Ronin Warriors Fan Fiction ❯ Happiness and Lonelyness ❯ Chapter 7

A/N: Please forgive me if you find out any/many errors… I'll try not to make them but I'm not native English and for me is a little difficult to write like this!

Well… I know what are you thinking… Why I don't stop to write in English? Well… I don't know?^_^ Eh eh…

Ok… this is the same as always… is a Yaoi and if you don't like the genre you can go away! I don't force you in reading what I write! So… please I don't need flames!!

What I need is a beta reader! Just for a little help with my English!!^^;;

Disclaimers: I don't own the troopers and don't have any profit by write this if not fun…

Well… good reading!

Acua.

Solitudine e Felicità .

(by Acuamaine)

Charter 7

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Another nightmare, it was the fifth in only one night… Seiji walk over Touma's bed for calm the trashing archer…

//They have come back at home about 3 weeks ago. The others have come and get them at the motel. Ryo was just so furious that they have to pry him not to do something stupid. Shu and Shin where just content to have their friends back that they didn't want to do anything other that hug them.//

"Touma… wake up love…" Seiji start his routing by caressing warm cheek wet by the tears that where falling from shut eyes.. The moaning and trashing from the archer submitted when Seiji began to fill his actions with gently touch of his power.

Big blue eyes open up to look up at him… blinking twice he sit up and look around. Eyes that show all his fears, and breathing a little errand from the bad memories his mind have remember…

"Another one?" Ask the blue haired one with a voice so low that Seiji have to sit down himself for listen at those words.

"Yes… Do you remember anything of it? Or is like the other?" Ask Seiji while rubbing the archer's back and trying to soothe him. The archer leaned on his shoulder and inspired deeply.

"I… I think… I saw you… and HIM…and…" Touma was crying freely now… his shoulders where trembling with his sobs and he was clutching at Seiji's shirt for remind himself that he was safe, he was near him…

Touma was scared, not for his life but for Seiji's… He remember clear the feeling he had sensed when he had find out that his father have beated Seiji… The feel of being powerless, impotent for not being able to keep the most important people safe.

He can still sensed the smell of alcohol from his father breath, and he was scared… scared that maybe one day that bastard can come back and aunt them… and beat Seiji again, and abuse Seiji again…

But he was scared also for himself… he can't help it… the fear of seeing his own shadow and not being able to understand where it come from… fear of hearing sound he can't find the source…

When Byakuen enter in the house and make a little noise he can jump out of his skin… Only Seiji's presence can help him relax and feel better and safe.

Touma look up at Seiji and let him take him on his lap. Seiji was rocking him and make him calming down… Suddenly Touma ask, with a low voice "Seiji? Why?" he turn around on the blonde's lap for look out of the window.

"What Touma?"

"Why my mother have to left me with HIM! And why a person who is supposed to love me… can do something like that?" Touma turn around so to face Seiji and look at him in the eyes while torrent of tears run freely from his eyes.

"Seiji? Love isn't supposed to be full of joy and happiness, is it? Or does love is supposed to be so cruel and full of pain and sadness?"

The question was made with such a painful tone in his voice that Seiji can't help but hold more tight Touma and let out a little squeeze on him. Touching his mind with his power he react his thoughts and soothe away the pain.

"Touma? Do you love me?" Was the first question that come to the blonde's mind, he had to make sure that Touma understand the difference between what his father done to him and what love is supposed to be.

Touma look up at him and simply nodded at his question while press himself more tightly in Seiji's embrace. And Seiji tighter his hold on him persuading in his talk.

"Well… do you wish to make me suffer?"

Touma shock his head and look again on him frowning. Seiji's calmness and his power where calming him down. "Why do you ask such a questions? Don't you trust me and my feelings anymore… or… are you to distasteful by…"

Two soft lips silenced his questions and his thoughts. And two expertise hand working on Touma's body for making the tension gone away. When the two parted they look at each other, Seiji smiled sweetly at the blue haired one and leaned forward for gently kissing his forehead.

