Ronin Warriors Fan Fiction ❯ Loss of Love, Two Healing Hearts ❯ Lost Since You've Gone ( Chapter 1 )

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Ronin Warriors
"Loss of a Love, Healing Two Hearts"

Disclaimer: I do not own the show Ronin Warriors or the characters except Miya and Ashiyu, they're my characters.

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Summary: Miya and Rowen have both felt the pain of lossing a best friend and a love. Now together them must heal themselves and each other. But how? How do you heal a broken heart? Rowen knows but he must now convince Miya. Is it too late for him to save her?

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Miy a stood at the grave once again, like she always did. She knelt down and placed a flower on the grave than stood back up, wiping away a tear and staring at the tombstone that had been placed in front of the caves that was once the source of the Armour of Halo's light.
"Oh Sage, I'm so sorry. You died protecting me but it should've been me. You should still be here with your friends, living to an old age. I really miss you. I know it's been almost a year but I still find it hard to live without you. It hurts so much." she said, a single tear falling down her cheek. "Oh hey, on a brighter note, I've got a concert tomorrow. My first real concert You told me I could do it so I took your advice. I wish you could be there to hear me sing. It would mean so much to me if you were."
"(singing) Couldn't save you from the start, Love you so much it hurts my soul, Can you forgive me for trying again?, Your silence makes me hold my breath, All the time has passed you by;
"Ooo for so long I've tried to shield you from the world, Ooo you couldn't face the freedom on your own, Here I am, Left in silence;
"You gave up the fight, You left me behind, All that stands forgiven, You'll always be mine, I know deep inside, All that stands forgiven;
"I watched the clouds drifting away, Still the sun can't warm my face, I know it was destined to go wrong, You were looking for the great escape, To chase your demons away;
"Ooo for so long I've tried to shield you from the world, Ooo you couldn't face the freedom on your own, Here I am, Left in silence;
"You gave up the fight, You left me behind, All that stands forgiven, You'll always be mine, I know deep inside, All that stands forgiven;
[Little did Miya know that she was now being watched from the shadows nearby.]
"I've been so lost since you've been gone, Why not me before you?, Why did fate decieve me?, Everything turned out so wrong, Why did you leave me in silence?;
"You gave up the fight, You left me behind, All that stands forgiven, You'll always be mine, I know deep inside, All that stands forgiven...."
A few more tears fell from her eyes as the wind started to blow. Then she felt a gentle hand on her shoulder and she knew who it was without looking at them.
"You've been to Ashiyu's grave again, haven't you?" she asked.
"Yeah and I saw you were too, so I figured you'd be here." said Rowen.
"Yeah but this'll probably be the last time for awhile." said Miya.
"Huh?" said Rowen.
"I don't know if I can keep doing this. I keep hoping that by coming here, it'll help ease the pain but it just hurts more. They can teach you everything about falling in love but not about the pain that comes with losing them." said Miya, more tears falling from her eyes.
Rowen took her in his arms and held her, rubbing her back soothingly to do what he could to comfort her. He knew how she felt. Ashiyu had died protecting him as Sage did for Miya. Both of them lost their best friend and their love. The healing process was going to be long and difficult for both of them, but as long they stuck together, they could get through anything.
"It's okay Miya, I'm here for you. We'll get through this together. As long as we stick together, we can handle anything they throw at us. I'll always be here for you. I'll take care of you. I promised Sage that if anything happened to him that I'd look after you and I intend to keep it." he said.
Miya just nodded in Rowen's arms, her arms around him and holding him tight. She had always be the closest to Rowen since she had met the Ronin Warriors. The others always told them that they were almost like brother and sister. Whenever she had a problem that she couldn't handle or needed advice and she didn't want to bother Sage, Rowen was the one she went to. She knew she could count on him to give the right advice and keep their conversations to himself, especially if she didn't want anyone else to know.
"Thanks Rowen." she said, lifting her head and wiping away the tears, a smile on her face.
"Hey, what're friends for." said Rowen, smiling.
"Hey guys."
Rowen and Miya turned to see Yuli with Ryo, Whiteblaze and Mia.
"We thought we might find you two here." said Mia.
"Yuli wanted to bring some flowers for Sage's grave so we tagged along. Kento and Cye are doing the same for Ashiyu." said Ryo as Yuli walked over and placed the flowers on Sage's grave.
Miya walked over and knelt next to him.
"Hey. You pick those flowers yourself?" she asked.
"Yep, sure did. Ryo and the others wanted to help but I told no, I wanted to do it myself, for Sage." said Yuli. "I miss him."
"I know." said Miya.
Yuli looked at her and saw the sad look on her face.
"You must really miss him alot too." said Yuli.
"Yeah I do but he's still with us. He'll never truly leave us." said Miya, forcing a smile.
"I know. As long as we keep him in our hearts and memories right?" asked Yuli.
Miya laughed a little.
"That's right. And he'll be glad you brought these floweres for him. Come on, let's head back. I'll race you." said Miya with a michievous grin.
"Okay." said Yuli, taking off running with Miya right behind him.
Rowen, Ryo, Mia and Whiteblaze watched them as they ran back toward Mia's jeep.
"It's good to see that Miya's finally starting to heal." said Ryo.
"Too bad it's only on the outside." said Rowen.
"What do you mean?" asked Ryo.
"Come on Ryo. She watched Sage take the hit for her, he died in her arms. She only smiles to keep us from knowing how much she's really hurting. She blames herself for Sage's death. She believes it should've been her, not him. She never wanted to see anything happen to him, to any of us. We're all she's got. In one day, she lost her best friend and the one guy she loved. She wants to go through it alone. She doesn't want to burden anyone with her problems. She's even stopped coming to me." said Rowen.
"Poor girl. I can only imagine what she's going through." said Mia.

