Original Stories Fan Fiction ❯ Worthless ❯ Speed 8: Futility ( Chapter 8 )
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A/N: Sorry for the long wait, this chapter is longer than
the others that I have posted. A lot of big things have happened in
my life and I've been very busy with events and my birthday. So,
please forgive me if things are a little late.
Please enjoy my latest chapter of Worthless!
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Worthless
Speed 8: Futility
By: Melissa Norvell
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Another week had passed, and I thought about everything that had
happened in my life. I went through so many experiences, and I've
learned a lot about the good and bad of both my current position
and being a car in general.
King seemed better, but it didn't race that weekend. Instead, I
went up against Headhunter and Phantom. King and Jordan watched
from the sidelines as I easily outran the other two vehicles. It
wasn't hard to beat both of them, and I barely broke 200 miles per
hour to do it.
I was wonderful and having won that race against King skyrocketed
my popularity. All of the other racers loved me and on the track, I
was unmatched. They called me the "winged warrior" and when Blake
mentioned it, his friends would come over and admire my fender tag
that sported the words 'Special Handling Car' on it.
His friends insisted that he take me to the track just to run me
around a few times. So far, the most I've done was street race and
do a little drifting through the cone mazes. It was great fun, and
Blake seemed to enjoy it too.
I was happy to know that I was not letting him down yet…Then
again, I kind of felt bad for King. The Barracuda sat there, and
hardly spoke to anyone. I knew that it probably felt useless. All
of its life, it had to go through a great amount of stress and
hardship just to survive. King has a twenty-nine streak win and
now, it had been taking the back seat to me.
We continued to train for any upcoming races we'd have. Blake
wanted to make me the fastest car that he could, and with all I had
found out, there was nothing on the market that could beat me
unless it was my predecessor, the Dodge Daytona.
We were archrivals in many ways. We were designed to counter each
other on the track. However, I think the only Daytona I'd ever met
were those who raced on the tracks.
I haven't been to the track yet, but I looked forward to getting
that chance, I couldn't wait to burn up that track. I was taken to
drift through some cones with a few other racers. King wasn't
present at this event either.
That was odd.
Maybe Jordan had something to do. I knew that he was gone when I
woke up and that was around sunrise that morning. Phantom wasn't
there either. It was just Headhunter, myself and three other drag
cars doing our rounds and playing around. It was pretty fun. No one
timed anything and it was pretty causal.
My master seemed very concentrated today. He took the turns well
and his handling technique was better than when we had raced. I
guess he was having a good day.
Today was also good for me.
Today, I'd finally get to see Nash again.
I needed to apologize for cutting it off when I was street racing.
I wondered if Metro would be there too. I knew that it hated street
racers, and I did remember its last words to me.
"Don't get caught up with those ruffian street racers."
It was something to that effect.
I spun to a stop after I circled through the cone maze for the last
time. My back end swung around and my tires left their mark. I
heard everyone cheer as I came to a stop. King was right. This
feeling was a great one to have, and a car could get used to
this.
After my run, I traveled back to the garage where King was waiting,
and I also had a visitor parked outside.
It was Nash.
Blake parked me beside of the green and white SUV along side of the
curb as our masters stepped out and started talking to each other
for a while. They hugged and questioned various aspects of their
lives. I could tell that the bond of a father and son was strong.
It was fascinating, really. As something that was not born in a
physical sense, I couldn't understand such a bond, but I figured
that it must have been something like the way I felt about my
master.
Humans have a foreign way of life. They move apart, but they still
get to visit with and see each other. In a machine's world, that's
drastically different. We cherish the time that we share with our
owners because when we transfer hands, we might not ever get to see
our old owner again. Chances are that we don't. Cars never know
what to expect from our masters, but we are stuck with whatever we
get.
King was right. Cars were not like animals. Animals were
acknowledged as living things; therefore, it was wrong to commit a
crime against them. To kick was dog was wrong, and people who were
animal enthusiasts would definitely tell you about it but if that
dog were a car, no one would think twice about it. They would
simply walk on without a second glance.
Cars can't just drive away if they didn't like their situation.
