Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ A new horizon ❯ Old friends New friends ( Chapter 2 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
Okay just for information. Let us pretend it's spring (I have revised the first one so it could be like that. Just little changes though so no need to reread it really.)
Also I have decided since the school in Japan doesn't seems to be much different from our in Germany (10- 15/16 year old go on a higher school and then to an "college" or you are on a school that is both like Rei's.) that Usagi is still 14 but that she would become 15 this summer and with that change to the "high school".
I don't even know the difference between college and the university and my dictionary just say there's a difference from first degrees and further so that doesn't say much to me. So bear with me if I get anything wrong and feel free to corrigize me.
Anyway have fun and review if you like.
Last Time:
"U-usagi. It's correct! Everything is correct! How did you do- I mean who helpe- Usagi just what have you done??" Amy stuttered not completely sure to trust her own eyes. 'How could Usagi have the brains to do this? Maybe her parents helped. But Usagi alone, no! I don't believe that until I see it with my very own eyes!'
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Usagi looked bemused on as Amy got over her homework again and again. Smiling she waited until the Senshi of Mercury finally came to the conclusion that everything was REALLY alright. Usagi was still smiling as Amy stuttered unbelieving the question how she had managed to accomplish the feat to get her homework right.
The shy Senshi was normally more sedate and didn't want to hurt anyone, be it physically or verbally.
That she now made these ridiculous sentences and accusations even in her mind showed that she was totally out of it. Usagi smiled. Wouldn't it be interessant to know what happens when their little Genius knew from the psychical bond their princess had with them so that they would know whenever she was in danger?
Usagi could nearly see the interested light in Amy-chan's eyes and how she would pack out her Mercury-computer and analyze everything. Still amused with the mental picture of that she decided that Amy should become a explanation as to why she had all her homework correct.
Naturally she couldn't just tell the truth because the memories of the future and everything that happens there as well as the memories from the past and many other life's she seemed to have lived through would sem a little bit too crazy even for Amychan. So she decided to tell her a white lie. It wasn't exactly a lie she just let some of the whole truth out.
"I learned very much Amychan. I learned as much as I could and now it seemed that it just flowed out of me. I find these problems easy and even a little bit too easy for me now. I think I can understand you now better. You always said if it were allowed to skip classes you would do it as soon as you can.
I have to say I would find it better too if I could skip classes now. But we can only hope that as soon we are on high-school that we are allowed to take further classes to prepare for college and later for an university if you decide to go on one."
Usagi smiled amused st Amy who could still not get over the fact that Usagi has said something that had to do with school and wasn't negative in any way. 'I think I have finally made Amychan break down. Even her thoughts are stunned and she can't even formulate and sentence. Poor Amychan maybe I should let her recover a little bit before I start to talk again'
Usagi just smiled and waited until Amy could finally speak again. Just as the first students came in Amy had herself under control and asked:
"Usagi-chan when did you study? I mean whenever we were studying with Mako-chan and Rei-chan it seemed that you were bored. Did it have to do what Reichan said yesterday Usagichan? That she didn't appreciate your short attention span and your complains about the homework?"
Usagi nearly started to start laughing. Amychan was a very good smooth-talker, wasn't she? It had been a very articulation that Reichan didn't "appreciate" her "complains" about the homework. In fact it had been a full out fight between the fiery Senshi and their once wailing Leader.
Usagi had as before loud out wailed about the unfairness that she should make homework when she had to fight youmas every night and didn't get enough sleep. She had stubornly said that she should have to do was fight youmas and save the world and even that was a torture in her point of view.
Rei had as always never let a chance to battle their wits pass and started to scream at her that she was a lousy leader and student so if she would want to get one thing right she should learn for school because that were everything she could ever get good for.
Wailing Usagi had complained about Rei's unfairness, had gathered her things and had left wailing the Hikawa Shrine. And wailing was the only thing you could name the screaming and screeching tone that came out of Usagi's throat.
But, Usagi remembered ruefully, that had been the only thing that had got her parents attention since Shingo came into their family. So she had it made a habit of her that she always "wailed" whenever she wanted attention or just be loved. But whenever something really hurt, like the remarks of Mamoru-sempai, she had put on a bright smile until she was alone and could cry silently.
She never wanted to be a burden for her family so she only wailed when she found that her parents had time to just hug her and talk with her. And to show that she was there and that she had wanted attention she had started to wail. Yesterday she had wished that one of her friends would go after her and say that Reichan's accusations were lies.
But as nobody came she decided that maybe it was true and had silently gone up into her room, after she had smiling reassured her mother that everything was fine, and had then laid on her bed and cried silently until her tears run out and Luna came to lecture about the events at the shrine.
Usagi had never wanted pity from her friends. Jut attention and hugs would have been from timt to time nice. But Usagi had found out really fast that her friends were more uncomfortable with close contact and mostly distracted with worries. So Usagi decided that with her wails she not only get her attention but also distracted them from their wories while she was with them.
That she made a complete fool out of herself with her clumsiness and wailing was nothing new to her. But she had decided that even when her parents would scold her more and everyone laughed about her it would be still worth because she could her friends to a little bit happiness.
That was the same reason she bickered with Mamorusempai, even when his hateful words hurt she always saw that he lived for these moments where he hadn't have to be on guard so that someone could hurt him.
Yes she had seen all this in everyones eyes. And maybe she had just picked up on the emotions of her Senshi's and her Prince from their bond before she even knew she had him.
Usagi could still remember when Osaka Naru had been her best friend and nobody could go between them. Even then she had been become more and more clumsy until she could even make Naru-chan laugh, to make her forget about her father's absence and the bad running of her mother's jewelry.
Naru had first caught on that the normally so smooth going Usagi had become slowly more clumsy but she had slowly forgotten how Usagi was in Kindergarten. She had always been called princess in Kindergarten because she had been very well-mannered and seemingly gliding through a room.
Sometimes Usagi's mother still recalled that phase and had asked Usagi why she couldn't have stayed that little princess. But because of the depressing of her memories as moonprincess and Naru's unhappiness there had been other way. The friendship between Naru and Usagi had been very strong and they had even dared to call themselves sisters.
Now this friendship was slowly deflating because of the Senshi-business and Usagi's determination to make her new friends happy. But Usagi swore to herself she would find a way to include Naru more into her life. She knew now that she could go through school and anything else she wanted smoothly. And even training for the Senshis would be later easier with the ginzuishou because the jewel could train her body while she slept.