"I can never doubt of your love! I was only trying to answer your questions!" Touma's knit his brow in concentration… after some second his face lift up cause of his understating… Seiji was trying to make him figure out by himself what love used to be…

"Touma… what your father show you in the past and even what he show you now isn't love! He is very disturbed and sick! He don't know what love is and mostly important… YOU are not the one to blame for it! Understood young archer?"

Touma nodded briefly before claming the swordsman's lips again… they where so taken in the kiss that neither one of them hear the soft know of the door.

Shin stepped in quietly brought with him a tray with the breakfast for the two lovers… With him was Ryo who also brought a tray with food… Shin had decided that they need to eat more and gaining more strength…

When they saw the scene can't help but grinning… Ryo cough twice gaining their attention, well he scared the daylight out of them , but the result was pretty much the same…

Touma and Seiji looked at the two with unbeliever eyes… Ryo start to make fun on them because they are even more redden than his own armor… and even Shin make some little joke about it.

The fight ended with Shin and Ryo running out of the room while Touma throw them any object that was at handy distance…

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That evening Touma was tired of staying in his room all alone… usually was one of the guys who tried to coaxing him out those four walls and for strange reason this night he was the one who was tired of staying in there. Seem to him that he was lousing his time not doing anything, so he descended the stair in hope of finding one of the other and talk for a while…

When he was for entering the living room he caught the voice of the others who were talking animus and from what he have caught he can say they were talking about him…

"But what do you think he would say… It's his father we are talking about…" Shin's voice was laced with concern and worry… not something that Touma would hear… and why do they was talking about he and his father?

Touma hide behind the door and listen carefully… Ryo was answering Shin's question…

"We don't have any other alternative…!! We have to make him go away!!"

Touma's heart skip a beat or two… they were talking of making him go away, thay don't want him to stay with them anymore… this was one of the thing he feared the most… He have lost his friends.. his family, his only family!! Without him knowing it he step in the room and cleared his throat…

What make him suffer the most was that Seiji haven't say nothing about that! And he have say early that he loved him! That he was not disgusted by him!! Trembling Touma cover the distant between he and Seiji… The latter was facing the other and keeping his back to the door, so he was the least to see the archer.

"Why?"

Touma's voice make them all jump in surprise, they turned to look at him, he was now crying freely not even trying to keep his emotions under control… He was gazing directly in violets eyes… trying to understand the lye and the motivations of everything… for see the blonde's real sentiments.

Ryo was the first to react he jump on his feet and go at the archer side in an instant "Touma… what..are you doing here? And… what did you hear?"

"You… you want me to go away! I know… and understand it! I'm disgusting and you are right to make me go away… I… I… I can understand it! Do..don't worry about my feelings…"

He can't keep any longer and his emotions take over, he fall to his knees and cried even harder… Seiji was at his side in no time… He took the trembling archer in his arms and with the help of Shu he made him sit on the couch.

"Sssh Touma!… Listen to me… please…" Seiji was trying to explain to Touma why they were talking like that, but the archer refuse to listen he had shut his mind to the other… but let the other listen to his thoughts…

Shu and Ryo was making a quickly retreat for let the two lover with their privacy but Shin stopped them and let for all of them a message trough the link they all shared, minus Touma in that moment.

- Guys… we need to make sure he understand he is loved from all of us! No only from Seiji!!- Shin sat on the couch next the archer on the other side respect Seiji.

They all can sensed his pain and they all can sensed his injured heart… they can hear his sob and listen to his depressed thoughts where he say to himself that he was alone again, that he have lost again the only thing good that was happened to his life… he had lost his friends, his family… He felt empty and his vole existence was futile now! He had not longer a purpose to go on… he no longer exist.

However he don't blame his friends for wanting him out of their lives… he had put Seiji's life in danger and he had put the other's life in danger as well as his own… he deserve to be alone because of this!