When you looked at it, their situation was the most futile of any
objects. They could sit on the side of the road while others pass
them by, but without a master, driving around free would cause a
lot of talk. It would be too obvious that we too, were alive.
If a car had an abusive owner and sat on the side of the street,
only wishing to get away, with freedom so close and nothing to do
about it. It would be like putting a caged bird by a window. They
could look at what freedom had to offer, but they could never fly
free.
That, in itself, was depressing.
There was an awkward silence for a while between Nash and I. I
think we were both busy listening to our masters talk before they
went into the apartment. After we heard the front door shut, Nash
was the first to speak up.
"It's good seeing you again. I must say that I'm not
surprised."
I think my motor fell through my frame and hit the ground below me.
"I wanted to talk to you about that," I attempted to explain. "I'm
really sorry for cutting you off. I didn't even realize that it was
you."
"You're only doing what Blake tells you to do," Nash seemed pretty
sympathetic about the situation. "I don't hold it against you for
being a street racer, either. If any car could excel at racing, it
would be you. When I saw that you were a Special Handling Car, I
knew that you obviously had more get up and go than a normal sports
car. Even when you're just parked somewhere, you just dared someone
to ignore your torpedo-like nose cone and rear mounted wing that
was higher than even your hood."
"I'm glad that you don't, but I feel horrible. I could have killed
you and Mr. Seinsnig," I replied, my voice dropped a couple of
octaves.
"Don't worry; I've lived for twenty years. I'm considered a classic
car now," Nash commented as it tried to joke off the subject.
"That doesn't mean that I want to be the reason that you end up in
a junkyard," I argued. Anyone but Nash. Nash was like a parental
figure to me and I cherished it deeply. I didn't know what I'd do
if I caused harm to it in any way.
"Things happen. We can't control our fate, and as vehicles, we have
even less control. Ultimately, humans decide our fate, and how long
we exist on earth." Why did Nash always have to know what it was
talking about?
"You're right," I agreed. "As much as I'd like to think that I
could have some control over what happened in my life, I knew that
it was futile to question such a fact."
"You'll learn to look at it objectively, especially when you get
more involved in street racing."
"King seems like a lot of things affect it," I thought of the
Barracuda, especially lately, since it had been acting a bit out of
the normal.
I didn't know if King was stressed or if it had given up on its
racing career. King was more toned down, not as wild acting or
upbeat. I knew that it blew a tire and broke its timing belt, but
it should have been better by now. We've barely even spoken to each
other and the garage is usually full of conversation.
I felt as if I had killed its dreams.
"Have you ever talked to it? It might do you some good to talk to
King about its racing experiences both good and bad," Nash advised,
and I knew that it was right.
"I tried but it hides things from me," I did try to ask King many
things about it's personal experiences, but it never liked to
discuss them.
"You need to be more adamant about it. Insist on knowing, tell it
that you seek its knowledge as an experienced racer. I think that
it would feel more important if you did tell it so." Did King
really want me to care like that? Maybe Nash was right. Maybe I
should have told the Barracuda what I wanted to say instead of
backing down.
"Did you win your race with King?" Nash wondered aloud.
"I did," I replied shamefully. I didn't even have to try to beat
the car. I made it seem like it was nothing and I still felt guilty
about my easy win.
"You seem sad about that."
"I think I destroyed King's dreams," I knew that I should not have
worried, but I couldn't help it. I cared about what the red
Barracuda thought.
I wanted to make it proud.
"As much as you care about King, you can't control that. You are
the cutting edge of technology, and you do more than prove it,"
Nash explained. "You're special. There is a reason your model was
only made for a year. You're too ahead of your time, you break
boundaries and I feel that you'll be the car that makes or breaks
Master Blake."
What did it mean? I'll make or break him? How?
My wondering questions were interrupted by a commotion outside.
Blake and his father were arguing in the front yard. A worried
expression crossed Nash's front end. As they got closer, their
words became more audible. I heard my master shout that he didn't
care about something. Mr. Seinsnig told him that he was ruining his
education as he stalked angrily towards Nash.
