Ouran High School Host Club Fan Fiction ❯ Difference. [HikaruxKaoru] ❯ Thoughts. ( Chapter 1 )

Hikaru and I are different.

I love him, and he doesn't love me.

Of course he “loves” me, as in just plain brotherly love, they way an average person may love a best friend.

The “love” that is projected in the host club is just an act.

Sometimes I don't even see the use for it.

I don't want to please girls; I only want to please Hikaru.

That is one of our differences.

He wants to please girls, and make them happy; I just want Hikaru to be happy, and he doesn't think of me like that.

Hikaru and I always have the same thoughts.

So its like I can read him, and I know how he feels.

Hikaru isn't as deep of a thinker as me.

He just thinks we are exactly the same.

He annoys me sometimes.

Like when he compliments me for instance, he is only complimenting himself.

He also has a memory which I can entitle one word; baka.

Some of our most precious memories, he doesn't recall.

It makes me feel as if he doesn't even care.

He probably doesn't.

Sometimes it makes me wonder if-

“Kaoru!” I snap out of my thoughts with the sound of Hikaru's voice.

“Huuuuh?” I say slowly.

“What is wrong with you today?” He asks, “Ever since we left the host club today, you've been staring at me and saying nothing.”

“Hm?” I question, “I guess I wasn't paying attention…”

“Well of course you weren't! It was like you were staring right through me.”

Strange. It is odd for him to notice.

“I was just thinking” I reply.

Hikaru stares at me, I suppose to notice if I repeat my actions. I try to avoid eye contact, so he wont question me. What seems like a timeless void passes with silence.

I am reading a magazine; Hikaru is on the laptop.

“Hey, Kaoru?”

“Hm?” I do not look up.

“What?” I say, getting up, to notice that Hikaru is staring at me.

Hikaru has a look of pure and utter sadness in his eyes.

“Kaoru, did something happen to you?”

My eyes widen.

What? Hikaru is still dwelling on that subject?

“Uh, no” I reply.

Hikaru hugs me.

This surprises me.

“What are you doing, Hikaru?”

“Something is wrong isn't it?” With those words, I can tell that things aren't going to be the same.