Prince Of Tennis Fan Fiction ❯ Learning To Land ❯ Learning to Land by Suteishichic. Chapter One Hundred Eight ~ Mukahi ( Chapter 110 )
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By: suteishichic 
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Anime/Manga: Prince Of Tennis Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 08.25.2007 | Pages: 5 | Words: 6.4K | Visits: 230 | Status: Work In Progress
Learning to Land by Suteishichic. Chapter One Hundred Eight ~ Mukahi
Warnings: Yaoi, Love, Angst, Fluff, and Lots of Sex. Some kink. You've been warned ;)
Disclaimer: Nope not mine. Still in my dreams. ;)
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"Before you do what you wanna do to me, will you do me a favor? Please?" Gakuto added the please
so Yuushi knew he was serious. He wasn't joking around about this.
"Of course." Yuushi agreed without even asking what he was gonna have to do. He answered so fast it
made Gakuto feel kinda stupid...but this was important. It was something Gakuto had never been able
to do with anyone else. At least, not without feeling terrified.
Gakuto figured that maybe, just maybe if he could do this with Yuushi, he would never feel scared like
that again. He would never feel afraid again. Not of anything. Yeah. That would be nice. Well actually,
that would be...really amazing. He would be...Gakuto realized to himself, he would be...free.
Okay, that sounded stupid. Especially when he thought the words out in his head before saying them to
Yuushi...but even if it sounded stupid, it was true. True and important. Still, Gakuto felt kinda dumb
even asking Yuushi the super tensai brainiac genius to do anything as stupid-sounding as this.
Gakuto sighed and tried to find a way to ask that didn't sound quite so lame, "Look...it's kinda stupid,
and it's not somethin I'm good at, but Yuushi? You know, it's really not a big thing, but I wanna try this.
With you. Will you...?" He laughed at himself, and felt his face flushing with embarrassment, "Gods,
this is stupid. I know it is. It's really gonna seem dumb and you don't have to do it if you don't wanna
but..."
He sighed again and tried to spit it out. Really Gakuto was trying to get this over with, but the words
wouldn't come easily so he rushed what he was trying to say, "Look, I know this is gonna seem totally
idiotic and completely pointless to someone as smart as you, but anyway will you just lay on topa me
and hold me for a minute or two? And not do anything else but hold me? You know, kinda...in like...a
hug, but while you're laying down on topa me?"
Yuushi didn't respond.
Gakuto waited for Yuushi to make a joke or crack some bad pun. Hell, Gakuto could think of fifty jokes
about this without even trying. He held his breath waiting for the tensai to ask a few well phrased
questions in that all too-serious way Yuushi just sorta had. The same way the tensai would often
question one of their classmates or teammates whenever someone said or did something really stupid.
Yuushi turned it into a hilarious game that up until now, Gakuto always loved.
Yuushi would ask the moron of the day a series of dryly phrased "inquiries" that in the end exposed just
how stupid the person was. The tensai made Gakuto crack up at least once a day doing this. Gakuto
would laugh even harder because as he and Yuushi walked away together he would ask why the tensai
bothered asking such a stupid person anything at all. With a sober expression Yuushi would sigh
dramatically and say something like, "I merely tried to ascertain proof of his idiocy."
It really was hysterically funny the deadpan way the tensai delivered the punchline. You had to be there
to truly appreciate it, and Gakuto really did.
But now, it wasn't so funny. In fact Gakuto had this dreadful sinking feeling that any second Yuushi
was gonna raise his one eyebrow, or make that certain smirk, or stretch his face into that horrible
straight-man mask signaling the puns, jokes, or questions were about to begin.
Or maybe even worse the tensai would do what he did when he seemed to be humoring one of their
teachers by being sincere--but if you knew the tensai like Gakuto did, only then would you know
Yuushi was just being a completely sarcastic bastard. The best part usually was even their stupid
moronic teachers weren't smart enough to get the tensai's jokes. Only Gakuto really was. They shared
so many jokes like that together. Just the two of them.
He was so used to it that inwardly Gakuto cringed expecting Yuushi to do something like that now.
Something along those lines.
Do something. Say something. Anything.
After a pause of about thirty seconds while he probably figured out where Atlantis was located, all
Yuushi did was say, "Of course, I'll be happy to indulge you. So, precisely how would you like me to
position myself?" Yuushi moved so he was above Gakuto but off him. Like the tensai was up in the
start of a push up, "Is this acceptable? And would you prefer it if I put on clothing, or shall I bring you
your underwear or other clothing for this?"
Oh. Gakuto kinda forgot he was naked. Damn, he kinda forgot Yuushi was naked too. Well it's not so
much that he forgot, because they'd been naked and touching each other basically all night, but by now
it just kinda felt normal.
It was kinda weird because he was usually not one to walk around with no clothes on but with Yuushi,
Gakuto often forgot that he was naked. That they both were. A lot. Not that Gakuto minded. Yuushi was
pretty hot. And if how much the tensai touched Gakuto was any indication, Yuushi enjoyed them being
nude a lot too.
It was comfortable even if it was something new. And as for the touching, well no one ever touched
Gakuto like this before. Gakuto woulda said before this that he wasn't a touchy-feely kinda guy, but the
truth was he really liked it. It was fun and hot, but that was probably because it was totally different
with Yuushi. Before guys had touched Gakuto always for a reason. Either they wanted sex and a little
fun or they touched Gakuto to show other people that Gakuto was theirs.
But Yuushi didn't really touch Gakuto in front of other people. At least not any more or any less than
normal.
And when they were alone, the tensai touched Gakuto as if he liked it. It was kinda like Yuushi wanted
to explore his new roommate's entire body and was tryin to find every place on his body that gave
Gakuto pleasure. He touched Gakuto as if the tensai loved the feel of Gakuto's skin beneath his fingers
and like Yuushi couldn't get enough of touching Gakuto.
He touched Yuushi back too. All the time. All night he had been. He wasn't even completely aware of
how much he'd been doing it but now that he wasn't touching Yuushi, the space between their bodies
felt...wrong. Like they should always be touching.
And they had been. All night Gakuto constantly ran his hands all over the tensai's skin while they
talked. He just kinda liked how soft Yuushi's skin felt. Soft but strong. Not squishy or girlie soft. It was
soft skin, but nice and firm over hard, strong muscles almost coiled beneath.
Yuushi's body and his skin felt different from anyone Gakuto had known before, but it felt so right to
touch. Like it was what Gakuto always wanted to touch even if he never knew it before and never
thought about it before. Now looking back everyone else Gakuto touched and kissed girls, guys, Sato,
Taki, and even Azukizawa felt wrong and foreign. Gakuto wondered if it was some tensai trick Yuushi
developed so that even if somehow Gakuto left him, no one else would ever feel good or right again. It
wasn't fair unless he could find some way to make it be the same for Yuushi if the tensai was lying
earlier and did ever try to leave him.
Just the thought hurt, so Gakuto went back to looking at the tensai, admiring him, and wanting to get
them back to the place where they were both touching each other.
Yuushi was a pleasant balance of contrasts and textures. Soft skin over strong muscle controlled by that
gigantic gargantuan brain, and beneath it all lay hidden a too soft, too gentle heart. And only Gakuto
knew this. Only he knew exactly what the tensai was like. Only he knew all the Yuushis.
