Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction ❯ Daughter of the Forest RK Style ❯ Of Life and Death; Love and Marriage ( Chapter 15 )

Full Summary: Kaoru, the only daughter of an Irish King, must save her six brothers from an enchantment placed on them by an evil sorceress. What will happen when she falls in love with a Britain? Story is based off of Juliet Marillier’s book Daughter of the Forest. KK
Disclaimer: I do not own Rurouni Kenshin or Daughter of the Forest. As much as I’d love to take credit for Nobuhiro Watsuki's and Juliet Marillier’s creations, I’d rather keep what little money I have.
This story is a work of fiction and should not be taken as a serious era piece. Sevenwaters, Harrowfield, Northwoods and the Three Sacred Islands are made up places.
A/N:

Italics mean mental conversations.
Daughter of the Forest RK Style
Chapter 15: Of Life and Death; Love and Marriage

It's been five months since the infamous fire and things are just beginning to get back to normal. Mine, Kiyoshi and Sanosuke have finally moved back into their old room and the business of the estate is beginning to settle down slightly.
Between rebuilding the damaged parts of the castle, investigating the cause of the fire, tending to the fields and holding trials I have seen little of Kenshin. For the most part, my days have been spent with Mine, Sanosuke and Kiyoshi. Jiro has also been kept busy overseeing the new recruits for border patrol.
Though I enjoy Mine, Kiyoshi and little Sanosuke's company I can't help but miss my talks with Kenshin. His presence never fails to calm me.
Lately my day consists of daydreaming over my next outing to gather figwort with Kenshin. Since the night Gohei so crudely propositioned me, Kenshin has made it his sole duty to accompany me on my trips outside the palace walls. Today will be the first day in several months that Kiyoshi will accompany me. I am kind of disappointed that I will not be spending time with Kenshin, but I am not going to complain. Kenshin has more pressing matters to attend to. I will not keep him from them.
Under Kenshin's orders, Kiyoshi assembles two other men to keep watch over me. At the moment Kiyoshi is standing watch beside me while the other two are stationed to the north and south of us. The one at the north is hiding in the forest while the other is hiding behind some shrubbery on the top of the mountain range.
“Marina, do you need any help?” Kiyoshi asks in concern as he watches me lift my bag of figwort.
I shake my head no. He should know better than to ask me such a question. I never accept any outside help.
“I thought it was worth a try,” Kiyoshi states with a sigh.
Continuing my work Kiyoshi comments, “You're going to hurt your back if you continue to bend down like that. It might help if you crouch down.”
Smiling up at Kiyoshi I decide to take his advice. Not surprisingly it is working. My back doesn't hurt nearly as much as it did before though I'm sure that my knees will not appreciate me maintaining this position for too long.
Moving to a new patch of figwort I immediately begin to pick the plant. Suddenly I hear a loud roaring noise making its way towards us. Looking up at the hillside I notice a boulder heading straight towards me. I'm paralyzed in fear.
“Marina!” Kiyoshi screams as he pushes me away. My head hits the ground as I fall backwards. Suddenly the world turns dark around me.
***Later***
I wake up to a throbbing pain in the back of my head and a complete feeling of disorientation. Looking around I notice that I'm in the middle of the valley I usually frequent to pick figwort.
Suddenly it dawns on me; I was picking figwort when a rock fell and Kiyoshi....
In a panic I frantically search for Kiyoshi. I have to find him! I seriously hope that he isn't dead.
I follow my eyes over the path the boulder made until I notice a man pinned between a tree and boulder. In fear I run to the tree in hopes of saving Kiyoshi.
As I approach the tree my fears are verified. Though not dead, Kiyoshi is slowly dying. If I don't get him out he'll lose too much blood and surely die. I can't watch my friend die in such a fashion.
With all my strength I attempt to push the boulder off of him. My efforts are lost being that I am not strong enough to push such a large boulder on my own.
I am about to search for a log or some other large object to pry the boulder off of him, until Kiyoshi softly mumbles, “Ma... rina, it's too... late...I'm...go...going... to d... die soo... n.”
I shake my head no in frustration. He can't die! He has to go home to Mine and Sanosuke!
“Tell Mi...ne I'm so... rry th...that I wont s...see our son grow... up... and... that I... l... love her.”
I begin to sob hysterically. This can't be happening! Kiyoshi can't die! Mine and his son need him. I can't let him die knowing that the boulder was meant for me. I should be stuck pinned to a tree, not him!
“I... it's no...not yo... your f...fau...lt. I d... did my job... and d... do n... ot re...gret it.”
Unable to control my tears I begin to cry hysterically. Kiyoshi is a good man. He doesn't deserve to die so young. He and Mine should grow old and gray together and tend to a pack of grandchildren. After all they have been through, it cannot end like this!
“Ma...rina, pr...omise me th...that wh...en the time... comes th... at y...you will ex...cept Ken... shin's... off...er. Y...you n...need ea...ch other m... more than y...you re... alize.”
I shake my head yes. How can I deny a dying man his last wish?
Coughing up blood, Kiyoshi whispers, “P... please... don't... c...cry.”
Taking Kiyoshi's hand I watch the light in his eyes slowly fade. In less than a few minutes Kiyoshi finally takes his last breath. In a complete loss, I fall onto the ground.
