Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Diary of Jane ❯ Chapter 1

Disc: ….I no ownie Sailor Moonie. *sad attempt at poetry*

 

 

 

If I had to, I would put myself

Right beside you,

So let me ask, would you like that?

Would you like that?

 

Pain. It's been my world for hours. I don't know where I am, who I am. All I know is that, I was fighting. I know I was. But, what was it? And why was I fighting in the first place?

 

God, everything hurts so bad…

 

And I don't mind, if you say this love is the last time

So now I'll ask do you like that? Do you like that?

NO!

 

I looked at Rei with a mixture of dread, anxiety, and pure, unadulterated fear. She'd been in a coma for days now. Why did she have to be the one to throw herself in the way of everything for me?

 

She fought two of the Doom and Doom Girls for me.

 

She stepped in front of Galaxia's energy disks for me.

 

And now…this…why?

 

Why? Why?!

 

Something's getting in the way

Something's just about to break

I will try to find my place

In the Diary of Jane

So tell me, how it should be

 

Darkness. I'm floating in it. I can't see my hand, my feet, or my body. In fact, I can't even feel.

 

Wait…I know I heard something…a name…my name? I can't hear it clearly…my head's so fuzzy…

 

Who am I?

 

Try to find out, what makes you tick

As I lie down, sore and sick

Do you like that? Do you like that?

 

“Ms. Tsukino?”

 

The sound of my name brought me out of my light doze. I turned in my seat to face the nurse and blinked my weary eyes up at her.

 

“Will you be staying the night again Ms.Tsukino?” The nurse asked politely.

 

“Wha-?” I looked at the pink watch on my wrist and gasped quietly. And I thought it had only been a short nap too…

 

“I really should get going..” then I saw Rei's face.

 

Her face was pale, and her hair was like black silk, spreading across the sheets. Her normally red lips were a delicate shade of peach. I breathed and turned back to the nurse.

 

There's a fine line, between love and hate

And I don't mind, just let me say

That I like that. I like that.

 

I know something's happening, beyond this realm of limbo that I'm stuck in. In all the time that I've spent here, there's been something that's been keeping me from fading away completely. But now, it, it's going…yes I can feel it!

 

Please….Please…

 

Don't let me fade away…not in this place of shadow and hate.

 

Please…

 

Something's getting in the way

Something's just about to break

I will try to find my place

In the Diary of Jane

 

“I'll think I'll stay again.” I said softly. “I just need to-.”

 

“I'll call your house for you.” The nurse said smiling. “I'll send someone to bring in a cot and some extra sheets and pillows for you.”

 

“Thank you…” I whispered, a ghost of a smile on my face.

 

As I burn another page

As I look the other way

I still try to find my place

In the Diary of Jane

So tell me how it should be

 

That presence…it's back.

 

Did it hear me? If so then maybe I can find a way out. Something soft brushes my face…it feels like warm satin. It travels from my cheek to my forehead, brushing away my bangs.

 

Dammit, why can't I move my hands!

 

And then something even softer than before presses against my forehead and I feel something strike my soul…

 

I'll never leave you…a voice whispers.

 

And I know its telling the truth…

 

Desperate I will crawl

Waiting for so long

No love

There's no love

 

I traced my hand down Rei's cheek, feeling my heart speed up when I discovered that Rei's skin was silky smooth. Without my noticing, my hand had traveled over Rei's face and had brushed away her bangs. Then, I did something that made me question my own sanity.

 

I leaned down and, ever so softly, kissed Rei's forehead.

 

I felt a little jolt go through me and I whispered, “I'll never leave you…”

 

Die for anyone

What have I become?

 

My chest feels so strange. There's this, pounding that makes it hurt so much. Adrenaline shoots through my body and I can't breathe, I can't move.

 

That presence…it's gone…

 

And I'm fading….

 

Something's getting in the way

Something's just about to break

 

I walked out of the bathroom and smiled slightly. I had a feeling that Rei was getting better.

 

That feeling faded when I saw the monitor that showed Rei's pulse was flashing red.

 

I will try to find my place

In the Diary of Jane

 

Where are you? You left and I'm fading. You lied to me…betrayed me…

 

No…you're still there…but…I'm still fading…

 

And I think I remember now…A youma…a flash of claws…you in danger, then…

 

Black.

 

As I burn another page

As I look the other way

 

I pressed the emergency button over and over again, trying to call a nurse to help me. Help her.

 

“No! No, no, no, no…” I cried. According to the machines, Rei's vitals were plummeting. She was dieing.

 

My Rei-chan was dieing.

 

I still try to find my place

In the Diary of Jane

 

Yes…I remember now…

 

Ami…Makoto…Minako…

 

Setsuna…Haruka and Michiru…Hotaru and Chibi-Usa…

 

Something's getting in the way…

 

“Please no, God no!” I wailed. The machines were sounding a loud alarm as Rei began to thrash on the bed. Later, I would remember that it was the first movement she had made in three days.

 

Rei gripped my hand and I held onto hers.

 

“I won't let go!” I whispered.

 

I knew I would have to.

 

Something's just about to break…

 

Luna…Artemis….even little Diana…

 

I won't let go!

 

No…don't let go, love….

 

Don't let go…

 

I will try to find my place…

 

“Rei!” I screamed. “Rei! Don't go! Please!” I lowered my head and rested my forehead on her chest. “Don't do this to me again!”

 

Her eyes snapped open and I locked gazes with her.

 

“I love you!” I wailed.

 

She had to know before it was too late.

 

Before she left me again.

 

In the Diary of Jane

 

Rei! My name…its Rei…I remember that too…

 

Rei! Don't go! Please! I remember you too…my angel…

 

Don't do this to me again! I finally leave my hell.

 

And I see you. My savior…my angel…

 

“I love you!” You scream.

 

“Usagi…love …” I whisper hoarsely.

 

Then, white.

 

~:~ fin ~:~