falling," Udo mentioned, looking at
the now darkening.
"Let's take the clothes off of these guards and
use them as covers," Loreli suggested.
Her new lover agreed as they began to
undress the dead bodies that littered the hallways of the run-down
establishment. They threw them into a pile until is doubled in
size. There had been more than enough uniforms for both of
them.
Loreli looked at the large pile the two had
created and sweat dropped. "Wow, that's more than
enough."
"We need to be warm since we can't make a
fire," Udo began to wrap the clothes around him and patted the spot
next to him. "Come here and cuddle with me."
"Okay…" The woman agreed, climbing
underneath the covers.
"Ah…" Udo sighed. "Much
better."
"Did you love me?" The brown-haired woman
asked, looking up to him in question.
"Huh?" This snapped Udo from his
thoughts.
"Is that why you said yes? You've always
complimented me."
Her neck was nuzzled in reply. "Just call me a
secret admirer."
"That's good," she smiled before being kissed
by the man. She responded to his touch by kissing him back and they
pulled up the clothes around them, making out
underneath.
XI.
Sari yawned loudly after looking at a small
sundial in the room. "Well, it's late. I'm hitting the hay," she
said sleepily.
"I'm going to stay up a little while,”
Ionna told her.
"See you in the morning."
"Good night Sari."
"Good night…" Zidane told her.
As time grew on and the late hours stretch
farther into the night Rubio was still awake. He pulled one of his
swords from their hilt, the blade glistening against the moonlight.
A few feet away, Valentino sat on the ground, looking at his gun.
After a few minutes he sat it down and lay on his side in the
middle of the floor, drifting off to sleep.
Suddenly, a sword went flying down, ready to
deliver a death strike to the uninformed assassin. It nearly struck
him as his red orbs shot open and he quickly dodged to the side. He
had sensed that Rubio harbored a frenzied feeling so he
faked sleep see if he would try and pull a stunt like that since it had
been a while and he was correct on theory.
"What are - " Valentino began to ask, pulling
out his gun to shoot Rubio but his wrist was held. Valentino was
then pinned against the wall. He could feel the jolt of his body as
his back was forced up against the wall behind him and Rubio's face
was unusually close to his.
"You're good," Rubio remarked.
"You're crazy," the assassin
replied.
"I hate you," Rubio shot venomously.
"You don't want another accident."
"The only think you'll kiss is my
sword."
"I will."
"What?" Rubio was momentarily thrown off by his
statement. That wasn't what he wanted Valentino to say, but he was
powerless to stop him as he knelt down and kissed the blade. This
infuriated Rubio and as his anger built, he found himself slamming
the assassin to the ground.
"Smart ass!" His fists went flying as he
pummeled the red and black clad man below him. Valentino didn't
fight back at all. He simply let himself be hit.
"Rubio please…"
"It's all your fault! You killed my
girlfriend," Rubio shouted, still punching him as he was overcome
by his emotions.
"You can't bring her back," Valentino still
remained calm.
"You have no heart," Rubio scowled as tears ran
down his face. The assassin fell silent. "Your eyes make me sick.
You're so emotionless," he grabbed him by the collar of his cape
and brought him to his face, his hands trembling with the onslaught
of emotions he felt. "You're not a man. You're a
machine."
"Are you any different?" Valentino leveled him
with a stern gaze, though the other features on his face held no
emotion.
"What?" The other man drew back as if hit by
realization.
"You knew what you got into being a terrorist.
Angora was probably just using you-" The assassin couldn't finish
his sentence before a harsh slap was delivered to his
face.
"She loved
me!!!"
The assassin's face stayed to the side as he
spoke. "If you loved her, let her go. You've been making that
mistake. You keep her in your mind."
"Why do you care what I think
about?"
"You're hurting me."
"I'm not touching you."
"You were hurting me."
"What?"
"You showed me something I could never have.
You're lucky…I once had it too…Many times, and each
time they died, leaving me cold and alone," Valentino spoke
cryptically.