Pain sweeps through me as the whole situation begins to come to light. Kiyoshi's dead and there is nothing I can do about it. He's dead and it's all my fault! Never again will I hear Mine and Kiyoshi playfully tease one another, or listen to Kiyoshi's embarrassing stories about Jiro. Sanosuke will never grow up knowing the love his father held for him, and Mine will forever live in mourning. All this because of my stupid task and Kiyoshi's unselfish need to protect me. I don't deserve such loyalty. I don't want it! I just want Kiyoshi back!
“Marina!” Kenshin rides up to me. “What...?”
Looking at the tree beside me he finally gets a glimpse of Kiyoshi's bloody body. I try to rise to my feet but feeling too weak I kneel down on the ground and begin to cry uncontrollably. After this, I'm sure Kenshin will want to have nothing to do with me.
Kneeling down beside me Kenshin embraces me tightly. We cry in each others arms for a couple minutes before Kenshin apologetically states, “I should have canceled my meeting today and taken you instead. Kiyoshi would be alive if it were not for me.”
I stare at Kenshin in shock. How can he blame himself? If he had accompanied me, all it would have achieved was Kenshin's death on my conscience. Either way a man would die because of my existence.
Lifting my chin Kenshin firmly states, “It's not your fault that Kiyoshi is dead. You did not kill him nor did you force us to protect you. Kiyoshi died protecting you because you were friends. I'm sure that he would not want you to blame yourself.”
Walking toward Kiyoshi's body Kenshin painfully says aloud while closing Kiyoshi's eyelids, “Your presence will be greatly missed. You were the older brother I never had. I promise that those who did this to you will be brought to justice. I'll personally see to that. Mine and Sanosuke will remain safe in my household and treated like family.”
Taking my hand Kenshin assists me in standing up since I am still slightly shaky from the events of the day. Kenshin mounts me on the top of the horse before grabbing my bag of figwort and placing it in my hands. Swiftly Kenshin mounts the horse behind me and we ride back to the castle in haste. I'm sure that Kenshin wants to get the details of the day while it's still fresh.
As soon as we approach the castle, Kenshin hands the horses to the stable boy and eagerly leads me into the palace. Waiting for us eagerly are Mine, Jiro and Sakura. On the floor a few feet from where the others are seated is Sanosuke tasting the wooden toy animals Kenshin made for him. For a child of his age, he is quite advanced when it comes to motor skills.
“Kenshin, where's Kiyoshi?” Mine inquires in panic.
Judging from the tone of Mine's voice, I'm sure that Kenshin had been searching for us a while. I wonder how long I was out there?
With his head bowed down Kenshin replies in a highly depressed tone, “I'm sorry to tell you this, but Kiyoshi was pressed between a tree and a boulder. He was dead upon my arrival. There was nothing we could do to save him.”
“What do you mean that he's dead?” Jiro replies in shock. “How did this happen?”
Everyone else in the room remains silent not able to completely comprehend what Kenshin just said. I'm sure that they were concerned that we had not returned earlier, but would have never imagined that Kiyoshi might have been killed. I'm still in shock that he is gone and I was there!
I look down toward the floor in shame. Kenshin's kin have all been so kind to me and now I repay them by being the cause of death for one of their own. How can I face them knowing that I have caused them so much pain?
I silently cry tears of frustration and sadness. Not only did Kiyoshi die on my behalf, but I wasn't able to save him. I just sat there and watched him die! I'm a healer! There must have been something that I could have done to save him!
“Marina,” Kenshin sympathetically states while lifting my chin, “I know that you are still in shock over what has happened, but we need to know what occurred. If you need more time we would understand though the quicker the story is told the sooner we can bring those responsible to justice.”
I nod my head in understanding despite my nervousness. What will happen to me after I tell them what happened? Once they know the truth I'm sure they will hate me and scorn my name.
“Are you sure you are able to tell us what happened? I don't want to distress you further,” Kenshin says in concern.
I shake my head yes shyly before looking Kenshin in the eye. Though this form of communication may be too intimate in front of others it is far more accurate than signing my answers.
“As long as you are willing. The last thing I want to do is force unwanted memories on you,” Kenshin replies wearily.
I nod my head in understanding. He worries far too much.
I see a glimmer in his eye for only a second before he looks upon me with a serious expression on his face. Taking in my expression Kenshin asks softly, “When you were picking figwort where was everyone positioned?”
Staring in Kenshin's eyes I immediately begin to relay my answer to him.
“She says she was picking figwort beside Kiyoshi, Yama was in the forest and the Kozue took post in the mountain range in the shrubs.”
“How long were you picking figwort?” Kenshin inquires in concern.
Scrunching up my face in deep thought I begin to calculate how long I was out. Why this would be important is beyond me.
“About two hours? During this time did either Yama or Kozue report back with Kiyoshi?” Kenshin asks suspiciously.
I shake my head no. There is no sense having Kenshin translate simple yes and no answers.
“That seems odd. You would think that they would report to Kiyoshi or at least make their presence known. It's also not like the men to still be out missing,” Jiro replies in deep thought.
“I agree,” Kenshin states in concern towards Jiro.
Looking toward me Kenshin inquires, “I know that it must have been sudden, but did you happen to notice from what direction the boulder fell?”
I shake my head yes.
“Just as I feared, it came from the same direction as Kozue,” Kenshin barked out in obvious disdain. “I will have to investigate my men further.”
“You're not saying that one of your men might have killed my husband are you?” Mine replies in shock.
“It's looking like a strong possibility,” Kenshin replies with a sigh.
“What happened when the boulder fell?” Kenshin asks compassionately.
