Ranma 1/2 Fan Fiction ❯ Key to my Heart ❯ Chp 5: The Only One Who can Save Me... ( Chapter 5 )
[ P - Pre-Teen ]
By: Ling Mao 
Anime/Manga: Ranma 1/2 Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / / Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.22.2001 | Pages: 4 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 652 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Ranma 1/2 Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / / Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.22.2001 | Pages: 4 | Words: 2.5K | Visits: 652 | Status: Completed
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Key to my Heart
Chp 5: "For You are the One"
By Ling Mao
Start: 5-18-2001
Finish: 5-18-2001
Normal disclaimer applies
< > = Thought
> < = Sound
[ ] = Panda signs
" " = Spoken
~ ~ = Diary entry
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Ranma slowly opened the diary. As he cracked open the pages, a picture fell
out.
"Huh? What's this?" He bent over the pick up the picture. He turned it
over.
"What?" The picture was of a boy who looked about Ranma's age. The picture
was somewhat fuzzy, and details were blurry. The boy looked pretty muscular. He had
dark colored hair, either black or brown, and was wearing black sweatpants with a
black tank top. Ranma frowned. <I can't believe this. I'm out here doing all this
stuff to help her and this is how she repays me? Hump. It's not like I care, I'm
doing it because she's Mr. Tendo's daughter.> But still these thoughts did not
allow the frown to leave his lips. He held the picture up as if it were a card and
flicked it to the end of Akane's bed.
"Whatever..." He continued, grumpily, to open the diary. He flipped to a
page in the middle of the book and began to read.
~Nothing really happened today...
Ranma made me late, yet AGAIN...
I had to stand in the hall and hold buckets, but what's new...~
Ranma let out a sigh. <Argh... what a waste of paper... Next page> He
flipped a good amount of pages and began to read again.
~I don't understand, how is it that Ranma can always be so mean to Ryoga,
even if he hasn't done anything. Ryoga's been back for less than a day, and Ranma
attacks him as if he has a thing against him... Then again I guess I can't be
surprised... I guess he has a liking for insulting people...I know it sounds
stupid, but sometimes, I just wish that he'd be nice to me... I think he's mean to
Ryoga because he wants me to be mad and to suffer... I just can't understand him...
I think he hates me. How is it that he can always find something nice to say about
Ukyo or Shampoo... Hell he could think of something nice to say about his father!
But he seems to have to think long and hard to say something nice to me... Why
should I bother... It's not like I care what he thinks... its just frustration...
that's all it is...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~Ukyo's found out... I don't know why we bothered to try... It's not like
we ever REALLY would have been a married couple... That's funny, Ranma and me...
Even if it was pretend... it was kinda... nice... to do that kind of stuff with
Ranma... Make lunch for him, act nice... he had to spoil it though... I worked hard
to make that lunch... and he ran away... I'm such an idiot... to think that he'd
actually hold me like he did... to think he'd actually greet me without an
insult... to think that he'd actually want to sleep even in the same room as me...
No he only did it because he was in trouble... because he had to...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~I think I've realized something... I've been wrong all along... I'm not
mad at him... I'm mad at myself... I don't know why it knew dawned on me... That
perhaps I felt something. Perhaps not because the actions were perverted, but
because I was jealous... Shampoo, Ukyo, even Kodachi, Kuno, and Nabiki... They're
all so strong... I looked at myself in the mirror today... I was ashamed... I'm
weak... so weak... and stupid... Today I found out that I love someone... But I
can't tell anyone... not like they can... I don't have that type of power...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~I can never win... Strength, beauty, cooking ability, cleaning ability...
I lose... I hate them... all of them... most of all I hate him... For tormenting
me... For causing me to lose control... For leaving me... I hate them... I hate
them... I HATE HIM!~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~That's it I've decided. I won't love him anymore. It's not worth it. Just
screw it all...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
Blank
>Flip Flip Flip<
Blank
>Flip Flip Flip<
Blank
>Flip Flip Flip<
~I can't stand it... Why can I not stop? I know that he hates me, yet I
still can't stop. I've tried everything I could think of... I thought of the
insults he'd shout at me, I allowed him to go out with the others; I did actives to
take my mind off of him. Why is this so impossible? I'm still jealous... Why can't
he hold me the way he held her? Why can't I have what he has? Why does every notice
him? What happened? I don't know what I'm suppose to do... Sometimes I just wish
that someone would care... I long for someone to hold me, to cradle me. I long for
the warmth of someone who gives a damn. Father, Kasumi, Nabiki, Mother... They all
left me so long ago... I want attention, I want someone to praise me, I want
someone to scold me, and I want someone to notice me. The world is oblivious to me.