Only he was right for Yuushi and it was looking more and more like only Yuushi was right for him.
After all, empirically speaking, the tensai's body really was perfect. Looking down his cut body
hovering over him all Gakuto could think was...damn, Yuushi was hot. The tensai's huge erection
bobbed nice and hard and looking tantalizingly delicious. It was hovering over Gakuto and practically
staring at him.
Any other guy this big and Gakuto would be nervous or turned off kinda, but with Yuushi, all Gakuto
felt was want. He wanted to touch it. Taste it. Gakuto wanted to touch Yuushi more and watch those too
smart tensai thoughts fly out of his head. He wanted to taste Yuushi while looking up into his eyes and
watch that too turned on Yuushi hot look come over him while he hummed in pleasure. Gakuto wanted.
Right now.
He almost didn't wanna wait any longer for them to get to the good stuff or even to do this anymore.
Yuushi didn't seem to mind when Gakuto softly ran his hands all over his body. Gakuto touched his
hands to the tensai's chest and slid them down his sides. Over his muscles and his ribcage. Back up
over his cut stomach and chest. Down again a little further this time. Down over his hips. Back up and
feeling his hard nipples. The deep wells of his collar bones. Down his strong cut arms.
The tensai shivered from his touch like Yuushi liked more touching too. Wanted it. Needed it.
It was kinda new for Gakuto to wanna touch someone like this. You know, wherever Gakuto felt like
touching. Knowing he could touch without worrying that the person would think he was strange or not
like it. Yuushi actually really seemed to love whenever Gakuto touched and licked and explored his
bare skin. It was kinda nice.
Sato woulda never let Gakuto touch him like this or do any of this stuff. Not that Gakuto wanted to, but
still Sato never woulda let him do these kinda things. Stupid Sato was scared to death someone would
think he was gay--even though the bastard really was just into guys.
The one time Sato was with a girl, that bitch Naomi at the sharing, he complained to Gakuto how bad
she was for days after. What Sato didn't know was that night Naomi complained to Gakuto about Sato.
She flat-out told Gakuto how bad Sato was in bed. She laughed and whispered conspiratorially how she
was sure it was Sato's first time with a girl. She said she didn't even think Sato liked girls. She laughed
and said how Sato really had no clue what to do. Naomi described how Sato seemed okay while he put
the condom on so it looked like he had done that before, but then the moron didn't know what to do
after. She snickered how he kept trying to have anal sex with her and tried to stretch her vagina like it
was a butt until she finally stopped him. She cackled and told Gakuto she had to show Sato where to
stick his flaccid penis. That she had to talk dirty to him about guys she fucked earlier in the night and
things about gay sex to get Sato to orgasm.
She went on and on until after listening mostly stunned, finally Gakuto laughed. The bitch saying all
that bad stuff about Sato was the only way Gakuto got through the sex with her that first time. Her
jokes about Sato relaxed him enough to be able to get Naomi off before he faked his own orgasm.
Condoms were good for that because Gakuto was pretty sure now Naomi had no clue he faked. Either
time.
Because that second time, with Yuushi, he only got through it because Yuushi needed him. Thinking
about Yuushi needing him made Gakuto feel a sudden spread of that strange orgasm warmth in the
middle of his chest. At the same time, remembering it was almost a preview of how hot he and Yuushi
would be when they finally did have sex. Thinking of that made some of the warmth turn into heat and
race between Gakuto's legs again. It was gonna be so good. They were gonna be so damn good together
if they could just get there.
The tensai cleared his throat softly as if gently reminding Gakuto he was waiting in this awkward
position and probably had been for a minute or two while Gakuto lost himself in his thoughts. Yuushi
was so strong he was holding himself up high with all his muscles flexed and not shaking at all. It was
like the tensai was saying he could keep this up all night if Gakuto wanted him to. Which made Gakuto
think hot nasty thoughts wondering what else Yuushi could do all night if Gakuto wanted him to. And
Gakuto did want. Yuushi's position over him was too high and all wrong, but feeling all that heat and
thinking of doing all kinds of sex things with the naked tensai made Gakuto feel a little dizzy in a good
way.
Gakuto felt turned on and happy instead of his usual annoyed when someone didn't do things right.
"Uh...no, I...this is okay, Yuushi. Just...come here..." He reached up to put his hands on the tensai's
strong shoulders. He pulled Yuushi down and more on top of him so now Gakuto was almost covered
by the tensai's nude body.
Almost because Yuushi was still up on his elbows over him. Most of the tensai's skin was not touching
Gakuto's so it wasn't yet right. Still, Yuushi acted like doing this was normal. All of it. Like this was
something the tensai was asked to do every day, and even though it wasn't and it was something stupid,
it felt good that Yuushi didn't crack any jokes yet.
Gakuto had a thought that maybe he should hurry so Yuushi didn't. Quickly Gakuto arranged them so
Yuushi's legs were between his by picking his hips up and lifting his legs. He pushed Yuushi's knees to
the bed by putting his feet on them and gently pressing down. When Gakuto rolled his hips down, his
heart started beating a little faster.
This was more of what he meant so Gakuto rushed forward, "Okay. Like this, and then if you could just
lay down more on topa me with your all weight on me. All the way. Then just kinda hold me for a
minute. I know it's stupid, but would you do it anyway?"
"Of course," Yuushi said mildly as if Gakuto was asking for something sane. Or even normal. The
tensai very slowly lowered his body down onto Gakuto's. Yuushi slid his hands up to Gakuto's
shoulders and he rested them lightly there.
Gakuto nervously waited. Something was wrong because nothing else was happening.
Clearing his throat again, the tensai asked, "Would you like me to kiss you? That of course, I would
never mind..." Yuushi said it as if he'd never kissed Gakuto before but always wanted to.
It made Gakuto smile and look up into the tensai's eyes for the first time in a while. He swallowed hard
feeling nervous, "No. This is okay. Just...you can put your weight on me more."
Yuushi's skin was touching his, but the tensai was still holding most of his weight off of Gakuto. It
wasn't right yet because even though Gakuto's heart was beating fast like a drum roll, nothing else was
going on. For a moment, Gakuto hoped maybe his heart racing like after he did an acrobatic workout
was all that would happen with the tensai. Maybe the rest just never would. Maybe this was different.
The tensai said, "I don't want to crush you..."
Annoyed now and feeling frustrated because he didn't know exactly what would happen, Gakuto said,
"You won't. I'm not a doll and I'm strong. Go on. Lay down on me." He added so he didn't hurt Yuushi's
feelings, "Just go ahead. Do it, Yuushi. Please?"
"All right, my prince. As you wish..." Yuushi brushed his lips across Gakuto's forehead before he
lowered the rest of his weight.
As the tensai's body pressed down on his, Gakuto reflexively sucked in a deep gasp of air. He held it in
like before he dove into deep water when he was unsure of when he could draw his next breath. He felt
Yuushi's now familiar body on his. Everything, 'logically' as Yuushi would say, was normal. It was
Yuushi's same old soft skin and it felt like it was the same temperature Yuushi normally was. Gakuto
knew if he could just exhale and inhale normally, he would smell only the good, clean, same old scent
of the tensai's skin. It was still Yuushi.