With tears in my eyes I look into Kenshin's eyes. The whole event begins to play out in my head. The way Kiyoshi screamed my name and pushed me away from the boulder in time to save me from a fate he fell victim to. If only I had not become paralyzed in fear, maybe Kiyoshi would be alive and well. If only I had been stronger!
“Marina, it's not your fault. Kiyoshi died protecting you because it was his duty. You did nothing wrong. If anyone is to blame it's the one who orchestrated the attack,” Kenshin states sympathetically while softly wrapping his arms around my shoulders. So caught up in my grief I embrace him back while continuing to cry in his arms.
After a couple of minutes I suddenly remember my surroundings and back away from Kenshin. It's not appropriate to be making a spectacle of one's self in front of so many people, especially when they are awaiting important information.
“We understand that you have gone through a lot, but we need to know what happened to Kiyoshi,” Sakura replies with a sigh.
Bowing my head in embarrassment I stand beside Kenshin as he explains how Kiyoshi pushed me out of the boulder's path before it could crush me. The entire room is staring at me wide eyed by the time Kenshin is done explaining. I look away from my audience in fear of what I might see in their eyes.
“So Kiyoshi died protecting the girl,” Jiro states sadly.
With eyes down cast Mine sobbingly replies, “D... did he leave any... l...last words?”
Looking at Mine for the first time since I returned with Kenshin I notice that she is crying with child in hand. Guilt takes over me knowing that despite my best attempts, nothing will ever be the same between the two of us. Her husband is dead all because of me. I'm sure she will forever resent me.
No longer able to look at Mine I stare into Kenshin's eyes and relay the message Kiyoshi gave me. I left out the personal message regarding Kenshin, but other wise I left nothing out.
With tears in his eyes Kenshin translates, “He's sorry that he won’t see Sanosuke grow up and that he loves you Mine.”
No longer able to hold back her emotions Mine clings onto Sakura and begins to cry hysterically. Her despair is so strong that not a single person in the room is left with dry eyes. Even little Sanosuke seems to be affected by his mother's tears. Not quite understanding what is going on around him, but able to feel his mother's distress, he lifts his little fist towards his mother's cheek. His motor skills are not quite developed fully, by his intentions are quite obvious. Never have I seen such a sweet- hearted child.
Noticing the child in her hands, Mine gives him a small smile before bring him into a strong embrace. The scene before me gives me some hope that maybe Mine will be all right. She'll always have a piece of her husband in the form of their little one. He looks so much like Kiyoshi that maybe it will make her pain not quite so profound.
Loosening her hold on Sanosuke Mine states while wiping her eyes, “I'm sorry but I need some time to myself. If you don't mind.”
“Of course not dear,” Sakura replies sympathetically. “Take as much time as you need. I'll send up a maid in the morning with your breakfast and fresh water.”
“Thank you, Sakura,” Mine states while holding back tears, “I appreciate your kindness.”
Looking towards the door on the opposite side of the room from me Mine continues, “I hope you don't find me rude Marina but I need some time to think things over. I need to be alone for a while and come to terms with all of this.”
I bow my head in shame. Though I understand her intentions, it still hurts to know that she cannot even look towards me. I will always be associated with her husband's death and that, more than anything, pains me most. I've lost my best friend.
“I'm sorry Marina. I hope you understand,” Mine replies painfully.
I shake my head yes, despite the fact that she is not looking at me. At this point my response is more for Kenshin and Jiro who are more than likely concerned over my welfare. The last thing I want is for the two to follow me around and monitor my every move. No matter how horrible or desperate my life may become, my life is not my own. I would never intentionally hurt myself knowing that it might mean my brothers permanent imprisonment as swans. Even if they were not put under a spell I could never leave my loved ones in anguish or let those who have kept me down win. I will not treat my life as worthless, especially after the sacrifice Kiyoshi gave to protect me. I will honor his memory and continue to live strong.
“Kenshin, Jiro,” Mine states with a bow.
“If you need anything do not hesitate to give Jiro or myself a call,” Kenshin states with a nod.
“That I shall,” Mine replies while exiting the room with Sanosuke in her arms.
***Later***
It's been three months since Kiyoshi's death and I have seen little of Mine or little Sanosuke. Since hearing the news of her husband's death she has locked herself and Sanosuke in their room. The only time the two come out is for an hour or two at night and that is only because Sakura pressed on Mine that a growing child needs to go outside and have more space to run about.
Kenshin keeps on telling me that I should go out with him one night and talk to Mine, but I do not have the courage. I highly doubt that Mine wants anything to do with me. After all, I am the cause of all her pain and suffering. Kenshin insists that I am being too hard on myself and that no one feels that way, but I do not believe his words. If Mine does not feel that way, why has she called on everyone in the household excluding myself? She may not blame me for his death, but I am still associated with it. Instead I have inclined myself to watching the two from my bedroom window.
Under Kenshin's insistence no one in the house is allowed to leave the house unguarded. A few days after Kiyoshi's murder Kenshin and Jiro found Yama's mangled body hung to a large oak a few yards from his post in the forest. From Kenshin's estimations, he was killed an hour before the boulder fell.
As for Kozue, he has gone completely missing. Jiro and Kenshin extensively interrogated their men only to find out that he was never a part of his troops. Though there is no evidence to back up Kenshin's suspicions, he believes that Kozue is one of Gohei's men who was sent to either kill him, Kiyoshi or myself.