"You're so selfish!" Rubio yelled.
"I killed her to kill the kindness in myself. I
had to rid myself of memories…Of them."
"Who?"
"Love."
"You killed your own girlfriends? You'd better
stay away from Sari you psychotic-" Rubio growled getting defensive
of the spunky girl and her close relationship with a dangerous man
like him.
"You're psychotic," Valentino narrowed his
eyes.
Rubio simply growled in response.
"I don't want Sari."
"Why not?"
"Because she'll end up like the
others…I'm saving her life."
"You did kill them," Rubio insisted, now
becoming even more defensive. Before he could say anymore his
collar was grabbed by the red-clad man and his other hand was put
on the back of Rubio's head.
"Rubio, you're a damned fool!" Valentino raised
his voice and for once sounded angry. It took a lot to push him in
that direction, but he was under a lot of stress and the terrorist
attempting to take his life was no exception. "You think I'm a
monster. You always take things at face value! You think with your
head and not with your heart!"
"Fine words coming from someone without one!"
Rubio shot back defensively. He wasn't about to let himself be
belittled by Valentino. The assassin shoved him off and turned
around, sitting down forcefully on the floor. Knowing that the
other man had broken, Rubio stuck his head over his shoulder,
smiling deviously.
"Well, tell me Mr. Black Hole for a
Heart."
"You think I didn't love them…I did and
they were taken from me. I didn't kill them," Valentino's voice
returned to its former stoicism.
"Payback is a bitch, isn't it?" The silver
haired man asked arrogantly.
The assassin fell silent.
"It's so satisfying to see the look of pain in
your eyes,” the terrorist noticed the sorrow hidden beneath
Valentino's emotionless façade. "How does it feel?"
"It doesn't. Remember?"
"I suppose not. But it's certainly ripping you
up inside."
"It was a job," the black-haired man said
simply. If Rubio thought that something
"And?"
"To love again is to make a mistake. I'm saving
you. Ibuki-sama wanted her dead. He knew about your affair and so
did I," Valentino informed.
"How?"
"I watched you for five
days, monitoring of your
moments…kissing…hugging…making
out…sex…"
"You saw me naked?" Rubio asked, seeming
offended at the thought, although it didn't bother him at all for
some reason.
"What do you care?"
"Amazingly, I don't," he replied
nonchalantly.
"You…Already killed me…" Valentino
admitted in defeat. "Anything more is just insult to the injury.
You are so perfect…You have love and are capable of regaining
it. To need love you need emotion…Not I. I was going to kill
myself when you were near the Baztok Republic, but you stopped me
by sending Sari out."
"Gee, what bad luck," he could hear the other
man's voice say in a mock-tone before he felt something metal press
against his lips. "You're in pain, so kiss it."
"Rubio…" Valentino said numbly, sensing
his odd masochistic sympathy.
"Go ahead," the other man insisted.
"You're not stable."
"Hush and kiss my sword."
Valentino inched his lips to the blade, kissing
the weapon on its sharp end. A small trickle of blood ran from his
lips to the blade, making its way across the metal in abstract
glory as he pressed his lips more to the blade. Rubio grinned to
himself upon the sight of the other's blood.
"It's nice to see you bleeding for once," he
smirked.
"I should bleed."
"Yes, you should…Just like Angora
did."
The assassin dropped his gun and looked to
Rubio. "Then kill me…You want to so much."
"But I can't…and it pisses me off," Rubio
growled.
"Why?"
"Because you spared me," the man showed his
defeat.
"I understand you."
"No, you don't."
"…"
Then, Rubio couldn't stand anymore, and like
any other time, his emotions began to take control in a fit of
doubt. "I'm not like you. I could NEVER be like you!" He screamed
at the top of his lungs. "You're a killer!"
"So are you."
"Huh?" Rubio snapped his head back as a sword
was put to his lips.
"Here," Valentino chided, turning the blade
flat against his lips, offering his blood to Rubio.
