Ronin Warriors Fan Fiction ❯ Confessions for the Heart ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )

A/N: We actually got this updated!

JC: Correction! YOU updated! I had nothing to do with this chapter! How dare you do this while I'm doing schoolwork! It's evil!

Catherine: OH GOD! How could you do that to Seiji?!

Kathrine: My Goddess was restless so I decided to appease her with a chapter full of Seiji torture.

JC: But you even had to hurt Anubis!

Kathrine: Wouldn't help if ONLY Seiji was suffering.

Catherine: Oh God, this is unconstitutional! It's against everything I stand for! (Runs off crying about the horror.)

JC: You know a little Seiji torture isn't bad, a medium amount isn't even overboard, but this?!

Kathrine: A beautiful work of art, isn't it?

JC: No one can help you. You're a lost cause.

Kathrine: Thank you. Now on to the fic!

Disclaimer: Haven't gotten the message yet? We don't own them. WE ONLY GET TO RUIN THEIR LIVES AND GIVE THEM MEAN LITTLE VOICES!!

Warning: NCS stuff, angst, pain, torture, drugs. All the usual stuff that comes with fics I write. IF YA DON'T LIKE OR ARE TO SENSITIVE THEN LEAVE!!!!!

Confessions for the Heart

By Kathrine

( 1 chapter all to myself! Mwuaahahahahahahahaaaa!!^_^)

Chapter 5

The car ride was strangely silent, each person filled with worries and questions. Ryo stole a glance and Nasuti and quickly covered it back up. He could see the concern in her eyes and didn't know how to comfort her. Instead he turned his eyes back towards the street they were driving down and asked a question to break the silence, " Where are we supposed to meet them?"

" In front of the club I guess," Shu shrugged. " Touma will probably go back there after trailing that girl." He looked over at his other lover in the seat next to him, but Shin was just staring out of the window with a far off look in his eyes, his thoughts all on Seiji.

All that pain, the guilt, the depression…Did we cause all of that? the brunette wondered dismally. While being inside of the blonde's mind, even for that very brief amount of time, he could see all the pain still hidden deep from the months he'd been with them after the incident in New York. If we had paid more attention, if he hadn't cut off the links, would we have done anything to stop him from leaving? It plagued him to know that they could have prevented all the distress that lay dormant in the mind of his former comrade-in-arms.

" Look!" Shu stared through the windshield. " I can see Touma on the curb in front of the club, but there's some other guys with him, besides Anubis."

" Gods, your friends take quite a long time," Naaza was getting impatient. He could see how Anubis was closing himself off, becoming more like the near feral man he'd met when Yami had first come to the Youjakai. The war soldier had been trapped in the wilderness of the mountains for nearly a year before his yoroi had called upon him, and before Arago had come as well. We don't need him going off on a rampage like he did back then, the green-haired man thought.

" I think that's them now," Touma pointed at the red Samurai closing in on their position. " Hey guys, over here!" He began to wave his hands at the vehicle before stepping closer to the curb. The car drove up next to him and stopped.

" We got it!" Shu called as they exited the car. He looked towards where a morosely silent Anubis sat on the street bench and saw both Doku and Gen. I'm not gonna ask, he decided. Too many weird things have happened today for me to worry about it. He pulled the orb of Korin from his pocket and held it out for them to see.

" Good," Touma replied before looking around at the amount of people that were beginning to file out of the dance club behind them. " Maybe we should find a less crowded place to do this, no?"

" You have a point," Rajura agreed with him. " I believe there is a park about a block away from here that might be more suitable for what we about to attempt."

" Works for us," Ryo stated, holding in all the questions he had about the situation until later.

Naaza nodded before kneeling next to Anubis and touching his shoulder. The wild glare he received was one he remembered well. He knew then that they had to watch the Yami Masho very closely, less he do something that would harm another and not realize it. " We have Korin's orb," he spoke in a clear voice. " We need to move to somewhere where no one will see us."

Yami said nothing as he stood up and began to follow after Touma and Ryo down the street. The green-haired swordsman gave a worried glance to his lover as he stood to join them. " He's regressing to how he was before Shuten came to us," he watched the other man.

