Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction ❯ Bound ❯ Chapter 2: Acceptance vs. Commitment ( Chapter 2 )

Chapter 2: Acceptance vs. Commitment

Kenshin's hands kept traveling lower while slowly caressing Tomoe's skin along her collarbone and her chest. She was now fighting an inner battle within herself and each side was unwilling to give up.

'You can't let him do this! You aren't ready yet! If he takes away your innocence now it will be as if he raped you!' one side of her mind raged.

'Well I don't care, his touch is kindling a fire I never knew before. I don't want him to stop! Besides it's a husband's right to do what they want with their wives. It's been this way for hundreds of years! Even if you did do something now does it look as if he's going to stop just because you ask him to?' The other side ranted causing Tomoe to tremble.

Kenshin stopped his caresses that he ravished her skin with, and looked up at her. Her eyes held fear as well as love for him. He knew she loved him, maybe as much as he loved her, but to see the fear in her eyes at that moment, struck a chord in his heart.

Slowly, he moved away from her and sat up so he could see her face completely. Kenshin could sense something was wrong. She looked as if she wanted to sink through the floor or even jump out of the futon and run as far away from him as she could.

She sat up and looked up into his eyes and noticed the concern that filled them. It seemed as though he were allowing her to decide what she wanted him to do. Somehow this fact made her feel ashamed. She was his wife after all and did love him with all her heart. The only thing was she didn't know was what to do, or what she wanted. Tomoe slowly turned her head away and stared at the floor.

Kenshin noted everything she did. 'Does she fear me? She should know by now I would never hurt her. I love her with every heartbeat that thumps in my chest. Did I really start out too quickly for her?'

Kenshin raised his hand and lightly touched Tomoe's chin and brought it towards him so she would face him. The only problem was he had no way to make her look at him with her eyes. She was still staring at the floor.

"Tomoe look at me." He spoke softly in his low voice. Slowly, she brought her eyes up to look at him. "Tomoe why do you look at me like I'm going to hurt you. I would never hurt you. I love you too much to cause you any more pain. Now please, tell me what is wrong?"

Tomoe parted her lips so she could speak. She didn't expect him to ask her that, she expected him to take away her innocence and not stop to ask if it was all right to do so. "Kenshin, I know you would never hurt me. You said you would protect my happiness, but... we are married now and I... well... I." Her voice faltered and she closed her eyes, somewhat embarrassed of what she wanted to say.

"It's alright you can tell me. Take your time. I'll listen to whatever you need to say." Kenshin spoke gently and kissed the back of her hand. Tomoe took a deep breath and began again. "Kenshin, I am your wife now and I'm happy to be yours. The only thing is a wife is supposed to do whatever her husband wishes of her. I want to please you and make you happy as well, but when you touched me the way you did, I thought that you ...that you." Again her voice faltered and Kenshin took a guess at what she was trying to tell him.

"You thought that I was going to make you utterly mine, like some kind of animal didn't you?" Kenshin clearly stated this fact to her. Her eyes opened in shock at the fact he had somehow read her thoughts.

Softly, she spoke up. "Yes Kenshin, I thought that you were going to make me yours and not care what I wanted. One way or the other."

"But that's where you're wrong, my love. I do care what you think or what you want. I won't do anything that you're uncomfortable with, I promise. If you want to hold off then, I will contain myself until you feel you're ready."

Tomoe gazed in his eyes and knew he meant every word he had spoken. "Thank you, for understanding." She lightly caressed his unscarred cheek and smiled. "I'm not ready yet, but soon Kenshin. I will be. I'll let you know when I'm ready to be completely yours. Now can we sleep? I really am truly tired."

Kenshin nodded his head and lay down on the futon. A thought flickered through his mind and tempted him to make a request of her. If she didn't want to that would be fine. He didn't want to rush her and promised he wouldn't try anything without her consent.

"Tomoe if it is in your interest, would you like to rest your head on my chest?" He smiled up at her and noticed a small smile curve her lips. She nodded and lay down next to him with her head on his chest. She could hear his heart beating a soothing rythm underneath her cheek. It was rapid at first, but then slowed downed into a calming lullaby. It was sending her to sleep and her eyes fluttered shut as she cuddled more firmly against the warm chest pillowing her head.

Kenshin slowly brought his arm around her and secured her to him. The scent of her perfume filled his nose and her warmth comforted him as his mind began to drift off into a light sleep.

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Kenshin was the first to awaken the next morning. No nightmares plagued him that night. It seemed Tomoe's presence warded them off and he slept peacefully for the first time in years. He looked over at his beautiful new wife who was sleeping contentedly next to him still. Her body sealed against his, and an arm wrapped around his waist. Kenshin had to smile at the way her hair looked. Pieces were sticking up all over the place. Some framed her face while others were sticking straight out. She looked adorable like that. Although he knew she probably felt his eyes on her form, as her eyes fluttered open.