"I think I'll be leaving soon," Nash said in an uncertain
voice.
"Say hello to Metro for me. I hope it's doing well," I didn't get
to finish what I was about to say before Nash's door slammed.
"I will. Take care of yourself, and remember to take my advice."
With those final words, Nash pulled away and drove off. I said my
good bye and sat there in silence, mulling the words over in my
mind.
Later, I was moved into the garage beside of King. The Barracuda
didn't hesitate to let me know what happened earlier.
"Man was your master ticked at his old man."
"What for?" I asked, half-hesitant on really wanting to know.
"I only heard part of it, but apparently Blake blew his education
money modifying you," the red vehicle explained. "It was money that
Mr. Seinsnig gave to him to help pay on his tuition loan. Blake
told him that he would eventually need to let him decide for
himself on how to spend money. He also told Mr. Seinsnig that he
should leave and let him make decisions for himself and that he was
too controlling. There was something about taking you away, because
his name was on the title too." I cringed at that happening. I had
dreaded that moment from day one and my fluids ran cold at the
thought of it happening.
Now, the threat seemed more real than ever, especially if Blake
really had done that. "They argued about you, education, rules and
a lot of other stuff."
"What do you think will happen?" I dared to ask.
"I don't know, but I'd hate to see you sold off. You're an
excellent racer. You even beat me, and I'm the King," the red car
tried to laugh off its shame. It wasn't fooling me, I knew it was
lying.
Now, more than ever, it was time to talk about the things King
wouldn't tell me. I had to do this…for Nash…and for
me.
"You'll always be the King to me," I reassured it.
"Why? Because I can take a beating and still roll down the street?"
It acted as if that was it's only redeeming quality.
"Tell me the truth, King," I pressed, nearly demanding.
"Truth? About what?" The Barracuda acted innocent towards the
matter.
"Why do you skirt around your street racing experiences? Tell me
what it is I need to know about you. Tell me what those headlights
have seen," I felt like I needed to know what pained King so much.
The Barracuda was usually fearless and didn't care much about its
own well-being when most cars would throw a rod at the thought of
the hammer mill. I needed to know, as a friend.
"Maybe it's about time I tell someone about this. I don't really
like talking about it, but I'll tell you," I felt honored that King
would make that exception.
"I won't mention it to anyone else," with such a trusted secret, I
wouldn't dare flap my grill to anyone.
"Do you know what it is to experience futility?"
"Futility?"
"Yes, even a King can feel that his existence is futile." Why would
King use that comparison?
"Why would you feel that way? You've won so many races-" I started
but was cut off.
"It's not about the races," King's voice was low and serious. It
then changed to one of an emotion that you might call fright. "It's
the crashes. It's the carnage. It's the death."
I'd never heard King sound that way before. Nothing usually rattled
the car's internal workings like that. It looked like King was
staring the hammer mill down for the first time. At the moment, I
didn't even understand King's horror story until later.
"There was an initiation street race that took place when our
original group was formed," King stated what was to be a very long
story. "It took place on a rainy night, at about two in the
morning. Jordan had heard about the initiation for a month ahead of
time, and decided to put me through rigorous testing to make sure
I'd be up to par. He wanted to make sure I'd be durable enough to
stand up to the conditions of this track.
I was given the best of everything, and I was happy to be able to
show my stuff. Jordan rebuilt nearly all of my internal workings
especially for that race. I wanted to thank the man who saved me
from that scrap heap. I was going to serve Jordan until he sold me
or until I could no longer be used.
The rain poured heavily on the race track. It was dangerous but
everyone insisted on racing. That course was called the Asphalt
Hell by everyone who raced there, and that's when conditions were
good. It was a road with a lot of traffic, and a lot of treachery
if you went at high speed.
Twenty racers started and only seven of them passed the course.
Those seven racers formed the group that Phantom and I are in."
"So, you're an original founder?" I asked. A part of me was amazed
at that fact, and another part of me expected such a thing.
"Yes, our group isn't that old. There were so many wrecks. I
remember passing by the ones whose lives were lost that day-street
racers, cars, civilians…humans…That was the race that I
was T-boned in and lost my headlight." King's voice was sad and
nostalgic.
