Rurouni Kenshin Fan Fiction ❯ Feelings Surface ❯ Feelings Surface ( Chapter 1 )

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN KENSHIN!'-'X

Author's note: Okay this is my first FanFic. Basically, it's about Rurouni Kenshin and includes its characters. The plot summary can be as follows, Kaoru loves Kenshin and does everything she can to make it obvious. Kenshin finally realizes his feelings for her. Tensions rise, understandings must be met, and the battousai surfaces once again.

Surfaces

Chapter 1

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"Kenshin, all I wanted to say is that… that I love you."

Kaoru looked upon the darkness sky remembering those three words that pierced her heart. They were only words that meant to show her affection towards him, yet he felt otherwise. She tampered with her stray hairs that blew in the cold of the midnight wind.

"Even here I feel lonely," Kaoru uttered to herself. "I don't get it, how could he not understand the way I feel for him? It's been obvious since the day we met."

Kaoru got up and headed back to the dojo. With each appeasing step, she felt the pangs of rejection seeping through her heart. With a quick pause, she turned to the moon trying to figure out an answer to her question. Oh Kenshin, if only you knew how I feel for you. Understanding that her desires and wishes may never come true, she quickened her pace.

When she entered, she smelt the divine cooking of Kenshin. Among the set meal were fish, rice balls, and miso soup. When permitted with the time and effort, Kenshin's ability to cook had no limits allowing him to prepare a fine meal. Trying not to catch his attention, she walked into the kitchen and surveyed him. At that time Kenshin was finishing off his daily task of washing dishes. Just the sight of him brought joy to her in more ways than one; she felt raw emotions that she had never felt before within her. She savored the time she had with him, though short, and held on to them dearly. Watching him spread out some bowls and chopsticks, she decided to sit down and staggered near him. With that, Kenshin heard a thud and peered over his shoulder.

"Good evening Ms. Kaoru, you were out for an awfully long time. Is there something amiss in your life that would make you feel this way?" Kenshin spoke with a warm smile upon his face.

"No Kenshin," Kaoru whispered as she gazed down, "Nothing is wrong when you feel so much for the one you…" "What was that Kaoru?" Kenshin asked abruptly. Kaoru looked up into his warm violet eyes, becoming rapture in the middle of his sensuous stare. A steady silence passed between them. She felt that for the first time Kenshin might see her for what she is and how she really feels. Nothing. A sudden look of dismay ran through her blue eyes. "Oh, nothing. I'm just fine thank you!" She snapped turning away looking down at the floor.

Damn it, every time I look in his eyes I fall hopelessly in love with him. And to this very moment, he still doesn't know. Am I not good enough?

"Hey Kenshin, that smells good! What are we having for dinner tonight?" asked Sanosuke as he came into the kitchen. Upon his face he held a wide grin, showing that he drank earlier that day from a previous gambling party. When his path crossed with Kaoru's, Sano let out a horrendous comment. "Whoa missy, you were out for quite some time. Where were you? Is there someone we don't know about?" Sanosuke laughed. She turned away in embarrassment meeting Kenshin's eyes once more. A blush endeavored the one chance it had. She refused.

Yahiko heard Sano's laughter and dashed for the kitchen.

"What's so funny Sano?"

"Check it out. The little missy has a secret lover! I wonder who it is."

Sanosuke eyed Kaoru in suspicion then glanced over to Kenshin. Looking in amazement, Yahiko didn't understand the situation. Instead, the stubborn child followed Sano's lead; he pointed his finger in a kiddy-like fashion and laughed. "Who'd want to make love to you! Your just a big ugly girl. A big ugly raccoon." Kenshin on the other hand, looked on in disbelief for Kaoru didn't attack at the two. Expecting Kenshin to stand up for her, Kaoru looked onto him for protection. He merely stood in front of the three and watched in contempt. Kaoru got up and headed for her room.

That's odd. Ms. Kaoru didn't say a thing. She's never this quiet when it comes to being laughed at. Usually, she would be tearing them to pieces right now. Yet I wonder, what is causing her to act like this? She hasn't eaten her dinner. I'm sure she will come to her senses and eat at her leisure that she will.

Kenshin took his position and began to eat. Placing his chopsticks between his lean fingers, he was caught off guard by the rude manners of an arrogant boy. Yahiko, as his usual self, stuffed his face. After finishing his soup and fish, he promptly ate his rice balls in a wolf-like manner. He then set his eyes on Sano's rice balls. When Sano tipped his head back to sip some of his sake, Yahiko snatched the remaining three. Sanosuke saw this from the corner of his eye.