I want something more than the empty vessels of 'what is supposed to be' and I
want something real. I want more... But I guess I'm just wasting my time... I hope
for the hopeless, I'm dreaming for what will not come, my wishes go unheard. Yes,
so I am spoiled. I'm the baby. Yes... Spoil me, bathe me in attention, and saturate
my mind with more false beliefs. It doesn't matter... Nothing matters... They can
do whatever they want...
Tomorrow will be my last try. I will ask him to accompany me. I will try to
make him see. I will throw myself into the pit and hope that I will not be engulfed
by the darkness. I'll do it. I'll do anything. I can feel everyone slipping from my
fingers, from my grasp... I'll do anything. I want him to notice me, so see how I
feel... I'll do it... Anything...I just don't want to be left alone...~
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Dr. Tofu went to check on Akane again. She was so frail. Carefully he
switched the towel on her head. Akane flinched a little as Dr. Tofu's finger
brushed against her cheek, pushing away the hair. Akane's breathing was slow and
deep. Her throat made soft rasping sounds. The skin on her face began to cling to
her face, like that of an ill person, the fat and muscle diminishing. Her once pink
skin began to turn deathly pale. Her hair, though still full, began to thin out.
Dr. Tofu shook his head to himself. <At this rate, you most definitely will not
last long. If only we could find the cure> Dr. Tofu stood up and walked into the
kitchen.
On the counter of the kitchen lay a clothed dish. Dr. Tofu walked up to it
and carefully removed the cloth to reveal a stack of cookies. Plain chocolate chip
cookies, each rounded to perfection. The edges of the cookie were crisp, but not
burnt, and the insides were soft, but not mushy. The chips were even placed within
the cookie, no cookie held too much or too little. He picked one up and gentle
nibbled on the edge, enjoying the immense flavor. When he finished, his picked up
the cloth and carefully wrapped it around the plate again, making sure to display
the corner engraved with the letters K.T.
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Ranma eyed the very last page of the book, then quickly shut the book and
dropped it into his pocket. He stood up and peered at himself in the mirror. He
grunted with disgust and left Akane's room. He shut the door and leaned against.
His head bowed down, his hair shaded over his face.
In the room not to far from Ranma, Nabiki sat at her desk, doing some
calculations. She grabbed another envelope from the pile and opened it, careful not
to rip it. She pulled out the contents, which included his payment and a small
card. She grabbed the payment and speedily recounted it, making sure to have gotten
the correct amount. She then turned her attention to the small card. On the front
was a picture of Korean drawn characters having a party, holding small wine cups.
The card was colorful and had cute animals as the party guests. Some of the food
and drinks were lined with a silver color. The picture of the card was framed by
and shade of light pink with scattered sparkles. She turned the card around to read
the hand written note.
Nabiki,
Thanks a lot.
Kuno Tatawaki
Kuno's name was neatly scripted, as was the rest of the terse, but laconic
words. Nabiki turned the card again and examined the picture. She put the card down
in the corner of her desk and sat in her desk for a brief break. She stretched her
arms, and reached for the card again. She turned to the side containing the note
and read it again. She put the card down and leaned back on the chair, placing her
hands behind her head, the corners of her mouth slightly lifted.
-------------
Mousse struggled as he did the deeds for the old maid. Cologne's voices
rasped out as she called again for her "favorite" waiter.
"Hurry Mousse go serve these!" Mousse grunted and took the orders, slowly
delivering the orders. Shampoo stood in the kitchen. She glanced over and saw Mousse
serving the bowls to the costumers. His arms dragged slowly as he carelessly places
them down on the table. He walked back over to the counter where the next order was
to be given by Cologne.
