Ranma 1/2 Fan Fiction ❯ Gone are the days, as I lay dying... ❯ Gone are the days, as I lay dying... ( One-Shot )

Gone are the days, as I lay dying...

By Kalio Halos

Disclaimer: I don't own Ranma Nibunnoichi or any of the chars in them. All other standard disclaimers apply.

A/n: Warning! This is a bit angsty and a one-shot. It is also from Ranma's POV speaking to Akane (reflection about the years), and it pairs them together. If you don't like the pairing, save us both some grief and don't read it, or at least don't flame. Now, if you are still with me, and care to read on, please review when you're finished. I haven't written a whole lot for Ranma, so be gentle.

Gone are the days when I was happy. These days, I belong to the "coulda, woulda, shoulda club". It's too late, I'm too far gone, and as I lay here dying, I wish I could go back. But wishes were always lost on me, I never deserved them. I wish I could take everything back; all that I said to you. I wish I could change every vile word, every let down, and every single look that sent the wrong message. But I can't, but if I could; I would. My only regret.

My daily routine has changed so much since then, as well. It is no longer the chaotic life a madman would lead, but a quite suburban life. I still fight, and I still work out, but my old bones don't support my muscles like they used to. I now understand why pop was such a lousy fighter when I look back. I also see many things that I was too blockheaded to see.

I see the graves of my friends, my family...your grave. I feel no shame in telling you that I lost it after the funeral. You've made me lose it many a time. No screaming or crying fits, but no moving, no speaking. They worried about me. I worried about myself, but I made it through. I have never been the same, though. You changed my life so many times, even after your death. Did you even know?

I am all alone now. No one knows me anymore, not that they knew me then, but now they can't even pretend to know me. Sometimes I can almost see you, smiling that kawaii smile, at me in the window. When I wake in the morning, I could swear that you're there. I miss you. I am all alone now.

As I lay dying, now, I am not sad. I will see you again for the first time in so long. The thought makes me giddy, and I try not to wish for it too soon, but I can't. I know you're by my side now because I can feel your sadness for me. Don't cry. I don't want this half-life anymore if it's not with you. Don't cry. The pain of death is not great in comparison to living without you. I'm not scared, I've never been for my own life.

Gone are the days, as I lay dying. My vision is going black, now and I can almost feel your salty tears on my skin. The only thing to concentrate on now, is going home to you. Oh, God, I can't feel my body anymore, but I can almost see you through the black and you are smiling and crying all at the same time. As I sigh my last breath from my body, I can't control my thoughts. It's all too much, but I do know something. While the days are gone when I was happy, I know that I have forever to work out all of those "coulda-woulda-shouldas", and I have an eternity to love you...

*~Owari~*

*hides behind computer chair* Don't hurt me. It was nagging at me.... any way, if you're in the mood for something funny, now, you can go check out my list of things that the Ranma-gumi would never say/do. It's under the "list" section due to some tactful comments telling me it was in the wrong section. Anyhoo...it's funny, and it has many outside references....go check it out as soon as you review ^^' be gentle...