Ranma 1/2 Fan Fiction ❯ Fears ❯ Ranma ( Chapter 1 )

Fear.

They don't really know why I run. Why I run away from those things even if

I see a small glimpse of them, even if I hear them. They just don't understand why. All of them think it's because of the cat-fist training and it's because I fear that they will scratch me again.

They're wrong.

A lot of people have asked why does `Ranma run away from them? He can probably swat them away easily or even kill them without a thought.' They just don't understand.

I love cats. They are... mysterious, loyal, proud like me... somewhat. I have seen them walk on fences like me, they act like me. But the truth is... I act like them, not the other way around. I said that I walk on fences to practice balance. I didn't lie. But Pops didn't teach me to do that. Cats did. I learnt from them in the training trip. I learn from Cats things that Pops didn't teach. How to survive, how run, how to balance. Pops taught me how to fight how to throw a punch, a kick. Pops and cats... those are the two teachers I have.

I think Pops saw that I learnt from cats then. That was why he decided to teach me the cat-fist. My world shattered. I hate my Pops, I also love him,

I respect him, despise him. Cat-fist isn't something that fear teaches you.

It's like the `Shi Shi Hokodan' you learn it from sorrow. I felt sorry for cats, how they wanted revenge from humans that starved them. I was their savior. I brought them food wrapped all around my body. True they injured me. But those scratches did more to show me the pain that Pops put them through. Most of them didn't even have the strength to draw more than a drop of blood.

It went on like that, I go in with the sausages, or fish paste, or whatever. The fish gets to eat. I feel their sorrow. Until finally, it happened. They gave their spirit to me. That is what the Cat-fist REALLY is. Manifestation of cat's vengeance, and I am their avatar.

Ok by now I know you must be thinking that's bullshit! If you are really an avatar of vengeance, then shouldn't you be tearing apart Akane and that old woman that snapped you out of it? Akane and that old woman are special.

They take in strays. They show kindness to the weak, scorn to the powerful.

That's why I like Akane so much. No matter if she is wrong or not, she takes the side that is weaker. Cats are like that. In the wild, they may pick on easy preys, but who doesn't if they are to survive? Cats respect their preys for running, their struggles.<br><br>Fear.<br><br>Yes, I do fear something, but it is not cats that I fear. I love cats. The thing I fear is what cats awaken in me: the vengeance. I am afraid what the Cat-fist may do. I know what I do because Pops tells me what I did, that and I see his tattered shirt most of them time. What would I do if no one stops me? Would the vengeance know of all my techniques? What if the vengeance can tap into what I did when I fought Saffron? Or did I tap in to it...

Stargazing, another thing the cats taught me. That's what I'm doing now with the only cat that doesn't wake the vengeance, the cat that gave ME his vengeance. I named her Misuki. Pops don't know. No one knows except for me. Maybe Cologne knows because she HAS some experience on the topic, but I doubt that.

Fear.

Yes, I fear what Misuki taught me. I fear that Misuki is also holding something that I own. Ever since I learnt the Cat-fist, I never felt complete unless Misuki is right beside me. Like now, I don't know, maybe she holds a piece of my soul. Maybe that is the true meaning of Cat-fist. A man with a cat's vengeance; a Cat with a man's soul.

"Meow."

"Misuki, you have to go. I smell Akane, she's coming up."

"Meow."

"I'll see you tomorrow Mi-chan."

"RANMA!"

"Yeah?"

"DINNER!"

"COMING!"

Yes, I do fear something. I fear that people will hate me for what I hold.

I fear what I can do to people if what I hold holds me. Of course, I curse myself for not being able to hold in the vengeance long enough so that I can once again play with the stray cats again...

I miss them...

My only friends that won't betray me even though I have betrayed them in not giving in to the vengeance, they try, but I can't, after all, I AM human, and humans shouldn't kill other humans... but lately, my mind wanders...

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Something that came from no where and my semi-weird explanation of how the

Cat-fist REALLY works. Of course, there are flaws, I see them, but it's just something I thought up...

This is the first time I've REALLY used the first person POV to write something. It really appeals to me after reading stuff that is also written in that format. So I decided to try myself

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