Princess Mononoke Fan Fiction ❯ Princess Mononoke Rebirth ❯ Sasuke's Silent Melancholy ( Chapter 15 )

Sasuke's Silent Melancholy

 

As dusk grew into the day, the rain finally stopped falling. Sasuke was still in the black room unconscious; dreaming of memories that tormented him with images of his disturbing experiences.

“Hey! There's that freak!”

“I can be finally rid of this thing Kurama.”

“No we will keep going!”

“They lied! They lied to me!”

“Who would love you now Sasuke?”

“I will never do it with you!”

“Who knows I can catch something from you?”

“Are you still my friend Kurama?”

“How could you turn me away like this?”

“I…I-I killed him! I killed my friend!!”

“Don't runaway from me Sasuke!”

“Wait dammit!”

“I…can get there myself.”

“So you saw me then?”

“That's right; stay away from me and you won't get hurt.”

“How did you get that scar?”

“That's none of your business.”

“For once I was gonna let you slide…but you just wouldn't listen.”

“You're just a repressed nuisance.”

“You must be a prince.”

“Wrong deduction!”

“You don't scare me! I am strong enough to fight you!”

“I'm not the type who gives up easily.”

“I'm stronger than you'll ever be.”

“Hurts now, don't it?”

“NO! That's not meant to happen!”

“Don't worry; your end will be quick, like all the other bastards who tried to fuck with me.”

“Your times up Sasuke!”

“I'm not dead yet.”

“Next time…hunter.”

“What's happening to me?”

“I'm a God.”

“You're lying!”

“Why do you think I look so much like you then?”

“I knew it! It's…it's you!”

“You're still trying to fight me, boy?

“What is it to you, human?”

“Please stop!”

“No more pain! No more!”

“This fight isn't over.”

“Stop being the bad guy!!”

“Please stay! Don't go! Please!”

“No.”

“Yes he will.”

“Ashitaka what are you talking about?!”

“I have questions to ask him.”

“Ashitaka, don't do this!

“At least I've got to try.”

“Motoko will kill him when she will see him.”

“She's out to kill me.”

“What the hell are you talking about?!”

“Why didn't he kill me?”

“He's a murderer for god sake!”

“How could you?”

“One strike and I cut his throat, you hear?”

“There's no need of that attitude with me; I'm not going to kill you.”

“…It won't be long before they will find us…”

“I asked what you thought.”

“You scare me Sasuke. Is that what you want to hear?”

“Am I just a nuisance?”

“Don't…waste…my time!”

“…this psychotic fuck family to going to get torn apart.”

“Do you ever wonder why you feel like something's missing.”

“Let's bring it on hell spawn!”

“Are we having fun?”

“Damn you freak!”

“Leave me!”

“Very good koroshiya. Very Good.”

“You want to know what happened, don't you?”

“Humans shouldn't tamper with what they can't handle.”

“Are you just too damn hard to teach?!”

“Can't you see?! I can't be nice! Not for one bit!”

“Even if I didn't have my powers, I still would have defeated you.”

“I'll show you that I can beat you, without my other forces.”

“The pert!”

“Ugly?”

“You monster!”

“Kira!”

“Koroshiya.”

“Go back from where you came from YOU DAMN FREAK!”

“I'm tired of people calling me a FUCKING FREAK!!”

“AAAARRRRGGH!!!”

 

Sasuke was then suddenly woken up from the dream of hacking flashbacks with sweat dripping down his forehead, breathing quick and heavily, and with tension brewing in his head. He then shot out from the floor and twitched radically with the whispers still lingering in his mind.

“Stop. Stop it! Stop it now!” after a few moments the whispers finally disappeared. He then ran out of the house and into the forest. He swift passed the branches and twigs and sprinted like he was running away from something. He could feel the trees caving in around him, and the leaves trying to wrap their stems around him, and the darkness in the forest obscuring his escape.

“Leave me alone!” he violently yelled in his mind. “You have no business with me! So just let me be!” HE finally broke through the misty forest, and saw the clear sky of sunset colors, with the soft clouds hazing above. Sasuke breathed in a heave of fresh air into his lungs and exhaled out peacefully.

“The open world.” He whispered to himself with tranquility. He then took placid steps onto the blades of jade grass and let the breeze flow through his body. Just walking alone across a field of emerald that lay ahead of him.

He then saw a smoke on the top of a hill nearby, he quickened his pace to see where it was coming from. The closer he got to the hill, he saw a young female figure near the small bonfire; it turned out to be someone he recognized.

“San.” She was found kneeling down by the firelight, with a spear stabbed through the soils of the earth, along with a necklace of teeth wrapped around it. She then rose to her feet and smiled sadly at the fire.

“This for you, my Mother, my Brothers, my Family.” She then paused and Sasuke stood at a quite far distance to where he wanted to find her purpose for being there. San then opened her mouth, and began to sing.

 

“In the moonlight, I felt your heart,

Quiver like a bowstrings pulse.

In the moons mere light, you looked at me,

Nobody knows your heart.

 

When the sun is gone, I see you,

Beautiful and haunting, but cold.

Like the blade of a knife; so sharp, so sweet,

Nobody knows your heart.

 

All of your sorrow, grief and pain,

Locked away in the forest of the night.