" I can see that," Rajura's tone held the same concern. " Let us find Korin well and in one piece or who knows what he shall do." Shin, Shu, and Nasuti could walk behind them with a fearful look between them.

*****

He awoke instantly at the feel of cold metal pricking his skin. His eyes opened and he could see the familiar sadistic smile of captor. He turned his eyes away, but he then noticed that he was no longer chained to the ceiling. Instead his arms were bound to a low metal table. He also noticed that the countertop of it seemed like the glass from a mirror. Gods, what is he planning to do to me now?

" Hello pet, I see you're awake again," the man smiled as he ran fingers down the blonde's chest. " I was afraid that you wouldn't get up, then we'd have to stop playing." He lifted a hand and forced Seiji to look at him and at the same time, allowing him to also see the mirror that was attached to the ceiling. It showed him bound, spread eagle on the table and his captor waving a syringe in front of his face.

He seemed to notice how Seiji finally stared at the little tool in his hand and smiled a bit. " You're probably wondering what this is, aren't you?" he questioned with the quirk of an eyebrow. " Oh, I just gave you a little something to make things more interesting. I do like my toys to work well so just call it a type of liquid battery to power you up."

" B-bas-stard,' Seiji mumbled as he felt the drugs take effect. His veins began to boil and his skin felt as if he'd been placed in a fire to burn. It was only then that he realized that he had lost feeling in his back, no longer able to feel the pain from the lashing he had received. But suddenly he felt everything, heard everything, and his eyes watered uncontrollably. The thing that scared him the most was that at the same time everything was making him painfully aroused.

" Oh, it is working beautifully on you my pet," the man purred as he leaned closer so that his face was barely a breath away from the blonde's own. " So beautiful…" His words seemed to trail off and he brushed his lips across Seiji's before crushing them together in a bruising kiss.

No, no, no, no, no… Korin chanted in his mind as he closed his eyes against the drug-induced sensation he was feeling. The water collected in them fell down his face like the tears that would have surely been in their place if not for the two glazed orbs already being filled. The man released his lips finally and began to lick the streams that ran down near his temples. Seiji was forced to hold down a moan that reached his throat just from the act.

His heart was pounding in his chest and that's when his abductor began to descend down his body with light feather kisses on his shoulders before he sucked on the vein on his neck. " St-Unnn…" he couldn't halt the sound from escaping, but he didn't want it.

" That sounded delicious, almost as delicious as you taste," the man smirked at him before licking his collarbone. " I can't wait to hear the next one."

NO! his mind protested as he felt the wetness of the vile tongue attached itself to one of his nipples. He took in a deep breath of air in shock and he couldn't stop his back from arching in pleasure. I don't want this, he reminded himself. I'm not supposed to feel like this. I'm not supposed to enjoy this, it's the drug. He felt hands slither down the sides of his abdomen, past the bandages to the zippers on the top of his pants.

" N-no," he forced out as he shook his head repeatedly.

" Oh you're still fighting my little booster?" the man seemed amused. " Oh, my pet, that just makes things more interesting." The hands pulled on the zippers, forcing them down to reveal long and slender, yet muscular creamy legs. " So beautiful…" Seiji could hear the man repeat.

I have to stop this, I don't want this, he continued to fight against the drug, only causing it to sink its claws deeper into him. Oh, Anubis, I'm so sorry… The next thing he could feel was a hard callused hand wrapping itself around his stiff erection. He groaned as the hand began to rub him in a slow seductive manner. He felt his pulse begin to speed up and his breaths were coming out ragged and labored.

" You respond so nicely pet," the man smiled viciously as he kissed the head of the blonde's member. " Yes, very nicely." He moved back up to stare into Seiji's eyes that were now filled with apprehension and fear. The sight of ecstasy and fear on the boy's ethereal features only succeeded in increased the burn between his legs.

He leaned down to kiss his lips once again, but stopped suddenly. " I think I know a better way my pet can use that mouth to please his master," he slowly licked his lips hungrily.