Because Kenshin was called into an emergency meeting a couple of hours prior to our departure, the two men were not alerted of Kiyoshi's substitution. As Kenshin explained it, the only way the attack could have been accomplished if Kozue had an accomplice. His accomplice more than likely was stationed in the forest prior and Kozue had no way to alert him of the situation at hand. If the plan had been intended for Kenshin, Kozue might have decided that if he couldn't take Kenshin out he might as well target Kenshin's guest or kinsmen. If it had been intended for myself Kiyoshi was just unfortunate enough to be placed in the situation that he was. Either scenario spells out future trouble for those residing in this household.
Kenshin is rightfully taking no chances and has the entire estate under high alert. Everything from the food and water supply are tested before any of the household consumes it. This might have unnerved me had I not grown up with such a threat. More than ever I feel pity for those who are testing our food. I would never want to be in their position.
The lock down Kenshin has created has not been entirely horrible though. Now that I have very few visitors I have had more time to devote towards my brothers' shirts. So far I have completed four shirts and I am half way through my fifth. With my current pace I might be able to finish my task sometime between four to six months. How I will contact my brothers I have no clue, but I'm sure I will find a way.
I suddenly hear a knock at my door, instantly shaking me from my thoughts. I quickly rise from my work wondering who might interrupt me. Kenshin alerted me yesterday that he and Jiro would be out investigating something of great importance and would not be back until later this afternoon. The only other people who might call on me are Sakura or her maids in waiting, but they only call me when something urgent needs attending to.
Whoever is knocking, I hope it isn't an emergency. With the thistles implanted in my fingers, I will not be able to take care of any medical needs. The last thing I want to do is scare some poor helpless maid with the condition of my fingers or more importantly not being able to properly tend their wounds. That would be frightful!
I open the door in shock to find Mine smiling at me with little Sanosuke in her arms. Of all the people to greet me, Mine is the last person I would expect.
“I figured you might be working and thought that I might join you. That is, if you don't mind,” Mine states shyly.
I have never seen Mine act shy in front of anyone before. Why is she so reserved now? Could she be feeling guilty and if so why? It couldn't possibly be over me, could it?
After setting Sanosuke on my bedroom floor she immediately opens her bag and places a sky blue blanket with little bees on it and a couple of Kenshin's wooden animals beside him. With a squeal of delight little Sanosuke begins to crawl over to the blanket and play with the toys. Lifting up a wooden bear Sanosuke yells out in excitement, “To...e.”
“That's right,” Mine replies proudly. “That's the toy Kenshin made you isn't it?”
Little Sanosuke looks up at his mother in confusion before turning his attention back to the toys in front of him.
I look upon the child in awe. In the three months that I have not seen him he has grown so much. He is beginning to lose some of his baby fat and his facial features are becoming more profound. It's amazing how similar Kiyoshi and his son look. If I didn't know better I would think I had gone back in time and seen Kiyoshi as a child rather than looking at his son.
“It's amazing how quickly children grow. He's already begun to pick up words. If he's as similar to his father mentally as he is physically I'm sure he will be walking and speaking shortly. As Sakura likes to tell me every time she sees me, the children on her husband's side of the family develop quickly. Kiyoshi and Kenshin were walking when they were only a couple months older than Sano and running only a couple of month soon after,” Mine comments with a smile.
“I'm kind of hoping that he doesn't grow up too quickly. I'd like to have a baby a little longer,” Mine states with a sigh.
I smile at her comment. I too would probably feel the same. After all, what is the sense of having a child if you can't enjoy all their stages? I'd imagine that it would hinder the bound between a child and their parents if the child were able to become independent so quickly.
“Marina, I want to apologize for not talking to you sooner. I have never blamed you for what happened to Kiyoshi, but at the time anything that reminded me of Kiyoshi was far too painful for me to endure. I know it was wrong for me to associate you with Kiyoshi's death and I can't tell you how sorry I am for that. I am your friend and I should have realized that you are going through as much if not more trauma as I am. I cannot imagine how much pain you are going through knowing that Kiyoshi died protecting you. I'm so sorry for treating you the way that I have and I hope you can forgive me,” Mine states with her eyes on the floor.
I look upon Mine in shock. Did she just apologize to me? This whole time, was she feeling guilty over her treatment towards me and was that why Kenshin was so adamant about me confronting her?
Standing up Mine says painfully, “I'm sorry that I've bothered you. I completely understand...”
Before she could finish her sentence I run towards her and embrace her tightly. The last thing I want for her to think is that I don't care. I am a little shocked but that's only natural. After all, this whole time I thought Mine hated me! I'm overjoyed to know that isn't the case.
Sobbing on my shoulder Mine replies, “Oh Marina, I'm so sorry. It's just been so hard. I still can't believe that Kiyoshi's dead.”
Tightening our embrace I begin to cry along side Mine. It's been far too long since I could express my emotions so openly. I have Kenshin but lately he's been far too busy and I don't want him to concern himself over me. Last time I cried in front of him he canceled all his meetings and spent the entire evening trying to comfort me. I felt so horrible afterward that I haven't cried in front of his since. The last thing I want is for Harrowfield to fall into ruins all because a certain Lord had to spend all his time comforting some overly emotional girl.
After a couple of minutes of crying we finally pull apart from each other. With a smile graced upon her lips Mine states playful, “Now look at you. If you keep this up I'm scared that you'll soon become one of those miserable spinsters that all the village children run away from. You already have the spindle handy.”