"What are you-?" The man asked in confusion,
but was cut off.
"If you want, I can bleed more for you," he
offered.
"What?" The terrorist was confused as to why
the assassin took these actions.
"Would you rather I slit my wrist? Blood is
vital there. You can get more-"
"You're satanic and twisted," Rubio shot in
anger.
"You hate that too, I suppose."
The silver haired man wiped the blood from his
lips. "Don't do that to yourself," he scolded, his voice held a
commanding air to it but also a bit of concern for the man's
situation. Valentino obviously had suffered enough to make him
suicidal so Rubio decided to lie off for that moment in
time.
"You are…Better than me," Valentino said
in defeat. "I do respect you…But I cannot make Angora come
back and I do not regret it because it was my job."
"What about the other girls you keep
mentioning?"
"I loved them…But they all left or were
killed. Please understand that if I hadn't killed Angora, then
Ibuki-sama would, then acting rashly you would have rushed in,
getting yourself killed by him," the assassin explained.
"I understand," Rubio agreed, then questioned
further. "Why didn't you spare her like you did me?"
"Selfish endeavors."
"I knew it." Light blue eyes
narrowed.
"Looking at the two of you made me physically
and mentally sick. It haunts me…everywhere. The love and the
passion…all things that I could never grasp, it slips through
my fingers…It wrings me dry of all emotion. I have to be cold
in order to dull the pain," Valentino tried not to break his usual
façade, but the small amount of emotion that glimmered in his
eyes shown all of the suffering and wretchedness that he
felt.
"But the pain is still there," Rubio noted
this. "There aren't enough masks to wear."
"Everyone I love has died, Rubio. You're
right…I am a monster and my sins are unforgivable. You think
I don't know? It hurts me too…But it's not going to get any
better…So you may as well pretend like it doesn't
matter."
"I can't do that."
"Afraid to forget?"
"I loved her…"
"I know…"
"I feel like things are getting clearer now,"
Rubio told him. "You're just hurting, but you hurt so much you
don't want to try for anyone else. You don't think there's any more
for you…I feel like an ass now. I think you were trying to
warn me in your own subtle way."
"She's the reason you're like this. She used
you against Ibuki-sama, took you for granted and destroyed your
soul, leaving you cold and hurt."
"Not all women are like that. She couldn't help
that she died. Just like your girlfriends couldn't," the terrorist
consoled the other man.
"Rubio…"
"Yeah?" He turned his head to look at
Valentino's face.
The assassin fell silent. Rubio gave him a look
of sympathy and paused before uttering one sentence.
"You're my hero."
"I am no one's hero. I always let those who are
close to me; those I respect face the worst."
"So why did you play mute with me on this
before?" Rubio asked.
"It's not something everyone should know,"
Valentino stated.
"Should I feel special?" The silver-haired man
was sarcastic in tone.
"You're such a nuisance. I don't know whether
to kick your ass, or throw you to the terrorists…Or perhaps I
should just go outside and shove your head in the snow until you
stop being so stuck up…And don't you dare gag at me,"
Valentino defended himself, offended that Rubio would be so
heartless as to play the sympathy game as a way to use his own ammo
against him.
"I take back the hero comment," Rubio told him
coldly, though he did actually mean it. His feelings were true and
he just attempted to joke with him, but now it was war between the
two once more. "You're still a machine."
"All of Ibuki's forces were designed that
way…You would know."
"I don't care if we were on the same
side…I still don't like what you did."
"You need sleep," Valentino mentioned that
Rubio was more pissy then usual since he'd not had any
sleep.
"And you need to be touched by an
angel…Because you're pure evil, wrapped up in some frail,
pretty boy body. You make me sick," he scowled.
"Maybe you make me sick," red eyes
narrowed.
"Maybe I wish I cared."
"You're worse than a machine. You're just
crazy," Valentino started a long list of insults between the
two.
"And you're crazy."
"You're the one who attacked me out of nowhere.