"Hurry Mousse, get going." Mousse frowned and slowly turned around, but
stopped. Shampoo stood in front of him, this he could see, being that for once he
wore his glasses. Shampoo extended her arms and took the bowls from Mousse's hands.
"Here. Shampoo take for Mousse. Mousse too tired need break. Go rest now."
Shampoo said. She swirled around, ready to serve the costumers.
"T-Thank you, Shampoo..." Shampoo turned her head and gently smiled to
Mousse and turned and went back to work. Mousse slowly backed up and found a chair to
sit in. He took off his glasses and wiped the fog from them. Slowly he moved his
lips.
"Thanks Shampoo." He whispered as he slouched into his chair.
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A ragged man walked into Ukyo's and sat down in front of her.
"Excuse me, but could you tell me where I am?" Ukyo smiled a bit and patted
his shoulder.
"Don't tell me you have gotten lost again Ryoga. You're in my restaurant.
Remember me Ukyo?" Ryoga looked startled for a moment, and then chuckled at his
stupidity for a moment, before letting a frown settle on his lips.
"What's wrong Ryoga?" Ukyo continued to cook, occasionally adding in
ingredients.
"Nothing really..." grunted Ryoga. Ukyo looked up from her cooking and
pouted at Ryoga's answer.
"Now Now, there's no reason to be upset. Come on cheer up Ryoga." Ryoga
refused to meet her eyes. Instead he just grunted again. Ukyo looked around for a
moment, and then quickly left the grill to grab something. Ryoga peered up to watch
her. She came back to stand where she had been before, in front of Ryoga. Ukyo
reached for Ryoga's hair.
"Huh?" Ryoga said as he felt her fingers entwine with the hair near his
ear. Ukyo's body was stretched over. She used both hands and carefully twisted a
small flower into Ryoga's hair, near his left ear.
"There!" She said as she clapped her hands together, "You know you can't be
unhappy with a flower around." Ryoga gentle fingered the object in his hair in
somewhat what of shocked amazement. Ukyo let out a giggle and held her hands in
front of her mouth. Ryoga, with his head downward, looked up at the giggling Ukyo.
He put his hands down from the flower and looked at Ukyo. His eyes shut slightly,
curving upwards, and he smiled back.
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Ranma entered Dr. Tofu's office. The place seemed to be deserted. As he
walked in, he noticed a note attached to the door of the room Akane was in. He
pulled the note down and read it.
I will be back in a little bit. Please wait here for me.
Ranma re-stuck the note to the door and walked in. He shut the door quietly
and walked over to the side of Akane's bed. Near the bed was a short stool. Ranma
sat down in it. From his pocket, he pulled out Akane's diary and placed it on her
bed. He looked down towards Akane's face.
"Akane, I want to help you, but I don't know what to do." He started, "So
after Shampoo's plan, Nabiki suggested that I look into your diary... I know you'll
pound me for it the moment you awake..." He paused, " But I want to help you..." He
looked at Akane's face as if expecting there to be signs of disapproval.
"Akane, I didn't know... that you felt that way..." He said, he almost
squeaked. "I...I don't hate you... No I could never... " He put his hand on top of
Akane's hand. Akane stirred a bit and let out an almost inaudible moan.
"Akane... forgive me... I didn't mean to... hurt you...And when I read
this, I was shocked... Shocked that you perhaps felt something... And when you
tried to catch my attention, I just threw it back at you... If I had been there,
then you wouldn't have bought that stupid locket... And... and..." A single tear
streaked Ranma's face; he didn't even know it was there. The drop slide down his
chin then dripped off, hitting Akane's hand. Again Akane stirred. The locket began
to glow with a faint light.
"Akane... I'm sorry... I... I... do care... Akane..." He looked up to find
the locket glowing.
"Huh? Akane?" He moved his hands towards the locket and as he was about to
touch it, he was engulfed by a light.
"What the? Akane? Akane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Ranma yelled and the light
surrounded him, and sucked him in.
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Notes: Sorry it took so long... Argh I hate having to write school papers... He He
He... perhaps I should have written my History paper instead of working on fan
fiction... Ha Ha Ha... Oh well... I figure I still have one or two more chapters
left till the end. Too lazy to re-read, please tell me if there are
mistakes...Please tell me what you think... Thanks for reading, bye!