"Good morning, my love." Kenshin spoke softly and smiled down at her. She returned his smile, but still couldn't quite get up just yet. She was a little stiff and needed to stretch. She felt as his hand was running through her hair. His touch was so gentle and she felt as though she could just fall back to sleep.

 

However, that wouldn't be happening any time soon, instead she moved her arm from his waist and started to rise. Just then she felt some air caress her chest. She glanced down and saw that her yukata was parted and gave a generous view of her breasts. Kenshin didn't fail to notice this either. The desire that rose inside of him at that second was just a spark. Although he would have liked to look at them some more, Tomoe quickly gathered the material and closed it around herself. Her face flushed a bright pink with embarrassment, though she knew she shouldn't be. Kenshin was her husband and he should view them, as it was his right.

'But he told me he wouldn't do anything that would make me uncomfortable. He promised me that last night.' She thought to herself at how good it felt to sleep against him. The soft rhythm of his heart lulling her to sleep, his warmth enveloping her, she dreamt how they would come together, their love being utter and complete. 'Maybe I could let him do some things, just not to the extreme.'

Tomoe let go of the material and it slid open again as she rose to get up. Kenshin was amazed that she did this. 'Has she changed her mind? Does she want me to make a move? I'm not even sure what this means, but why is she tempting me? Is she trying to test my control?'

"Kenshin, we should get dressed shouldn't we?" Tomoe asked sweetly. She gave him a coy smile. "Or maybe we should help dress each other?" It was a daring move on her part. Especially since she had asked him not to move so quickly last night, but now it was morning and she felt daring. She wanted to ease some part of him and let him see her. She had given him an open invitation, but would he accept it?

Kenshin stared at her in disbelief. 'Did I hear her correctly? Or is my libido thinking for me?' Slowly he got up as well and took in what she had revealed. He turned to look at the wall instead. Feeling he didn't have the right to look at her like that after he promised her he wouldn't last night.

She took a step forward and lightly gripped his face with both of her hands, making him face her. She looked into his violet eyes as he peered into hers, not daring to look anywhere else. "Kenshin," she started, "It's okay to look at me. I want you to look at me. I was thinking." ' Not very much though' she added silently to herself. "We can look at each other, that's fine with me, I'm just not ready for anything that is too intimate. I want you, but can we take it one step at a time?"

Kenshin smiled. "Of course but how far do you want me to go now? I must admit I'm not quite sure what you want me to do." Kenshin said sadly admitting that her actions left him at a loss. He wasn't sure what she wanted.

Kenshin was wrapped up in his thoughts still as she removed her hands from his face and brought them to collar of the yukata. Gripping it she slowly slid it off her shoulders and let it drop to the floor. Her form completely revealed in front of Kenshin. He noticed and took a step back to fully examine her features. Long, flowing black hair, dark as night eyes, smooth ivory skin, round supple breast, a flat stomach, wide hips, and long legs, she was a vision of perfection. Every man's dream, but she was his. If any man dared to look at her with the desire he had for her they would be dead before they even knew it.

Tomoe stood in the spot that she was as he eyed her features. She had been daring a few seconds earlier but now she began to doubt herself. 'What if he doesn't like what he sees? What will I do then? I'm the only one who isn't clothed!' She started to fidget in her mind as another thought washed into her head. 'Well you don't have to be the only one who's clothed.' A voice in her head told her.

 

Suddenly, Kenshin came and stood right in front of her. Unconsciously, her hands came up from her sides and untied Kenshin's yukata and slid it off his shoulders. It didn't fall though until Kenshin gripped it and pushed it off completely and made it fall on the floor to join Tomoe's.

Tomoe now took in his form beginning with his fire-red locks, deep violet eyes, and light tan skin, his chest showed his muscles from all the training he did. She brought her eyes back up to his face and looking deep into his eyes she saw his desire there.

 

Without giving a second thought she leaned in and kissed him solidly on his lips. A kiss filled with passion and fervor. He returned her kiss with just as much passion. Stroking her ebony strands with loving care. Tomoe wrapped her arms around his neck in a tight embrace sealing Kenshin to her. He deepened the kiss by gently caressing her bottom and demanded she open her mouth. She happily complied to do so for him. With his tongue he explored every crevice in her mouth, tasting her.

Their kiss lasted until both were out of breath and needed a fresh supply of oxygen before continuing. Time passed by without their knowing. Both not caring what was happening else where all that mattered was that they were together in the others embrace showing the passion they had for one another.

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