The ginzuishou was able to do more than just to strenghten her or to be used as a weapon. It could be a fitness trainer while you slept, a birth control, a shield to protect and many things more that would maybe revealed in the future. But it's real purpose was to steady the emotional balance of the owner because without it and her soulmate her soul would try to destroy itself and it's body as soon as she would become of age at her 20th birthday.
Normally the owner of such a jewel would become at their 18th birthday the instruction as to how create this jewel inside themselves. But in Usagi's part was the only mother who could tell her how dead and so had Queen Serenity send the nijizuishou in this time. So that Usagi could create the ginzuishou when she came in contact with them.
Usagi mused that she would need the ginzuishou earlier because her body would soon age faster so that she would already at 16 have the biological body of a 20 year old. That had to do with her muscle picture and the new powers she had. Amused she thought that maybe in this dimension she would marry with 16 and become Chibi-Usa then.
Mentally laughing about how Galaxia would look if she would come with swollen body to their fight.
Oh yes. With her paternal instincts intact and her hormonal balance out of order she would blow Galaxia in the beginning to the next dimension.
All these things had been going through her head in 0.04 seconds. Her mental capacity was just too enormal to understand so that if anyone would try to examine her, they would be dead before seeing her limits. Even with the technology in Chrystal Tokyo.
Smiling Usagi soothed Amy: " Don't worry about that Amychan. I wasn't really hurt by Reichan's accusations. And somehow there were true. But I didn't decide to change myself because of that. I wanted that for myself. I saw that I couldn't live in the shadows of others and decided to change. So no I didn't do that because of Reichan and our friendship is still intact."
Amy breathed deeply and sighed. She had been worried that Usagi would have misunderstood Rei's passion for mental challenges as words to hurt and had seen herself in between the fronts. Smiling she was looking at the new Usagi who sat beside her. She still couldn't understand how she managed to change over one night but she was happy that this Usagi seemed serious about the school and capable to talk with her even on a more professional plain.
'I think she has changed into a more mature Usagi. And I like her even more now that she is more serious about school and her duties. Maybe we can both go to the study halls and study next to each other. I think that would be a perfect idea!' Amy smiled at her friend and just as she wanted to tell her about it was there a shout of disbelieve.
Looking up she saw who had been shouting. Kino Makoto was standing next to Usagi's place and looked at her disbelievingly while Usagi greeted her smiling and seemingly aloof. Amy began to smile too. She had seen that many had started to whisper as they saw Usagi so early at school and guessing as to why she was here.
Makoto wasn't so shy as to just guess. Loud she demanded as to why Usagi was so early at school, and with that the whole classroom as well as the students at the door seemed to still so they could hear what Usagi answered.
"Mako-chan please make not so much fuss over that. I just decided that if I came early to school I could prepare myself better for school as well as be able to talk shop with Amy as well as going through our assignments together. So Makochan you can calm down again and finally wish a good morning to me."
Makoto was still stunned about this speech as were the rest of the class. Usagi and going through asssignments? Has hell already frozen over? Still gaping and trying to comprehend Usagi's words she sat herself down.
The rest of the class began whispering again and this time louder and more hectic. Had Usagi a mental illness? Was this Usagi just a clone sent by aliens? Or was she herself an alien but has disguised herself as Usagi?
Such ridiculous guesses and more were heard in the class. But Usagi didn't even hear them. She decided that her habit to miss those comments wasn't that bad and to retain it. She just smiled and waited for Makoto to finally come out of her trance.
"Ah, yes Usagi. I... ah ...wish you a good morning. You see, you just surprised me. Yes, that is all."
Stuttering Makoto tried to collect her thoughts but with the babbling class around her and the ascending volume of it, she couldn't do it. As she just listened awhile the blabbering, she heard that they were talking about her friend. And because she was very protective of her friends, as well as still gathering her thoughts and the only one , with the exception of the other Senshi's, who was allowed to talk about her friend in any way, she decided it was time to stop this chaos.
A.K.A. : " HOLD YOUR FUCKING TRAPS SHUT!!!"
The whole class fell in silence. Those who had been standing at the door to see if Usagi was really already there, disappeared in their own classes. And no moment too late as in that moment Miss Sakurada Haruna was coming into the classroom and told them to stand and bow.
Ms. Sakurada , who had allowed that her students adressed her with Ms. Haruna what made her feel young again, had already heard from students as well from her collegues that her always-too-late-student Tsukino Usagi had been this time not only on time but nearly half an hour here before the beginning of class. Ms. Haruna was proud to have an genius like Mizuno-kun in her class. As she was ashamed to have Tsukino-kun.
All her collegues had pitied her to have such an late and bad student. Sakurada Haruna-san had even begun to pity herself after all these years. Even when she was at the beginning not so sure if she should pity herself. Usagi had been a very bright student at the beginning of her school here. And even now and then had Harunasan noticed the smart answers Tsukinokun could give.
It had puzzled her that Tsukinokun had began to get worse and worse with her schoolwork and tests. She seemed to understand the most concepts but then she would make an mistake and say that she couldn't make it. After that she really didn't get anything right. In most of her tests were the beginnings right but end-conclusion wrong.
It was like she would make the rest wrong because she wanted it or that she tried too hard. But that could be only a mistake on Harunasan's side. Tsukino Usagi who was always late and brought with that the class everytime to laugh about her. Tsukino Usagi who was such a klutz and a ditz that you could say that as soon she came the floor down, that she would anything that bring her a laugh or two and many many bruises.
Harunasan had even once talked to her parents, who were friendly and NORMAL people, about the chance that Usagi could be mentle unstable or set back. They had been shocked and told her that there were no signs that could justify such an accusion. Harunasan had been terrible sorry and told them what happened in school and why she thought so.
The Tsukino's had been shocked to say the least. They hadn't known that her daughter was such unfortunate with where she placed her feet. After that they promised to tell their daughter to be more careful and to pay more attention. But it seemed to be a lost cause. Until now.
Maybe Usagi would now, shortly before she would go to another school, pay attention to her parents advice. Hopefully longer than one day. Then Haruna amended she should be grateful if she paied attention more than one hour.
Without looking up she said good morning and the students sat themselves down after the call from the head of the class. Ms. Haruna looked through the list of names and asked for their presence.