Just Yuushi.
Nothing unusual about this.
They'd probably even done this before when they were kissing and fooling around and stuff. Still,
Gakuto's heart beat faster and faster even while he thought furiously to himself that all of this was
normal. Normal people, normal couples, they did things like this all the time.
This was Yuushi. Yuushi wouldn't hurt him. Not now. Not ever.
But it wouldn't stop. Gakuto's heart banged faster and faster like a hummingbird's after downing ten
cups of coffee. So fast he was feeling dizzy and despite the fear that was rolling around his belly,
Gakuto's erection throbbed and a parta him ached to be kissed and touched more just because it was
Yuushi's body on his. It was Yuushi. Just Yuushi.
Gakuto exhaled slowly. He tried to breathe in normally. Just the tensai's smell. His skin. His warmth.
His touch. His weight. It was okay. Yuushi was laying on top of him, pressing down on him, and
Gakuto's heart was speeding faster and faster like a bullet train, but it was okay. Nothing else was
happening. It was all right.
But then...it hit.
That hideous, brutal fear slammed into Gakuto from what felt like out of nowhere.
The ugly terror and sheer panicky feeling rose with bile in the back of his throat making a scream
impossible. He couldn't take a breath. He couldn't make a sound.
This was it. This would never go away. He could never escape. He was being held down. He was being
smothered. He was in terrible, grave danger, and nothing could save him. Nothing would ever be
normal. He would never be free. It was going to always be like this. He would never be able to be
normal with anyone. He was always going to feel this way. Gakuto gasped for breath, but couldn't find
any air. He couldn't breathe. He couldn't move. He was being held down. He could never get free. They
would never let him go. He couldn't do anything but wait for the worst that was to come and he
whimpered in pain...
In an instant, Yuushi's weight was offa him and the tensai was kissing his forehead, his cheek, his neck.
Yuushi cradled him close and said softly, "Gakuto? Breathe Gakuto. You're all right. You're safe.
Breathe slowly. That's it. I love you, Gakuto. I will never hurt you. No one will ever hurt you again. I
love you. You're safe, Gakuto. I'm going to keep you safe. It's okay. You're all right..."
"I'm fine!" Gakuto said angry and annoyed by his stupid self. Hot angry tears blinded his sight for a
moment and he blinked them away. He didn't want the stupid tensai to mistakenly blame himself or
think he'd done anything wrong though. "S...sorry. I'm sorry, Yuushi. I just...this is stupid. It was really
stupid, I know. I told you it was gonna be really stupid!"
"I'm sorry." Gakuto's chin was trembling and his throat was tight from that held back scream mixed
with fresh tears he struggled to hold back. He took a shuddery breath in and tried to breathe it out
slowly, "I just kinda thought...I...I thought it would be kinda..." Gakuto looked for the words, but
nothing really explained how he was feeling or why he felt trembly and like sobbing his heart out. "I
just...I thought it would be different with you. I'm sorry, it was stupid and...I...I kinda...I dunno...I guess
I just..." He closed his eyes and nuzzled closer to Yuushi to feel the warmth of the tensai's skin. Gakuto
whispered softly, "I really wanted it to be different with you..."
Yuushi kissed his cheek and slid his warm hands in a caress up Gakuto's naked back, "It wasn't stupid,
and it is different with me."
Gakuto shook his head and went to protest that no, it was pretty much exactly like this every other time
he tried it with any other person--even girls. Although, when he thought of saying how even girls
scared him, Gakuto decided not to admit any of those facts. Not even to Yuushi.
Before he could explain Yuushi insisted, "It is different with me, Gakuto. I can show you, but we have
to try it another way. You had the right idea, and I am amazed and impressed that you previously
attempted this, however it could not be successful simply because you left out the most important three
parts..."
Gakuto looked up at Yuushi. The tensai looked down at him all lovey and happy while Gakuto just felt
miserable and still panicky. He wondered why the hell Yuushi was so happy. He wondered how the hell
the tensai knew he tried this before. Of course when he tried it in the past with other people, Gakuto hid
not only what he was trying to do but his freaked out reactions too. He yelled at the person and said
they were crushing him. Or sometimes he would be mad at something they were doing too forceful that
he didn't like. Or he said and did other things--whatever came to mind so they stopped. And in all that
time no matter who he was with, not once did anyone ever notice.
No one else ever even knew what the hell he was doing--let alone figured out how to fix it. Stupid
tensai with a ridiculously enormous brain. It just sometimes wasn't fair. Curious even though he was
still annoyed, Gakuto had to ask, "What three parts?"
Yuushi kissed his forehead, "One is you like me and trust me. You know me and you know I will never
hurt you. This is very important." Yuushi kissed his cheek and then his eye. All swirly the tensai kissed
on his eyelid and Gakuto only just shut it in time to avoid getting his eyeball licked. The tensai said,
"Two is I know you. Almost all of you rather intimately. I understand how you feel and I understand
you. I know you, Mukahi Gakuto. I know who you are and I love you. That is also very important."
The tensai kissed across to Gakuto's other eye. When he was done kissing there, he held Gakuto's face
in his hands and stopped. Even with his eyes shut Gakuto knew Yuushi was staring down at him all
adoringly and waiting until Gakuto opened his eyes to look up at him.
Yup. The tensai with his colossal brain was staring down all lovey and dopey at him. You really
couldn't be scared of someone looking at you so... moronically. As he watched the tensai, a slow big
grin stretched Yuushi's mouth making him look even more moony and goofy.
Still smiling that ridiculous smitten smile the tensai drawled, "And three, you forgot to include the most
important thing. To be successful, there must be swirly kissing. Quite a lot of swirly kissing actually.
This simply will not work without swirly kissing. It is a vital requirement. Why do you think it didn't
work with other people when you've tried before? It's not just that they were the wrong people for you
Gakuto, it is that plus those three things combined. Consider if you will these are three crucial and
necessary ingredients to make the formula work. And, I can prove it. What happened in your previous
attempts? Have you tried this often?"
"No," Gakuto shook his head softly because it was still in Yuushi's hands. Yuushi didn't restrict his
movement though. Gakuto only realized he was pouting because it was hard to talk and pout at the
same time. He drew in a quivering deep breath and let it out in a shaky sigh, "I didn't do it all the time
or anything, just once in a while. And I never asked anyone to do it before. It would just kinda happen
that they were all on topa me pressing down and I would feel...I dunno kinda...trapped? Like I was in
danger or something? Like I couldn't breathe? Kinda like that."
Yuushi nodded and kissed him swirly for a long time, but soft. And kinda gentle and sweet. Like the
tensai had all the time in the world and didn't ever want to stop kissing him. It was nice. It felt
comforting. It felt even better when he moved his hands back over Yuushi's skin while they kissed. He
felt free to explore and just to do this. Even if he couldn't have that, at least he had this. Actually, at
least they had this. And this, whatever this was, it was really good. So good it made the ache in his
chest he felt whenever Gakuto thought he would never be normal or be able to be in love like normal
people not hurt quite as much. It made all the bad stuff and all the bad feelings seem far away too.
