Pretear Fan Fiction ❯ Field Full of Daisies ❯ My Dream Is Another�s Nightmare ( Chapter 7 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

“My dream is another's nightmare. My love is another's hate. My tears are another's joy. My hope is another's heartache. I laugh they frown. I cry they smile. And all the while…we both feel the same way. But all I want is to be set free. Free from this emotion that takes over me. But how could I ever be, when I'm rooted to the ground you see, in this field full of daises.”

-Himeno

Field Full Of Daisies- My Dream Is Another's Nightmare

Kagura yawned on her way down the stairs. “Morning,” she mumbled before seating herself at the breakfast table. Himeno and Sanma stared at her for a while. It really was morning, and Kagura was up. That…was weird. Now that you mention it, she was up early the day before too. Sanma poured her a bowl of burned oatmeal. How the hell did she burn oatmeal? “Thanks.”

“N-No problem.”

“Sasame's family leave already?”

Himeno sighed. “Yeah. They left real early. The flight was cheaper that way. I can't wait until they come back!”

Kagura flinched at the memory of their over humble and loud exterior. “Me…neither,” she said with a crooked smile.

“You're up early,” Himeno mentioned. “…Why?”

“What do you mean why? I have to have a reason?”

“No, it's just…weird.”

“It's because you weren't snoring for once.”

“I snore!” Himeno shrieked.

“It was a joke.” Kagura picked through her burned food as she did every time Sanma cooked and ate what wasn't charcoal. After breakfast was over and everyone was dressed, Sanma sprang some news on them.

“I g-got a call from the ADOC late last night. I a-almost forgot.”

“What'd they want?” Kagura stopped at the door. They were about to go to Yayoi's house.

“They received a call from the hospital in Jyouh. They're going to need you two to come down tomorrow to decide whether they…pull the plug on your father or not. He's been their too long and hasn't shown any signs of waking from his coma. They want to know if they should keep him there any longer since it is his insurance you declined that's paying to keep him there.”

“Can't we just talk to them over the phone,” Kagura asked.

Himeno almost said something in retaliation but all it came out as was a small whimper. Kagura didn't like their father. In fact, she hates him. So much she wished he'd die. When they had first been brought to the hospital when hearing he had fallen into a coma, Himeno remembered crying for hours. Kagura just stood there, barely in the room. She didn't speak, didn't show any emotion toward his death while Himeno sat beside his bed and cried. The nurse would urge her to go approach her father, but Kagura would just move farther away from him. That was, until Himeno stopped crying. They had been informed that visiting hours were over and Himeno was just about to walk out the door when Kagura ran over, jumped on top of Kaoru, and tried suffocating him with his own pillow. I remember, she kept muttering to herself. `If you're going to be useless then die. You're nothing but a stupid drunk. We don't need you!' They wouldn't let her back in for a long time after that, and when they would, she'd refuse to. She'd said if they let her in, she'd kill him. And that's what she's going to do now. She doesn't want to go because she's just going to tell them to pull the plug. She's going to kill her father…and when it comes to certain things, Himeno can't find herself to argue with her because Kagura's more like the parent and the sister. And everything else in between. “I…want to see hi-“

Kagura glared down at Himeno before she could even finish. Himeno didn't bother finishing. Himeno remembered the first time Kagura ever looked at her like that and she knew she hated it when she did. It was more like a warning for Himeno to shut up. “I think that's possible…” Sanma answered a little disappointed. She didn't think they'd not want to see their own father. And on top of that, they're asking his children who probably still hold hostility toward him whether or not they should pull the plug or not. But then again, they were legally women at age sixteen so it's likely they would bother to ask at seventeen. “I'll call them back later tonight.”

“Thanks.” Himeno ran up to her room and slammed the door closed. “Don't mind her. She'll get over it.”