You're not even making sense and you look like you have rabies,"
Valentino noted upon looking at Rubio's frenzied state.
"I'll kill you!" Rubio grabbed the man by the
hair and slamming his head against the ground. Thumping noises were
created from Valentino's head being repetitively hit against the
wooden floor.
Down the hall, Yaritza's sharp ears caught the
commotion. "What the hell?"
Sari stepped out into the hall. "What the hell
is that noise? Are we getting robbed?" She asked a surprised look
on her face.
"We're getting robbed? Oh shit!" Vincent yelled
after entering in the midst of their conversation.
"No…Well actually, I don't know but why
does it matter?" Sari asked.
Crash!
Boom!
Thump!
"What the hell is that?! It's really
pissing me off!" Sari was annoyed at the constant noises as Ionna,
Agata, Ryouzonia and Zidane all stepped into the hall.
"Hey! Some people are trying to sleep!" Ionna
complained.
"It's not me," Sari told her.
"Well, it's not me," Agata replied.
"What's going on?" Ryouzonia asked
calmly.
"Damn…I thought this night was going to
be peaceful," Zidane sighed.
"Yeah right," Sari nearly laughed at the
mention of peace around these people. "Obviously you don't know
what you've gotten yourself into."
Crash!
Bam!
"Damn it!" Sari ranted.
"Where are Rubio and Valentino?" Vincent asked
upon looking around. "They're the only ones not down
here."
"Valentino's upstairs," Agata noted.
"What?" Ionna exclaimed. "Then where's
Rubio?"
"His room is down here," Agata walked down the
hall. Suddenly, Yaritza yelled as she fell to the floor with a
thud.
"Quit being clumsy!" Sari scolded.
The red-haired ninja propped herself up on her
arms, and then looked down at the long, hard object that she felt
between her ankles. "Someone left their sword lying in the middle
of the floor."
"That's Rubio's," Agata's sharp eye immediately
identified the weapon. "But one of them is missing."
"If he's trying to kill Valentino again, I'll
hit him so hard he'll look like him," Sari complained, pointing a
finger at Zidane.
'Not again…' The bald man
thought, looking irritated with yet another ugly joke.
"If he's trying to kill Valentino that would
explain the noises," Ionna noted as everyone took off running,
noting the importance of getting there quickly incase the situation
began to get grave.
Rubio reached for the gun and pointed it to the
black-haired man's head. The man gave no hint of emotion; he just
looked at him with void eyes and simply told him that he would
regret his choice.
"The hell I will. I'll be smiling and
celebrating," Rubio said victoriously.
"I'm the only one with information regarding
Ibuki-sama," Valentino stated gravely.
"I have Zidane."
"Zidane doesn't know what I know."
"Spare me!" The silver haired terrorist nearly
laughed at Valentino's attempt to bargain with him. "I know Ibuki
too."
"He hid things from you."
"And so did you. Killing you will be my first
step to getting rid of my problems," the other man smiled as a
crazed look crossed his face.
"I thought you only hated what I
do."
"I do but now it's my turn to tell
you…You have to understand. I'm out to rid the world of your
kind."
"I'm trying to help you," Valentino tried to
tell him as the door went flying off of its hinges a short distance
away. Rubio replied to the crashing noise with a 'huh' in confusion
as he froze in position. The gun was still pointed to the red-clad
man's head. Suddenly, his weapon was knocked out of his hand by
shuriken throwing stars. He yelled in surprise and looked over to
see Yaritza holding three of them in one hand.
"Not today, buddy," Yaritza said boldly. "Do we
have to baby-sit you two? I can't leave you alone for two seconds
without you trying to kill each other."
"What the hell are you doing, Rubio?!" Sari
fumed, her fists clenched and held close to her chest.
The man turned to her with a frenzied look in
his eyes. This caused the girl to blink and withdraw herself a
little.
"Huh? Are you all right?" She asked more
concern to her voice then previously.
"More like are you all there?" Vincent
added.