P.S.- For those of you who are thinking, what the heck did that picture have to do
with anything, you'll see later.... Okies! ^_^
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Key to my Heart
Chp 5: "For You are the One"
By Ling Mao
Start: 5-18-2001
Finish: 5-18-2001
Normal disclaimer applies
< > = Thought
> < = Sound
[ ] = Panda signs
" " = Spoken
~ ~ = Diary entry
===============
===============
Ranma slowly opened the diary. As he cracked open the pages, a picture fell
out.
"Huh? What's this?" He bent over the pick up the picture. He turned it
over.
"What?" The picture was of a boy who looked about Ranma's age. The picture
was somewhat fuzzy, and details were blurry. The boy looked pretty muscular. He had
dark colored hair, either black or brown, and was wearing black sweatpants with a
black tank top. Ranma frowned. <I can't believe this. I'm out here doing all this
stuff to help her and this is how she repays me? Hump. It's not like I care, I'm
doing it because she's Mr. Tendo's daughter.> But still these thoughts did not
allow the frown to leave his lips. He held the picture up as if it were a card and
flicked it to the end of Akane's bed.
"Whatever..." He continued, grumpily, to open the diary. He flipped to a
page in the middle of the book and began to read.
~Nothing really happened today...
Ranma made me late, yet AGAIN...
I had to stand in the hall and hold buckets, but what's new...~
Ranma let out a sigh. <Argh... what a waste of paper... Next page> He
flipped a good amount of pages and began to read again.
~I don't understand, how is it that Ranma can always be so mean to Ryoga,
even if he hasn't done anything. Ryoga's been back for less than a day, and Ranma
attacks him as if he has a thing against him... Then again I guess I can't be
surprised... I guess he has a liking for insulting people...I know it sounds
stupid, but sometimes, I just wish that he'd be nice to me... I think he's mean to
Ryoga because he wants me to be mad and to suffer... I just can't understand him...
I think he hates me. How is it that he can always find something nice to say about
Ukyo or Shampoo... Hell he could think of something nice to say about his father!
But he seems to have to think long and hard to say something nice to me... Why
should I bother... It's not like I care what he thinks... its just frustration...
that's all it is...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~Ukyo's found out... I don't know why we bothered to try... It's not like
we ever REALLY would have been a married couple... That's funny, Ranma and me...
Even if it was pretend... it was kinda... nice... to do that kind of stuff with
Ranma... Make lunch for him, act nice... he had to spoil it though... I worked hard
to make that lunch... and he ran away... I'm such an idiot... to think that he'd
actually hold me like he did... to think he'd actually greet me without an
insult... to think that he'd actually want to sleep even in the same room as me...
No he only did it because he was in trouble... because he had to...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~I think I've realized something... I've been wrong all along... I'm not
mad at him... I'm mad at myself... I don't know why it knew dawned on me... That
perhaps I felt something. Perhaps not because the actions were perverted, but
because I was jealous... Shampoo, Ukyo, even Kodachi, Kuno, and Nabiki... They're
all so strong... I looked at myself in the mirror today... I was ashamed... I'm
weak... so weak... and stupid... Today I found out that I love someone... But I
can't tell anyone... not like they can... I don't have that type of power...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~I can never win... Strength, beauty, cooking ability, cleaning ability...
I lose... I hate them... all of them... most of all I hate him... For tormenting
me... For causing me to lose control... For leaving me... I hate them... I hate
them... I HATE HIM!~
>Flip Flip Flip<
~That's it I've decided. I won't love him anymore. It's not worth it. Just
screw it all...~
>Flip Flip Flip<
Blank
>Flip Flip Flip<
Blank
>Flip Flip Flip<
Blank
>Flip Flip Flip<
~I can't stand it... Why can I not stop? I know that he hates me, yet I
still can't stop. I've tried everything I could think of... I thought of the
insults he'd shout at me, I allowed him to go out with the others; I did actives to
take my mind off of him. Why is this so impossible? I'm still jealous... Why can't
he hold me the way he held her? Why can't I have what he has? Why does every notice
him? What happened? I don't know what I'm suppose to do... Sometimes I just wish
that someone would care... I long for someone to hold me, to cradle me. I long for
the warmth of someone who gives a damn. Father, Kasumi, Nabiki, Mother... They all
left me so long ago... I want attention, I want someone to praise me, I want
someone to scold me, and I want someone to notice me. The world is oblivious to me.