After the list was through and Ms. Haruna hadn't even twitched an eyebrow as usagi announces that she was, in fact , there, Ms. Haruna started with the lectures of the last class and that they should bring the assignments to her desk.
Amy took the task to collect all papers, as well as Umino, and brought them to Ms. Haruna. There Ms. Haruna, now in position of the sensei, lectured her class then about the difficulties of algebra.
5 hours and 3 x 10 minutes pauses later was the lunch pause for 45 minutes until it would go 2 full hours forth.
Amy, Makoto and Usagi had discussed the newest fashion in the breaks but now they were outside under a wonderful tree and ate their lunch. Makoto had hold herself back to ask Usagi in privacy again why she was so early today. But as she asked Usagi just repeated what she had told Amy before.
"And you just decided that it would be better for yourself? Just like that?" asked Makoto unbelievingly. That couldn't be right that the cute little klutz could make a 180° turn and leave everybody wonder how she manged that overnight.
But Usagi closed her mouth about that topic and wouldn't say anymore. As she saw her friend Osaka Naru sitting on a bench with Umino she decided to ask her if she minded to join them. Naturally she asked first her friends and as they gave their ok she started towards Naru.
"Oi Naruchan I wanted to ask you something." Usagi began. She saw how surprised Naru was that Usagi wanted to talk with especially since her friends were sitting under the tree and looking after her.
"Hai Usagichan? You know you can ask me anything." Chuckling she added" But I don't have to do it so you better don't ask something that would be bringing you only embarassement!"
Smiling Usagi shook her head. Just now it was like old times when they were two simple teenager on the search of fun and joy. "No Naruchan. That wasn't what I wanted to ask but thank you for the warning. I will remember that the next time I want to do something embarassing and ask for your opinion."
With a laughing twinkle in her eyes Usagi proceded to tell Naru the real reason as to why she was there.
"I wanted to ask you if you and Umino would like to come with me and my friends under the tree to sit there and talk a bit. They're really nice and they're okay if you would come."
Naru looked uncertainly at the two girls who were sitting under the tree. They were already talking again even when it looked like the blue-haired one would also read an book while conversing with her friend.
"I don't know Usagi. Do you really think we would be welcome?"
But before Usagi could even answer Umino had already grabbed Naru's and her hand and were dragging them under the tree where two curious girls looking what was going on. Smiling shyly Naru bowed and introduced herself.Amy, Makoto and Umino followed promptly.
Usagi sat herself next to Makoto who were lounging against the trunk. Naru sat herself next to Usagi and Umino sat in between Amy and Naru. The girls staring giggling nervously but as Usagi asked Naru after the newest sales in the jewelry of her mother, they started to talk freely as if they all had known each other for years.
When the bell rang the girls agreed to meet after school in the Crown Arcade to go after that to Osa P. Umino had to decline because he had to something for his Mom.
Usagi was happy that she managed to make the first meeting, of the best friends she could have, so pleasant. She coulnd't await that school was finally over and that she could go with her friends together somewhere. With all of her friends.
She was sure that Rei, who would be waiting at the Arcade, would say something degrading to her but she knew she would never change and that she just wants that her friends appreciate her and everything she does for them. She also needed it as compensation to her serene time as miko.
Usagi had always known for this need and so she did her best to make Rei happy while she argues with her as much as she can and always give her reasons to do so. Usagi hoped that she would be spared a full outblown fight with her because she didn't wanted to fight again because of stupid reasons. For fun when they were under themselves were no problem but as soon as they were in public it could be the downfall for their friendship.
Usagi walked out of school with her friends and said good-bye to Umino at the Arcade. it had been on his way home so he didn't mind walking the girls there. Usagi knew it had more to do with Naru as anybody else why he did that but she shut her mouth and decided they could handle that themselves. They had handled that in the future just fine and had had over 5 children.
Smiling to herself and giggling with the other while talking about the snob Beris Hinton and her totally bad fashion-sense, Usagi didn't realize that Chiba Mamoru was there until she was nearly at his seat.
He sat at the bar and drunk his coffee while reading out of one of his college books. It seemed he was so sunken in it that he didn't even saw Usagi. Usagi wasn't miffed about his ignorance of her presence or their feelings. She just let her friends settle in a booth since Rei wasn't anywhere seen.
'Maybe she thought I had detention again and so she could let herself a litlle more time on the way here.' Thought Usagi amused. It would be like Rei to have this logic. So Usagi just asked what they wanted to drink. Amy wanted a green tea, Makoto a soda and Naru an milkshake.
Usagi was going straight to the place where Mamoru sat and Motoki was cleaning an glass.
"Hey Usa-chan. Can I get something for you and your lovely friends?"
Motoki was smiling as ever at Usagi who was like a little sister to him. In the kitchen you could hear how Unazuki threatened to tell Reika about Usagi's lovely friends while laughing.
"Maybe you can call her friends lovely but surely not Odango Atama herself!" Chuckled Mamoru as he looked at his favorite girl. He loved to tease her and he seemed always happier and more relaxed after he had the daily squabble with her. He couldn't get enough from how her eyes would aflame like sapphire flames and she would becomingly blush. He sometimes thought that he just lived to see her in that condition.
Even if his mind sometimes showed him other interesting ways how she could become this flushed he would remind himself that this was his Odango Atama. A little girl who was naive about everything that had to do with the world and especially would never even think of such things. And when surely not with him.
But as he looked at Odango-chan she didn't blush. Nor did she became angered. She just sighed and looked smiling and lovingly into his eyes. 'Lovingly? Surely not. I mean she can't even stand me..or does she? But what is it then what I see in her eyes. This expression I have seen before but never so..so..so present in her eyes?'
Still puzzling and waiting for an reaction Mamoru decided to be quiet until she said something or would walk away. Usagi smiled at the thoughts of Mamoru. He had always been a little thick with his feelings. But to blame was not only that he was a man. His upbringing without love was also the reason and he had been once hurt by a girl as he was just out of middle school.
That's he had been from the beginning against her. He didn't want to be hurt anymore and so he had decided that wouldn't give the feelings he had for her a chance. It was really sad because from now on she wouldn't give him a chance to resist her. No she loved him too much then to loose him because of her inability to do something.
Without a second thought she pegged him on the cheek and said: "Mamoru-san. I find it nice from you that you saw that my friends are lovely but I would have thought that you know that I'm not here to fight with you. I really doesn't want to waste my time with arguing. So if you want to talk with me then wait until I said Motoki the drinks the girls wanted and then we talk until Reichan comes."