When the tensai ended the kiss, Gakuto reached up to keep kissing Yuushi a little more. He put his arms
around Yuushi's neck to keep the tensai there. He didn't pull real hard to force him, but just enough
because he didn't want it to end. When they broke for a little air, Gakuto smiled up at him because he
coulda kept kissing Yuushi like that all night and the damn tensai knew it. Yuushi was kinda teasing
him with his lips and tongue, but in a nice soft way. It was gentle. Gakuto liked it because it made him
feel like Yuushi really loved him.
He liked it, but he didn't want Yuushi to win him completely over so easily. So Gakuto went back to
what he was saying as if they didn't spend the last fifteen minutes or so kissing each other in that nice
lovey way. But even Gakuto could hear the husky rasp of lust that got into his voice whenever he was
really turned on, "Even if a girl was on topa me, I didn't like it if I couldn't move easily or if I felt like I
couldn't get away. It wasn't just when we had our clothes off. Sometimes even with clothes on and it
always happens if I sleep next to someone. I feel it then too. I always wear clothes and I can't sleep if
someone else is all over me, but it's different with you. Or at least, I thought it was..."
He must have been pouting again because Yuushi licked Gakuto's lower lip and then sucked it into his
mouth making sure it made a wet and disgusting slurping noise. Gakuto giggled. He couldn't help it. It
was just such a silly thing and such a Yuushi thing to do.
At his laugh, Yuushi smiled, "It is different with me, isn't it?"
Gakuto was going to make a joke about how based on him freaking out earlier it really isn't, but then
Yuushi said all serious, "Gakuto, it feels the same for me. Everything with you feels different.
More...vivid and more real somehow than when I've been with anyone else before. More meaningful
and yet, despite all the mortifying things from my past you now know, when I am with you everything
feels exciting and thrilling at the same time. It is admittedly a little frightening to be this open with you,
but I guess what I'm trying to say is that more than anything else, I feel happy. And that is because of
you so thank you, Gakuto."
Gakuto went to agree with Yuushi that he was happy too, but he was feeling all warm and kinda goofy
from what Yuushi said. Before he could say anything or think of the right words so Yuushi didn't think
he'd lost his grip somewhere, Yuushi pressed his lips to Gakuto's mouth in a sweet lingering kiss and
when he pulled back the tensai said, "By the way, the fire was an incredible idea, and you look
beautiful by firelight. I am well aware that you are a man Gakuto, but you are beyond handsome.
Handsome I find best describes a plain girl or an average boy, but you truly are beautiful. I think the
fire reflecting off your naked skin makes you look more gorgeous than anyone I've ever seen in my
life."
"Me too." Gakuto said without realizing. Damn. He felt a blush creeping into his face at his stupid
admission and slip up. Gakuto went to do some damage control, "I mean, yeah, you look hot Yuushi.
You musta worked out really hard to be this cut and all. You look better than Shishido. Better than
Atobe. You're like my perfect body type for a guy. I'm sorry I never noticed before. Hey, can you move
your leg a little? Just so it's off my ankle? Thanks, I don't want my foot to fall aslee..."
Gakuto gasped as he realized.
He cursed in amazement before he could stop himself.
And then he laughed, "Yuushi! You bastard! You tricked me! You've been layin on me this whole time?
Damn, you're good. I'm not even scared. How long you been layin on me?"
Yuushi smiled kinda sheepishly and looked like a little boy caught stealing a cookie before dinner,
"Actually? I started when we began kissing. Since then so, for quite some time now. I told you it's
different with me." Yuushi gave Gakuto another moony grin as if he adored him.
Gakuto didn't know why, but his heart started racing. It wasn't because he was scared or anything.
Maybe it was thinking about the good kissing part. Or that Yuushi said we. Or the tensai's goofy smile.
Gakuto didn't know why, but he felt like crying...but at the same time he also felt like laughing more
because he was happy. Really happy. Yuushi made him feel happy. Unbelievably happy. So happy
Gakuto felt...damn those words would pop out of his mouth again if he opened it. Gakuto clamped his
lips tightly shut.
Yuushi was laying on him still and maybe he noticed the sudden quickening of Gakuto's pulse. Or
maybe it was that Gakuto had his lips pressed tightly together to keep the words from coming out. The
tensai asked, "Are you...all right?"
Gakuto thought about it for a second. He considered it to make sure and discovered amazed that he
was. He shrugged, "Yeah. Like you said, I trust you."
But Gakuto had to stop with this mushy feelings crap or he was gonna say things he shouldn't, "So,
okay thanks. That's done. So Yuushi, you gonna do the rest of it? That thing you wanted to do to me?
Whatever you wanted that I'm gonna like as long as I don't think it's too weird? What'd ya call it again?
Oh yeah. I remember. So, you gonna make love to me in your own way, Yuushi?"
The tensai blinked at him. Probably at the sudden subject change. Gakuto loved it when Yuushi couldn't
keep up. The tensai smiled softly but his eyes were the hot turned on Yuushi, "If you would like me to?
I may?"
Yuushi smiled more goofy when Gakuto nodded.
The tensai asked all formal as if suddenly feeling shy and overwhelmed by emotions himself, "May
I...Gakuto, may I please kiss you properly first?"
Gakuto forgot and almost said yes.
He nodded. Gakuto wasn't even sure if they were still playing that game, but just as he silently
reminded himself to play it cool, Yuushi's lips were already on his mouth. The tensai parted Gakuto's
lips with his sleek tongue and swirly kissed him deeply before Gakuto's mind could catch up.
Gakuto's body however was completely tuned in to Yuushi's touch and kiss and it had a mind of it's
own. His hands moved automatically wrapping around the tensai's neck, and his fingers wove
themselves in through Yuushi's hair. His tongue was already busy trying to keep up with the
complicated swirls and loops made by the tensai's clever tongue. Gakuto's voice betrayed him by
sneaking a soft moan out before he could hold it back. Even his damn legs worked against him. All by
themselves they wrapped around Yuushi, locked at the ankles, and pulled the tensai down to him hard
and greedy so that as much of Yuushi's skin and all of the tensai's weight was back on him.
Yuushi made one of those nice humming moans in his mouth and they kissed each other hot as if they
were going for it. As if they were gonna go all the way and neither of them were gonna hold back.
Despite the sudden swelling of passion between them and the force behind how much they wanted
more, Gakuto didn't have any time to be scared because Yuushi pulled away from the kiss first.
Gakuto was ran his hands down the tensai's back feeling the muscles on either side of the tensai's spine.
He trailed his nails over Yuushi's back making the tensai hum again. Gakuto kissed the tensai's
cheekbone and then his neck and his ear. He was really trying to keep it going because he liked how
into it Yuushi was even if it was from the back court. Gakuto loved when Yuushi was all hot like this
and really into it.
Yuushi kept his mouth away to Gakuto's disappointment. The tensai kissed his cheek and then over to
Gakuto's ear. Yuushi pulled his arms around him into a tight embrace, but it didn't hurt. It was more like
Yuushi was very serious and how serious was kinda scary for a moment until Yuushi whispered fiercely
like he was vowing every word, "I love you, Mukahi Gakuto. I really and truly love you. The honest
truth is it's different with me because I would rather die than ever hurt you. I'm going to keep you safe
and show you every day how much I love you. I'll do whatever it takes to alleviate all of your fears
until one day they will all be gone. Until one day when what happened to you is only a distant memory.