Your sacred heart belongs to the world,

All the things that sigh in the dark.

All the things that cry in the dark.”

 

Sasuke still stood quiet and tranquil, but poignant. His eyes started to water, and then a small tear dripped from his right eye. He gasped for a moment, and clutched onto the tear. He held it out from the palm of his hand and saw it. His lips started to quiver, his eye pupils grew short, and then more tears started to run down. Sasuke began to hide away his face with his hands, and started to cry intently. But San still carried on singing.

 

* “Within the night sky, you shone onto me,

You showed me the whole world.

But you have a heart of stone,

Nobody touched your heart.

 

* And when the dawn rises, you vanish,

You left no trace for me to adore.

Yet you stole my empathy.

Nobody loved your heart.

 

* You kept your hate and fear,

Trapped in the woods of the moon.

You sold your soul to the wind.

All that's left is ache.

All that's left is detest.

 

* When I light up the stars, I will see you.

When I light up the night, I will love you.

 

In the moonlight, I felt your heart,

Quiver like a bowstrings pulse.

In the moons mere light, you looked at me,

Nobody knows your heart.

 

When the sun is gone, I see you,

Beautiful and haunting, but cold.

Like the blade of a knife; so sharp, so sweet,

Nobody knows your heart.

 

All of your sorrow, grief and pain,

Locked away in the forest of the night.

Your sacred heart belongs to the world,

All the things that sigh in the dark.

All the things that cry in the dark.

 

* When I light up the stars, I will see you.

When I light up the night, I will love you.”

 

- Little note: * is where I created my own verses, nothing to do with the original song -

 

San then looked down from the hillside and saw Sasuke crying with guilt and disgrace. She could believe her eyes; a violent, hot-blooded man weeping with lament.

“Sasuke?” she whispered to him in a calm and curious tone, as she saw the young man wither in his depression.

 

They then laid their backs onto a huge boulder and watched the beautiful scenery set into the night. San continued to watch, but Sasuke was thinking about other things.

“I must say San, your song took my breath away.” He confessed.

“It did?” Sasuke turned to San and nodded, and then turned away from her again.

“All my life…I lived in hatred. Most of its reason is to do with the curse I dealt with years ago. And some by those betrayers who were suppose to be my closest friends.”

“The virus didn't spread naturally. Humans enhanced on it, and caused consequence on you and your whole life.”

“You're a smart girl.” He confessed again.

“I thought an operation would finally get me rid of the curse once and for all, but instead the disease infested inside me had been woken up again and took my human form. But I must say; this came also with a gift, which linked with the purpose of going through surgery.”

“You're afraid of dying.”

“Once. But now I finally got the chance of being immortal, it made me realize one thing: When you live forever it would seem like a great thing at first, but then you get bored with it, next you start to get annoyed with it, you suddenly feel the need to slit your wrists, but the bleeding won't kill you. You then start to crave a passion for hurting yourself, and then you become obsessed with the desire of suicide.” San gasped at the words that Sasuke had just spoken, but he carried on with his hidden statement. “Ever since I've turned, people I knew started to see me with a different eye. They thought I was unclean, unnatural, ugly. I tried to repress those feelings at first. But then my best friend turned away from me too. So I did what I regret a long time, even now.”

“You killed him.” Sasuke too a deep sigh and resumed himself.

“At first I thought what I have done was a horrid and inhumane thing to do. But then I started to kill off more bullies. The thirst then became needier, and took control over my vicious cycle.”

“Why can't you kill Motoko then?” San asked with curiosity.

“That I cannot answer.” San then accepted that answer and looked at the sky again.

“Then when I met Ashitaka, I thought that he was just another weak human, but there is more to him than meets the eye.”

“Ashitaka is a very strange human; he listens to both sides of this war.”

“And that he chose you as his all.” San then gasped and looked at Sasuke.

“But the question is have you chose him?” That was a question San needed to deal with alone. “Come now; it's getting late, and the others would be worried.”

“Since when do you care.” San asked in an unsympathetic tone.

“Since I first met you people.” Sasuke then walked down not showing any true emotion again, as if he wanted to keep his inner feelings confidential between him and San. She then led on behind him as she followed him back to the house.

 

Ashitaka stood on top of the roof of the house, and looked out into the distant scenery of blurred colors and pink clouds that floated above his head.

“Why is it that today felt like it had been repeated before?” He asked himself. “Like this incident has happened before in my earlier life?” A breeze started to blow through the trees and dust; it then grew stronger and harder moments later. Then a silent howl started to charge behind Ashitaka, he turned around and saw the vicious wind rushing pass his body, then the howl came closer and closer to him. Ashitaka stepped back from his place, and walked backwards from the roof to move away from this soundless holler. The potential energy then dashed against his body and forced him to fall onto the ground. He grunted as the gravity pulled him down ad smacked him onto the floor.

“What was that?” he groaned, and then he saw Motoko looking down to him; with a sheathed sword in her hand along with his.

“I will not take no as an answer.” Ashitaka rose back up and looked at the swords. “Your tribe killed my royal blood; now I shall kill yours.”

“Motoko, I don't thin-

“Enough! We will see which one of us triumphs; whether you like it or not!”