So, that's how it got injured. I had wondered about that.
"The conditions were sleek and tire traction was limited. I could
barely keep on the road, myself. I almost slid into a ditch. The
rain beat so hard that I could hardly see, and my windshield wipers
moved so fast that I thought they would just fly off and land in
the road somewhere.
Cars were everywhere: upside down, on their sides, in ditches,
crashed into each other, walls or even light posts and trees. I
witnessed over ten deaths that day. Those cars were totaled. I
spent time before the race with those vehicles and they were gone
in the flip of a switch.
Since I never considered my own well-being before. I saw the real
value of life and for once, I was afraid of my fate. I knew that
the car I passed that was nearly cut in half by a light post could
easily be me.
I still had a purpose to Jordan. I felt like I should keep myself
safe for him. I didn't come out first, but I came out alive. It was
one of the darkest races of my life.
Cars that were just used for common purposes couldn't really fathom
a street racer's life. We are called muscle cars for a reason.
You've got to be tough to compete in this sport. I didn't care that
Metro griped me out in the garage that one time. I have caused cars
and people to die," the Barracuda's voice was filled with remorse.
"It's something that you deal with in this position. There's a lot
of guilt, worry and death in this sport. You haven't seen it yet,
but you will."
King's words left a dark promise for me and I realized how blind
I've been to what street racing really was. I realized that I only
saw the glory days of racing and the exciting life that King
bragged about. Metro and Nash were right. Nothing comes without
consequences. They made street racing look so good, almost like it
was fast, fun and carefree. I never saw the pain that King felt and
the guilt that it wore with each dent it acquired.
More than anyone, King knew loss and futility. Now, I finally
understood why Phantom was the way it was, and why Number 52 felt
the way it did about Mr. Seinsnig. That story means a lot to me
now, more than it ever did back then, and I think that's why it
means a lot to King, too. We can actually identify with it.
Back then, all I could do was feel bad for Number 52 and number
Seven. What they went through was tragic.
Now…Now, I knew exactly what they felt. The drive to want to
please your master, so much that you would give your very
life….The sacrifice and loyalty…It made me think a lot
about myself now. I never want to feel the abandonment and shame
that Number 52 did.
It just…was not fair to the car, to suffer that fate, even if
it was inducted into the Hall of Fame.
I can only imagine what King feels. It felt like a vehicle of
murder. Am I doomed to be a killer car? Was Mrs. Seinsnig right
about me being a death trap?
"Do you think that Metro will hate me?" I thought about the
Metropolitan and it's malice towards King. Those very feelings
worried beyond words. Metro's opinion mattered to me more than
ever.
"It might not, since you're like family to it. That's a hard call
to make. I don't really make friends with common cars."
"Why?"
"There was a commoner's car that I really liked. I considered it to
be a friend. When my master worked at the arcade, we parked beside
of each other in the lot. It was a 1959 Ford Zodiac. We shared a
lot of good times.
One day, I was doing a street race with Headhunter. We turned
around a corner and the Zodiac was there-"
"Did you hit it?" That seemed to be a logical direction that the
story was headed in.
"Headhunter's rear end nearly did when it swung around…but
the damage I made was far worse," there was a silence before King
finished what it was saying. "I shot around the corner, unaware of
what was there and it swerved to miss me and went off of the road
and straight into a wall. The Zodiac was destroyed on contact and
it was sent to the junkyard. I later heard that it was crushed by
the hammer mill."
"How do you know that?" I to be optimistic and say that the Zodiac
might have ended up being alright.
"The new car that the worker bought in the Zodiac's place told me
what happened. After that, I decided that I wasn't going to make
friends with anything that I might kill. I didn't want to do that
to anything else," the car's words were filled with its passion
towards the subject, and I couldn't help but to be moved by its
speech.
King…
"It's not like you could have avoided it," I tried to reason, but
it was silent.
"Could we talk about a different subject?" King finally inquired
after what seemed like a good ten minutes of silence.