I smile at Mine's comment. It's nice to know that even while morning she still has her natural defense mechanisms. The woman might be depressed but at least her spirit is still intact. Maybe she will pull through this better than I originally thought.
“I think I have just the solution for you, but first I'll tend to your hands,” Mine firmly asserts.
What does she mean she has a solution and is she trying to use it as a bargaining chip in order to tend my hands? She should know that such measures would not be needed to get my consent!
“I could tell you now, but what would be the fun in that?” Mine chuckles. “A little suspense always makes surprises all the more enjoyable.”
Like I would believe that! It's not the suspense that she enjoys; it's the idea of holding something over my head. I swear the woman enjoys seeing me suffer!
“Now, now Marina. You wouldn't deny a woman the chance to enjoy herself would you? There are far too little things I find such pleasure in these days,” Mine replies with a pout.
The woman is absolutely prime evil! Using her current status as a widow to make me feel guilty for her mistreatment towards me! What amazing powers this lady possesses! Her talent at manipulation would be the envy of any wife. Let no individual cross paths with this woman, for I would fear for their safety!
Mine and I sit side by side on the bed as she begins to pick the thistles from my fingers. With a playful smirk Mine states, “I have been working diligently on my manipulation skills. What type of mother would I be if I didn't use guilt as a motivation on my child?”
I smile at her in amusement. Now she has found an excuse to taunt me and I'm sure she'll continue to use it for the remainder of my stay. I highly doubt her abilities will ever extend further than myself, or quite possibly Jiro if she hasn't already. I don't really mind though. If it helps her keep her spirits up and maintain some semblance of normality I will embrace her cheeky comments with open arms.
“I thought you would see things my way,” Mine triumphantly replies as she eagerly begins to apply the cooling balm on my hands.
Putting the balm back in her bag Mine playfully states, “Since you've been such a good girl I'll let you in on a little surprise Kiyoshi and I had been planning for you. We had hoped to give you this present a couple of months ago, but I hope you will still except it as a token of our appreciation for safely delivering our son.”
Opening her bag she eagerly watches me as she lifts the present into my arms. Unfolding the cloth so lovingly given to me I notice that it is a full-length sky blue dress. Hand embroidered on the sleeves and hem of the dress are little bumblebees in mid flight chasing one another. Never have I ever seen anything so lovely in my entire life. It must have taken her a long time to create such a masterpiece.
“Do you like it?” Mine eagerly inquires.
I enthusiastically shake my head yes. It's absolutely wonderful, but I fear that I wouldn't have an excuse to wear it any time soon. It's far too nice of a dress to wear for everyday use.
“I'm happy that you like it. The bumblebees are kind of a symbol for my family. It's kind of a family crest you might say. I had hoped that the dress might symbolize a sense of sisterhood between the two of us,” Mine says with a full- hearted smile.
I embrace Mine in a bear hug worthy of one of my brothers. After all, she's practically the sister I've never had.
“I'm happy that you like the dress. I was hoping you would wear it when Kenshin comes by later this afternoon,” Mine states with a knowing smirk.
I stare at her in disbelief. What does she mean by when Kenshin comes over? Is there something going on that I should be aware of?
With a sincere smile Mine states, “Kenshin told me last night that he wished to speak with you later this afternoon. He has something important to talk to you about.”
Something important? Is something wrong? Is Kenshin going to tell me to leave his life forever and to never come back?
Smiling brightly towards me Mine calmly asserts, “I can not tell you what it is Kenshin wishes to talk to you about, but I can tell you that you are not in trouble. For the most part I think you will enjoy it.”
I just stare at her in confusion. If I were not in trouble why would he want to talk to me? Not only that, what does she mean by the most part? There is something unusual about this impromptu meeting and I will get to the bottom of it.
“Seriously Marina! After all the clues I have given you, I would have hoped that you'd know Kenshin's intentions. Well, I guess you'll figure it out soon enough,” Mine states exhaustedly.
“Now hurry up and get changed. Kenshin should be back any minute,” Mine states in amusement.
Without further word from Mine I quickly put on the dress. Looking at myself in the mirror I can't help but admire Mine's needle work. If I had half the talent Mine possesses I wouldn't have been forced to suffer Lady Yumi's femininity lessons. Just thinking about that evil woman makes my blood boil in rage.
“Is something wrong?” Mine asks in concern. “I know I didn't say something wrong because I haven't so much uttered a word since I told you about Kenshin's visit. Are you upset about the last minute meeting, because if that's the case I promise you that it will be worth any aggravation you're feeling presently.”
I shyly shake my head no. I'm so embarrassed that someone has once again been able to read my emotions. What's worse is that I had to think about my evil stepmother.
“Do you wish to tell me about it?” Mine replies in concern. “It might make the problem easier to bare.”
I smile at Mine as I shake my head no. As much as I'd love to talk about my family issues, I cannot. To do so would not only sacrifice my brothers' chances at transformation, but also give away my identity. The minute Kenshin and the others get word of who I am I'll surely be killed or worse used for ransom. The daughter of Lord Koshijiro would be a nice little pawn for Gohei and his allies.
“I understand. When you feel comfortable enough you know who to come to,” Mine replies with a smile.
I smile back at Mine in appreciation. Thank the Tuatha De Danann that I've taken shelter with such kind and understanding individuals. I have truly been blessed. Despite all the hardships I have faced, it could have easily been far worse. I could have been stuck with a man like Gohei! The thought terrifies me to no end.