I want something more than the empty vessels of 'what is supposed to be' and I
want something real. I want more... But I guess I'm just wasting my time... I hope
for the hopeless, I'm dreaming for what will not come, my wishes go unheard. Yes,
so I am spoiled. I'm the baby. Yes... Spoil me, bathe me in attention, and saturate
my mind with more false beliefs. It doesn't matter... Nothing matters... They can
do whatever they want...
Tomorrow will be my last try. I will ask him to accompany me. I will try to
make him see. I will throw myself into the pit and hope that I will not be engulfed
by the darkness. I'll do it. I'll do anything. I can feel everyone slipping from my
fingers, from my grasp... I'll do anything. I want him to notice me, so see how I
feel... I'll do it... Anything...I just don't want to be left alone...~
------------
Dr. Tofu went to check on Akane again. She was so frail. Carefully he
switched the towel on her head. Akane flinched a little as Dr. Tofu's finger
brushed against her cheek, pushing away the hair. Akane's breathing was slow and
deep. Her throat made soft rasping sounds. The skin on her face began to cling to
her face, like that of an ill person, the fat and muscle diminishing. Her once pink
skin began to turn deathly pale. Her hair, though still full, began to thin out.
Dr. Tofu shook his head to himself. <At this rate, you most definitely will not
last long. If only we could find the cure> Dr. Tofu stood up and walked into the
kitchen.
On the counter of the kitchen lay a clothed dish. Dr. Tofu walked up to it
and carefully removed the cloth to reveal a stack of cookies. Plain chocolate chip
cookies, each rounded to perfection. The edges of the cookie were crisp, but not
burnt, and the insides were soft, but not mushy. The chips were even placed within
the cookie, no cookie held too much or too little. He picked one up and gentle
nibbled on the edge, enjoying the immense flavor. When he finished, his picked up
the cloth and carefully wrapped it around the plate again, making sure to display
the corner engraved with the letters K.T.
------------
Ranma eyed the very last page of the book, then quickly shut the book and
dropped it into his pocket. He stood up and peered at himself in the mirror. He
grunted with disgust and left Akane's room. He shut the door and leaned against.
His head bowed down, his hair shaded over his face.
In the room not to far from Ranma, Nabiki sat at her desk, doing some
calculations. She grabbed another envelope from the pile and opened it, careful not
to rip it. She pulled out the contents, which included his payment and a small
card. She grabbed the payment and speedily recounted it, making sure to have gotten
the correct amount. She then turned her attention to the small card. On the front
was a picture of Korean drawn characters having a party, holding small wine cups.
The card was colorful and had cute animals as the party guests. Some of the food
and drinks were lined with a silver color. The picture of the card was framed by
and shade of light pink with scattered sparkles. She turned the card around to read
the hand written note.
Nabiki,
Thanks a lot.
Kuno Tatawaki
Kuno's name was neatly scripted, as was the rest of the terse, but laconic
words. Nabiki turned the card again and examined the picture. She put the card down
in the corner of her desk and sat in her desk for a brief break. She stretched her
arms, and reached for the card again. She turned to the side containing the note
and read it again. She put the card down and leaned back on the chair, placing her
hands behind her head, the corners of her mouth slightly lifted.
-------------
Mousse struggled as he did the deeds for the old maid. Cologne's voices
rasped out as she called again for her "favorite" waiter.
"Hurry Mousse go serve these!" Mousse grunted and took the orders, slowly
delivering the orders. Shampoo stood in the kitchen. She glanced over and saw Mousse
serving the bowls to the costumers. His arms dragged slowly as he carelessly places
them down on the table. He walked back over to the counter where the next order was
to be given by Cologne.
"Hurry Mousse, get going." Mousse frowned and slowly turned around, but
stopped. Shampoo stood in front of him, this he could see, being that for once he
wore his glasses. Shampoo extended her arms and took the bowls from Mousse's hands.