"All of you are getting on my nerves," Rubio
told the group venomously.
"Rubio-"Valentino started to speak, but what
cut short.
"Shut up! I hate you. HATE you. Don't you get
it? Why do you keep following me? Why?"
"What the hell is your problem?" Sari attempted
to defend the assassin from being jumped all over by
Rubio.
"What's yours?" Rubio shot back.
"I don't have one."
"You all have problems. So why don't you kill
each other and get them over with."
Ionna was beginning to grow annoyed as the vein
in her head was now visible and she clenched her trembling fist.
"He's beginning to piss me off…"
"Would you mind toning it down?" Zidane stood
in the door way.
"Would you mind going to hell?" Rubio shot back
in irritation as a vein similar to Ionna's soon became visible on
the scar-faced man's head.
"Don't talk to him like that!" Sari didn't want
Rubio taking his anger out on Zidane, especially because Zidane had
been injured and she didn't think he needed any of that
drama.
"I'd tell you to shut up, but obviously you
don't know how."
"I established that when we first
met."
"There will be no fighting in here," Ryouzonia
walked into the room calmly.
"Yeah!" Sari aged on. "Did you hear that? Fight
and sleep outside! Loser!"
"Sari, shut up," Valentino advised. He knew
that her foul mouth was no help to the situation, especially with
Rubio being so unstable.
"Hey! I'm trying to save your ass! Get over
here and apologize!" Sari demanded.
"I'm staying over here."
"Are you really that suicidal?" Agata asked.
"It's pathetic."
"If Rubio wants to kill me then he will.
There's no stopping it. He's been sucked into a void and indulged
with chaos due to his own loss of control over his emotions. To
stop him now would only prolong the problems and that does nothing
for the mission," Valentino stated.
"I'm selfish? What about you?" Rubio looked to
Valentino.
"We are all a little selfish. Our dreams come
first, being in this group is secondary and so is companionship.
Everyone here will admit that they have something to achieve, or
they would not be here, but at the same time, they know they can't
achieve their goals alone. We are acting as mercenaries to take on
a force much greater than most of you can comprehend," Valentino
spoke, and then Rubio opened his mouth to speak but the assassin
kept talking. "Note, I said most. Some of us, who have experienced
this type of ordeal know exactly how to deal with it, just not how
to overcome it. No matter how much you all want to keep it
confined. We're all in this together, each playing a vital part of
the mission. We are like a team - a dysfunctional team, but a team
nonetheless."
"I ever had a problem with anyone here. I was
just doing my job," Zidane stated.
"So was I, but some can't seem to get over
that," the black haired man agreed, his eyes shifting to Rubio's
form.
"No joke," the spunky girl murmured under her
breath.
"It doesn't help the team to be so wrapped up
in your own problems that you don't see the whole picture," Yaritza
explained.
"We're probably all guilty of that," Agata
admitted.
"Guess we've been so into getting our own
individual goals that we're not concentrating on the big problem,"
Ionna looked down.
"We needed to hear that," Vincent
agreed.
"Yes," Agata agreed.
"Let me guess, Valentino's right and Rubio's
wrong," Rubio was irritated.
"Of course you're wrong!" Sari yelled. "You're
the reason we're up here! I'm missing a good two hours worth of
sleep!!!"
"Sari…You're doing it again," the
assassin warned.
"Sorry, he just makes me mad."
"I guess some of us do get under each other's
skin," the bounty hunter admitted.
"Tell me about it," Agata stared him dead in
the eyes.
"We should try to be a better team
though."
"That also means that we shouldn't distance
ourselves from each other," Rubio glared at Valentino.
"But…"
"You said we need to work as a team. If you
make the rules, then you have to abide by them," the silver haired
man stated further.
"I can't do that," Valentino argued. "I won't
allow anyone else to fall victim to my doing."
"You act like if you dare to even say hi to us
we'll drop dead. Surely you can't be that cursed?" Sari told
him.
