Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction ❯ Always - Eternity ❯ Always - Eternity ( Prologue )

Always - Eternity

Saito looked at his hands, he was trembling. His cool, distanced, aloof mask was cracking more and more every time he saw them together. Walking down the street together, heads bent so close that their hair met; slight blushes colouring their cheeks. Smashing his fist into and through yet another wall, he flexed it, wishing he had torn it to ribbons, but it had barely hurt. He was numb, he had been numb for quite a while now. His heart hurt, bled… if he didn't actually know what it felt like to be dying, he would have said he was dying. But try as he might, years though they had passed, he could not help the feelings that rose up to engulf him leaving him helpless, jealous, bitter and angry. He knew he should shake it out of his head and move past what they had briefly had so very long ago, but he couldn't.

**

This Romeo is bleeding

But you can't see his blood

It's nothing but some feelings

That this old dog kicked up

**

It started to rain… he stepped into the shadows as he watched them giggle and race each other to the dojo. `Like a couple of school girls.' he thought scornfully.

Looking to his right he saw the girl, Kaoru, and the boy Yahiko, duck into the Akabeko to shelter from the rain… he smiled a cold calculating smile… they would be a while leaving the other two alone at the dojo … `No time like the present.' he lit a cigarette and set out through the rain `Couldn't be better if I planned it.'

He could hear them as he approached… gasping, moaning, screaming. They were well out of the way; they had no reason to think someone could hear them. They'd even left the door open. So he watched. They were too caught up in themselves to notice. Naked bodies pressed against each other, sweat dripping on the muggy rainy day; he watched Sanosuke push in and out of the man that should have rightfully been under Saito. He watched the face of the man he loved reflect pain heightened by the pleasure the younger man was bringing him. He saw his muscles contract, and his face reflect pure ecstasy and something inside Saito snapped.

He clapped his hands in slow, mocking applause. The two men in the room jumped apart; shocked, taken by surprise. Sano pulled his own shirt closed around him, while Kenshin just moved his enough to hide his manhood. Hand on his hip the red haired man glared at the police officer.

"Nice glare Battosai" Saito looked bored, and leant against the wall, arms crossed "have fun?"

"That I did, though it is none of your business." The glare was lessening, thoughtful, trying to predict what Saito was wanting.

So fast Kenshin didn't see it coming, (which in itself was a once in a lifetime occurrence), Saito held him in his arms… pushing his body against that of the younger man. "Like it? Like you used to like me Himura?" He whispered in a sultry tone.

Sanosuke had recovered from the shock and moved to pull Saito away from Kenshin

Something clicked "I don't think so Mr Sagara." And Sano felt a gun pressed against his rigcage, held in one hand by Saito while the other hand tightened his grip around Kenshin.

"A gun… Saito?" Kenshin sounded worried. It would be good for him to be worried. He should be Saito thought.

"Amazing powers of observation Battosai!" He laughed. " No really, please feel free to amaze me some more"

"Hajime." It was spoken softly and for a small moment Saito was taken aback, but it wasn't long enough. Sano had tried to grab the gun out of his hand but Saito had not been that distracted. He pushed the younger man away with much ease, still clutching his prize in his other arm like a vice.

Sanosuke stumbled across the floor and falling down on one knee, he looked up.

"I really don't have the patience for this right now Mr Sagara." and Saito fired the gun, catching Sano on the side of his chest. Kenshin screamed and shoved away from Saito running to Sanosuke's side.

"Stop Kenshin!" Kenshin stopped. "Any closer to him and I kill him now." Casting a pained glance at Sano Kenshin turned, his eyes full of hatred.

Saito barked a laugh "Be a good man Mr Sagara and bleed quietly please." The mocking tone alone was enough to make Sano want to stand up, but he didn't want Kenshin hurt, so for once, he actually did as he was told. "You amaze me Mr Sagara. Continue to amaze me and you might live a while longer." His gaze turned to Kenshin who was hugging his arms to his chest and sending a death stare in Saito's direction.

"Oh, such a face Kenshin, it doesn't suit you."

"Neither does a gun suit you Saito, you disappoint me."

"Oh well, I guess life is full of little disappointments isn't it."

"What do you want Saito?"

Saito studied the red haired man. "That exactly you ask me this question?" He moved closer gun still aimed in Sano's direction. "You really don't know?" he reached out a hand to brush Kenshins hair from his face.