You will never feel hurt or scared again. From now on, I want you to only know love and happiness. I
love you, Gakuto. I love you so much..."
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Warnings: Yaoi, Love, Angst, Fluff, and Lots of Sex. Some kink. You've been warned ;)
Disclaimer: Nope not mine. Still in my dreams. ;)
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"Before you do what you wanna do to me, will you do me a favor? Please?" Gakuto added the please
so Yuushi knew he was serious. He wasn't joking around about this.
"Of course." Yuushi agreed without even asking what he was gonna have to do. He answered so fast it
made Gakuto feel kinda stupid...but this was important. It was something Gakuto had never been able
to do with anyone else. At least, not without feeling terrified.
Gakuto figured that maybe, just maybe if he could do this with Yuushi, he would never feel scared like
that again. He would never feel afraid again. Not of anything. Yeah. That would be nice. Well actually,
that would be...really amazing. He would be...Gakuto realized to himself, he would be...free.
Okay, that sounded stupid. Especially when he thought the words out in his head before saying them to
Yuushi...but even if it sounded stupid, it was true. True and important. Still, Gakuto felt kinda dumb
even asking Yuushi the super tensai brainiac genius to do anything as stupid-sounding as this.
Gakuto sighed and tried to find a way to ask that didn't sound quite so lame, "Look...it's kinda stupid,
and it's not somethin I'm good at, but Yuushi? You know, it's really not a big thing, but I wanna try this.
With you. Will you...?" He laughed at himself, and felt his face flushing with embarrassment, "Gods,
this is stupid. I know it is. It's really gonna seem dumb and you don't have to do it if you don't wanna
but..."
He sighed again and tried to spit it out. Really Gakuto was trying to get this over with, but the words
wouldn't come easily so he rushed what he was trying to say, "Look, I know this is gonna seem totally
idiotic and completely pointless to someone as smart as you, but anyway will you just lay on topa me
and hold me for a minute or two? And not do anything else but hold me? You know, kinda...in like...a
hug, but while you're laying down on topa me?"
Yuushi didn't respond.
Gakuto waited for Yuushi to make a joke or crack some bad pun. Hell, Gakuto could think of fifty jokes
about this without even trying. He held his breath waiting for the tensai to ask a few well phrased
questions in that all too-serious way Yuushi just sorta had. The same way the tensai would often
question one of their classmates or teammates whenever someone said or did something really stupid.
Yuushi turned it into a hilarious game that up until now, Gakuto always loved.
Yuushi would ask the moron of the day a series of dryly phrased "inquiries" that in the end exposed just
how stupid the person was. The tensai made Gakuto crack up at least once a day doing this. Gakuto
would laugh even harder because as he and Yuushi walked away together he would ask why the tensai
bothered asking such a stupid person anything at all. With a sober expression Yuushi would sigh
dramatically and say something like, "I merely tried to ascertain proof of his idiocy."
It really was hysterically funny the deadpan way the tensai delivered the punchline. You had to be there
to truly appreciate it, and Gakuto really did.
But now, it wasn't so funny. In fact Gakuto had this dreadful sinking feeling that any second Yuushi
was gonna raise his one eyebrow, or make that certain smirk, or stretch his face into that horrible
straight-man mask signaling the puns, jokes, or questions were about to begin.
Or maybe even worse the tensai would do what he did when he seemed to be humoring one of their
teachers by being sincere--but if you knew the tensai like Gakuto did, only then would you know
Yuushi was just being a completely sarcastic bastard. The best part usually was even their stupid
moronic teachers weren't smart enough to get the tensai's jokes. Only Gakuto really was. They shared
so many jokes like that together. Just the two of them.
He was so used to it that inwardly Gakuto cringed expecting Yuushi to do something like that now.
Something along those lines.
Do something. Say something. Anything.
After a pause of about thirty seconds while he probably figured out where Atlantis was located, all
Yuushi did was say, "Of course, I'll be happy to indulge you. So, precisely how would you like me to
position myself?" Yuushi moved so he was above Gakuto but off him. Like the tensai was up in the
start of a push up, "Is this acceptable? And would you prefer it if I put on clothing, or shall I bring you
your underwear or other clothing for this?"
Oh. Gakuto kinda forgot he was naked. Damn, he kinda forgot Yuushi was naked too. Well it's not so
much that he forgot, because they'd been naked and touching each other basically all night, but by now
it just kinda felt normal.
It was kinda weird because he was usually not one to walk around with no clothes on but with Yuushi,
Gakuto often forgot that he was naked. That they both were. A lot. Not that Gakuto minded. Yuushi was
pretty hot. And if how much the tensai touched Gakuto was any indication, Yuushi enjoyed them being
nude a lot too.
It was comfortable even if it was something new. And as for the touching, well no one ever touched
Gakuto like this before. Gakuto woulda said before this that he wasn't a touchy-feely kinda guy, but the
truth was he really liked it. It was fun and hot, but that was probably because it was totally different
with Yuushi. Before guys had touched Gakuto always for a reason. Either they wanted sex and a little
fun or they touched Gakuto to show other people that Gakuto was theirs.
But Yuushi didn't really touch Gakuto in front of other people. At least not any more or any less than
normal.
And when they were alone, the tensai touched Gakuto as if he liked it. It was kinda like Yuushi wanted
to explore his new roommate's entire body and was tryin to find every place on his body that gave
Gakuto pleasure. He touched Gakuto as if the tensai loved the feel of Gakuto's skin beneath his fingers
and like Yuushi couldn't get enough of touching Gakuto.
He touched Yuushi back too. All the time. All night he had been. He wasn't even completely aware of
how much he'd been doing it but now that he wasn't touching Yuushi, the space between their bodies
felt...wrong. Like they should always be touching.
And they had been. All night Gakuto constantly ran his hands all over the tensai's skin while they
talked. He just kinda liked how soft Yuushi's skin felt. Soft but strong. Not squishy or girlie soft. It was
soft skin, but nice and firm over hard, strong muscles almost coiled beneath.
Yuushi's body and his skin felt different from anyone Gakuto had known before, but it felt so right to
touch. Like it was what Gakuto always wanted to touch even if he never knew it before and never
thought about it before. Now looking back everyone else Gakuto touched and kissed girls, guys, Sato,
Taki, and even Azukizawa felt wrong and foreign. Gakuto wondered if it was some tensai trick Yuushi
developed so that even if somehow Gakuto left him, no one else would ever feel good or right again. It
wasn't fair unless he could find some way to make it be the same for Yuushi if the tensai was lying
earlier and did ever try to leave him.
Just the thought hurt, so Gakuto went back to looking at the tensai, admiring him, and wanting to get
them back to the place where they were both touching each other.
Yuushi was a pleasant balance of contrasts and textures. Soft skin over strong muscle controlled by that
gigantic gargantuan brain, and beneath it all lay hidden a too soft, too gentle heart. And only Gakuto
knew this. Only he knew exactly what the tensai was like. Only he knew all the Yuushis.
Only he was right for Yuushi and it was looking more and more like only Yuushi was right for him.