"First, I'll say that isn't your fault. I know that you feel guilty
but Nash is right when it said that cars just do what their owners
instruct them to do," I tried to offer words of comfort to the
shattered vehicle. It was painful to hear the things that it kept
hidden from me, but this was for the best. King needed to let out
its pain and I would be here for it until the end.
"That's why nothing knows futility more than a vehicle. Number 52's
story touched me ever since I had heard it. Even if Metro was
right. Even if I'm just a beat up old sports car that won't even
amount to anything and can never compare to a glorified racer like
Fifty-two, it's story was very inspirational and I know how it felt
on many different levels. I've been abandon. I've been beaten up
and defeated. I've killed and caused injury, both to myself and
others for the name for a sport that is only recognized by a few
people and regarded as illegal and dangerous. Even if my treds
tainted the very spot that 52 sat in, I was happy to be in that
spot."
"I wish I would have gotten to meet it, if only for a minute."
After I thought about it for a while, I could have learned so much
for that old formula car.
"If Blake takes you down to the track, Number 52 does the
occasional run. You might get to talk to it for that one minute,"
King informed me. "If you ever meet it, tell it that it has a
lifetime of respect from me. It was my hero since I heard about it
from Nash."
"I definitely will," I smiled. "Hopefully, we can go together down
there and take a couple of laps around the track."
"That would be nice."
It certainly would.
It's funny how irony works. I knew that Blake had wanted to take me
to the track, but I didn't think that he'd go through with it or
even take me this early. It had only been two weeks since King and
I talked about meeting Number 52 in person.
I wished that King could have come down with me, but Jordan had
other plans. He said that he wanted to make King more of a
competitor for me. That meant that we'd race again together. I
hoped that it would be happier about its next race. Out of all of
the street racers there, King was the only one who came close to
keeping up with me.
I'd like to race with him again…I would want it to be a
gripping, on-edge race where both of us were pushed to the limit. I
didn't want to feel like I didn't even have to try to beat another
racer.
I wondered if King felt that way being the undisputed champion
before our race?
This race track was pretty fun to drive on. It definitely beat the
city streets. Here, I could really tear up my tires on the track.
Quite a few cars that were certified were running around the track
today. I even saw a couple of other Superbirds.
It would be interesting to go bumper to bumper with another winged
warrior, whether it was another Superbird or a Dodge Daytona.
There were about seven of us in total. The weather was good for
racing, nice and sunny with partially cloudy skies. The sun shone
down on the elongated loop of a raceway, and there were even a few
people who watched us just going around and around the track.
I zoomed past a few cars, switching in and out of the lanes before
I saw a sight that I never thought I'd lay my headlights on. It was
so shocking that I nearly idled in my tracks.
Right in front of me was an older race car, blue and black in
coloration. The model looked to be a 1925 Bugatti Type A. I drove
up beside of it, and I could clearly see the number 52 as clear as
day in bold white on the car's side door.
It was the very car that I had wanted to meet since I had first
heard the story at the Seinsnig's garage. It was the Number
Fifty-two! I was star struck! I could hardly believe that I was
riding side-by-side with such a car!
There was so much that I wanted to say, but right now, I couldn't
push them out of my bumper without making myself look ridiculous.
Oh, how I wish that King and Nash were here to experience what I
was right now! I was sure that they'd both blow a head gasket to
even look at this car right now.
"I know you…" I nearly stuttered the phrase in awe.
"What?" I heard Fifty-two ask, thoroughly confused. It didn't sound
like I had pictured. Its voice was youthful and it seemed a little
meek. Maybe it was just the confusion. "I've never seen you. I
don't even know who you are, or who you belong to."
"You might not know me, but I know you," I informed the vintage car
of my relevance. "Do you know the Seinsnigs?"
"What?" Number 52's voice was filled with many different emotions-
love, shock, sorrow…guilt beyond definition, and nostalgia of
some kind. I wasn't sure if it was a good or a bad type of
nostalgia.
The two of us slowed down and pulled off of the track. I had been
unaware of the fact of why we had been traveling side-by-side in
the first place. While we had been talking, our masters were
talking as well. Blake had my window cracked down, and 52's driver
was out in the open air.