Kenshin flinched, distracted by Sano's pain and repulsed by Saito's presence. For some reason it angered Saito. Bringing his right hand up with amazing speed he smashed the gun against Kenshins face sending the smaller man flying across the room, slamming his head into the wall and sliding down. A strangled grunt emerged from the prone form on the floor and Sano managed to push himself up to go and see to his lover. But Saito was enraged and turned and fired, this time the shot hit but skimmed off Sano's shoulders and sent the tall man crashing to the ground, smacking his head and losing consciousness

"I said: Stay and bleed QUIETLY! I meant it, idiot" and he couldn't help it, he knew he was being a complete idiot, but he had to behave this way.

Walking over he lifted Kenshins head as the man groggily tried to move… "I can't do this without you Ken. I cant live this life without you, and if I cant have you no one can… I give up"

**

Its been raining since you left me

Now I'm drowning in the flood

You see I've always been a fighter

But without you I give up

Now I can't sing a love song

Like the way its meant to be

Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore

But baby, that's just me

**

"You know I love you Ken… you know I always have" He bent to lick the blood off the weakened man's face. Kenshin tried feebly to push him away; his head was swimming and all he could think of was Sano, lying in a pool of blood, he couldn't focus he just knew he wanted to push that man away from him but he couldn't coordinate his limbs he felt like his head was going to explode. And that tongue; he shuddered

Saito laughed. " I will always love you Kenny." He bent down and kissed Kenshin while the younger man couldn't defend himself, a rough bruising kiss that made Kenshin cry out in pain.

**

And I will love you, baby - Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine

Till the heavens burst and

The words don't rhyme

**

"I will love you till you die and beyond." He pushed Kenshin's shirt out of the way taking his manhood in his hands and massaging. As much as he didn't want to Kenshin felt himself getting hard; again he tried to push Saito away but the blow to his head was resulting in a heavy concussion, and he couldn't move properly. Tears rolled down his face as Saito kissed him harshly and played with his erection, and his body responded despite the helplessness he felt.

**

And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind

And I'll love you - Always

**

Suddenly he felt Saito ripped away from him and he was dropped to the floor again. Awkwardly rolling to the side he pushed himself onto his hands and knees in time to see Sano stumlble as Saito punched him in the gut; causing his wound in his chest to spill fresh blood out. Smashing him across the face Saito stood, looking for all he was worth like the wolf for which he had been named; and he kicked Sano. Kenshin screamed, and Sano blacked out again.

Rounding on the smaller man, gun still in his hand, Saito gestured casually at Sano. "Now you see Kenshin? I told him to sit and bleed quietly but he didn't want to hear." He looked closer at the smaller man, whose eyes didn't seem to be able to focus properly. A little remorse hit him, but only a little.

Kneeling in front of Kenshin he cupped his face and looked at the wound that he had inflicted. His forehead was a deep blood red… a blood bruise. It had dented his face… `Probably splintered something.' he thought. The younger man seemed not to be able to move properly and any movements that he made were sluggish and uncoordinated. Gently he lifted him up, knowing that any expressions of protest were far beyond the younger man at that moment.

Laying him on some cushions he tied his hands together and then tied them in turn to a post. The form in his hands whimpered as tears flowed down the red heads cheeks. Clouded pained violet eyes looked up at him; hatred, fear and confusion filling them. He wanted to talk but the words wouldn't form in his mouth.

Saito laid fingers on his lips "Shhhh." He moved around so he could see both Sano and Kenshin at once.

And he spoke softly, just enough for Kenshin to hear and just enough for Kenshin to wish he wasn't hearing.

"You know, we had time together, and it could have been so much more, but you cast me off; you didn't need me anymore. All your memories that you have of us are tainted" He knelt in front of Kenshin cutting Sano off from the red heads view, and pushed his hands through the red tangle of hair "Do you know what I would give to run my fingers through your hair… to be the one you WANT to run his fingers through your hair. To kiss you, to love you, to hold you, to fall asleep with you in my arms?" Kenshin looked away, but Saito forced his face back around eliciting a sharp cry of pain from the younger man. "You don't understand… I never meant to hurt you; I just wanted you so badly… why couldn't you stay with me?"

**

Now your pictures of a different time

Are memories of a different life

Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry

One that made you have to say good bye

What I'd give to run your fingers through your hair

To touch your lips, to hold you near

When you say your prayers try to understand

I've made mistakes. I'm just a man

**

Finally finding the words he spoke; softly and haltingly as if trying to make sure the syllables all came out properly. "Because you're a possessive, jealous, controlling bastard Hajime."