Oh no, please, Seiji didn't even have enough control to turn his eyes away any longer. He couldn't stop what was happening and it only made him feel even weaker. In one last chance to preserve his sanity he pulled up all of his walls once again and tried to hide himself in his temporary sanctuary.

*****

He felt the block and part of his soul closed off to him. Oh Gods, he clutched his chest and tried to connect with it again, regain the last shred of Seiji he could sense, but to no avail. He had been sensing a strange war of emotions; pleasure, guilt, disgust, denial; all were trapped inside of who he knew was his blonde lover. But then it just stopped, everything was cut and he was left half empty.

" Anubis, what happened?" he could hear Rajura's voice.

" He's gone, I can't feel him anymore," to the others he sounded almost broken. " He's locked himself away, to far off for me to reach." His expression of pain changed to one of anger and his eyes glowed with the dark light of revenge. " Give me the orb."

Shu extended his hand and gave it willingly to the other man. Not even Kongo felt it was right, or even safe, to get in Yami's way when he had such a dark gleam in his eyes. The blue-haired man stepped away from the others towards a small tree in the area they'd reached in the park. He closed his eyes and held both orbs in separate hands, trying to use the power of one to link to the other.

Slowly, he felt the strange connection between the two armors grow and his hopes were rising with it. I'm coming Seiji, he said in his mind. Just hold on a little longer. Just as they were about to merge as one mind the process stopped. Anubis could feel the Korin armor withdraw without forewarning and the Yami reacted as if it had been burned over a stove. He felt his heartbeat cease and his breath was caught in his throat.

It's rejecting Yami, he gasped for breath and dropped both before collapsing to the ground. It doesn't have enough energy to keep the connection. He felt hands on him and the sound of voices but couldn't hear what anyone was saying. His mind was on his failure and what it could mean. Seiji is too weak to supply Korin little amount of energy needed to find him. Gods, koi what could that mean for you? Are you still in one piece, what has that monster done to you? How has he hurt you?

" Yami talk to us, what went wrong?" Rajura was really becoming worried with his comrade's actions. His eyes were no longer their usual midnight blue, but a black that covered everything from pupil to whites.

" What's wrong with him?" Nasuti questioned.

" The connection was severed by the lack of energy Korin possessed and it couldn't take any from its bearer so it's left him trapped somewhere," Naaza guessed. " This hasn't happened before. Even with past bearers, Korin and Yami were kept apart, never were they even close to lovers."

Touma lifted Korin from where Yami had dropped it on the ground and released it again when a strange shock was sent through his arm. " It attacked me!" he gasped. The orb now lay in the grass flickering with a dim green glow, trying to keep its power, electric flashes seeming to shoot from it only to enter it again on a different side of the crystal.

" All is not well with Korin," Naaza didn't like the implications of the orb's reaction. " When the bearer dies, or is placed in a state where he can no longer use the armor, the yoroi must return to where it draws its power."

" So it's doing that cause it's trying not to leave?" Shin inquired.

" Or Seiji's power is wavering and the orb is unsure of its decision to leave or not," Nasuti suggested. " Either way it's not good."

Touma felt a strange pain in his chest at those words. Seiji can't die, we have to find him, though he wasn't so sure that they would find him in time. It was already past four in the morning and the girl had told him that they had to find him before tomorrow. He knew that meant before morning and he wasn't sure that they would.

He turned his eyes towards where Rajura was trying to get through to Anubis, but he didn't seem to be making any progress. How much will Yami suffer if we don't find him, their link is too strong to stand being severed like that. The thought of the bond and relationship between Anubis and Seiji caused a lump in the archer's throat. Was he feeling…jealous?

Of course not! He ignored the notion. I chose Shu and Shin, I had plenty of chances with Seiji…I let them go. I made my choice. Inside he couldn't decide if it had been the right one or one of convenience. That was just something he wasn't willing to think about, let alone accept as a possibility.

" He's still lost," Rajura sighed. " Not even I can bring him out of this."

" But we do know someone who could," Naaza pointed out. " That's if he's still willing to go to that plane."