We stopped near the pit and parked side-by-side. The two drivers
stepped out and walked over to the sidelines to chat with each
other. They seemed to know each other and were happy to see one
another. It turned out that 52's driver was a friend of the family.
The two had known each other since Blake was small.
Fifty-two gazed at Blake with a strange expression. It was as if
the race car didn't recognize Blake. That was actually really sad,
considering the fact that this was the car that Blake grew up with,
and tried so hard to keep in the family.
"Your master…" The blue car trailed. "What is his name?" I
guessed that Fifty-two wanted a confirmation just to believe
itself.
"Blake Seinsnig."
"Oh Blake…You've grown into such a handsome man." It really
hadn't recognized him. Fifty-two just instantly fell to pieces on
that very spot. It was the human equivalent to a mental break down.
"I didn't even recognize you. You're the only one who's ever cared
to have me around. You wanted to keep me, and you always looked at
me with such sympathy. When I felt my worst and wanted to just end
my life of worthlessness, you saw use in me. I'm shocked that
you're driving around on this track after what happened to
Gary."
"Blake never lost his racing spirit. His parents were strict but he
doesn't live with them anymore, so he feels a lot more freedom," I
replied. "Probably a little too much. He's really been fighting
with his parents a lot lately. "There had been many times when he
yelled at them over the phone. I didn't know if that was what King
always saw, but it seemed like Blake had changed.
Then again, I guess I have too.
"Anything that goes against my former master's wishes sets him off.
He was a very touchy person. I guess that I could see why he got
rid of me. I just wasn't good enough for him. Nash was right back
then," Fifty-two sighed. "Nothing lasts forever."
Ironic that Nash gave the formula car the same advice that it gave
me.
I wished that I could give Number 52 some sort of reason to find
its self worth. I decided to throw out the only thing I knew how to
at the moment. "But, you're so famous-"
I was cut off immediately. I was sure that it had heard this many
times.
"Fortune, fame and trophies do not get you happiness. Happiness
isn't an object, it's an emotion." It seemed like I've heard that
saying before from a certain Barracuda.
"You remind me of a friend of mine," I mentioned.
"We want to wish that things could last forever, but bliss and
ignorance are confused a lot."
Boy, did I feel the inward stab from that one. Now that I didn't
live with Nash and Metro, I wished that I hadn't ignored the advice
that I was given. I mentioned that Nash was usually right about its
advice and that I had heard a lot about Fifty-two.
Fifty-two seemed very pleased to know that Nash was still alive. I
had nearly forgotten that 52 had seen Nash before it had been
restored. Fifty-two smiled slightly. Even thought I knew that the
racer truly was happy for that, misery bled through its shiny paint
job and I could tell that it was very depressed and had been for a
long time.
I heard 52 ask me if I was a race car. I informed it that I really
only performed in street races, but I could race on the track.
"A Superbird, right?"
"Yes, I am."
"You make me feel like a fossil. I actually know quite a bit about
you winged warriors, and how your type could wear the pavement
right off of this track, literally."
"That was back when I was created," I informed.
"Cars now can't even match you," Fifty-two argued my point. "This
track wouldn't even be enough for you. You seem like a good car for
Blake. I'm glad that he can live his dream. I remember Number Seven
and I watching him play with toy race cars when he was young. "Even
though that should have been a happy memory, the old car still
frowned.
Such things seemed painful.
"Number Seven was around then?"
"Yes, Number Seven was a memento from a friend of my former
master's who retired and gave him Number Seven. He passed the car
on to Gary, later. We used to race side-by-side on the track. I
missed those days." Was it me, or was 52 really bent on living in
the past? I knew that those were happy times for it and probably
the prime of its life, but it was wrong for the race car to keep
itself locked in a cage like that.
"You seem to think about them a lot," I hinted my point.
"I do," Fifty-two agreed," I retired too early. I wanted to feel
the wind whip around me, and hear the roar of the engines. I wanted
to feel my tires burn out once more, but…I'll never get that
feeling back," the car frowned. "I'm doomed to depression. The past
is the only thing that makes me happy."