"Hah!" Saito pushed away from him "Do you think I can stand this… watching you two act like young lovers, watching you whisper at each other; hold hands. Watching you FUCK him!" The anger in his eyes, the slipping of his sanity, even in his groggy state Kenshin knew Saito had slipped. "It is ME who should be doing that with you. It is MY voice you should be hearing lull you to sleep. It is ME that you should love. That is MY right, MY place!"

His voice softened. "My place forever."

**

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near

When he says the words you've been needing to hear

I wish I was him cause those words are mine

To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

**

He approached Sano's prone form, and Kenshin's stomach lurched; he knew Saito was going to do something cruel, he didn't want to watch, he just wanted to close his eyes but he couldn't.

Saito approached the brunette on the floor, who was slowly regaining consciousness. Blood had congealed around him, the wounds were seeping now; he had lost a lot of blood. Gun still in one hand, Saito reached with the other hand to the ever present sword at his side. He ran the tip down the back of Sano's jacket, the sharpness of blade slicing the material easily and drawing a thin line of blood on the skin underneath.

Sano groaned and tried to move away.

Saito laughed and now Kenshin was certain he had lost any of the sanity he had still possessed. After removing the rest of the garment with his sword he walked over and grabbed a chest. Pushing it over to Sano he pulled the younger man on top of it; hands draped around the corners and over the front, he tied them there.

Almost cackling he opened the front of his own pants and knelt behind Sano, spreading his legs roughly, ignoring the groan that escaped Sano's lips; ignoring the blood dripping onto the box. "That's a good little dog." He whispered.

"Saito NO!!!" Kenshin was fighting his concussion, without much success but his eyes were slightly less clouded than they were before. "You fucking bastard!"

Pointing the gun at Sano's head he looked at Kenshin as he pushed his erection against Sano's backside, not paying attention to the whimpering that emerged from the man beneath him. "Shhhh Kenshin, maybe I'll let him keep his head. Both of them" The laugh was definitely no longer sane.

And so Kenshin shut up; biting a lip and trying in vain to pull against the binding that held his arms in place; only succeeding to tighten them. If that hit to his head hadn't taken him by surprise this wouldn't be happening. And again he tried to tear his eyes away from the scene in front of him but he just couldn't do it. And so he watched, and the tears rolled down his cheeks.

Saito pushed himself inside Sano; hard and harsh, not preparing him, not caring; tearing into him and causing blood to drip down between them. And he didn't wait for the brunette to get used to him being there; he just withdrew fast and slammed back into him, causing the other man to scream. Continuing to slam into the younger man he looked at Kenshin. "How is it to see the man you love being fucked by another?" And he laughed, that maniacal insane laugh sending chills down Kenshins back.

The rhythm continued and increased and the younger man cried out over and over again in pain; his now erect organ smashed against the chest every time Saito slammed into him. Sano shuddered as against his will his body orgasmed, a cruel parody of how he felt for the man invading his body. Oblivious, or maybe he just didn't give a shit, Saito increased his pace tearing into Sano even more, causing more blood to flow and Kenshin to cry openly; tears running down his face in torrents. Sano screamed as with one last, hefty shove Saito came inside the man. The scream pierced.

A gun-shot sounded, abruptly cutting the scream short as bullet embedded itself Sanosuke's skull.

Withdrawing himself, Saito used the cut up rag of Sano's shirt to wipe himself off. He didn't bother to close his pants as he stood up. He looked at Kenshin, whose face registered disbelief… shock… whose mouth constantly formed the word Sano, but no sound came out.

Saito shrugged. "I did tell him to shut up and bleed quietly… that noise was annoying." Kenshin didn't seem to register, his lips were moving but nothing was coming out, his face was open, confused and shocked. He seemed to notice as Saito moved and vaguely looked at him.

"I…I…"

"Yes my love"

Kenshin flinched "I don't know who you are. You're a monster…" He raised his voice. "You're a fucking lunatic… a fucking monster!" He tugged at the bindings holding him, pulling them painfully tight; wishing his body would respond like it usually did, but the wound on his head wouldn't let him move properly. Hot tears spilled down his face as the bewilderment hit him; as certainty hit him…as the fear claimed him, this man was insane.

Dropping to his knees in front of the man he loved Saito forced Kenshin to look at him.