Mamoru was stunned. Was this his Odango Atama that didn't even get 3 full sentences right? And she wanted to talk with him? She had better to do than fight? But to talk? It was just to much for poor Mamoru. stammering he tried to build a sentence but was too upset to do so.
Usagi didn't seem to realize his silence or his inability to form any sentences. Or maybe she was just ignoring it while she told the just as stunned Motoki the order of the girls, who were chuckling and giggling among themselves about the display this new Usagi has just showed them.
Motoki as he shook himself out of his stupor began to prepare the drinks and to deliever them to the still laughing girls, who, so he thought, must surely have an explanation for this display at maturity from Usagi.
Usagi for her part ignored anything than the still stunned Mamoru next to her and began watching him. He looked good today with an black shirt, blue jeans and an jeans jacket. Mentally picturing how Mamoru would look without anything on she decided to make the first step yet again.
"You know we just wait for Reichan so that we can get to the jewelry from Naruchan's Okaa-san. There are new sales. especially on the Minerals. Do you like jewels Mamorusan? I love at most pearls and diamonds. But rock-crystals and sapphires are also wonderful. Naruchan is really lucky to be surrounded every day from such gifts from earth don't you think?"
Mamoru had slowly coming out of his stupor and just as Usagi stopped to talk he had ound his wits again and could accordingly answer. "Hai I think that sapphires are wonderful. And that you , Usagi-chan , would choose diamonds as your favorite was clear. Nothing but the best for you, ne? That you have an high standard on everything but school was clear. So how do you find an boyfriend or someone you could fall in love with?"
Internally Mamoru winced. Why did say that with the school? Just because he had an high with everything that had to with it didn't supposed she had to as well. What did he thought about that boyfriend? Why did he ask? And did he even wanted to know if she had found someone? Why did he fucking care?
Usagi nearly chuckled as she saw jealousy in the beginnings to form in Mamoru's eyes. He had always been jealous of her attention and could be like a child when he didn't get enough from her. Smiling she answered because she wanted to free his wonderful ocean eyes from the confusion of his jealousy.
"No Mamorusan, it isn't right that school doesn't stand high in course by me. It was just that I had to find myself to know what is important and what not. School is now one of my major things to do. Among other and that I want that the man I have been falling in love with finally started to see me."
Mamoru's heart stopped beating for a moment. Did she just say that she had fallen in love with someone?
He nearly ignored the school comment, and even if it pleased him to see that Odango Atama seemed to get the right way, why did it hurt so much to hear that she had found someone?
Could he? No! No, he couldn't believe that he would ...but everything pointed to that. Was he in love with Odango Atama? 'No! Not now! Not when I just heard that she loves someone else. I now understand why I am always so anxious to see her and why I want to be with her longer and have these feelings, but damn! Why now? Why now when I hear that she has already someone else? Maybe the sentence it just too true. You always know what you had when it's gone. Oh how I hate myself that I didn't realize it earlier!
I should have known since I had this fucking compulsion to be with her. Just to see her or to smell her damn shampoo in the drogerie made me high! No wonder I'm nuts! I just fucking wanted to buy Unazuki her favorite shampoo because she begged me too and then while I am sniffing everything through to find this damn strawberry I come to the vanilly-candy scent from Odango and buy it as well as Unazuki's!
I am just nuts!God and now that I have realized my feelings she already breaks my heart without knowing. Chiba Mamoru you are one lucky dork. Every time you find a woman who could something for you, you manage to come too late or to be unworthy for her.....'
Usagi saw that berated himself mentally because he had just found out about his feelings. She knew that Yue-san hadn't been the One for Mamoru. And she knew also that he had never loved but had been so starving for affection and love that he had friendship and loyalty misunderstood as love. As Usagi looked again in Mamoru's eyes she could see his heart starting to break. The worser part of this she could also feel it and that was too much for her.
With tears in her eyes Usagi reached up to take the hand that lay on the counter and saw earnestly in Mamoru's eyes who were a little surprised at her action.
"Mamoru. I didn't meant it as you seem to have understood it. What I really wanted to say was that I have fallen in love with you! That I have found my perfect match and my dream prince in you. And that I hoped that you would finally see me and not the little clusy Odango Atama but me Tsukino Usagi. Please tell me that you can see me. Even when it's just as a friend. Tell me. Please!"
Pleadingly looked Usagi in Mamoru's eyes. Her insecurities and self-concsious have come back full-blown because of Mamoru's reaction. He had always been her rock in the surf and the one who always gave her strenght. Even as he had still teased he had given her always the feeling to be normal and just a teenage girl with no other worries than school, boys and make-up.
Now she waited on his answer longingly because she felt insecure. Even when she had read his thoughts or shared his feelings or even remembered the future she couldn't do anything but wait and see what he would say. She could just be happy that Motoki was still at the girls table and squeezed every available information out of them and so hold their attention.
Mamoru was still in shock. She had just openly admitted that she loved him and only him. His breaking began to reveal in the feelings of being loved and started to pound faster. Mamoru didn't know what to say but as he saw the uncertainity in Usagi's eyes he decided he should do better something.
So he leaned forward captured with one hand the head of his Odangochan, no his Usako, squeezed her hands with his other and tilted her head so that he could passionately kiss her. Usagi's eyes fluttered shut as felt and tasted Mamo-chans mouth on her own.
It was wonderful and both ignored the gasps of the background to deepen their kiss. Usagi knew that this was all going too fast but with soulmates, when they once told their feelings, it was just so. It ssemed that body and spirit just followed the heart as soon the feelings were realized.
Mamoru groaned as he tasted his Usako for the first time. She tasted like vanilla and something that was uniquely herself. His tongue invaded her mouth to get a deeper taste and was sheer overwhelmed of the feeling from rightness in this kiss. She seemed innocent and then again not. She was so immature and then hadn't she just showed him a very mature side of herself?
She was an enigma for him and he wouldn't want it any other way. He decided to just stop thinking and enjoy this kiss from his wonderful Usako.
Just before Usagi decided the same thing she was asking how she would explain that she was Sailor Moon, that she knew that he was Tuxedo Mask and how they could plan their schedules. With a mental shrug she decided to just stop thinking because feeling her Mamochan, after what it seems like over millions years, was just better than anything else.