After all, empirically speaking, the tensai's body really was perfect. Looking down his cut body
hovering over him all Gakuto could think was...damn, Yuushi was hot. The tensai's huge erection
bobbed nice and hard and looking tantalizingly delicious. It was hovering over Gakuto and practically
staring at him.
Any other guy this big and Gakuto would be nervous or turned off kinda, but with Yuushi, all Gakuto
felt was want. He wanted to touch it. Taste it. Gakuto wanted to touch Yuushi more and watch those too
smart tensai thoughts fly out of his head. He wanted to taste Yuushi while looking up into his eyes and
watch that too turned on Yuushi hot look come over him while he hummed in pleasure. Gakuto wanted.
Right now.
He almost didn't wanna wait any longer for them to get to the good stuff or even to do this anymore.
Yuushi didn't seem to mind when Gakuto softly ran his hands all over his body. Gakuto touched his
hands to the tensai's chest and slid them down his sides. Over his muscles and his ribcage. Back up
over his cut stomach and chest. Down again a little further this time. Down over his hips. Back up and
feeling his hard nipples. The deep wells of his collar bones. Down his strong cut arms.
The tensai shivered from his touch like Yuushi liked more touching too. Wanted it. Needed it.
It was kinda new for Gakuto to wanna touch someone like this. You know, wherever Gakuto felt like
touching. Knowing he could touch without worrying that the person would think he was strange or not
like it. Yuushi actually really seemed to love whenever Gakuto touched and licked and explored his
bare skin. It was kinda nice.
Sato woulda never let Gakuto touch him like this or do any of this stuff. Not that Gakuto wanted to, but
still Sato never woulda let him do these kinda things. Stupid Sato was scared to death someone would
think he was gay--even though the bastard really was just into guys.
The one time Sato was with a girl, that bitch Naomi at the sharing, he complained to Gakuto how bad
she was for days after. What Sato didn't know was that night Naomi complained to Gakuto about Sato.
She flat-out told Gakuto how bad Sato was in bed. She laughed and whispered conspiratorially how she
was sure it was Sato's first time with a girl. She said she didn't even think Sato liked girls. She laughed
and said how Sato really had no clue what to do. Naomi described how Sato seemed okay while he put
the condom on so it looked like he had done that before, but then the moron didn't know what to do
after. She snickered how he kept trying to have anal sex with her and tried to stretch her vagina like it
was a butt until she finally stopped him. She cackled and told Gakuto she had to show Sato where to
stick his flaccid penis. That she had to talk dirty to him about guys she fucked earlier in the night and
things about gay sex to get Sato to orgasm.
She went on and on until after listening mostly stunned, finally Gakuto laughed. The bitch saying all
that bad stuff about Sato was the only way Gakuto got through the sex with her that first time. Her
jokes about Sato relaxed him enough to be able to get Naomi off before he faked his own orgasm.
Condoms were good for that because Gakuto was pretty sure now Naomi had no clue he faked. Either
time.
Because that second time, with Yuushi, he only got through it because Yuushi needed him. Thinking
about Yuushi needing him made Gakuto feel a sudden spread of that strange orgasm warmth in the
middle of his chest. At the same time, remembering it was almost a preview of how hot he and Yuushi
would be when they finally did have sex. Thinking of that made some of the warmth turn into heat and
race between Gakuto's legs again. It was gonna be so good. They were gonna be so damn good together
if they could just get there.
The tensai cleared his throat softly as if gently reminding Gakuto he was waiting in this awkward
position and probably had been for a minute or two while Gakuto lost himself in his thoughts. Yuushi
was so strong he was holding himself up high with all his muscles flexed and not shaking at all. It was
like the tensai was saying he could keep this up all night if Gakuto wanted him to. Which made Gakuto
think hot nasty thoughts wondering what else Yuushi could do all night if Gakuto wanted him to. And
Gakuto did want. Yuushi's position over him was too high and all wrong, but feeling all that heat and
thinking of doing all kinds of sex things with the naked tensai made Gakuto feel a little dizzy in a good
way.
Gakuto felt turned on and happy instead of his usual annoyed when someone didn't do things right.
"Uh...no, I...this is okay, Yuushi. Just...come here..." He reached up to put his hands on the tensai's
strong shoulders. He pulled Yuushi down and more on top of him so now Gakuto was almost covered
by the tensai's nude body.
Almost because Yuushi was still up on his elbows over him. Most of the tensai's skin was not touching
Gakuto's so it wasn't yet right. Still, Yuushi acted like doing this was normal. All of it. Like this was
something the tensai was asked to do every day, and even though it wasn't and it was something stupid,
it felt good that Yuushi didn't crack any jokes yet.
Gakuto had a thought that maybe he should hurry so Yuushi didn't. Quickly Gakuto arranged them so
Yuushi's legs were between his by picking his hips up and lifting his legs. He pushed Yuushi's knees to
the bed by putting his feet on them and gently pressing down. When Gakuto rolled his hips down, his
heart started beating a little faster.
This was more of what he meant so Gakuto rushed forward, "Okay. Like this, and then if you could just
lay down more on topa me with your all weight on me. All the way. Then just kinda hold me for a
minute. I know it's stupid, but would you do it anyway?"
"Of course," Yuushi said mildly as if Gakuto was asking for something sane. Or even normal. The
tensai very slowly lowered his body down onto Gakuto's. Yuushi slid his hands up to Gakuto's
shoulders and he rested them lightly there.
Gakuto nervously waited. Something was wrong because nothing else was happening.
Clearing his throat again, the tensai asked, "Would you like me to kiss you? That of course, I would
never mind..." Yuushi said it as if he'd never kissed Gakuto before but always wanted to.
It made Gakuto smile and look up into the tensai's eyes for the first time in a while. He swallowed hard
feeling nervous, "No. This is okay. Just...you can put your weight on me more."
Yuushi's skin was touching his, but the tensai was still holding most of his weight off of Gakuto. It
wasn't right yet because even though Gakuto's heart was beating fast like a drum roll, nothing else was
going on. For a moment, Gakuto hoped maybe his heart racing like after he did an acrobatic workout
was all that would happen with the tensai. Maybe the rest just never would. Maybe this was different.
The tensai said, "I don't want to crush you..."
Annoyed now and feeling frustrated because he didn't know exactly what would happen, Gakuto said,
"You won't. I'm not a doll and I'm strong. Go on. Lay down on me." He added so he didn't hurt Yuushi's
feelings, "Just go ahead. Do it, Yuushi. Please?"
"All right, my prince. As you wish..." Yuushi brushed his lips across Gakuto's forehead before he
lowered the rest of his weight.
As the tensai's body pressed down on his, Gakuto reflexively sucked in a deep gasp of air. He held it in
like before he dove into deep water when he was unsure of when he could draw his next breath. He felt
Yuushi's now familiar body on his. Everything, 'logically' as Yuushi would say, was normal. It was
Yuushi's same old soft skin and it felt like it was the same temperature Yuushi normally was. Gakuto
knew if he could just exhale and inhale normally, he would smell only the good, clean, same old scent
of the tensai's skin. It was still Yuushi.
Just Yuushi.
Nothing unusual about this.
They'd probably even done this before when they were kissing and fooling around and stuff. Still,
Gakuto's heart beat faster and faster even while he thought furiously to himself that all of this was
normal. Normal people, normal couples, they did things like this all the time.
