Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Alone ❯ Chapter 17: Depression ( Chapter 17 )

Alone
By Selenity Jade

Chapter 17: Depression

Rated: PG

Disclaimer: Oh, heck. Bite me. If I were sued, they'd get like five bucks. I'm definitely overwhelmed by bills now, and don't make enough to be making money off of this!

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Usagi opened her eyes slowly, staring up at the unfamiliar ceiling. She remembered coming back from Nemesis, though she didn't know where she was. She wasn't too concerned however, as she did remember King Endymion before she passed out. She knew he would have taken care of her.

The ache in her heart grew with each breath she took. Even with the help of the King, she still felt so alone. Mamoru was gone... stolen by the Dark Moon, by Diamond. She wanted to cry, to scream, to destroy the room, anything, anything to let out the pain in her heart.

And she couldn't even get up the energy to go to the bathroom, which she so desperately needed.

She remembered this feeling and hated it. She had felt similar to this when her Prince had died on the moon. She had felt a smaller version of this when he had been brainwashed by Beryl...

She had felt like this when Mamoru told her he didn't love her because of his dreams...

Would their relationship be anything more than just pain? Could they truly survive all of this? Would her love be able to bring him back? Could anything?

She didn't know anymore. She didn't know if she had the energy anymore. She couldn't deal with losing anymore people, even if she got them back. It was too hard, too painful for her.

She just wanted to live in peace...

A knock interrupted her thoughts. She tried to ignore it, but the persistent person on the other side knocked again.

She sighed and sat up, pulling the blankets tightly around her. "Come in!"

Usagi blinked as the blonde-haired Outer Senshi poked her head into the room. "Hey, Odango."

Blinking again, Usagi frowned. "Only Mamo-chan calls me that..."

Uranus smirked slightly. "Oh, we had this argument centuries ago. You'll probably have it with the younger me too. I won't stop, you know."

Sighing, Usagi leaned against the headboard. "Did you need something?" she asked, aware of how rude it sounded, but she really wasn't feeling up to having company.

"Breakfast is downstairs if you're hungry."

She nodded. "Thanks, but I'm fine."

Uranus shrugged. "I figured as much, but Michiru wanted me to make sure."

"Michiru?"

Nodding, Uranus elaborated, "Sailor Neptune."

"Oh."

"I'm Haruka, by the way."

Usagi nodded. "Nice to meet you," she said, trying to sound convincing.

Sailor Uranus laughed. "No need to put up the act for me, Odango. Just rest. The King is planning something as we speak, so all you have to do is wait until he figures it out."

The younger woman frowned. "I don't think..."

Uranus cut her off. "Don't worry about it. Come down when you're ready," she ordered and then shut the door to stop further protests.

Usagi frowned again; she was irritated they were taking control of the situation. Even if she didn't feel like fighting, the least they could have done was ask her what she thought... Just because she was younger than their centuries of experience didn't mean she couldn't help.

She blinked as she suddenly realized she wanted to help plan. She couldn't let them save her Mamo-chan all on their own. That was her job, her responsibility. He was her life, and she'd be damned before she let anyone else beat her to it.

She smiled weakly and crawled out of bed. She then headed towards the bathroom for a long needed shower.

It was time.

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She walked into a sober dining room. Each pair of eyes glanced her way as she strode in. She was unnerved by the sudden attention and hesitated. What were they staring at?

"Come in, Usagi," King Endymion said with a small smile, motioning to the seat beside him.

She nodded and walked over to sit down. She felt awkward sitting among people who knew her future self, as if they were judging her now.

"I'm glad you could make it, Sailor Moon," the aquamarine-haired woman said with a smile. "I was worried."

Usagi shook her head. "I'm fine."

Three pairs of female eyes blinked at her in complete disbelief, while the King simply pretended he wasn't paying attention to their conversation.

"I am," she asserted firmly.

"Alright, Odango. We're not arguing with you."

"You gave me a look though," Usagi pointed out.

Saturn laughed softly. "You seem to know everyone well for someone who just met us."

Usagi smiled suddenly. "I remember Uranus and Neptune from when I was Princess Serenity, though your names weren't Haruka and Michiru then."

"You do?" Neptune asked in surprise. She didn't remember anything from her past life, none of them did. Except for Sailor Moon, it seemed.

Usagi nodded. "My mother and I traveled to Uranus and Neptune once, when I was young. I remember it." She gave Uranus an irritated look. "Though you were not so disrespectful as to call me Odango then."

Uranus smirked. "Perhaps it is because I was waiting for the right time."

Usagi rolled her eyes. "Or perhaps because odangos are an Earth food and there were no such thing on the planets."

Neptune nudged her partner, Uranus. "She's got you there, Haruka. Outwitted by her again."

The blonde snorted. "Whatever happened to our lovable, air-headed princess?"

Neptune smiled, patting Uranus' shoulder. "She grew up, of course."

Usagi watched all of this with a blush. She glanced at King Endymion, only to find him looking at her curiously.

"What?" she asked.

He shook his head. "Saturn suggested I let you go to the Moon. I think that would be a good idea."

She blinked. "The Moon? Why?"

He smiled. "You'll see when you get there. It is best if I do not spoil it."

Sighing, she nodded. "Alright, I'll go."

"Thank you," he told her softly.

"How will I get there?" she asked.

"Apparently there is a teleportation device below the palace. Your Mamoru found it after being advised by Pluto."

She nodded, trying to hide her reaction to hearing his name. Mamo-chan... Where are you?

"You may go after breakfast, if you wish."

Usagi smiled in thanks and took a bite of her food. She didn't know exactly what it was, something egg-like, but it didn't matter.

She didn't taste it anyway.

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AN: Hmmm. I thought this would have been ending by now... and it is... slowly getting there. I'm not happy with it though... This story in general I mean.

Lovies!