“Don't you think you should consider how she feels?” Sanma asked. “I mean, she's his daughter too. She should have a say in it-“

“But she doesn't. Is that a problem or are you planning on interfering in matters that have nothing to do with you?” Sanma was a little taken back by Kagura's statement. The girl was practically shrinking her under that stare. Those eyes made her look like she was burning in flames on the inside, like they were coming up in her eyes when she'd look at you. Sanma nodded and dismissed herself before she bothered saying anymore. “But-…”

Sanma stopped before she fully walked out of the hallway. “Yes?”

“I…appreciate the concern. It's just, complicated reasoning. Though, under any other circumstances, you'd make a…pretty alright mother…you know…to someone else.” Minus the stuttering and burnt food. …Wait…is it just me…or has Sanma not stuttered the past few minutes. Sanma smiled at the girl before she walked away. Strange woman. But who am I to talk. Maybe I'm just hearing things. Or in this case not hearing things. Kagura walked over to the fridge as people do absentmindedly when they think they're thirsty or hungry. That's when she noticed a large bottle of wine sitting at the bottom of the fridge. It was a gift from Mannen's mother, so Sanma would loosen up a bit more. But Sanma never drank it. And there it sat. And Kagura just stared at it for a while before hastily deciding to close the refrigerator. Not going back to that again. Kagura walked to her room practically laughing at herself. Did I really stare at it that long? It was hard to imagine the girl's thoughts straying when that scene just occurred. She closed her door and immediately hit her foot on something. “OW! What the hell!” Her voice sounded all too loud in that silenced house. Even Himeno's soft crying could be heard through the walls but Kagura had heard it all too often to be phased by it. She picked up the book she hit her foot on and slumped back onto her bed. “Yayoi gave me this…” She flipped through once to see just how big it was. It was pretty big. A waste of time, but then again, Kagura had time to waste. She decided she wouldn't start from the beginning because that would take her forever. So she flipped to a random page a few chapters away from the start and began.

llllllllll(reading)lllllllllll(Lidia- Okay, this part, I need to explain. I can't just go around calling them Sound Knight And Wind Princess the entire time. I have to call them by their real life counterparts alright. Don't get confused and think this actually happened. Kagura's reading it as Knights and Princesses okay? I don't know, maybe some made up name. In actuality the book is written all flowery and surreal, like Yayoi's romantic rants. I just made it a little easier to read. The stuff underlined is what Kagura's thinking. Okay, Read on.)

“Are you alright!” Sasame asked worriedly. Kagura propped herself up on her elbows and turned to look at him with a small grin. “I could be better. Next time I'll wait for the others before rushing into things. I really shouldn't have forced you to go with me,” she apologized. Soon her arms gave way and she collapsed her upper body onto the floor. Sasame rushed to her side. His pain was ignorable. It was only minor anyway. She had been hurt way before Saame had come in to help her. “It's not your fault,” he excused. While at the same time he sat down and scooped her into his lap. “You couldn't have known the seed would show up here.”

“I should have heard it coming. Then I went and got you hurt. I'm sor-“

“Stop apologizing,” he shushed. “You're more hurt then I am. I haven't the right to complain.” Kagura leaned into his hold around her and turned her head to the side to smile at him. “You're too kind. It's I that shouldn't be wasting your time.”

“I should take you back,” he sighed. Sasame was about to move but Kagura stopped him. “I don't want to. I want to stay here.” She sunk a little deeper as if she were slumping herself on a sofa. “I like it here…like this better. I'm tired of being locked up in that castle.”

“It's because she's lurking around here somewhere. Her and her seeds. I can't let you stay out here. We have to go back to Leafenia.” They sat there for a while in that vast field of sun colored flowers. Mainly because Kagura wouldn't move. Sasame tried to hoist her up again and she sunk deeper until she was sure she was too comfortable to move, and the pain in her body couldn't be felt. “Kagura…stop being difficult.”