Another Chapter. I hope I did get it right with the school systems. If someone would like to enlighten me I would be very grateful.
Anyway
Ja Ne
Also I have decided since the school in Japan doesn't seems to be much different from our in Germany (10- 15/16 year old go on a higher school and then to an "college" or you are on a school that is both like Rei's.) that Usagi is still 14 but that she would become 15 this summer and with that change to the "high school".
I don't even know the difference between college and the university and my dictionary just say there's a difference from first degrees and further so that doesn't say much to me. So bear with me if I get anything wrong and feel free to corrigize me.
Anyway have fun and review if you like.
Last Time:
"U-usagi. It's correct! Everything is correct! How did you do- I mean who helpe- Usagi just what have you done??" Amy stuttered not completely sure to trust her own eyes. 'How could Usagi have the brains to do this? Maybe her parents helped. But Usagi alone, no! I don't believe that until I see it with my very own eyes!'
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Usagi looked bemused on as Amy got over her homework again and again. Smiling she waited until the Senshi of Mercury finally came to the conclusion that everything was REALLY alright. Usagi was still smiling as Amy stuttered unbelieving the question how she had managed to accomplish the feat to get her homework right.
The shy Senshi was normally more sedate and didn't want to hurt anyone, be it physically or verbally.
That she now made these ridiculous sentences and accusations even in her mind showed that she was totally out of it. Usagi smiled. Wouldn't it be interessant to know what happens when their little Genius knew from the psychical bond their princess had with them so that they would know whenever she was in danger?
Usagi could nearly see the interested light in Amy-chan's eyes and how she would pack out her Mercury-computer and analyze everything. Still amused with the mental picture of that she decided that Amy should become a explanation as to why she had all her homework correct.
Naturally she couldn't just tell the truth because the memories of the future and everything that happens there as well as the memories from the past and many other life's she seemed to have lived through would sem a little bit too crazy even for Amychan. So she decided to tell her a white lie. It wasn't exactly a lie she just let some of the whole truth out.
"I learned very much Amychan. I learned as much as I could and now it seemed that it just flowed out of me. I find these problems easy and even a little bit too easy for me now. I think I can understand you now better. You always said if it were allowed to skip classes you would do it as soon as you can.
I have to say I would find it better too if I could skip classes now. But we can only hope that as soon we are on high-school that we are allowed to take further classes to prepare for college and later for an university if you decide to go on one."
Usagi smiled amused st Amy who could still not get over the fact that Usagi has said something that had to do with school and wasn't negative in any way. 'I think I have finally made Amychan break down. Even her thoughts are stunned and she can't even formulate and sentence. Poor Amychan maybe I should let her recover a little bit before I start to talk again'
Usagi just smiled and waited until Amy could finally speak again. Just as the first students came in Amy had herself under control and asked:
"Usagi-chan when did you study? I mean whenever we were studying with Mako-chan and Rei-chan it seemed that you were bored. Did it have to do what Reichan said yesterday Usagichan? That she didn't appreciate your short attention span and your complains about the homework?"
Usagi nearly started to start laughing. Amychan was a very good smooth-talker, wasn't she? It had been a very articulation that Reichan didn't "appreciate" her "complains" about the homework. In fact it had been a full out fight between the fiery Senshi and their once wailing Leader.
Usagi had as before loud out wailed about the unfairness that she should make homework when she had to fight youmas every night and didn't get enough sleep. She had stubornly said that she should have to do was fight youmas and save the world and even that was a torture in her point of view.
Rei had as always never let a chance to battle their wits pass and started to scream at her that she was a lousy leader and student so if she would want to get one thing right she should learn for school because that were everything she could ever get good for.
Wailing Usagi had complained about Rei's unfairness, had gathered her things and had left wailing the Hikawa Shrine. And wailing was the only thing you could name the screaming and screeching tone that came out of Usagi's throat.
But, Usagi remembered ruefully, that had been the only thing that had got her parents attention since Shingo came into their family. So she had it made a habit of her that she always "wailed" whenever she wanted attention or just be loved. But whenever something really hurt, like the remarks of Mamoru-sempai, she had put on a bright smile until she was alone and could cry silently.
She never wanted to be a burden for her family so she only wailed when she found that her parents had time to just hug her and talk with her. And to show that she was there and that she had wanted attention she had started to wail. Yesterday she had wished that one of her friends would go after her and say that Reichan's accusations were lies.
But as nobody came she decided that maybe it was true and had silently gone up into her room, after she had smiling reassured her mother that everything was fine, and had then laid on her bed and cried silently until her tears run out and Luna came to lecture about the events at the shrine.
Usagi had never wanted pity from her friends. Jut attention and hugs would have been from timt to time nice. But Usagi had found out really fast that her friends were more uncomfortable with close contact and mostly distracted with worries. So Usagi decided that with her wails she not only get her attention but also distracted them from their wories while she was with them.
That she made a complete fool out of herself with her clumsiness and wailing was nothing new to her. But she had decided that even when her parents would scold her more and everyone laughed about her it would be still worth because she could her friends to a little bit happiness.
That was the same reason she bickered with Mamorusempai, even when his hateful words hurt she always saw that he lived for these moments where he hadn't have to be on guard so that someone could hurt him.
Yes she had seen all this in everyones eyes. And maybe she had just picked up on the emotions of her Senshi's and her Prince from their bond before she even knew she had him.
Usagi could still remember when Osaka Naru had been her best friend and nobody could go between them. Even then she had been become more and more clumsy until she could even make Naru-chan laugh, to make her forget about her father's absence and the bad running of her mother's jewelry.
Naru had first caught on that the normally so smooth going Usagi had become slowly more clumsy but she had slowly forgotten how Usagi was in Kindergarten. She had always been called princess in Kindergarten because she had been very well-mannered and seemingly gliding through a room.
Sometimes Usagi's mother still recalled that phase and had asked Usagi why she couldn't have stayed that little princess. But because of the depressing of her memories as moonprincess and Naru's unhappiness there had been other way. The friendship between Naru and Usagi had been very strong and they had even dared to call themselves sisters.
Now this friendship was slowly deflating because of the Senshi-business and Usagi's determination to make her new friends happy. But Usagi swore to herself she would find a way to include Naru more into her life. She knew now that she could go through school and anything else she wanted smoothly. And even training for the Senshis would be later easier with the ginzuishou because the jewel could train her body while she slept.
