Romance Fan Fiction ❯ And with the rain comes ❯ Haunted ( Chapter 2 )

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HAUNTNED

“What makes you so different…?”

“I don't know” he said shoving his hands into the deep pockets of his denim jeans.

“Why should I trust you?”

“I said I don't know…. But…what's life without a few risks?”

I didn't reply. I guess he was right…he was always right. Why did I feel so drawn to him? He was supposed to be nothing to me. But somewhere along the line, it all went wrong. I was now more in love with him than I'd ever been. I loved the way his hair would fall into his eyes when he worked, his brown eyes that made me feel warm all over. I closed my eyes and tried to shake off the feeling in the pit of my stomach.

“If you don't feel anything…then I'll leave you alone…forever” He grabbed my arm and turned me around to face him.

“Forever?” I bit my lower lip trying to hide the shakiness in my voice.

“Yeah…forever”

“Fine.” He placed his hand gently on my face and skimmed his thumb across my lower lip.

I kept my shaking hands to my side. His soft lips pressed ever so gently against mine. I could feel everything that I'd wanted for the past six years. He stepped away and looked me dead in the eye.

“Anything?” he asked his voice was shaking with the fear of rejection.

“Nothing.” I lied.

“Alright…fine.” A tear came down his cheek as he turned away, walking out if my life, for what I was sure to be forever. I grabbed my arm and squeezed it so tight I'm sure it went numb. He slammed the door; I could hear him cussing outside of it. I clenched my teeth and fought back as many tears as I could. But the floodgates eventually broke and tears overflowed. No matter how many times I wiped them away they seemed endless. I took out my cell phone and called my friend Alex.

“Hello?” she answered in her usual high-pitched voice

“Hey Lex.” I said trying not to give off that was crying

“Hey girl what's up?”

“Uh…could you pick me up?”

“Sure! Where are you?”

“At the abandon building at the edge of town.”

“M'kay see you in a sec.”

“Yeah”

I felt so stupid. I'd liked him since the 7th grade. The first time I saw him…I thought he was beautiful. Everyone kept asking if I liked him, not being one to show my feelings easily, I always said no. During high school we became friends. Somewhere along the line I feel in love with who he is…or was anyway. As we went into 10th grade it became harder to hide how I felt towards him. My so-called friend betrayed my trust and told him how I felt. She did it right in front of my face. He looked at me with disbelief and a sad almost disgusted look on his face. He kept looking at me as he walked away. I could feel my face getting hot. After that he stopped talking to me. I couldn't take it. So I became very distant…. and everyone hated me for it. I didn't let people get close, yet some were persistent, but I still trust no one. Now I'm in 12th grade and he started talking to me in the beginning of the year. I'd pretended to hate him, but no matter what I did I always loved him.

“Hi.” He said.

I didn't answer

“Look…I'm sorry…I know what I did was wrong but it just took me by surprise. That's all.”

“So you stopped talking to me for TWO years?!” I blurted out.

“I needed to think.”

“What about?”

“How I felt about you.”

“WHAT?!”

“NO! Not like that! Just…as a friend.”

“Really?”

“Yeah? Your okay for a girl I guess.”

I smiled to myself trying not to blush.

“Okay…well I'll see you later.” He patted me on the shoulder and walked away to his next class. I made sure he was gone and jumped up and down. I was happy. That was then. I sat on the sanded floor and hugged my knees praying that there was some other way to get out of this mess I'd gotten myself into. Somebody tapped me on the shoulder. I wiped my eyes.

“ I f you don't like him then why are you crying?” Alex smiled

“What…oh you mean these?” I pointed to my watery eyes. She nodded . “I uh broke a nail when I sat down and it really hurt.”

“Uh-huh sure! Look he likes you! You love him! What the heck is your problem?!” she helped me up.

“ You're wrong…besides it won't last long anyway and I'll just get hurt again.”

“ You're such an idiot!”

“I know.”

“So…tell me again why you won't go out with him and live happily ever after.”

“He's changed.”

“Oh GROW UP! People change every day! Is that gunna stop you from living life. I mean hell if you won't go for him I will!”

I glared at Alex, she was the one who betrayed me only because she liked him to, and still does. It's all she talks about.

“ HHRRR! FORGET IT I'LL JUST WALK!” I yelled, I didn't mean to I just didn't feel like hearing about him at the moment.

“HEY ! I was just kidding!” she ran after me.

“JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!” I ran out the building into the abandon streets, I could feel the tears welling up inside me. I had nowhere to run. I'd just yelled at the only friend I had…I had nothing left. I shook my head and slowed down a bit. Dark clouds clashed overhead so I ran into the building that he and I used to hang out at. It was dark, I saw a thin ray of light but I didn't walk towards it. I sat down on the floor. My chest was hurting. I didn't want to move. I didn't want to think. I just wanted it to stop. It began to rain, the wind was howling but I still didn't move. She'll be mad at me again but I didn't care. I couldn't help but think of the look on his face as he left the building, it wouldn't go away. “ENOUGH!” I yelled

“WHOS THERE!?” a familiar voice came ringing in my ears. I knew it all to well. I didn't answer. I slide very slowly into a corner. “ I KNOW YOU'RE THERE! ANSWER ME!” the light beamed at me blinding me for a second. The light fell to the ground and there were footsteps. There was a loud crash that seemed to come from all directions. “ DAMN IT!” he yelled, “looks like the old building finally came crashing down…the exits anyway.” he put on a smile. I frowned and sat down once again. It was silent. I bit my lip.

“…Chris…why did you say no?” he asked looking out the dingy window.

“b-because I don't like you that way.”

“The REAL reason Chris.”

He cut right through my lies, I never could tell a lie around him.

“I told you I don't like you like that. It's not my fault your little feelings got hurt so get over it!” I yelled

“ So…what Alex said was true…you really do hate me.” His voice was sad and distant. How could she say that? How could she say that I hated him! I wanted to desperately to leave. My heart began to hurt even more as the words left my lips

“I guess she was.” I hissed.
I heard a stifled cry from the corner he was in…and in the background…it was very faint but I heard this cracking noise it was horrible…it sounded like a child giving up their dreams, it sounded like someone being tortured for my lies… you know it's scary…to hear your own heart breaking. I grabbed my chest. My knees gave in. I couldn't help but cry, it was the only thing I could do, I was lost and helpless. After all, all this is my fault.

“YOU LYING HACK!” he yelled, “YOU LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND TELL ME YOU FELT NOTHING!!!” he grabbed my arm. I turned my head. I couldn't even look at him. “LOOK AT ME!” he yelled as he turned me so that I couldn't escape his gaze.

“FINE! YOU WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH THEN I'LL GIVE IT TO YOU!” I yelled, “ I'VE HATED YOU FOR SO LONG THAT IT HURTS. YOU SIT THERE EVERY DAY WITH THAT DUMB LOOK ON YOUR FACE! YOU MAKE ME SICK! I WISH YOU WERE DEAD!” I yelled. That was the last time I talked to him after that. He ended up dating Alex. And everyday I have to walk past him…I regret everything I said that day. I don't think he knows who I am anymore…so on the day of graduation; I walked up, right beside him and ever so softly uttered the words that can cause so much pain… I love you. I felt his hand slid into mine and for a brief second I thought I heard him say “I love you too” but I was never sure. When I looked up he'd walked away gone off to say goodbye to his friends. I smiled. I felt like an idiot but I smiled