Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction / InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Travel Through Time ❯ A Saddened Goodbye to Start a New Beginning ( Chapter 11 )

After writing a note to Kaoru he packed up his things and began his journey back on the winding road but leaving his sword behind.

"Well this begins yet another journey. Only without the one thing that I should have died by or at least have a my precious here beside me. But it's all lost and I'm the one to blame. How obvious for me." Shaking his head he looked up at the now crimson sky that was streaked with yellow and purple blends. The sun was setting. To begin a new start.

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A Saddened Goodbye to Start a New Beginning

Kaoru turned to look at Sesshomaru who looked like he was to deep in thought to notice she was starring at him. She smiled to know that she could care so much about someone other than Kenshin.

Kenshin! Oh know she almost forgot about him. All she remembered was being with Sesshomaru than falling asleep to actually remember anything, fastening her pace she pulled Sesshomaru with her forgetting too that she was holding his hand.

Sesshomaru looked over at her when he noticed her face held more of concern than happiness. He could only smile toward her yes smiled hard to believe that Sesshomaru would actually smile to someone other than Rin; not really sure what was going through her mind at the time.

Stopping at the clearing where it gave good view of the Kamiya Dojo Kaoru let free of Sesshomaru's hand and ran to the steps where she fell to the porch before the opening of it.

Sesshomaru could only look at his hand than back to the girl who left him confused than ever. He walked over to her before hearing a low sniffling sound from the sad Kaoru. Kneeling down he put a hand on her shoulder.

"What's wrong?" He needed to know what was troubling her so.

"I…I forgot." She said between sniffles.

Then without warning she jumped up and ran into the dojo heading straight for Kenshin's room. There she found it empty with only his sword stuck in the floor and a note that stuck a little on the hilt.

Slowly walking over to the sword she grabbed the note.

Which stated, "Dear Kaoru, your probably reading this by now and if you are I would like to point out a few things. First I would have really liked for this relationship to go further but I screwed up, and I know I could never look at you the same way again. If your wondering where I am I'm gone. Probably even far away by the time you picked up this letter. I don't wish to hurt you that I don't but if it's the only way to make you happy than you must forget about me and move on. You need to relive your life and start fresh unlike me I was never able to do such since my life was already ruined from the start. Listen I only say these things out of respect and care, most of all out of love. Yes I love you Kaoru, more than anything in the world but after earlier I couldn't dare screw up again and it might hurt the love I have for you. I know I should have acted sooner but I was so dumb thinking that you could never love a sessha like me. So now I say goodbye and hope that you find better happiness than just pain that I have given you. Oh and please don't follow me. I know your intentions are good but not this time I can't come back but it doesn't mean I cant love you and I always will. Farewell.

Your always, Love,

Himura Kenshin

She dropped the note and fell to her knees just before crying aloud. "Why did it have to like this I did nothing wrong he did nothing wrong. I do love you, I wanted more than a friendship. Kenshin you BAKA!" She screamed holding her face with her calloused hands. Tears began to drip from to ends of her fingers to her kimono

leaving many wet stains.

Sesshomaru who had only walked in seconds after she dropped the letter kneeled beside her once more.

"I don't know exactly what to say but is there any way that you might could help me understand. I want to help." He asked really wanting to help the poor girl who wouldn't be in this mess if it wasn't for his rude intruding on them.

"Sesshomaru." She cried pulling him by the folds of his shirt close to her as she cried in his bare chest.

Sesshomaru not really good at this kind of stuff pulled her even closer and took her in an embrace it was the only thing he could do at this point.

"Sesshomaru, am I a bad person for forgetting about the one I love. I try not to let my emotions take over, but I can't help it." She looked up at him her eyes now red and stained from crying so much.

"No, your not." He turned his head downward to her. He whipped away the remaining tears that had squeezed their way out of her eyes.

"I didn't want any of this to happen I thought that this would be okay if I let someone stay here. I did it out of care it wasn't meant to drive Kenshin away. He's stubborn! She buried her head back into his chest. Her crying started up again.

Sesshomaru couldn't take the crying and see her in pain he could do something couldn't he?

He pulled her away from him and raised her chin.

"I really don't know who to say this and I've never been the one to be so sensitive like this to anyone, but there's no need to cry it wasn't your fault. You let me stay out of kindness that I thought was. It's my fault to have come and ruin what happiness you had left. Maybe I would have been best if I left. But I do believe that he was stubborn, if he really cared or loved you he wouldn't run away and try to cover up what he did instead of working it out with you first. So maybe it was best for him to leave only out of coward ness and not love." He tried to keep his voice as calm and soft as he could to make like he didn't want to find Kenshin and strangle him for what he did to her.

"I guess your right. I'll I wanted was to be happy with him and him leaving only brings more pain. Is it wrong to love another?" Her sad eyes locked on his golden ones.

Sesshomaru could have melted with that one look but he managed to remain calm.

"Love another?" He didn't really understand what she was saying now for all he knew she was talking in riddles.

"Yes love another." Now she gave him a warm smile. It didn't exactly hide her sadness but it made her feel better.

"I suppose not." He cocked an eyebrow at her waiting to see what she would do next.

"Then this wouldn't be wrong?" Leaning closer to his face now feeling his hot breath with hers she kissed him. But out of love not depression. She knew she could never have Kenshin, but Sesshomaru she had loved as well, but was afraid to say anything. It didn't feel wrong, but was it right?

Sesshomaru's eyes grew large but then went back to their normal size. What was she doing? Did she too love him? Was he the other she was talking about?

Breaking the kiss she looked up at him. "That was stupid, to think that a man of your stature could love a sweaty little girl like me." She turned her head away ashamed to look at him. For her silly actions.

"Don't be stupid." His voice was now a little cold but still stayed calm.

"Uh? What do you mean?"

"You know very well what I mean. You can love a man like me I'm only but what you don't see me as. I don't wish to be so strict but if it will make you listen. I can love anyone I choose so don't think for one minute that I couldn't love a girl like you. And to prove this to you." He then leaned down and took her with one kiss.

Responding to his kiss she gasped for air giving his tongue entrance. He deepened the kiss as they battled each other with their tongues.

Not wanting to smother her he back off leaving her face flushed and confused.

"But?"

"Shhh. There's no need to speak. But I must go now. Stay here please. I'll leave this with you so your know I'm coming back." He dropped fluffy beside her then got to his feet.

"Oh…okay." She picked up the long fluff and held it close.

Without hesitation he was gone.