"What the hell is wrong with you little Yahiko?" he growled throwing a jug of sake at Yahiko's head. "Keep your hands on your own food you freeloader!"

"Don't call me little! How many times did I tell you that I'm not little! Don't throw shit at me either! Damn, that hurts!" Yahiko snapped back rubbing his head.

"Now, now, let's calm down. There's no need to fight over…" before Kenshin could continue, Yahiko and Sanosuke roared in unison, "Stay out of this!"

Kenshin backed down and continued to sip his tea. Suddenly a thought ran through his head. That's strange; there's no sign of Ms. Kaoru. Kenshin got up and headed for Kaoru's room. "Please excuse me, I'll be back."

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Within the confines of her room, Kaoru laid on her futon trying to find a position that would pacify her aching body. She turned on her back, pain. She let out a sigh of depression and turned on her stomach. Before she could settle down, her stomach lashed out a huge rumble. This caused her to lie on her side, more pain. She gave in to her first intentions and decided to look at the ceiling.

Studying the pale pigment of the wall, she began to think about the incident that occurred in the kitchen.

He didn't say anything to stop their teasing. Why didn't he stop them? Oh Kenshin.

She began to cry silently making sure that her sounds weren't apparent to anyone. Her tears slowly trailed down her porcelain cheeks and dripped to the floor. Over a brief period, her water of emotions shaped a pool. She continued to cry.

* * *

Kenshin knocked on her door a couple times before entering. He slid the door open only to find Kaoru sitting. He examined her from a far and noticed that a tiny stream of tears formed leading to the place at which he stood. He felt something come over him. He needed to aid her in her struggles in a way that he could cease the cause of her crying. She sat in quiet.

What is this? She's been in here for an hour only to have me find her crying like this. No, this can't be. She is never in this kind of state.

"Ms. Kaoru, you didn't eat your dinner at all. I know I asked you this before, mind me not for asking again. Is there something wrong?" Kenshin stood in silence allowing Kaoru to respond; nothing came out of her. He looked at her once more and began to approach her quietly. With each footstep creaking closer, Kenshin placed his hands on her shoulders to get her attention. He shook her lightly.

"Kenshin…Ken…shin…" Kaoru moaned, "Let go of me." Kenshin didn't answer as he tightened his grip.

"Ouch, that hurts. Let go…of…me this instant."

"Ms. Kaoru, listen to me. You haven't been yourself for the past few days…"

"Why does it come to your attention that I matter to you now? Why is it when I cry, get hurt, or need protection you care? Please Kenshin…you're …hurting me…" Kaoru cried even more. With tears streaming down her cheeks yet again, Kenshin decided to let loose on his grip. His sudden actions left a blank indication on what Kenshin was there for. Instead of calming her of her whimpers, he sat beside her in a trance. He saw before him what he never wanted to see, Kaoru being ripped to shreds emotionally because of him.

Kenshin staggered and held Kaoru close to him.

What have I done? I never meant for her to cry.

He held her close to his body to comfort her. The warmth of his body became evident to Koaru. She felt his hands caressing her back with a touch far greater than what she could ever think of her receiving from him. She let up with the tears but didn't look at Kenshin's face. Taking his calloused hands, he cupped her cheeks and brought her face up to his. Slowly, Kenshin wiped a stray tear away from her cheek and looked deeply into her blue eyes. Kaoru turned away. Kenshin cupped her cheeks once more; he slowly met his face with hers. Kaoru began to tremble for she didn't know what Kenshin was doing.

He brought his lips close to hers seeking permission to taste her. As he inched closer to her, she pushed Kenshin back in skepticism. His once peaceful lavender eyes took on the hue of amber orbs. Kenshin was shocked when he noticed Kaoru thrusting his arms off her. After her actions, she headed for the nearest corner of her room and cradled her self.

"I don't understand…Kaoru," he growled. "Why did you pull away?"

Author's note: Okay how did the first chapter go? Good I hope. I made Kaoru scared of Kenshin's surfaced half, I wanted her to show fear and questioning in our hitokiri. Basically, she really shows a lot of courage, but I wanted her to feel vulnerable towards something that she really wanted. Kenshin as the battousai wants not just Kaoru's inner self, but out. In simpler terms, think how she would feel when facing her rurouni and then realizing that his once lavender eyes now was amber. However, those lustful and penetrating orbs are directed to her, making things more awkward and difficult.