"But I love you Battosai, I always have… I would live for you. I would die for you, I would do almost anything for you; you would have but to ask, but I WILL NOT, let anyone else have you… ever … not ever… you are mine…"

**

If you told me to cry for you

I could

If you told me to die for you

I would

Take a look at my face

There's no price I wont pay

To say these words to you

**

His eyes sought out Kenshins, trying to see something he wanted to see. "You are all there is for me, you are all there ever was… you are all there will ever be for me. For as long as the sun and moon shine, for as long as the stars sparkle, you are Mine!"

**

Well there ain't no luck

In these loaded dice

But baby if you give me just one more try

We can pack up our old dreams

And our old lives

We'll find a place the sun still shines

**

Kenshin spat at him, but Saito dodged… "Come on Kenshin, I know you don't mean that."

"You don't know me at all Sait…" But he wasn't allowed to finish, Saito either hadn't heard him, or didn't care as he closed the red heads mouth with a kiss… not game enough to put his tongue in the others mouth though, knowing Kenshin had very sharp teeth. Wriggling Kenshin protested, but Saito didn't let go.

Instead he pulled his own shirt off and started on his pants…leaving himself totally naked. He sat himself next to Kenshin toying with the gun in one of his hands… he used the other hand to wander over Kenshins chest, not paying attention to the shudder that ran through Kenshins body.

He wanted this man, he needed this man; he had missed this man for over ten years. Now his competition was gone once and for all, he could enjoy this man… all for himself… all his; for all eternity.

Leaning over he kissed him again softly… wiping away the tears that were still falling down Kenshins face. "I love you." He whispered to the red haired man over and over again.

"I love you." He whispered as he gently took Kenshins organ in his fingers and massaged it.

"I love you." He said as he took the shaft into his mouth and sucked feeling it become harder under his fingers.

"I love you." He mumbled around his prize as he moved his hands underneath to start preparing Kenshins opening.

Kenshin froze, and cried out. " Noooo… please no… don't… saito don't…"

But Saito didn't listen to him, he was too caught up in his own world… he knew exactly how everything would play itself out; he knew exactly how he would do this, and he had no ears for anyone else.

Kenshin tried to lash out with his legs, but Saito had his arms hooked around them and he could hardly move them. `If only I hadn't gotten that blow to the head, but if onlys wont help me anymore… not now… oh Sano.' The tears fell down his face as he mumbled over and over again. "Stop it… I don't want this… Saito." Until he had no strength left, he had gone numb. He hardly even realized when Saito pushed inside him. It was as if his body was detached from his mind and he was watching everything happening without really being there. He knew he was hard, and he knew he would cum despite not wanting to, despite not feeling a thing.

Saito felt those soft tight walls encase him and groaned. He held Kenshin's legs pushed forwards and delighted in how flexible the younger mans body was. He could get the red heads knees to touch the ground on either side of the battosai, making for amazing depth in side of him. And he enjoyed the sex like he hadn't enjoyed sex for the last 10 years. It felt so good…as he freed a hand to aid the man beneath him to climax he didn't see the vacant look in Kenshins eyes. And as he pushed his engorged organ into the man he loved he couldn't contain it any longer and he came in hot rushing spurts…and collapsed on top of Kenshin whispering. "I love you… I love you… you are mine for all eternity."

In a voice almost as vacant as his eyes Kenshin said. "I was never yours Saito and I never will be."

And in Saito's eyes, there gleamed something not human, something not sane. He laughed as he kissed the red heads chest fumbling with his hand to the side of him. "You are mistaken, you will never again belong to anyone else" And he pulled the gun from beside him and emptied two shots point blank into Kenshins chest pretty much directly over where his heart would have been.

The shock registered in Kenshins eyes as blood bubbled over his lips… he murmured "never" and Saito leant forward kissing the last of the scar faced mans breath away.

Withdrawing blood soaked lips Saito looked down at the man he loved beyond everything else and was happy he had chosen the chest; that face was so beautiful, and he loved him even more, he looked like a statue.

Lovingly he closed those eyelids making Kenshins face seem almost at peace and murmured. "And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you - Always." He aimed the last bullet at his own heart and pulled the trigger grunting in pain before the darkness claimed him and he fell to rest at the side of his love for eternity.

**

And I will love you, baby - Always

And I'll be there forever and a day - Always

I'll be there till the stars don't shine

Till the heavens burst and

The words don't rhyme

And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind

And I'll love you - Always

~Ende~

Hope you enjoyed it… I was having one of my darker days… please review