Pokemon Fan Fiction ❯ Pokemon Zensho ❯ Chapter 4

This fic is hard to write!
*Phantomness chains Plotbunny up*

Warnings: Shonen-ai Championshipping (Ash x Lance), incest, darkfic, angst

Notes: <> for telepathy, ** for thoughts, italics for pokespeech!

Ash is 14, Lance is 25… not your thing? Don't read!

Chapter 4

 

“Ash, please tell me what's wrong?” He pleaded, as he flew them home on Dragonite after paying the bill. His food had remained almost completely untouched through Ash's entire ordeal, as he was too worried to eat.

What was wrong?

It couldn't just be boredom. Maybe it was just loneliness… but why?

Something was very wrong here. Had Ash been abused as a child? It didn't seem likely, but maybe?

He would investigate then…

 

Ash buried his face in Lance's chest as he began to cry. All the frustration and pent up fear and loneliness came out in a flood, despite his efforts to stem it. * What if I'm not good enough to be Champion? What happens when I lose? I know Gary's happy as gym leader, but what if there's nothing for me to do? I miss my mom… I hate these stupid league rules! I don't like the Plateau; it's so cold and lonely here… I want to go home… What if I'm a bad trainer? Why am I here? Help me, please… *

Lance, meanwhile, was rather shocked. What to do? How to deal with a situation like this? Why didn't' Agatha or Lorelei ever deal with these things?

The front of his bodysuit was getting rather damp… but if he pulled away now, Ash would probably take it as a sign of rejection. He might even start slashing his wrists or something like that! These hormonally unbalanced teenagers…

What to do?

He had no choice but to hold Ash until he calmed down… “Ash…”

Teary brown eyes met his, and before he knew quite what was happening, Ash had kissed him. Their lips were still touching.

What was going on?

True, he did think of the boy as sort of a younger sibling, but!

What was Ash doing?

“Ash… what are you doing?”

 

Curiously blank eyes met his. “I'm a good child, aren't I?”

“Of course you are…” * something is really, really wrong here… *

“Good children should always listen to adults, right?”

“Yes…” * I have a bad feeling about this! How do I snap him out? Or should I just wait for it to go away… * “Then you should go to bed, Ash.”

“Mm… but I don't want to leave.” Ash murmured, clutching onto Lance's waist tightly. “I'll be alone…”

“Ash, please… what's going on here?” He was getting worried. Was this some… well, Ash mentioned being lonely, maybe he had snapped out of his earlier state?

Ash nuzzled his head into Lance's waist, sliding down onto his knees. “Don't want to move…”

His horrible body was betraying him… however, Ash did not seem the least bit worried, more like… concerned?

“Mm… it hurts, doesn't it?”

“What?” He tried vainly to collect his frazzled thoughts. He'd better stop this before it went too far - he was eleven years older than Ash was, after all!

Therefore, it was his duty to take charge.

 

“Stop moving.” He commanded.

Ash did not reply, as his teeth… oh god, his teeth were… what was the boy *doing*? This wasn't normal!
“No…”

“No? I order you to stop!” Lance tried to push Ash off, only to find the boy was quite stronger than he looked. What in Lugia's name was going on here?

What had Delia done to this child!

He really didn't want to know, but now, it seemed the evidence was staring him in the face… Ash finally managed to undo the button and zipper combination on Lance's bodysuit, and was now eying him with a blank, but gleeful expression…and then… something warm and wet touched him there…

This was not good!

However, his mental defenses were rapidly eroding. Pain? He could take that. Pleasure? Not well at all, he'd never exactly experienced gentle touch himself…

“Don't be sad,” Ash smiled innocently, between feathery kisses. “I'll make you happy again, I promise!”

Dear Lugia… his eyes closed with an involuntary shudder as Ash slowly drew him in… please, no… but how do I stop this?

Whatever might have come next was abruptly curtailed as his body froze… his eyes shot wide as lightning blasted through his skull, shivers through his entire frame… it was wrong, it had to be, but why was he even doing this?

He scrambled to his feet as soon as Ash's grip loosened, yanked his pants up, and glared. Ash promptly burst into tears.

Oh dear…

“I-I'm sorry! You can punish me!” He sobbed, as he death-gripped onto Lance's waist again. “I just wanted to make you happy!”

What am I supposed to do? Lance cried mentally. Why me? What just happened here? How do I stop it from happening again?

What do I do now?

 

“Please… let me try again…”

“No! Absolutely not! You are not to do such a thing to me again!” His tone softened as Ash cringed away…

Did he think…? Was this…?

“I'm not going to hit you, Ash.” Bloody hell…

“No! I'm sorry!” Ash placed his hands over his ears and rocked back and forth, incoherently crying…

Guilt began to well up in his heart as he gathered the crying child in his arms. “Shh, shh…” Oh Lugia, what have I *done*!

I'll be as bad as… she was…

No! I can't think about her! Not now, I'm not strong enough to…

His golden eyes focused on Ash. The boy needed him. No one else on the Elite would care if their Champion went mad, or died…

This was how fate worked then? So be it.

Even if it weren't his fault, he had to help somehow. Suffering... emotional pain, a shattered mind, broken… even in a human child, was not good… he didn't kill children.

Ash was the victim here.

He had not exactly taken advantage of the situation, but… he banished that thought and waited for Ash's tears to subside.

I'm so sorry… how can I help if I can't even protect you from my carnal desires? Where are we to go now, Ash? What are we to do?

I do not know…

 

End Chapter

Completed 4/22/05

Author's Notes: Delia sexually abused Ash, as well as emotionally. Whenever he gets too emotional, he retreats into a state where he aims to please the person who's angry with him, through sexual means.

In this story, Lance's human contact was either abusive or impersonal… and having never been through `teen stuff' himself, he's not exactly sure what's going on with Ash… I'm making him Lugia's child, Lugia took care of him for the first ten years of his life, and as you can imagine, that probably wasn't the best upbringing in the world. Chapter 5 will explain a lot of things!