Seiji was trying to reopen Touma's mind to them, to calm the archer down with his power as well as with his own body… but Touma had put a wall between them all… Seiji can't go on like that Touma's pain was making him wanted to scream, the pain was so intense that he can't support all of this… he can feel everything though he can't do anything for make it stop.

Finally Shu had enough to see both Seiji and Touma in such pain and grab the archer by the collar effectively knocking him out of his self isolated state… He lifted him from the couch and even the ground and shock him repeatedly "Touma! How can you thing so low of your friends? Listen to me, and listen Well I will repeat it only one time!!…"

The cold stare he receive from Seiji stop him to go any further… Touma was hurt and his stern talk can't help him right now! He put Touma back down on the couch and right on Seiji's arms…

Ryo kneel in front of the archer and put an hand on Touma's leg. "Touma… we love you! Don't ever doubt it again…"

"…We were talking about you… this is right!" Shin put another hand on the archer's shoulder "But we weren't trying to make you go away! And more important… we are not disgusted by you, and we are not accusing you of nothing… right guys?"

The other nodded, and Seiji smiled while wiped away the tears from the archer's cheeks… and leaned in for kissing his forehead and whisper in his ear "Tou… I love you! I can't ever do anything for hurting you… trust me!"

Shin explained careful to the archer what they were doing and planning… The days before someone keep calling their home and leave strange message, they all know he was Genichiro the one who let those call. They all know that Touma's father know where his son live and where they all live, so this place is not sure anymore for them. Seiji will taking Touma to Sendai to his family and let his father know about what happened to them.

They were just discussing on how and if telling the archer about those call when he stomped in the room. Now that he know that Touma feel sorry for what he have tough about them… for not believing in them and not trusting them. However with those revelations he feel scared again… he haven't thinking at it, but it was true… His father know were they live, he and Seiji were kidnapped there, in the same house were they were now!

Shu saw the blank and fearful expression Touma have, quickly took him from Seiji's arms and hug him forceful, sitting on the couch with the archer in his lap.

Touma look around and see what they were doing, his friends were protecting him… He was between them all, and can feel their power and soul mixing with his own. Clouding his eyes he leaned forward and put his head on Seiji's shoulder.. the blonde was his secure rock… no one can ever stole this spot from him in Touma's heart.

The troopers were fighting again. But this time it wasn't a demon emperor who was facing them, but the falling of one of them, the fear, the pain and the insecurity of Touma. They'll be ready to face together this new treat and to win against it! All of them can sensed the other's auras and also their emotions… the sensation was so strong that all of them had tears in their eyes threatening to fall…

Touma was lull by this great sensation in a peaceful sleep, secure that his friend would protect him and make things go better for him… With a sleepy voice he says, before lousing consciousness "Thanks my brothers… thanks my love…"

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The next morning everything was ready for the departure… Touma and Seiji will be going to Sendai, while the other three and Nasutei would going to Shu's family… They will remain in touch and will be readying to face, eventually, Genichiro together…

Touma sleep for most of the drive and wake only when they were in front of a huge house… It was clear that was an ancient mansion… and Touma can't help but stared at it in disbelieve.

"Oh my… Seiji… do you… this is… Is this where you live??"

Seiji had to grin at his lover sweet expression, Touma was like a child in front an unopened present. Mouth open and eyes two size big than normal. Taking him in his arms he kiss him passionately and rest his chin on his shoulder. Both of them enjoyed that moment, because it was clear to both of them that they would have to behave like they weren't nothing but friend. Seiji's family can0t accept their relationship, at last not so quickly, and they can't face this problem right now… so they have agreed to act formally.

Exchanging another quick kiss on the lips both of them took their luggage in there, both of them unaware of someone who had follow them from the Yajio's mansion… Both of them don't suspect nothing even when a car parked in front of the house and someone from in there took some pictures of the house…

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Continua…

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Acua.