“Stop being so worried. Nothing's going to happen as long as you're here right?” Sasame stared down at her a while, then smiled. He nuzzled his face in between her face and neck, resting his chin there as she attempted to fall asleep. “No, nothing's going to happen to you. Not while I'm here. Not ever.” He decided he'd let her stay here until she fell asleep, then take her back when she'd be less trouble. But just when he thought she was falling asleep, she spoke again. “These flowers, they really are pretty. But they're all the same. They bore me. So why is it, that over in the shade by those two trees, there's a red and pink one. There's another yellow one that stands tall with them too. I can't notice it so much from here but still. Those three don't belong all the way out here.”

Sasame noticed what she was talking about, and indeed, they did look awkward there. But still… “Flowers that beautiful belong where ever they want to. Compared to everything else, it's they who belong here. Besides, why would they want to grow in a place where they aren't noticed?”

Kagura laughed a little. “I should have expected you to say something like that.” Then she turned and wrapped her arms around his neck. “You shouldn't move like that. You'll aggravate the wounds you already have.”

“You can take me back now.”

“Tired already? Alright.” He picked her up off the floor.

“I'm not tired, but it's still best if I go back. I wouldn't want to worry you anymore than I already have. You won't leave me will you?” Sasame was a little surprised but laughed.

“No. I'll stay with you until you get better.”

“Does that imply you'll leave me after I'm better?”

“I'll stay after that too. Just take a nap on the way there alright?”

Sasame didn't have to repeat himself. She had already fallen asleep. She had a tendency to falling asleep in his arms, with her face awkwardly pressed into the robes of his knight attire. Or at least, at times it was awkward for him anyway. It was always his lower stomach and the fact that she came so close to…it made him uncomfortable. Then there were times when he got so used to it, he didn't care. “Let's go home.”

Great, Yayoi gave me mushy crap. Where's the blood and gore? Just flip to something else Kagura.

“So that's it?” Himeno asked. Her head lowered and she stared at the floor. “That's all you have to say to me? `I'm glad you're alright'? That's it!” Small tears fell from her eyes. “Takako was right…you are different. You don't understand anything.” Hayate froze in his footsteps before turning around and walking back toward her. His face looked furrowed in anger but Himeno couldn't see that because she was staring at the floor. Not that she didn't expect it, and not that she couldn't hear him coming. Before he got any closer, she shouted, “Stay away from me!” Then she ran.

“Wait!”

Himeno kept running. She didn't stop until she found Kagura. “Kagura,” she cried, practically throwing herself at the girl.

“What's wrong?”

“I-It's Hayate…he's being such a jerk again.”

“…”

“Kagura?”

“Are you really crying over him? What did he do? Just shout at you again? If it hurts your feelings so much that you have to cry about it then stop complaining to me and go cry to him.”

“K-..but-“

“You're just making excuses to run away from him. I know you like him. So just tell him instead of waiting for him to open his mouth first.” Kagura pulled Himeno away from her and smiled. Himeno had stopped crying and just stared at the woman. “What are you waiting for? Go.”--------

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Kagura could hear that someone had knocked on the door and she walked down to see who it was. But then she heard Himeno's crying and stopped at the stairs. “What the-? Let go of me tulip head.”

Himeno kept crying madly, staining his shirt in her tears. “It's not fair! I want to see him so much and she's going to kill him!”

“I don't…know…what you're talking about.” Himeno kept crying like she couldn't hear him. His face turned red and he looked away from her. “S-…Stop crying.”

“I can't…I want my daddy.”

“Daddy?” Kagura's going to kill her father? And Himeno might just be serious, I mean, Kagura is in a gang.

“They've called back,” Sanma interrupted. “They wish to speak with one of you.”

Hayate froze. Hey. She's not stuttering.

Kagura moved from her position on the stairs and walked toward the phone. Himeno tore away from Hayate's loose sympathetic grasp to chase after her sister. Kagura grabbed the phone from Sanma, who had walked away to leave the girls alone. Not too long after Kagura said `Hello,' Himeno came stumbling onto Kagura. She was a little caught off guard by the speed in which Himeno showed up. The tulip sunk down to her knees, grasping Kagura's leg with a death grip. “Please don't! Kagura, I want to see him. Please! Don't kill our dad!”

