Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction ❯ Everytime ❯ 1. ( Chapter 1 )

Hmm well I was going thru some of my rejected fanfic ideas and I came across one song fic I kinda liked....'cept the song it was with was Brittney Spears..... whom I really do strongly dislike to keep things simple. It's not even finished but.... If u dun like it's from my diary so I really dun care XP....seriously tho I need mental help....and uhh let me kno what ya think if you take the time to read it....Yes Brittany sucks so what ignore it, kay? Oh yeah umm it's at least PG 13 for umm suicide...and cursing and some yaoi referance..what else but SaiSa from a kitty wit issues eh? lol....so reader beware

 

Everytime

 

 

The song is c. to Brittany the chars. are c. to their respectful owner Watsuki-sensai

 

1.

 

 

Sano's Point of View

 

 

Notice me

Take my hand

Why are we

Strangers when

Our love is strong

Why carry on without me?

 

 

"Why the hell did you stop me damn it?" I yelled rather loudly at the woman standing in front of me. "Because there is no reason for you to kill yourself Sanosuke, not when so many people love and care about you." replied the woman in front of me rather firmly as she, much to my dismay, took the small knife that had, only seconds ago, come so close to my wrist, and put it in her pocket. It was a rather shiny knife and I had really liked the idea of it being the one to cause my death but that idea was gone now..shoved in her pocket.

 

 

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

And everytime I see you in my dreams

I see your face, you're haunting me

I guess I need you baby

 

 

"Megumi I'm not asking you to understand me but I just can't do this anymore." I said confusing her slightly. "Do what Sanosuke?" she replied. "Live..." I said looking away. I couldn't bear to meet her eyes, not after a statement like that. "So this is it? That's how Sanosuke Sagara is gonna go? Taking the easy way out? You're just gonna kill yourself.... That's not like you Sanosuke." "How the fuck would you know what is and isn't like me? What the hell are you my mother? I yelled rather harsh and angrily at the woman who truly was only trying to help me. "Sano you can't die. You're being stupid. Your problems can't be that bad...we all love you and-"I was sick of hearing her and just cut her off with something like " It's not like it would have been the first time I ever slit my wrist or tried to kill myself" I yelled as I pulled off the bandages wrapped around my wrist to show what they truly hid. Seeing all the scars probably was a little too much for her cause she let out a gasp. Than immediately started to inspect them in a very doctor-like manner. I didn't like being observed like that and pulled my wrist away and yelled, "There are you happy? Now you know the way I solve all my problems." "No Sanosuke...I'm not happy at all." "Oh really well sorry but that's to damn bad. Now I believe you have something of mine." Knowing very well I meant the knife she only replied "Sano you have a problem and I think you need some help." "Yes I do have a problem. Everyone I fuckin' love or care about leaves me. But I thought he was different... till he went and fuckin' left me too. So there's another person on the list of people I let die. I told myself after Captain Sagara that would never happen again...but it did. Now I can't get him the hell out of my head. You just wouldn't understand what it's like to be haunted by thoughts of someone you loved, fox. I need to go." I finished, trying not to look at her.

 

 

I make believe

That you are here

It's the only way

I see clear

What have I done

You seem to move on easy

 

 

"Sano please don't go...I want to help you...I care about you. Don't you know that? Now I don't know what happened but I'm sure it wasn't your fault Sano..." this made me stop. "Megumi I know you care but because I didn't even try to stop him from dying it is my fault. Now I can't even look at myself in the mirror because I'm to ashamed. I let him die...and for awhile I could pretend it wasn't my fault and he was still alive...but that's a lie..I can't live it anymore. I just let him kill himself. For awhile I believed nothing but the fact that he wasn't...no couldn't be dead and that he was Immortal.. but that was all a silly little lie I made up to stop the tears I didn't wanna cry. Damn it Saitou why the hell did you die?" I said letting the tears stream down my face and punching the wall to let out some frustration. And if my saying Saitou's name confused the fox woman, she showed no signs of it. Only sympathy and care. That's when I left. She probably tried to stop me but her protests fell on dead ears.

 

 

Everytime I try to fly

I fall without my wings

I feel so small

I guess I need you baby

 

 

A.N.

You thought he loved Megumi at first right? Nope it was Saitou...who isn't even really dead...I just like to torture Sano in my fics and then have Saitou come when things get bad..... so uhh yeah...his "Death" after the fight with Shishio works out for me. You haven't seen the last of this fic…

 

Well bye byes for now