"I hope not," Vincent added.
"Well, you could kill someone if you said hi
and you had an extreme case of halitosis," Yaritza
commented.
"Yaritza!" The spunky girl warned.
"What?"
Sari glared at the ninja.
"Okay, okay, Sorry. That was uncalled
for."
Rubio stood up and walked towards everyone, not
crazy anymore but extremely pissed off. He walked past the bounty
hunter and leveled him with a glare, pointing his finger at
him.
"You, shut up," he warned his voice
cold.
"I didn't say anything!" Vincent defended
himself, offended that Rubio just singled him out like
that.
"Just in case you were going to."
"Can we go back to bed now?" Sari looked at a
nearby clock. "It's 3:00 in the morning."
"Well…That was eventful," Ionna commented
as her twin got up and began to walk off slowly.
"I should rest now."
Suddenly, he felt a tug from his back and
looked over his shoulder to see the spunky girl holding his coat
tails in her hands. "Oh no you don't! I'm going with you, because
I'm, not worrying about you dying in the middle of the night from
psychopath there."
"He won't kill me."
"How do you know that?"
"He said it himself."
"And that safeguards it? Besides why do you
believe him of all people?"
"Because he hasn't pulled it off yet and he's
had plenty of opportunities," Valentino let that little piece of
information be known.
"He doesn't want to kill you, just torture you
because he doesn't think you know how he feels. After losing Angora
like that he thinks that you took her away from him, plus he was
found out as a terrorist, which was something he was obviously
hiding," Zidane educated. "He's insecure, worried, depressed and
stressed. He's been pulled in several directions, just like the
rest of us, but Rubio doesn't do well with stress. It rusts the cog
wheels of his internal structure, breaking down his sanity and
sense of reality, causing fits of schizophrenia and post trauma
syndrome."
"What?" Sari was completely confused at
everything he just said.
"Surprisingly, I understood that," Vincent
commented. "But how did you know that?"
"I'm head of the Dark Renegade Interrogation
Corps. I've studied the human brain and its physiology and
psychology intricately. Mental torture is my specialty."
"That's why you seemed so confident in giving
me the false information,” Sari noted.
"I can pass a lie detector test no problem with
complete falsehoods."
"You taught me how to do that," Valentino
mentioned.
"Yep. Just goes to show you how reliant on
machines humanity can be. They don't always do the job as well as
one would like to think," the bald man commented.
"So, you're like a walking lie detector?"
Vincent asked.
"You can say that."
"That's awesome!" Yaritza complimented. "You
can totally play mind games with people!"
"With the right phrases, you can get humans to
do anything you want. The mind is a complex structure, but if it
sound logical enough. It computes the request."
"So you don't even need slaves, you can do it
to unsuspecting people?" Sari was intrigued.
"Yes, most impressionable younger and older
with illness and amnesia or forgetfulness. Old ones are a bit
harder. You can also get the crazy, desperate or helpless easily, "
Zidane informed.
"Fine Sari, if you want to sleep with me, and
then go ahead," Valentino finally gave in, knowing the persistent
nature of the girl. He'd been through enough that night and arguing
with Sari wasn't something he wanted to add to his list.
"Good," the girl agreed.
Yaritza picked the gun up off of the floor and
put it on a nearby table. She kneeled to pick up the sword and
noticed the small stream of blood that was staining the metal and
looked to Valentino in question. "This has blood on it." A worried
expression crossed her face.
"Cut my lip," Valentino partially lied. He had
cut his lip, but there was more to it than that- something
secretive and masochistic.
"I was going to say, neither one of you had a
scratch you just looked a little jostled," she replied.
"Well, I'm reporting in," Agata was too tired
to stay up any longer, and it seemed like the situation resolved
itself. "See you in the morning."
"Same here," Ionna agreed.
"Good night," Zidane told everyone.
"Rest well," Ryouzonia commented.
"Let's go," Valentino looked at
Sari.
"Right."
To Be Continued…