Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Her Battle ❯ Restless Night ( Chapter 5 )

I figure it's about time that I updated this; I didn't think it would have taken me this long to update. I meant to update more frequently than this, but things kept getting in the way. I was also having trouble with parts of this chapter, like the last one, but I'm just going to type away and see what happens : ). I hope everyone reading this likes it so far. It's weird that every time I put out a chapter I think it really isn't that good, but it seems to be liked. *shrugs* I think I'm probably my biggest critic, there are parts that I think should have been done better, but what's done is done, right? Anyway, I don't think my ramblings are what anyone came here to read, so let me get to what all of you did come here for and that's my story.

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Chapter 5 - Restless Night

"Chikusho!" Rei exclaimed as she shifted on her futon. `I can't find a comfortable position with this damn shoulder' she thought. Her shoulder was sorer than she expected, `it didn't hurt as much when it was dislocated' Rei thought as she remembered forcing the bone back into place.

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Flashback to an hour or so ago…

"What hell are you going do Rei!?" Makoto called to Rei who was standing next to tree. "What does it look like I'm going do?" Rei called back. "If I didn't know any better, I would say you were trying to force your arm back into its socket." Makoto replied. "That's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm not going to go to the hospital for a dislocated shoulder" Rei said. "You could hurt yourself more if you try to do that!" Usagi yelled to Rei. "Calm down Odango, I know what I'm doing." Rei said turning to Usagi. "Do you?" Makoto questioned as handed Minako, whom she and Usagi were supporting, off to Ami and walk over to Rei.

"Yes, I do" Rei calmly said looking Makoto in her eyes. As Makoto stared Rei in her eyes she knew that there would be no stopping her from doing this. "Alright, but I'm going to help you, so you don't hurt yourself more." Makoto said ending their stare off. Makoto then reached into her pocket and pulled out a pen and handed it Rei. "Put that in your mouth. Wouldn't want you to bite your tongue; if you did who would make the cocky remarks to the youma." Rei was about to respond with one of those "cocky remarks", but Makoto put the pen in her mouth. "Seriously though Rei, this *will* hurt. Are you ready?" Makoto asked and Rei responded with an affirmation shake of her head. Makoto griped Rei's arm firmly then and spoke again, "Ok, 1…2…3!" On three Makoto pulled Rei's arm sharply to her left. Rei closed her eyes tightly and clenched down on to the pen in her mouth when she felt the sudden pain in her arm. The three other inners watch on and grimaced in pain for Rei because it was obviously very painful. Makoto kept pulling until she heard a popping noise and once she heard that she gently lowered Rei's arm back down to her side. Rei was glad she had that pen in her mouth because she probably would have bitten her tongue and screamed in agony at the pain. She had to admit that it was more painful than she had expected.

Rei bent down as if she was going to sick from the pain. "You ok?" Makoto asked leaning over to look at Rei's face. "Peachy" Rei sarcastically responded. "Still got a sense of humor at least. Don't want to say I told you so, but I told you it was going to hurt." Makoto said putting her hand on Rei's good shoulder. "I think it's really about time we all got home" Ami said loud enough for Rei and Makoto hear from where they were standing. "Yeah, I really need to lie down." Minako added. Rei and Makoto walked over to join the other three. Usagi looked at Rei like she wanted to say something, but turned her head away when Rei turned to look at her. `She looks so kawaii when I catch her off guard' Rei thought as she looked forward again.

End Flashback

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`I don't think I'll be able to sleep well if at all tonight' Rei thought as she sat up and looked out her window. "The moon is so beautiful tonight" Rei commented to her empty room. Looking up at the pearl in the night-sky always made her think of the moon princess. Rei couldn't understand how she could feel so happy and sad at the same time. She loved Usagi more than simple words could express, but she knew fate would never let her be with Usagi the way dearly wished for. No matter the troubles or problems that Usagi and Mamoru may go through, destiny dictates that they will rule over Crystal Tokyo in the future and Chibi-Usa will be born from that union. `Who am I to question this?' Rei asked herself.

Rei sat there silently for a while longer just looking out at the stars and letting a myriad of thoughts flood into her mind, trying to come up with an answer that would satisfy her, but was left with only one answer. Love….an emotion that she never really felt until she met Usagi. For her entire life Rei had never really had any friends, not that she was unpopular at school or anything far from it in fact, but her life at the Hikawa Jinja made it difficult for her to ever have any of her fellow classmates over. She was still happy overall, but deep down she knew that something was missing in her life, like she wasn't complete. Then the day came when a junior high school girl named Tsukino Usagi came into her life. Everything seemed to fall into place for Rei shortly after that, she became Sailor Mars a fighter of love and justice and defender of Sailor Moon, and she even gained true friends, her fellow senshi members.

Rei always took opportunities to make fun of Usagi or to get her angry, originally she reasoned with herself that it was to make Usagi stronger and it was true to an extent, but later at the D-point when she gave her life so that Usagi/Sailor Moon could live she realize there was more to it than that. Rei realized she also did it to hide her true feelings for the princess, if everyone thought she hated her they would never think her felt exactly the opposite at least she thought so. It was apparent to all the senshi from the way Rei fought to the way she acted when Usagi really needed her that she really did care for Usagi deeply.

`I wish this could be easier' Rei thought. "Why did I have to fall for her of all people?" Rei quietly asked herself, but just soon as those words left her lips she shook her head at her own stupid question, `It's not like I chose to love her; hell I fought it for a long time until I just couldn't any more and now I *must* be strong enough to not hurt Usagi with my feelings. I *must* be content to love her from afar because if she's happy then that will be enough for me.' Rei told herself, "I *have* to stay strong for her." Rei said aloud. Slowly she reached up and touched her cheek and felt wetness there for the first time in a while, `when did I start crying?' she thought.

End Ch. 5

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I know it's a short chapter for such a long wait, Gomen nasai. The next one will be longer than this one, promise. I could have kept going, but I think was best to end it there before going on to something else. I want to be clear that the focus of this story is on Rei, I think it's obvious, but that would be why other characters haven't got as much "screen time". Also, I decided to add in various Japanese words and phrases, I'd like to know if people think it works out ok. I'll add what any Japanese words mean after my rambles at the end. That's it for this part and I'd like to add that the next part will take as long in coming out (it's about half done already, because it was going to be this chapter, but I decided to put this in here so Rei's feelings and thoughts can be expressed a little better than the had been). Ja ne!

Japanese - English

Chikusho! - Damn it!

Kawaii - Cute/Adorable

Gomen nasai - I'm very sorry

Ja ne - See ya later