"Isn't that delusion yourself? It just hurts you," I didn't know
how good reasoning would do, but I wanted to try and convince the
racer that its current train of thoughts were very
self-destructive.
"Delusioning myself would be thinking of only the good times
without acknowledging the bad. All of these years, confined under
that tarp…I felt so helpless. I just wanted to die." It was
clear that I wasn't getting through to it. "Fortune, fame and
trophies don't get you happiness."
"I really do wish you could be happy." As much as I felt helpless,
I did want to help the poor car. I wished that King or Nash was
here. They were always good at giving advice and Number 52 seemed
to listen to Nash.
"I'll be happy when I'm dead, not a museum piece in a hall of fame.
I knew that I would end up here, but somehow…I thought it
would be under better circumstances," Fifty-two's disappointment at
the lack of fulfilling its goal in life was overbearing. I could
feel the weight of its burdens and I could help but still think
that it was a very damaging, self-inflicted wound.
"Is it because you were abandon?" I had the feeling that it's
betrayal and utter shun by its master had a lot to do with the fact
that it felt so horrible.
"I don't think you'd feel any different in my position. It wouldn't
hurt so much if my ex-master would come and visit me just once.
It's peaceful here, and everyone is so good to me, but the person I
was created for is living life unaffected by my state of being. He
could care less whether or not I existed…He hates me after I
served him so faithfully….I just…don't know what I did
wrong," Fifty-two was very emotional and sounded as if it were
crying. I'm sure it would be if it were human.
I glanced to the ground for a moment, then back to the crestfallen
race car. "It's not your fault," I tried to comfort Fifty-two by
giving an honest opinion. The blue car accomplished so many things
in its life- more so than King and I combined. It wasn't
Fifty-two's fault that Mr. Seinsnig disowned it, but it was painful
to see it remorse over its master. Fifty-two had such an attachment
to Mr. Seinsnig.
Then again, that was really all it knew.
It was kind of like me. I had to ask myself how I'd feel if Blake
ever felt that way about me. I don't know what I'd do.
"It's not your fault," I repeated myself but Blake was on his way
over, and my attention was redirected at him. I thought he was
going to walk over to me, but he simply drifted past like a leaf in
the wind. Fifty-two seemed a little shocked when he walked over and
stopped at the vintage car.
When the blonde got to the old race car, he smiled, "old Fifty-two,
you still look as good as you do when I was little."
Nostalgia filled Blake's mind as he thought of the memories he had
with both cars, Number 52 and Number Seven. He hugged the race car,
who wore a look of flattery and disbelief. Blue eyes fluttered shut
as my master rested his head behind the car's orange headlight. "I
remember when I used to hug you before a race for good luck. When I
was little, you were my hero and my inspiration for racing. Because
you of, I wanted to drive a race car. I used to think you were the
coolest car ever."
I'm sure if cars could blush, Number 52 would have. The old race
car looked as if it were going to cry. I could tell that it was
overwhelmed with emotion. It finally saw for itself that even
though Mr. Seinsnig had abandon it, that my master wasn't going to
do such a thing.
Blake stood up and smiled lovingly at Number Fifty-two. "Riding
around in you was real fun. I wished dad would have kept you."
A hand was sat on his shoulder as Fifty-two's driver stood slightly
behind him. "You can come and visit Number 52 any time you want. I
take it around the track about twice a month or so unless we have a
car show."
"Really?" Blake's eyes lit up with excitement. "I'll definitely
come by more often. I'd love to see Number 52 again. I kind of miss
it." The boy shot the retired racer a smile.
Fifty-two was moved beyond words that someone had actually wanted
to waste their time on it. Not just any racing fan or passerby, but
a child who used to idolize the racer. The boy showed 52 the love
that it's master could not and did not.
I smiled. See, Number Fifty-two? You're not alone. Someone does
care about you, and I hope that eases the pain that's been bearing
on your axles for all of these years.
Your spirit isn't supposed to die in a junkyard yet. You were meant
to live on and carry out your fame as an idolized legend. I was
just glad that Number 52 could find a sense of happiness in its pit
of despair.
…To Be Continued