Sailor Moon Fan Fiction / Fan Fiction ❯ In But A Dream-A Sailormoon-JTHM crossover ❯ The Letter ( Chapter 29 )

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Disclaimer: I don't own Nny. JV does. I hope he never finds this. I know he'd want to kill me. I also don't own sailormoon. Takeuchi Naoko does. Good for her.
This particular chapter was written by Q
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In But a Dream

A Sailormoon-Johnny the Homicidal Maniac Crossover Fanfic

Chapter 29 ~ The Letter.

Johnny,

I need to get these thoughts out, before they drive me crazy. I've seen crazy. . .It's not someplace I'd rather visit again, if possible.

I don't understand myself when I'm with you. You asked me why I didn't keep the bat, since it kept me happy. I answered with 'You can only count on your self, for your own happyness...not others. Others dissapoint.' You agreed.

Then, you asked me, what do I want to do with my life...?

I...want to be a nurse. I want to help people.

And that is why I do not understand myself when around you. You kill. You kill, hurt, torture. As a healer, shouldn't I appal these actions? hate you for them? But I let you do them...maybe you were right, maybe you truely can't be caught.

I know there is good in the world. I know the world is not as selfish and rotted and vile as you say, yet, the part of me that is still crazy believes in everything you say.
That part of me applauds your efforts.

I killed Devi. I'm not sure why. I just....did. It felt good. It wasn't pretty, but it felt good. She thought I was you. You scare the shit out of her.
Rather, you did.

Understandable. I mean you did try to kill her.

Having written all that stuff about Devi, I know for certain I'm not sending this to you. Ever.

I'm a coward around you. I fold. Why? What is it about you that compleatly treds all over my code of ethics, and my morals? I..don't know.

Do I change you the way you change me? Probably not. You're too strong, to sure to be changed, right?

My mind is becomming a bit clearer, and that's good. You did horrible, horrible things to my friends, family, and my own mind- and yet.....

I forgive you...

Senceless, utterly senceless! I shouln't forgive you! I'm a sailorsenshi for crying out loud! I should levle you! I should bring you to justice! But...why....can't...I?

Maybe because, deep down, I'm a romantic? You were the first person to ever pay attention to me. No one ever does. You even accepted me for my 'gross' healing power. No body liked that, save for Chibi-usa.

Where is Chibi-Usa....I thought I saw her befor I went..crazy?

Well, I'm going to end this letter, burn it, tear it up...whatever. But remember, 'Nny.

I want to help people.