This was Yuushi. Yuushi wouldn't hurt him. Not now. Not ever.
But it wouldn't stop. Gakuto's heart banged faster and faster like a hummingbird's after downing ten
cups of coffee. So fast he was feeling dizzy and despite the fear that was rolling around his belly,
Gakuto's erection throbbed and a parta him ached to be kissed and touched more just because it was
Yuushi's body on his. It was Yuushi. Just Yuushi.
Gakuto exhaled slowly. He tried to breathe in normally. Just the tensai's smell. His skin. His warmth.
His touch. His weight. It was okay. Yuushi was laying on top of him, pressing down on him, and
Gakuto's heart was speeding faster and faster like a bullet train, but it was okay. Nothing else was
happening. It was all right.
But then...it hit.
That hideous, brutal fear slammed into Gakuto from what felt like out of nowhere.
The ugly terror and sheer panicky feeling rose with bile in the back of his throat making a scream
impossible. He couldn't take a breath. He couldn't make a sound.
This was it. This would never go away. He could never escape. He was being held down. He was being
smothered. He was in terrible, grave danger, and nothing could save him. Nothing would ever be
normal. He would never be free. It was going to always be like this. He would never be able to be
normal with anyone. He was always going to feel this way. Gakuto gasped for breath, but couldn't find
any air. He couldn't breathe. He couldn't move. He was being held down. He could never get free. They
would never let him go. He couldn't do anything but wait for the worst that was to come and he
whimpered in pain...
In an instant, Yuushi's weight was offa him and the tensai was kissing his forehead, his cheek, his neck.
Yuushi cradled him close and said softly, "Gakuto? Breathe Gakuto. You're all right. You're safe.
Breathe slowly. That's it. I love you, Gakuto. I will never hurt you. No one will ever hurt you again. I
love you. You're safe, Gakuto. I'm going to keep you safe. It's okay. You're all right..."
"I'm fine!" Gakuto said angry and annoyed by his stupid self. Hot angry tears blinded his sight for a
moment and he blinked them away. He didn't want the stupid tensai to mistakenly blame himself or
think he'd done anything wrong though. "S...sorry. I'm sorry, Yuushi. I just...this is stupid. It was really
stupid, I know. I told you it was gonna be really stupid!"
"I'm sorry." Gakuto's chin was trembling and his throat was tight from that held back scream mixed
with fresh tears he struggled to hold back. He took a shuddery breath in and tried to breathe it out
slowly, "I just kinda thought...I...I thought it would be kinda..." Gakuto looked for the words, but
nothing really explained how he was feeling or why he felt trembly and like sobbing his heart out. "I
just...I thought it would be different with you. I'm sorry, it was stupid and...I...I kinda...I dunno...I guess
I just..." He closed his eyes and nuzzled closer to Yuushi to feel the warmth of the tensai's skin. Gakuto
whispered softly, "I really wanted it to be different with you..."
Yuushi kissed his cheek and slid his warm hands in a caress up Gakuto's naked back, "It wasn't stupid,
and it is different with me."
Gakuto shook his head and went to protest that no, it was pretty much exactly like this every other time
he tried it with any other person--even girls. Although, when he thought of saying how even girls
scared him, Gakuto decided not to admit any of those facts. Not even to Yuushi.
Before he could explain Yuushi insisted, "It is different with me, Gakuto. I can show you, but we have
to try it another way. You had the right idea, and I am amazed and impressed that you previously
attempted this, however it could not be successful simply because you left out the most important three
parts..."
Gakuto looked up at Yuushi. The tensai looked down at him all lovey and happy while Gakuto just felt
miserable and still panicky. He wondered why the hell Yuushi was so happy. He wondered how the hell
the tensai knew he tried this before. Of course when he tried it in the past with other people, Gakuto hid
not only what he was trying to do but his freaked out reactions too. He yelled at the person and said
they were crushing him. Or sometimes he would be mad at something they were doing too forceful that
he didn't like. Or he said and did other things--whatever came to mind so they stopped. And in all that
time no matter who he was with, not once did anyone ever notice.
No one else ever even knew what the hell he was doing--let alone figured out how to fix it. Stupid
tensai with a ridiculously enormous brain. It just sometimes wasn't fair. Curious even though he was
still annoyed, Gakuto had to ask, "What three parts?"
Yuushi kissed his forehead, "One is you like me and trust me. You know me and you know I will never
hurt you. This is very important." Yuushi kissed his cheek and then his eye. All swirly the tensai kissed
on his eyelid and Gakuto only just shut it in time to avoid getting his eyeball licked. The tensai said,
"Two is I know you. Almost all of you rather intimately. I understand how you feel and I understand
you. I know you, Mukahi Gakuto. I know who you are and I love you. That is also very important."
The tensai kissed across to Gakuto's other eye. When he was done kissing there, he held Gakuto's face
in his hands and stopped. Even with his eyes shut Gakuto knew Yuushi was staring down at him all
adoringly and waiting until Gakuto opened his eyes to look up at him.
Yup. The tensai with his colossal brain was staring down all lovey and dopey at him. You really
couldn't be scared of someone looking at you so... moronically. As he watched the tensai, a slow big
grin stretched Yuushi's mouth making him look even more moony and goofy.
Still smiling that ridiculous smitten smile the tensai drawled, "And three, you forgot to include the most
important thing. To be successful, there must be swirly kissing. Quite a lot of swirly kissing actually.
This simply will not work without swirly kissing. It is a vital requirement. Why do you think it didn't
work with other people when you've tried before? It's not just that they were the wrong people for you
Gakuto, it is that plus those three things combined. Consider if you will these are three crucial and
necessary ingredients to make the formula work. And, I can prove it. What happened in your previous
attempts? Have you tried this often?"
"No," Gakuto shook his head softly because it was still in Yuushi's hands. Yuushi didn't restrict his
movement though. Gakuto only realized he was pouting because it was hard to talk and pout at the
same time. He drew in a quivering deep breath and let it out in a shaky sigh, "I didn't do it all the time
or anything, just once in a while. And I never asked anyone to do it before. It would just kinda happen
that they were all on topa me pressing down and I would feel...I dunno kinda...trapped? Like I was in
danger or something? Like I couldn't breathe? Kinda like that."
Yuushi nodded and kissed him swirly for a long time, but soft. And kinda gentle and sweet. Like the
tensai had all the time in the world and didn't ever want to stop kissing him. It was nice. It felt
comforting. It felt even better when he moved his hands back over Yuushi's skin while they kissed. He
felt free to explore and just to do this. Even if he couldn't have that, at least he had this. Actually, at
least they had this. And this, whatever this was, it was really good. So good it made the ache in his
chest he felt whenever Gakuto thought he would never be normal or be able to be in love like normal
people not hurt quite as much. It made all the bad stuff and all the bad feelings seem far away too.
When the tensai ended the kiss, Gakuto reached up to keep kissing Yuushi a little more. He put his arms
around Yuushi's neck to keep the tensai there. He didn't pull real hard to force him, but just enough
because he didn't want it to end. When they broke for a little air, Gakuto smiled up at him because he
coulda kept kissing Yuushi like that all night and the damn tensai knew it. Yuushi was kinda teasing
him with his lips and tongue, but in a nice soft way. It was gentle. Gakuto liked it because it made him
feel like Yuushi really loved him.