The ginzuishou was able to do more than just to strenghten her or to be used as a weapon. It could be a fitness trainer while you slept, a birth control, a shield to protect and many things more that would maybe revealed in the future. But it's real purpose was to steady the emotional balance of the owner because without it and her soulmate her soul would try to destroy itself and it's body as soon as she would become of age at her 20th birthday.
Normally the owner of such a jewel would become at their 18th birthday the instruction as to how create this jewel inside themselves. But in Usagi's part was the only mother who could tell her how dead and so had Queen Serenity send the nijizuishou in this time. So that Usagi could create the ginzuishou when she came in contact with them.
Usagi mused that she would need the ginzuishou earlier because her body would soon age faster so that she would already at 16 have the biological body of a 20 year old. That had to do with her muscle picture and the new powers she had. Amused she thought that maybe in this dimension she would marry with 16 and become Chibi-Usa then.
Mentally laughing about how Galaxia would look if she would come with swollen body to their fight.
Oh yes. With her paternal instincts intact and her hormonal balance out of order she would blow Galaxia in the beginning to the next dimension.
All these things had been going through her head in 0.04 seconds. Her mental capacity was just too enormal to understand so that if anyone would try to examine her, they would be dead before seeing her limits. Even with the technology in Chrystal Tokyo.
Smiling Usagi soothed Amy: " Don't worry about that Amychan. I wasn't really hurt by Reichan's accusations. And somehow there were true. But I didn't decide to change myself because of that. I wanted that for myself. I saw that I couldn't live in the shadows of others and decided to change. So no I didn't do that because of Reichan and our friendship is still intact."
Amy breathed deeply and sighed. She had been worried that Usagi would have misunderstood Rei's passion for mental challenges as words to hurt and had seen herself in between the fronts. Smiling she was looking at the new Usagi who sat beside her. She still couldn't understand how she managed to change over one night but she was happy that this Usagi seemed serious about the school and capable to talk with her even on a more professional plain.
'I think she has changed into a more mature Usagi. And I like her even more now that she is more serious about school and her duties. Maybe we can both go to the study halls and study next to each other. I think that would be a perfect idea!' Amy smiled at her friend and just as she wanted to tell her about it was there a shout of disbelieve.
Looking up she saw who had been shouting. Kino Makoto was standing next to Usagi's place and looked at her disbelievingly while Usagi greeted her smiling and seemingly aloof. Amy began to smile too. She had seen that many had started to whisper as they saw Usagi so early at school and guessing as to why she was here.
Makoto wasn't so shy as to just guess. Loud she demanded as to why Usagi was so early at school, and with that the whole classroom as well as the students at the door seemed to still so they could hear what Usagi answered.
"Mako-chan please make not so much fuss over that. I just decided that if I came early to school I could prepare myself better for school as well as be able to talk shop with Amy as well as going through our assignments together. So Makochan you can calm down again and finally wish a good morning to me."
Makoto was still stunned about this speech as were the rest of the class. Usagi and going through asssignments? Has hell already frozen over? Still gaping and trying to comprehend Usagi's words she sat herself down.
The rest of the class began whispering again and this time louder and more hectic. Had Usagi a mental illness? Was this Usagi just a clone sent by aliens? Or was she herself an alien but has disguised herself as Usagi?
Such ridiculous guesses and more were heard in the class. But Usagi didn't even hear them. She decided that her habit to miss those comments wasn't that bad and to retain it. She just smiled and waited for Makoto to finally come out of her trance.
"Ah, yes Usagi. I... ah ...wish you a good morning. You see, you just surprised me. Yes, that is all."
Stuttering Makoto tried to collect her thoughts but with the babbling class around her and the ascending volume of it, she couldn't do it. As she just listened awhile the blabbering, she heard that they were talking about her friend. And because she was very protective of her friends, as well as still gathering her thoughts and the only one , with the exception of the other Senshi's, who was allowed to talk about her friend in any way, she decided it was time to stop this chaos.
A.K.A. : " HOLD YOUR FUCKING TRAPS SHUT!!!"
The whole class fell in silence. Those who had been standing at the door to see if Usagi was really already there, disappeared in their own classes. And no moment too late as in that moment Miss Sakurada Haruna was coming into the classroom and told them to stand and bow.
Ms. Sakurada , who had allowed that her students adressed her with Ms. Haruna what made her feel young again, had already heard from students as well from her collegues that her always-too-late-student Tsukino Usagi had been this time not only on time but nearly half an hour here before the beginning of class. Ms. Haruna was proud to have an genius like Mizuno-kun in her class. As she was ashamed to have Tsukino-kun.
All her collegues had pitied her to have such an late and bad student. Sakurada Haruna-san had even begun to pity herself after all these years. Even when she was at the beginning not so sure if she should pity herself. Usagi had been a very bright student at the beginning of her school here. And even now and then had Harunasan noticed the smart answers Tsukinokun could give.
It had puzzled her that Tsukinokun had began to get worse and worse with her schoolwork and tests. She seemed to understand the most concepts but then she would make an mistake and say that she couldn't make it. After that she really didn't get anything right. In most of her tests were the beginnings right but end-conclusion wrong.
It was like she would make the rest wrong because she wanted it or that she tried too hard. But that could be only a mistake on Harunasan's side. Tsukino Usagi who was always late and brought with that the class everytime to laugh about her. Tsukino Usagi who was such a klutz and a ditz that you could say that as soon she came the floor down, that she would anything that bring her a laugh or two and many many bruises.
Harunasan had even once talked to her parents, who were friendly and NORMAL people, about the chance that Usagi could be mentle unstable or set back. They had been shocked and told her that there were no signs that could justify such an accusion. Harunasan had been terrible sorry and told them what happened in school and why she thought so.
The Tsukino's had been shocked to say the least. They hadn't known that her daughter was such unfortunate with where she placed her feet. After that they promised to tell their daughter to be more careful and to pay more attention. But it seemed to be a lost cause. Until now.
Maybe Usagi would now, shortly before she would go to another school, pay attention to her parents advice. Hopefully longer than one day. Then Haruna amended she should be grateful if she paied attention more than one hour.
Without looking up she said good morning and the students sat themselves down after the call from the head of the class. Ms. Haruna looked through the list of names and asked for their presence.
After the list was through and Ms. Haruna hadn't even twitched an eyebrow as usagi announces that she was, in fact , there, Ms. Haruna started with the lectures of the last class and that they should bring the assignments to her desk.