Hayate was a little surprised by Himeno's outburst. He'd never really her seen her like this. Not happy. “Let go of me,” Kagura muttered after she covered the phone.

Himeno cried and ran back into the living room, returning her hold on Hayate. “Just stand up to your sister.”

“…You wouldn't understand…I can't. But-…I don't want her to kill our dad. That's the only family we have left.”

“So as we hear it, you'd like to make your decision over the phone? So what is it? Should we pull the plug?” Kagura tried listening to the woman on the phone but all she could hear were Himeno's pathetic cries to Hayate. What the hell did he ever do for her that she's still hanging onto him so much. Just the mere mention of his name made her sick. But…“Don't kill our dad!” “Hello? Is anyone there?” Kagura snapped out of her thoughts when she realized she was still on the phone. “Pull it…” Obviously Himeno could hear her because her crying grew louder. “But…” ……………

Kagura walked back out of the hall when she was done on the phone. “That really wasn't your decision to make Kagura. Whoever he is, he's her father too.”

“Hayate don't-“

“Whatever happens between me and my sister have nothing to do with you, baka,” she smiled.

“What…did you say?” Himeno asked.

“I told them to pull it.” Kagura cut her off before she began weeping madly again. “But, they're not going to do it until we get there. So…get something so you won't be bored tomorrow. It's a long car ride. Tell Sanma. I'm going for a walk.” The way Kagura spoke, the expression on her face…she seemed happy about it. The door closed and Himeno backed away from Hayate.

“I'm sorry…It's just-“

“You don't have to apologize. It's alright.” Himeno still looked depressed and Hayate remembered, he used to look the same way. Crying like a small child. He wanted to make her…happy. He knew it wasn't nice having your family die. Then it hit him. Why'd I come here in the first place? “Hey…You want to watch TV?” He'd remember later.

“Uh, yeah.” Himeno wiped her face and smiled at him.

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It had gotten late. Hayate could see darkness had fallen outside through the window. He didn't know what time it was exactly but he could venture a guess that his mother was probably angry. He pulled the cover that he assumed Sanma had put on them when they fell asleep and tried getting off the sofa. Unfortunately, Himeno was sprawled across him and he couldn't have gotten up without waking her. Then he remembered that he had fallen asleep trying to figure out how to get her off in the first place. So it's the tulip head's fault I'm going to get in trouble. Mom won't buy it. He stared down at her for a while. Her hair was messy and hanging in her face, dried tears stuck to her face, but she slept with a small smile on her face. Just as he was about to try and wake her, the house door opened and closed. “Who's-“

“You're still here?”

“You're just getting home?”

“So what if I am? Heh, you fell asleep on the sofa? You should go home. Your mom's waiting for you.” Kagura walked over and lifted Himeno off of him. “God, she needs to lay off the heavy food.”

“My mom told you to come and get me?”

“No. But I saw a light on in the house and she seemed like the type that would be over concerned. Lock the door on your way out.” Kagura walked up the stairs.”

Hayate locked the door and walked home. The front door had been left unlocked. He walked in and the room was dark. Great, she's going to pop up out of no where and s-

“What were you doing out so late!”

-scare me! “I was at Sanma's, mom”

“I sent you hours ago!” She repeatedly smacked him over the head as she shouted at him. “You should never worry me like that! I waited for you all night---“

Hayate grabbed his mother in a hug. “I'm sorry.”

Ayanami was surprised at first but hugged her son back. “It's fine. But you're still grounded. Now go get some sleep.”

“Grounded? You now how to ruin a moment.”

“I said go! Don't you talk back to me!”