Placing me in front of the dresser Mine begins to comb out my hair. As soon as she is half way through combing my hair Mine states, “Since we are short on time I will not do anything special with your hair, though truthfully I wouldn't even if we did. Your hair is much too pretty to be kept up. I think Kenshin would also agree.”
Feeling that my hair is as thoroughly combed out as is physically possible, Mine lifts me up from my seat and begins to look over my appearance.
With a sad smile graced upon her lips Mine comments, “Kiyoshi would have been thrilled at how lovely the dress looks on you. I originally wanted to use a darker shade of blue, but Kiyoshi was adamant that this shade would look better. He was right.”
I look at Mine with a sympathetic smile. I'm sure the memory of her husband will be bitter sweet for many a moon.
“Thank you for your concern, but I am alright. It will just take some time to get used to the idea that he isn't around anymore. I have Sano though and hopefully that will be enough to make my sadness somewhat bearable,” Mine states while smiling towards little Sanosuke now curled up under his blanket.
I look at the child in awe. Sometime between my preparations Sanosuke became bored and feel asleep. For a child his age he is extremely well behaved.
“The child is like clockwork. Everyday he falls asleep at the same time,” Mine states in amusement. “Don't let his schedule fool you though. When he's fully awake he can be quite the troublemaker. The other day I caught him trying to eat one of Sakura's roses stem first. How he got to that vase is still quite a mystery to me.”
I'm sure the entire household was petrified when they saw little Sanosuke trying to eat the rose. I know I would though at the same time I have to admire the boy's ingenuity. The fact that he was able to get a hold of the rose and not wind up hurting himself is quite impressive. Either the child is really lucky or incredibly smart. Little Sanosuke is full of surprises.
Our conversation is cut short by a soft knock on the door. Mine in anticipation runs towards the door and opens it painfully slow. Why she would run swiftly towards the door only to take her time opening it puzzles me.
“I came by to see... Mine?” Kenshin states concerned. “I'm surprised to see you here. Did you two finally settle things?”
“Of course!” Mine replies in mock anger. “Did you think we wouldn't?”
“The fact that both of you were too stubborn to speak to one another was starting to make me have doubts,” Kenshin retorts with a wicked grin. “I'm happy to see that I was proven wrong.”
“Did I hear my Lord correctly? Did he just admit that he predicted something wrong?” Mine replies in mock horror.
“What can I say? You are far too complex a creature to accurately predict one hundred percent of the time,” Kenshin states in delectation.
“I'm happy to see that some can see my involution for what it is,” Mine arrogantly replies. “I just wish the others could see it as a positive trait as well.”
With a chuckle Kenshin states, “That will take far more time and patience than even I possess. Maybe I should bring your case in front of the high bishop.”
“If you weren't being so condescending I might just take you up on that offer,” Mine replies with a sigh. “Jiro could use a little reprimanding from someone in a higher position than he. I've given up hope on you many years ago.”
“I'm happy that you're starting to come back to your old self. The talk with Marina must have gone well,” Kenshin states happily. “As much as I'd love to keep talking to you I'd hoped to escort Marina this afternoon.”
“Where are my manners? Come on in. I was just about to leave. I hope the two of you have a good time,” Mine replies with a smile.
Walking into the room Kenshin replies, “We most certainly shall try.”
“I know that the two of you will. Marina's a very lucky girl,” Mine remarks with a wink towards Kenshin.
“I hope I live up to your expectations,” Kenshin replies with a chuckle.
“Of that I have no doubt. Have fun and don't be out too late now,” Mine playfully retorts as she gathers Sanosuke in her arms.
“Don't worry. I'll have your daughter back at a reasonable hour,” Kenshin states jovially.
Gleefully Mine chuckles, “I'll hold you to that. In case I don't see either of you later, goodnight.”
“Goodnight,” Kenshin replies with a courteous bow of the head.
Mine immediately takes her leave and only Kenshin and I remain in the room. Taking a good look at me, Kenshin states appreciatively, “I see that Mine has decided to give you the dress she made you. I have to say that the dress looks lovely on you, though I doubt that even rags would make you look less lovely.”
I blush in embarrassment. It's not uncommon for Kenshin to compliment my appearance, but somehow this feels much different. He's being far more direct than I have cause to remember.
Taking my hand Kenshin states confidently, “I hope you don't mind but I'd hoped that we could go somewhere outside the palace walls and talk to one another privately. Since we'll be gone for a while I thought that it might be nice to pack a light dinner.”
I nod my head in contained excitement. I have been longing to leave the castle for quite some time and now I'm going to be doing just that.
“I'm happy that we are in agreement,” Kenshin replies jocosely. “We better start heading out or else were going to be late.”
As we hurriedly walk down the hall towards the stables I can't help but smile at the man beside me. I wonder what he has planned for me? If it's anything like his last surprise I'm sure I'm going to love it!
***Later***
We rode for a couple of hours before arriving at a cliff side. I look at Kenshin beside me in bewilderment. Why are we on top of a cliff?
“Akira and I used to come here when we were children. In my opinion it's one of the most beautiful places I've ever seen. Don't take my word for it, go over there and look for yourself,” Kenshin states with a smirk.
Getting off my horse I quickly make my way toward the edge of the cliff. Below me is a beach of fine white sand occupied by a family of Selkies. I'm not an expert on beaches but I'd imagine that none quite compare to this one. The remote setting and untamed element of this place makes it so appealing.