"Here. Shampoo take for Mousse. Mousse too tired need break. Go rest now."
Shampoo said. She swirled around, ready to serve the costumers.
"T-Thank you, Shampoo..." Shampoo turned her head and gently smiled to
Mousse and turned and went back to work. Mousse slowly backed up and found a chair to
sit in. He took off his glasses and wiped the fog from them. Slowly he moved his
lips.
"Thanks Shampoo." He whispered as he slouched into his chair.
-------------
A ragged man walked into Ukyo's and sat down in front of her.
"Excuse me, but could you tell me where I am?" Ukyo smiled a bit and patted
his shoulder.
"Don't tell me you have gotten lost again Ryoga. You're in my restaurant.
Remember me Ukyo?" Ryoga looked startled for a moment, and then chuckled at his
stupidity for a moment, before letting a frown settle on his lips.
"What's wrong Ryoga?" Ukyo continued to cook, occasionally adding in
ingredients.
"Nothing really..." grunted Ryoga. Ukyo looked up from her cooking and
pouted at Ryoga's answer.
"Now Now, there's no reason to be upset. Come on cheer up Ryoga." Ryoga
refused to meet her eyes. Instead he just grunted again. Ukyo looked around for a
moment, and then quickly left the grill to grab something. Ryoga peered up to watch
her. She came back to stand where she had been before, in front of Ryoga. Ukyo
reached for Ryoga's hair.
"Huh?" Ryoga said as he felt her fingers entwine with the hair near his
ear. Ukyo's body was stretched over. She used both hands and carefully twisted a
small flower into Ryoga's hair, near his left ear.
"There!" She said as she clapped her hands together, "You know you can't be
unhappy with a flower around." Ryoga gentle fingered the object in his hair in
somewhat what of shocked amazement. Ukyo let out a giggle and held her hands in
front of her mouth. Ryoga, with his head downward, looked up at the giggling Ukyo.
He put his hands down from the flower and looked at Ukyo. His eyes shut slightly,
curving upwards, and he smiled back.
--------------
Ranma entered Dr. Tofu's office. The place seemed to be deserted. As he
walked in, he noticed a note attached to the door of the room Akane was in. He
pulled the note down and read it.
I will be back in a little bit. Please wait here for me.
Ranma re-stuck the note to the door and walked in. He shut the door quietly
and walked over to the side of Akane's bed. Near the bed was a short stool. Ranma
sat down in it. From his pocket, he pulled out Akane's diary and placed it on her
bed. He looked down towards Akane's face.
"Akane, I want to help you, but I don't know what to do." He started, "So
after Shampoo's plan, Nabiki suggested that I look into your diary... I know you'll
pound me for it the moment you awake..." He paused, " But I want to help you..." He
looked at Akane's face as if expecting there to be signs of disapproval.
"Akane, I didn't know... that you felt that way..." He said, he almost
squeaked. "I...I don't hate you... No I could never... " He put his hand on top of
Akane's hand. Akane stirred a bit and let out an almost inaudible moan.
"Akane... forgive me... I didn't mean to... hurt you...And when I read
this, I was shocked... Shocked that you perhaps felt something... And when you
tried to catch my attention, I just threw it back at you... If I had been there,
then you wouldn't have bought that stupid locket... And... and..." A single tear
streaked Ranma's face; he didn't even know it was there. The drop slide down his
chin then dripped off, hitting Akane's hand. Again Akane stirred. The locket began
to glow with a faint light.
"Akane... I'm sorry... I... I... do care... Akane..." He looked up to find
the locket glowing.
"Huh? Akane?" He moved his hands towards the locket and as he was about to
touch it, he was engulfed by a light.
"What the? Akane? Akane!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" Ranma yelled and the light
surrounded him, and sucked him in.
--------------------
Notes: Sorry it took so long... Argh I hate having to write school papers... He He
He... perhaps I should have written my History paper instead of working on fan
fiction... Ha Ha Ha... Oh well... I figure I still have one or two more chapters
left till the end. Too lazy to re-read, please tell me if there are
mistakes...Please tell me what you think... Thanks for reading, bye!
P.S.- For those of you who are thinking, what the heck did that picture have to do
with anything, you'll see later.... Okies! ^_^