Kagura sat beside her window staring down into their living room window, watching the scene. For a moment, Hayate noticed her up there and stared at her, until his mother hit him on the head with a magazine again. Kagura smiled and collapsed onto her bed. Himeno had never awakened so Kagura laid the girl in her own room. “Tomorrow's really gonna suck…”

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Himeno took the necklace out of her drawer and put it on. Inside the heartshaped locket was a picture of her, Kagura, their father, and mother. “Hi mom! We're going to go see dad today for the first time since forever! Can you believe Kagura actually said we can go?” Her expression became a little sad but still held a smile. “And, Hayate told me something yesterday mom…”

(flash back)

“I know what it's like not to have a mom or dad…”

“…What? I mean, I've never seen your dad but Ayanami's your mom-“

“No she isn't. I mean, true she raised me as well as any mom would which is why I refer to her as such, and Sasame's been the closest thing to a brother I'm ever going to get but really, that's just my aunt and cousin. My actually parents and Sasame's dad were driving to my old home in Jyouh when they crashed into a drunk driver and spun off the bridge. All three of them died on impact.”

(end)

“He looked so sad mom. But he smiled for me anyway. Hayate really is a good person. So, why do so many bad things happen to people who don't deserve it?”

Kagura knocked on the door. “We're leaving. Let's go.” Himeno came jogging out of her room and followed Kagura down to the car. The car drive to Jyouh took forever! Then the wait in the lobby took even longer. Just when Himeno thought she would die of boredom in her seat one of the nurse's came out. “You can see him now,” she smiled. The two immediately recognized her. What was she doing here! Dressed in the nurse uniform! She couldn't possibly be working here! There stood Narusue Kogo, the head of the richest family in Japan. Mawata, who Kagura had met some time ago, was the woman's daughter. Mayune graduated already and is in her first year of college, which is why they'd never met her. They paused and stared at the woman before following her to Kaoru's room.

“I-I'll just w-wait out h-here,” Sanma smiled. Hospitals always made her nervous, no matter how many times she's been to them.

The woman showed to Kaoru's room where he slept. He looked no different then when they'd first seen him there, except all of his injuries were gone. The sound of his heart rate machine beeped. Kagura and Himeno stared at the wires hooked to him. There was a doctor in the room, ready to pull the plug after the girls were done. I can't even stand to look at him…Kagura glared at him before looking away. “Hurry up so they can get the body out of the room and an actual patient in here.”

Narusue was shocked to hear how she referred to her father as `the body'. “I don't think you should talk about your father like that.”

Kagura was already irritated. Hearing someone tell her what to do was the last thing she needed. She smirked at the woman. “Fuck you your highness. Just because you're rich doesn't mean you own me. I'll talk about him however I want to-“

“Kagura, don't be rude,” Himeno spoke from Kaoru's bedside. Then she turned to her father's sleeping body. “She didn't mean it dad. Kagura really does miss you, deep down.”

“To hell if I do.”

“I did say `deep down' didn't I?” Himeno smiled. “But even if she doesn't, I do. I just…wish you would wake up…so we can all go home.” Himeno's eyes built up with water. “Not that Sanma isn't good to us because she is. Really. And our neighbors are great too. But…I miss how it used to be before.” Himeno leaned her head over his chest and started crying again. Again as in it was just like before when they were younger. Except this time Himeno wasn't as loud about it.

But Kagura still couldn't stand it. Why does she keep crying over that bastard drunk? He did this to himself. This is just what he gets for being a crappy father. “You can pull it now. She's going to cry either wa---“

The beeping grew louder and Narusue shrieked. “Oh my god!”

“Go get Kaoru's doctor for this unit.”

“What's going…on,” Himeno sniffled.

“His heart rate's changed. He's showing positive signs of waking up,” the doctor smiled. “We're no longer aloud to pull the plug or it would be considered murder on our part.”

“H-He's really going to wake up!” Himeno smiled.

Kagura, on the other hand, held a blank expression. “Not at this very moment, no. But at least we can see that it's a possibility now.”

The Kaoru's personal doctor entered and told the two girls they would have to leave. Once they were out of the room, Himeno was full of excitement. “Can you believe it Kagura! He's really going to wake up!”

“You heard the man. He said it was a possibility. Don't get too excited.”