“It's lovely isn't it? When I was a child I used to come here to play, but as I've gotten older it's become more of a sanctuary than anything else,” Kenshin comments while staring out into the distance.
A stray wind begins to blow and I can't help but stare at the man beside me as his hair softly blows in the wind. My breath catches in my throat at the pure tranquility portrayed from him. He looks like a portrait of a young hero from some fantastical tale. I highly doubt that even the most gifted painter could render a more romantic image than the one before me.
Looking back at me Kenshin replies with a heart-warming smile, “We can't go down that specific cove, but I can take you to another one close by if you'd like.”
Breaking out of my trance I shake my head in excitement. There's nothing I would love more than to go down to the beach.
It takes us no more than a half an hour to walk down to the beach below us. Because the path is too narrow and steep for the horses we decided to let them graze on the top of the cliff. There isn't anywhere for the horses to run so Kenshin isn't too concerned about leaving them unsupervised.
“What do you think? To your standards?” Kenshin gaily inquires as we approach the beach.
Without being given permission I throw off my shoes as quickly as I can and begin to run on the beach with little regard for anything else. I have never been on a beach before and I will not waste the opportunity. I'm sure Kenshin will not mind if I postpone our talk until a little later.
The sand is so soft underfoot that I do not want to stop running, but I eventually stop in fear that Kenshin will call me back if I go any further. Looking towards the ocean I slowly make my way towards the waves. Not knowing what to expect I stand still as a wave hits my feet. In shock I run away from the water. It's so cold!
Laughing beside me Kenshin comments, “It's not so bad once you get used to it, though I do not suggest swimming in it. The waters have been known to catch innocent people unawares. The sea is as beautiful as it is dangerous.”
I gaze at Kenshin to find him smiling amusedly at me. I'm guessing that my reaction towards the beach isn't what he's used to seeing from a woman in her seventeenth year.
“I'm happy that you are enjoying yourself. I am guessing from your reaction that this is your first time walking on the beach,” Kenshin states matter of fact.
I bow my head in embarrassment.
“No need to be embarrassed,” Kenshin warmly asserts. “It's not uncommon for one who lives inland to never see the Ocean.”
I look up at Kenshin in appreciation. The fact that he is not making fun of me is a great relief.
Walking me back towards the beach Kenshin begins to unpack our dinner. It is starting to get late and I'm sure the sun will be setting in a couple of hours. It's best to eat while the food is still visible.
Handing me a plate of assorted vegetables, potatoes and chicken Kenshin states softly, “I have told you that I have been investigating something of importance and I feel that I should explain what I have found.”
Looking up at Kenshin expectantly. What could be so important? Is it something about Kiyoshi's murder?
“One of my informants has alerted me that there has a been a sighting of a British man of unknown origins currently taking refuge in a Christian Monastery. From the description they have given me I am sure that it's Akira,” Kenshin replies in deep thought.
I look at Kenshin in horror. How can this be possible? Akira's dead! This can't be right; it must be a trap!
“I didn't believe it at first either,” Kenshin replies in concern, “But the more I looked into it the more convinced I am that this is Akira. Even if this is just a rumor I have to see for myself if he is alive or not. If I don't go I'll forever be guilt ridden knowing that I didn't at least investigate further.”
Hopelessly I begin to cry. He can't go. It's a trap! The Tuatha De Danann said that he was gone and they do not lie. I'm sure someone is just trying to get him away from the estate and planning to attack while he's away. He can't leave, he might be killed or lose everything if he goes searching for his brother.
“You're so sure that this is a trap. What makes you believe that he's dead? Did you see his body?” Kenshin asks in concern.
I shake my head no regretfully. I did not see his body, but one does not have to see something to know the truth.
“I know that you are concerned about me but I promise you that I will come back alive and that nothing will happen to you while I am gone,” Kenshin states compassionately.
Shaking my head in denial and begin to cry hysterically. He can't leave me! I'll surely become easy prey for Gohei!
Holding me in a warm embrace Kenshin coaxingly replies, “Nothing will happen to me nor will I leave you unprotected. That's why I brought you here. I will be leaving tomorrow and to my great regret I will be forced to leave the estate in Gohei's control.”
I stare at Kenshin angrily. How can he leave me in hands of Gohei? This is getting worse and worse by the moment!
“I do not like the idea but there is no one else that can oversee the estate,” Kenshin states with a sigh. “Jiro is not related to me by blood or marriage and the rules are that as long as there is a male in the family to take the throne they are given first priority. My mother has no legitimate claim to the throne as long as her brother is around. Technically Sanosuke has top priority to inherit the throne since Kiyoshi was related on my father's side, but he is far too young to hold any power.”
I take in the information in defeat. I will just have to except that I will no longer be alive by the time Kenshin comes back.
“There is a way that you will have diplomatic immunity from Gohei. I would not suggest such a solution unless I felt that there was no other way to protect you nor will I force you into it,” Kenshin states nervously. “Marina, Gohei has no power over those who hold blood ties or are bound by marriage to one of members of Harrowfield's royal family. If you marry me he cannot harm you. You will officially be one of my people and subject only to my ruling. If Gohei attempted anything he would not only jeopardize his lands but his life.”
I look up at Kenshin in shock. Is he asking for my hand in marriage?
“I understand that you must be nervous about this whole situation but I promise you that if you wish not to be wed to me once I come back I will let you leave. We will forget that we were ever wed and renounce our vows,” Kenshin states with his eyes downcast.