Amy took the task to collect all papers, as well as Umino, and brought them to Ms. Haruna. There Ms. Haruna, now in position of the sensei, lectured her class then about the difficulties of algebra.
5 hours and 3 x 10 minutes pauses later was the lunch pause for 45 minutes until it would go 2 full hours forth.
Amy, Makoto and Usagi had discussed the newest fashion in the breaks but now they were outside under a wonderful tree and ate their lunch. Makoto had hold herself back to ask Usagi in privacy again why she was so early today. But as she asked Usagi just repeated what she had told Amy before.
"And you just decided that it would be better for yourself? Just like that?" asked Makoto unbelievingly. That couldn't be right that the cute little klutz could make a 180° turn and leave everybody wonder how she manged that overnight.
But Usagi closed her mouth about that topic and wouldn't say anymore. As she saw her friend Osaka Naru sitting on a bench with Umino she decided to ask her if she minded to join them. Naturally she asked first her friends and as they gave their ok she started towards Naru.
"Oi Naruchan I wanted to ask you something." Usagi began. She saw how surprised Naru was that Usagi wanted to talk with especially since her friends were sitting under the tree and looking after her.
"Hai Usagichan? You know you can ask me anything." Chuckling she added" But I don't have to do it so you better don't ask something that would be bringing you only embarassement!"
Smiling Usagi shook her head. Just now it was like old times when they were two simple teenager on the search of fun and joy. "No Naruchan. That wasn't what I wanted to ask but thank you for the warning. I will remember that the next time I want to do something embarassing and ask for your opinion."
With a laughing twinkle in her eyes Usagi proceded to tell Naru the real reason as to why she was there.
"I wanted to ask you if you and Umino would like to come with me and my friends under the tree to sit there and talk a bit. They're really nice and they're okay if you would come."
Naru looked uncertainly at the two girls who were sitting under the tree. They were already talking again even when it looked like the blue-haired one would also read an book while conversing with her friend.
"I don't know Usagi. Do you really think we would be welcome?"
But before Usagi could even answer Umino had already grabbed Naru's and her hand and were dragging them under the tree where two curious girls looking what was going on. Smiling shyly Naru bowed and introduced herself.Amy, Makoto and Umino followed promptly.
Usagi sat herself next to Makoto who were lounging against the trunk. Naru sat herself next to Usagi and Umino sat in between Amy and Naru. The girls staring giggling nervously but as Usagi asked Naru after the newest sales in the jewelry of her mother, they started to talk freely as if they all had known each other for years.
When the bell rang the girls agreed to meet after school in the Crown Arcade to go after that to Osa P. Umino had to decline because he had to something for his Mom.
Usagi was happy that she managed to make the first meeting, of the best friends she could have, so pleasant. She coulnd't await that school was finally over and that she could go with her friends together somewhere. With all of her friends.
She was sure that Rei, who would be waiting at the Arcade, would say something degrading to her but she knew she would never change and that she just wants that her friends appreciate her and everything she does for them. She also needed it as compensation to her serene time as miko.
Usagi had always known for this need and so she did her best to make Rei happy while she argues with her as much as she can and always give her reasons to do so. Usagi hoped that she would be spared a full outblown fight with her because she didn't wanted to fight again because of stupid reasons. For fun when they were under themselves were no problem but as soon as they were in public it could be the downfall for their friendship.
Usagi walked out of school with her friends and said good-bye to Umino at the Arcade. it had been on his way home so he didn't mind walking the girls there. Usagi knew it had more to do with Naru as anybody else why he did that but she shut her mouth and decided they could handle that themselves. They had handled that in the future just fine and had had over 5 children.
Smiling to herself and giggling with the other while talking about the snob Beris Hinton and her totally bad fashion-sense, Usagi didn't realize that Chiba Mamoru was there until she was nearly at his seat.
He sat at the bar and drunk his coffee while reading out of one of his college books. It seemed he was so sunken in it that he didn't even saw Usagi. Usagi wasn't miffed about his ignorance of her presence or their feelings. She just let her friends settle in a booth since Rei wasn't anywhere seen.
'Maybe she thought I had detention again and so she could let herself a litlle more time on the way here.' Thought Usagi amused. It would be like Rei to have this logic. So Usagi just asked what they wanted to drink. Amy wanted a green tea, Makoto a soda and Naru an milkshake.
Usagi was going straight to the place where Mamoru sat and Motoki was cleaning an glass.
"Hey Usa-chan. Can I get something for you and your lovely friends?"
Motoki was smiling as ever at Usagi who was like a little sister to him. In the kitchen you could hear how Unazuki threatened to tell Reika about Usagi's lovely friends while laughing.
"Maybe you can call her friends lovely but surely not Odango Atama herself!" Chuckled Mamoru as he looked at his favorite girl. He loved to tease her and he seemed always happier and more relaxed after he had the daily squabble with her. He couldn't get enough from how her eyes would aflame like sapphire flames and she would becomingly blush. He sometimes thought that he just lived to see her in that condition.
Even if his mind sometimes showed him other interesting ways how she could become this flushed he would remind himself that this was his Odango Atama. A little girl who was naive about everything that had to do with the world and especially would never even think of such things. And when surely not with him.
But as he looked at Odango-chan she didn't blush. Nor did she became angered. She just sighed and looked smiling and lovingly into his eyes. 'Lovingly? Surely not. I mean she can't even stand me..or does she? But what is it then what I see in her eyes. This expression I have seen before but never so..so..so present in her eyes?'
Still puzzling and waiting for an reaction Mamoru decided to be quiet until she said something or would walk away. Usagi smiled at the thoughts of Mamoru. He had always been a little thick with his feelings. But to blame was not only that he was a man. His upbringing without love was also the reason and he had been once hurt by a girl as he was just out of middle school.
That's he had been from the beginning against her. He didn't want to be hurt anymore and so he had decided that wouldn't give the feelings he had for her a chance. It was really sad because from now on she wouldn't give him a chance to resist her. No she loved him too much then to loose him because of her inability to do something.
Without a second thought she pegged him on the cheek and said: "Mamoru-san. I find it nice from you that you saw that my friends are lovely but I would have thought that you know that I'm not here to fight with you. I really doesn't want to waste my time with arguing. So if you want to talk with me then wait until I said Motoki the drinks the girls wanted and then we talk until Reichan comes."