He liked it, but he didn't want Yuushi to win him completely over so easily. So Gakuto went back to
what he was saying as if they didn't spend the last fifteen minutes or so kissing each other in that nice
lovey way. But even Gakuto could hear the husky rasp of lust that got into his voice whenever he was
really turned on, "Even if a girl was on topa me, I didn't like it if I couldn't move easily or if I felt like I
couldn't get away. It wasn't just when we had our clothes off. Sometimes even with clothes on and it
always happens if I sleep next to someone. I feel it then too. I always wear clothes and I can't sleep if
someone else is all over me, but it's different with you. Or at least, I thought it was..."
He must have been pouting again because Yuushi licked Gakuto's lower lip and then sucked it into his
mouth making sure it made a wet and disgusting slurping noise. Gakuto giggled. He couldn't help it. It
was just such a silly thing and such a Yuushi thing to do.
At his laugh, Yuushi smiled, "It is different with me, isn't it?"
Gakuto was going to make a joke about how based on him freaking out earlier it really isn't, but then
Yuushi said all serious, "Gakuto, it feels the same for me. Everything with you feels different.
More...vivid and more real somehow than when I've been with anyone else before. More meaningful
and yet, despite all the mortifying things from my past you now know, when I am with you everything
feels exciting and thrilling at the same time. It is admittedly a little frightening to be this open with you,
but I guess what I'm trying to say is that more than anything else, I feel happy. And that is because of
you so thank you, Gakuto."
Gakuto went to agree with Yuushi that he was happy too, but he was feeling all warm and kinda goofy
from what Yuushi said. Before he could say anything or think of the right words so Yuushi didn't think
he'd lost his grip somewhere, Yuushi pressed his lips to Gakuto's mouth in a sweet lingering kiss and
when he pulled back the tensai said, "By the way, the fire was an incredible idea, and you look
beautiful by firelight. I am well aware that you are a man Gakuto, but you are beyond handsome.
Handsome I find best describes a plain girl or an average boy, but you truly are beautiful. I think the
fire reflecting off your naked skin makes you look more gorgeous than anyone I've ever seen in my
life."
"Me too." Gakuto said without realizing. Damn. He felt a blush creeping into his face at his stupid
admission and slip up. Gakuto went to do some damage control, "I mean, yeah, you look hot Yuushi.
You musta worked out really hard to be this cut and all. You look better than Shishido. Better than
Atobe. You're like my perfect body type for a guy. I'm sorry I never noticed before. Hey, can you move
your leg a little? Just so it's off my ankle? Thanks, I don't want my foot to fall aslee..."
Gakuto gasped as he realized.
He cursed in amazement before he could stop himself.
And then he laughed, "Yuushi! You bastard! You tricked me! You've been layin on me this whole time?
Damn, you're good. I'm not even scared. How long you been layin on me?"
Yuushi smiled kinda sheepishly and looked like a little boy caught stealing a cookie before dinner,
"Actually? I started when we began kissing. Since then so, for quite some time now. I told you it's
different with me." Yuushi gave Gakuto another moony grin as if he adored him.
Gakuto didn't know why, but his heart started racing. It wasn't because he was scared or anything.
Maybe it was thinking about the good kissing part. Or that Yuushi said we. Or the tensai's goofy smile.
Gakuto didn't know why, but he felt like crying...but at the same time he also felt like laughing more
because he was happy. Really happy. Yuushi made him feel happy. Unbelievably happy. So happy
Gakuto felt...damn those words would pop out of his mouth again if he opened it. Gakuto clamped his
lips tightly shut.
Yuushi was laying on him still and maybe he noticed the sudden quickening of Gakuto's pulse. Or
maybe it was that Gakuto had his lips pressed tightly together to keep the words from coming out. The
tensai asked, "Are you...all right?"
Gakuto thought about it for a second. He considered it to make sure and discovered amazed that he
was. He shrugged, "Yeah. Like you said, I trust you."
But Gakuto had to stop with this mushy feelings crap or he was gonna say things he shouldn't, "So,
okay thanks. That's done. So Yuushi, you gonna do the rest of it? That thing you wanted to do to me?
Whatever you wanted that I'm gonna like as long as I don't think it's too weird? What'd ya call it again?
Oh yeah. I remember. So, you gonna make love to me in your own way, Yuushi?"
The tensai blinked at him. Probably at the sudden subject change. Gakuto loved it when Yuushi couldn't
keep up. The tensai smiled softly but his eyes were the hot turned on Yuushi, "If you would like me to?
I may?"
Yuushi smiled more goofy when Gakuto nodded.
The tensai asked all formal as if suddenly feeling shy and overwhelmed by emotions himself, "May
I...Gakuto, may I please kiss you properly first?"
Gakuto forgot and almost said yes.
He nodded. Gakuto wasn't even sure if they were still playing that game, but just as he silently
reminded himself to play it cool, Yuushi's lips were already on his mouth. The tensai parted Gakuto's
lips with his sleek tongue and swirly kissed him deeply before Gakuto's mind could catch up.
Gakuto's body however was completely tuned in to Yuushi's touch and kiss and it had a mind of it's
own. His hands moved automatically wrapping around the tensai's neck, and his fingers wove
themselves in through Yuushi's hair. His tongue was already busy trying to keep up with the
complicated swirls and loops made by the tensai's clever tongue. Gakuto's voice betrayed him by
sneaking a soft moan out before he could hold it back. Even his damn legs worked against him. All by
themselves they wrapped around Yuushi, locked at the ankles, and pulled the tensai down to him hard
and greedy so that as much of Yuushi's skin and all of the tensai's weight was back on him.
Yuushi made one of those nice humming moans in his mouth and they kissed each other hot as if they
were going for it. As if they were gonna go all the way and neither of them were gonna hold back.
Despite the sudden swelling of passion between them and the force behind how much they wanted
more, Gakuto didn't have any time to be scared because Yuushi pulled away from the kiss first.
Gakuto was ran his hands down the tensai's back feeling the muscles on either side of the tensai's spine.
He trailed his nails over Yuushi's back making the tensai hum again. Gakuto kissed the tensai's
cheekbone and then his neck and his ear. He was really trying to keep it going because he liked how
into it Yuushi was even if it was from the back court. Gakuto loved when Yuushi was all hot like this
and really into it.
Yuushi kept his mouth away to Gakuto's disappointment. The tensai kissed his cheek and then over to
Gakuto's ear. Yuushi pulled his arms around him into a tight embrace, but it didn't hurt. It was more like
Yuushi was very serious and how serious was kinda scary for a moment until Yuushi whispered fiercely
like he was vowing every word, "I love you, Mukahi Gakuto. I really and truly love you. The honest
truth is it's different with me because I would rather die than ever hurt you. I'm going to keep you safe
and show you every day how much I love you. I'll do whatever it takes to alleviate all of your fears
until one day they will all be gone. Until one day when what happened to you is only a distant memory.
You will never feel hurt or scared again. From now on, I want you to only know love and happiness. I
love you, Gakuto. I love you so much..."
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