" What if he's crossed over all the way? We can't reach him then," Rajura stared up at his lover.

" We have to try something, he got to him when he was practically a human wolf, what have we got to lose?" They didn't even noticed the confused stares from the other five people with them.

" Who are you talking about?" Shin asked.

" Shuten," Naaza answered matter-of-factly.

" Shuten? But he's dead," Ryo stated.

" Of course he's dead," Naaza replied as if it was perfectly logical. " We're going to connect with him on a different plane. He is the only one who could reach Anubis when he'd lost his touch with reality before. We are going to ask him to do it again. We need Yami if we are to find Korin."

" Will it work?" Touma asked.

" That's what we're going to find out," Rajura sighed as he moved a wild bang from Anubis face. This better work, he thought. If something happens to both Yami and Korin both circles will be broken and the other yorois will be pulled into the void they create.

*****

He felt so dirty. He couldn't believe he'd just done anything that he'd done. It was the drugs, they forced me to do it, he tried to convince himself. But it was then that he heard a voice that he remembered, but seemed from so long ago in the past.

You liked it, you enjoyed it, you asked for it.

No, I didn't want to…

Were you listening to yourself? You sounded like a female wolf in heat!

I tried to fight it. I tried to tell him to stop. I didn't want this.

Of course you wanted it, walking around dressed like a slut. You practically screamed, 'Free ass right here!'

I thought it would be good for Anubis and me. I wanted to…

You wanted to look like a two-bit whore and dragged him into it. No wonder he never came looking for you, you degraded him to the level of a whore!

No, I wouldn't do that. I…

What? You LOVE him? What a load of bullshit! You never loved him, just a convenient fuck!

NO! he didn't want to believe the voice, it couldn't be true. Yet he wavered in his defense. Anubis was my first and only.

Not anymore! The voice seemed to snicker at him. You really screwed that up. He's not gonna want you now, not after what you just had that nut do to you.

I tried to fight, I tried…

If you had really tried, really WANTED to go, you would have been out of here already.

He couldn't fight the voice anymore. He was too weak to go up against it again. Admitting that to himself only made him feel even dirtier.

See? You're pathetic, just let anyone that walks in fuck you. What did Anubis see in you?

Anubis? What am I going to tell him? How can I face him again? How can he ever want me again? I'm nothing but damaged goods now.

That's right! You're just damaged goods, not worth anything or anyone, let alone Yami Masho. He's better off just leaving you here and never having to look at you again.

He wouldn't do that. He loves me, he's going to come for me.

Do you really want him to see what you've become, to know what kind of person you really are? I'd thought you rather let him never find you than to know that you're just a slut who fucked him to get his kicks.

I didn't! I love him! I would never hurt him!

Now you're fight back? You could have you that to fight back against HIM instead of using it against a voice in your head. What happened to the brain that you're supposed to have?

Just stop. Please let me be. He couldn't take it anymore. He was tired of fighting with himself. He just wanted to return to the void he'd been in. He knew that his abductor would be back soon and he didn't want to be around mentally when he did. So he closed himself off even more, forced himself into unconsciousness, if only to escape the voice that continued to cut him down with his own insecurities and doubts.

A/N: I had to interfere! I couldn't let her do all of that to him in one chapter!

Kathrine: You took out my scene! How could you?! That was supposed to be the first real one I posted!

JC: I couldn't live with myself if I had let you. Try to change it and I'll have Kitty get Jennifer on you.

Kathrine: You know she does this stuff just like I do.

JC: Not if Kitty goes against it. (She smirks victoriously before walking off.)

Kathrine: She thinks she's so hot. Don't worry I'll just have to put it in a later chapter. Guess this story just got a lot longer. I can already picture it. Mmmmmmmm……. (Evil in her eyes proves to be no good.)

Kathrine: Oh where was I? Oh yes, hope you liked this, took a while but we've got a job and school so it takes up a lot of time. Please review and tell us what you think. And we would like it if you'd go onto our bio page and pick which story you'd think we should work on next seeming as RTP is coming to a close. It would help to know what yall want. Thanks, Ja ne!