“…Why do you hate him so much that you'd rather see him dead? He's your father Kagura…”

“I just don't get why you don't hate him. You just don't get it, even now. My father died when mom did. He wasn't the same person anymore. He became a drunk, not a father. He doesn't deserve your tears but you cry for him anyway. And that I will never understand, so I won't try to.” Himeno stared at her for a while. She seemed as if she were about to say something, but Kagura cut her off. “Let's go. It's a long car ride back. And we shouldn't make Sanma wait.”

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It had been a week since the day they visited their father. It was lunch time on an exciting Monday, though, Kagura didn't exactly know what made it so exciting. “A lot of people are whispering laughing,” Kagura noticed. “I wonder what's going on.”

“Whispering? Who?” Himeno looked around.

“Aye. Maybe it's nothing important. It's just the problem students talking anyway. I doubt it's important.” Kagura leaned back up against the tree they ate under.

“I hear it's some kind of gang recruit,” Hayate muttered in between bites.

Kagura sighed. “Some people are so stupid. Gangs are over rated.”

Hayate and Sasame stared at her. Wasn't she in one?

“Yeah, only the dumbest idiots would join a gang. I mean you can have only half a brain and know it's still a stupid idea.”

“We get it Hayate,” Sasame smiled nervously.

Himeno and Kagura just kept eating as if he weren't talking but Yayoi was clueless. “I guess it's not that stupid. Some people go for different reasons.”

“Different stupid reasons.” Hayate was just saying it to try and get a reaction of some sort from Kagura but the girl…actually nodded in agreement with him.

“It's really stupid. But I know Himeno wouldn't do anything like that.”

“Nuh uh,” Himeno answered. Then Hayate and Sasame were really staring.

She acts like she's never been in one!

Just then, Kyoko walked up. “Hello Same-chan!”

“H-Hello,” he froze in place. That voice always found a way of sneaking up on him and scaring him. “Guess what I went out and did yesterday!”

“Are you really going to make him guess? I doubt he wants to tell you what he's really thinking.”

Kyoko ignored Kagura and pulled the back of her shirt up. They all stared at her for a moment. “Isn't it cool!” There was a large Tokian Saint tattoo on her lower back. She pulled her shirt back down and smiled at them. They stared at her. “They liked me and said I joined.”

“That's…a Saint tattoo? You're joking right?” Hayate stared at her.

“It has to be a temp. The Saint's wouldn't hold a recruit with Ma…-their leader in prison.”

“That's just it. He gets out in a week. They're recruiting now so when he gets out, he can choose someone to replace Knoc…something.”

“Knoctern?” they all asked. Yayoi just sat there, not knowing what they were talking about.

“Yeah. That's it. He's totally going to pick me. I've seen the guy who runs things before. He's so hot! Of course, I'll still always love you Same-chan!”

Gets out in a week? It has to be a rumor. Someone would have told me. “So you think…they're going to choose you of all people to replace the most infamous gang leader in all of the Saints?”

Over exaggerating her title a bit, don't you think? “She couldn't have been that great,” Hayate smirked.

“What hole have you been living in? She is the greatest Saint ever. But then she punked out and quit. So they killed her. I'm going to be better!”

“Killed her?”

“Yeah. You can't just leave. You're in it `til you die. Try and leave. They'll beat you near death then stab you. But that's not the point. That doesn't mean they're going to pick you to replace her.”

“Sure they will. It's not like replacing a wimp who tried to leave and got herself killed is going to be that hard.”

Kagura stared at her for a while. “Kagura?” Himeno asked concerned. But that concern soon disappeared to surprise when Kagura burst into insane laughter. She was practically crying. “What's so funny?” Kagura looked up from the floor and replied `Life.'

When the two got home, there was a strange red envelope lying on the front porch. “Hey, Kagura. You got mail,” Himeno said, a little surprised. She lifted it off the floor and handed it to her. “Who's Psy?”

“…How am I supposed to know.” Kagura folded it up, shoved it in her back pocket, and walked inside. So he is getting out.