Original Stories Fan Fiction ❯ Love or Hate ❯ Volume Eight, Chapter Fifty-One: Tender ( Chapter 51 )

Tender

-Mai-

This is not who I am. I do not obsess over a man. I do not obsess over a man! I do not obsess over a man! Grrr! So what the hell?!

I sighed.

“Something wrong?” Yoko asked. I shook my head. I shook my head.

“No,” I said. I picked up my guitar.

“Let's go,” I said. “We've got a show to play.” I walked to the stage. Couldn't focus on him. I had music to play. This was my element. The notes, the cheering crowd, the electric atmosphere, and all the lights on me. Nothing better.

“One! Two! Three!” Yoko shouted as smacked her drumsticks together. We started to play our music. I got lost in it. So much raw passion and rage flew out of my mouth as I sang. I could feel my power coming to life. This was my kingdom. I was the queen.

But I still can't get him out of my head. So annoying. I can separate myself with my music. But him…

Why him? What's so important about him? Grrr! Who was this guy?

The fans didn't notice my scream of rage over the mike. They loved it in fact. I felt myself getting better. This would have to do for now.

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It's not a complete headache. I have new lyrics now. They aren't altogether yet. They could use some work.

After the show, I dove into work. I locked myself in the bathroom. The words aren't words. They're just sounds and letters.

I looked up when I heard knocking on my door. Grrr. What is it now?

“Yeah?” I asked.

“Mai? Can we talk?” Subaru asked. I sighed and rolled my eyes. Not this again.

“No,” I said. Calm down. Take deep breaths. Deep breaths.

“I'm busy right now. Can't it wait?” I asked. There was a pause.

“It's about last night,” Subaru said. I rolled my eyes. There it was. I groaned aloud.

“I don't want to talk about it!” I shouted.

“But…” she said.

“I don't want to talk about it!” I said again. I took another breath.

“Anything else?” I asked.

“No…” Subaru said. I breath out.

“Now please leave me alone,” I said. “I am trying to work.” She said nothing as she walked away. I stayed still until I was sure she was gore. Great. I've lost it again. I sat back on the floor. I tried to get back my focus. All I could think of was him. I cursed myself under my breath.

Damn it! Why does he fuck up everything? But I still can't get him out of my head. Grrr! Why damn it?! Why? Why?!

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