I can see the concern and doubt in his eyes and can't help but trust the man before me. He's a man of his word. If he tells me that he'll do something it's as good as done. If I wish to be unwed to him he will let me go unharmed.
“Will you marry me?” Kenshin replies self-consciously.
I shyly nod my head yes. There is more at stake than my virtuosity. My life will be at risk if do not marry him. I can't force Kenshin to stay behind and except Akira's spotting as a myth nor can I save my brothers if I am dead. Though this is not the way in which I would choose to be wed it could be far worse. I'm also sure that this is what Kiyoshi had in mind when he told me to except Kenshin's offer. How long had he been planning this and who else was alerted to his plans?
Embracing me tightly Kenshin states in relief, “I'm so happy that you agreed. I don't know what I would have done if you declined my proposal. Tomoe and Mine told me that I shouldn't worry about your reaction, but I couldn't help it.”
I look up at Kenshin in disbelief. How long had he been planning to propose to me, and Tomoe approves? I can see Mine, but Tomoe?
With a smile Kenshin replies, “Tomoe and I have always been good friends but we could be nothing more. Tomoe loved Akira with all her heart and I'm sure she will love no other the same. We were betrothed to one another since we were little children and had no say in the matter otherwise she would have married Akira years ago.”
Suddenly everything begins to make sense. Akira's main resentment wasn't the fact that he had no trade or that he didn't inherit the land so much as the fact that he couldn't be with Tomoe. Akira must have run off once he found out that Tomoe would be forced to marry Kenshin. He probably thought Kenshin was going through with the marriage to spite him. Poor Tomoe and Akira! No wonder she was so depressed when we had tea!
“At this very moment Tomoe has alerted her father that our engagement is over and that I shall be leaving in soon. I figured that even if you had said no I would not be able to go through with the marriage. I just couldn't go through with it now that things have changed,” Kenshin states sadly.
He was going to cancel his wedding even if I said no? What could have changed his perspective of his marriage so suddenly? Does he feel guilt in taking his younger brother's love interest?
“We best hurry to the chapel. I doubt the minister will wait for us all night,” Kenshin playfully comments.
I nod my head in understanding before following Kenshin up the cliff towards our awaiting mounts with our left over dinner and supplies in hand. Looking back at the beach below us I realize that things are only going to get more complicated from this point on.
***Later***
The ceremony was a simple one. There was no large party of family or friends nor an overly elaborate procession. The only person to witness our wedding was Jiro who never stopped smirking. He was especially happy when Kenshin was told to kiss the bride. Never in my life would I have guessed that Jiro would be so joyous over our wedlock.
For the last half an hour we have been slowly riding towards Kenshin's estate. The sun had fallen a while ago but luckily it's a full moon tonight. The moons rays are the only things keeping our horses from breaking their legs.
Stopping his horse Kenshin states calmly, “Jiro, do mind if I have a word with my wife alone.”
With a nod of the head Jiro leaves without a word. The two of us are left alone once more only this time I am not looking forward to what Kenshin has to say to me.
Reaching into his pocket Kenshin firmly states, “No proper wife should go home without a token of her marriage. The ring probably wont fit but at least no one will doubt your word.”
I glance at the wooden ring now placed in my hands. The delicate oak leaves engraved around the band look to be carved with exceptional care. The craftsmanship put into this piece will no doubt give away its creator.
“I wish I didn't have to leave so soon after our marriage, but I promise that I'll make it up to you,” Kenshin regretfully replies.
With tears in my eyes I nod my head in understanding.
“Marina,” Kenshin states lovingly. “Nothing will stop me from coming back.”
Holding Kenshin for dear life I begin to cry hysterically. I can't stand the thought that Kenshin is leaving me behind. The only person who has come to truly understand me is leaving me in a strange land all alone. It's too much to bear!
Tightening our embrace Kenshin coaxingly replies, “I must be going but I promise that I will be back as soon as possible. Mine, Jiro and my mother will be here to protect you until I return.”
Shaking my head in denial I begin to cry harder on his shoulder. We just wed and now he's going to leave me. I know that it is only a paper marriage, but it still doesn't seem right.
“Shh,” Kenshin replies while kissing me on the forehead. “Everything will be alright, you'll see. I wont be gone long. You'll hardly notice that I've left.”
I shake my head no in despair. How could I not notice that Kenshin's gone? Things will be so gloomy without his presence.
“Sorry,” Kenshin sadly apologies. “That was a horrible attempt at humor.”
Looking up at Kenshin I shake my head yes in annoyance.
Drying the tears from my eyes Kenshin softly states, “I'll miss you too.”
I give Kenshin a sad smile as tears once again begin to roll down my checks.
“”Please don't cry,” Kenshin replies disheartened. “I could never leave a woman alone when she cries.”
Wiping away my tears in an effort to lessen Kenshin's guilt I look into Kenshin's eyes desperately searchingly for any clues towards his emotional state.
Turning away from me Kenshin replies in a soft voice, “Take care while I'm gone. Don't give the others too hard of a time now.”
Despite my need to grab a hold of Kenshin once more I reign myself from my impulses and instead watch him walk away from me.
Before I can collapse in despair Jiro takes a hold of my arm and directs me towards my horse. Sympathetically Jiro states, “We best be getting home; it's getting late.”
Knowing that Jiro is right I follow his lead and silently make our way toward the castle. We make it back in good time and without running into any of the household residents or staff. That night I cry myself to sleep only to realize that this time I will not have Kenshin to comfort me in the morning.