Mia, Ryo, Rowen, Miya and Yulie were on their way back to Mia's with Whiteblaze running alongside the jeep. It was quiet. They were afraid to say anything that would upset Miya more. She just stared at her hands as Mia drove, not saying anything or looking at anyone.
Rowen looked over at Miya and could tell she was thinking about Sage and that she was replaying the day he died over again in her mind. He reached over and took her hand in his, holding it firmly. She looked up at him and he just smiled. She returned the smile only reluctantly than looked back down.
Mia pulled up to her house as Kento and Cye walked out onto the porch to greet them.
"Hey, you're back. Good 'cause I'm starving." said Kento as Ryo got out than Rowen helped Miya out of the jeep.
"Alright Kento, I'll get dinner started." said Mia, heading inside with Yuli.
"Hey Miya, you staying for dinner?" asked Cye.
"No, I can't. I should be heading home." said Miya.
"Ah come on, we haven't had the pleasure of your company for quite awhile. Come on, ya gotta stay." said Kento.
"Yeah, come on Miya, it'll be fun." said Ryo.
"Please Miya." begged Yuli.
"Alright, alright, if you guys really want me here that much than I guess I can stay." said Miya.
"Great. I'll go let Mia know." said Cye.
"I'll come with you." said Kento, following after Cye.
"I better go make sure Kento doesn't try to steal any food so Mia doesn't have to chase him with a frying pan again." said Ryo and he followed Cye and Kento inside with Whiteblaze, leaving Rowen alone with Miya.
Miya looked over to see Rowen staring at her with a smile on his face and a certain sparkle in his eyes.
"What?" she asked him.
"Nothing, it's just been so long since you last came to see us that we've almost forgotten what you looked like." said Rowen.
"Liar. You're a terrible liar Rowen." said Miya.
"Am not." said Rowen.
"You are too. Anyway, I'm glad you guys miss me. I miss you guys too. Things seem so boring without you guys around." said Miya.
"I know what you mean." said Rowen.