Mamoru was stunned. Was this his Odango Atama that didn't even get 3 full sentences right? And she wanted to talk with him? She had better to do than fight? But to talk? It was just to much for poor Mamoru. stammering he tried to build a sentence but was too upset to do so.
Usagi didn't seem to realize his silence or his inability to form any sentences. Or maybe she was just ignoring it while she told the just as stunned Motoki the order of the girls, who were chuckling and giggling among themselves about the display this new Usagi has just showed them.
Motoki as he shook himself out of his stupor began to prepare the drinks and to deliever them to the still laughing girls, who, so he thought, must surely have an explanation for this display at maturity from Usagi.
Usagi for her part ignored anything than the still stunned Mamoru next to her and began watching him. He looked good today with an black shirt, blue jeans and an jeans jacket. Mentally picturing how Mamoru would look without anything on she decided to make the first step yet again.
"You know we just wait for Reichan so that we can get to the jewelry from Naruchan's Okaa-san. There are new sales. especially on the Minerals. Do you like jewels Mamorusan? I love at most pearls and diamonds. But rock-crystals and sapphires are also wonderful. Naruchan is really lucky to be surrounded every day from such gifts from earth don't you think?"
Mamoru had slowly coming out of his stupor and just as Usagi stopped to talk he had ound his wits again and could accordingly answer. "Hai I think that sapphires are wonderful. And that you , Usagi-chan , would choose diamonds as your favorite was clear. Nothing but the best for you, ne? That you have an high standard on everything but school was clear. So how do you find an boyfriend or someone you could fall in love with?"
Internally Mamoru winced. Why did say that with the school? Just because he had an high with everything that had to with it didn't supposed she had to as well. What did he thought about that boyfriend? Why did he ask? And did he even wanted to know if she had found someone? Why did he fucking care?
Usagi nearly chuckled as she saw jealousy in the beginnings to form in Mamoru's eyes. He had always been jealous of her attention and could be like a child when he didn't get enough from her. Smiling she answered because she wanted to free his wonderful ocean eyes from the confusion of his jealousy.
"No Mamorusan, it isn't right that school doesn't stand high in course by me. It was just that I had to find myself to know what is important and what not. School is now one of my major things to do. Among other and that I want that the man I have been falling in love with finally started to see me."
Mamoru's heart stopped beating for a moment. Did she just say that she had fallen in love with someone?
He nearly ignored the school comment, and even if it pleased him to see that Odango Atama seemed to get the right way, why did it hurt so much to hear that she had found someone?
Could he? No! No, he couldn't believe that he would ...but everything pointed to that. Was he in love with Odango Atama? 'No! Not now! Not when I just heard that she loves someone else. I now understand why I am always so anxious to see her and why I want to be with her longer and have these feelings, but damn! Why now? Why now when I hear that she has already someone else? Maybe the sentence it just too true. You always know what you had when it's gone. Oh how I hate myself that I didn't realize it earlier!
I should have known since I had this fucking compulsion to be with her. Just to see her or to smell her damn shampoo in the drogerie made me high! No wonder I'm nuts! I just fucking wanted to buy Unazuki her favorite shampoo because she begged me too and then while I am sniffing everything through to find this damn strawberry I come to the vanilly-candy scent from Odango and buy it as well as Unazuki's!
I am just nuts!God and now that I have realized my feelings she already breaks my heart without knowing. Chiba Mamoru you are one lucky dork. Every time you find a woman who could something for you, you manage to come too late or to be unworthy for her.....'
Usagi saw that berated himself mentally because he had just found out about his feelings. She knew that Yue-san hadn't been the One for Mamoru. And she knew also that he had never loved but had been so starving for affection and love that he had friendship and loyalty misunderstood as love. As Usagi looked again in Mamoru's eyes she could see his heart starting to break. The worser part of this she could also feel it and that was too much for her.
With tears in her eyes Usagi reached up to take the hand that lay on the counter and saw earnestly in Mamoru's eyes who were a little surprised at her action.
"Mamoru. I didn't meant it as you seem to have understood it. What I really wanted to say was that I have fallen in love with you! That I have found my perfect match and my dream prince in you. And that I hoped that you would finally see me and not the little clusy Odango Atama but me Tsukino Usagi. Please tell me that you can see me. Even when it's just as a friend. Tell me. Please!"
Pleadingly looked Usagi in Mamoru's eyes. Her insecurities and self-concsious have come back full-blown because of Mamoru's reaction. He had always been her rock in the surf and the one who always gave her strenght. Even as he had still teased he had given her always the feeling to be normal and just a teenage girl with no other worries than school, boys and make-up.
Now she waited on his answer longingly because she felt insecure. Even when she had read his thoughts or shared his feelings or even remembered the future she couldn't do anything but wait and see what he would say. She could just be happy that Motoki was still at the girls table and squeezed every available information out of them and so hold their attention.
Mamoru was still in shock. She had just openly admitted that she loved him and only him. His breaking began to reveal in the feelings of being loved and started to pound faster. Mamoru didn't know what to say but as he saw the uncertainity in Usagi's eyes he decided he should do better something.
So he leaned forward captured with one hand the head of his Odangochan, no his Usako, squeezed her hands with his other and tilted her head so that he could passionately kiss her. Usagi's eyes fluttered shut as felt and tasted Mamo-chans mouth on her own.
It was wonderful and both ignored the gasps of the background to deepen their kiss. Usagi knew that this was all going too fast but with soulmates, when they once told their feelings, it was just so. It ssemed that body and spirit just followed the heart as soon the feelings were realized.
Mamoru groaned as he tasted his Usako for the first time. She tasted like vanilla and something that was uniquely herself. His tongue invaded her mouth to get a deeper taste and was sheer overwhelmed of the feeling from rightness in this kiss. She seemed innocent and then again not. She was so immature and then hadn't she just showed him a very mature side of herself?
She was an enigma for him and he wouldn't want it any other way. He decided to just stop thinking and enjoy this kiss from his wonderful Usako.
Just before Usagi decided the same thing she was asking how she would explain that she was Sailor Moon, that she knew that he was Tuxedo Mask and how they could plan their schedules. With a mental shrug she decided to just stop thinking because feeling her Mamochan, after what it seems like over millions years, was just better than anything else.
Another Chapter. I hope I did get it right with the school systems. If someone would like to enlighten me I would be very grateful.
Anyway
Ja Ne