Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ I Wish I Was Dead ❯ Madelyn ( Chapter 1 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: drama81 
Madelyn sees what life is like when she dies.
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.30.2001 | Updated On: 08.30.2001 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 189 | Status: Completed
Madelyn sees what life is like when she dies.
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.30.2001 | Updated On: 08.30.2001 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.4K | Visits: 189 | Status: Completed
I Wish I Was Dead
By: drama81
*Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon or any of the sailor scouts. They are owned by Naoko Takeuchi. The chibi scouts (with the exception of Chibi/Cosmic Moon) is owned by Angel Raye. Go read her stories they're wonderful. :)
Chapter 1 : Madelyn
"Hi Madelyn, how was school today?" Hotaru asked as her daughter walked in the door to their quarters.
"Mommy, the other kids were picking on me again today. Why won't they leave me alone?" seven-year-old Madelyn asked when she came in.
"Oh honey, I don't know but I had the same problem as a child. I guess they're just scared because they don't understand you," Hotaru said reassuringly. "People tend to be scared of what they don't understand and then they make fun or chase it away so they don't have to face it."
"But why me? I just want to be their friend, and they tease me and pick on me," Madelyn said, her eyes brimming with tears that were threatening to spill over.
"I know you do, but until they can get over being scared they're just going to pick on you. I wish you didn't have to go through life like I did," Hotaru said. "Dinner will be ready soon, why don't you do your homework or work on a puzzle. I bought you a new one, it's in your room."
Madelyn slowly picked up her book bag and went to her room. When she got there she started working on the puzzle and thinking about how the other children were treating her. "I wish I was dead so I wouldn't have to feel bad anymore," she said as tears slowly fell down her face.
"Are you sure you want that? Cause if you do then I can show you what would happen if you did die now," Shelbi said as she appeared next to Madelyn.
"Yes I do. Nobody at school likes me, and I can't take it anymore!" Madelyn said.
"Okay well here we go," Shelbi said opening a portal. "Now just step through."
The two stepped through and were immediately transported to what looked like Madelyn's home. "Shelbi where are we? This looks like my home but it's too dark, Mommy always has the lights on except when we're all asleep and even then there's a night light in the hall," Madelyn said.
"We are in your home. We came to a place where you killed yourself. Just watch now child," Shelbi said.
"Oh my poor baby. Why did you do it? I should have had you see Ami," Hotaru said tears staining her cheeks. She had become even thinner than before and now looked like nothing but skin and bones, her hair and eyes had lost their shine. She appeared to be nothing but a shell of her former self.
"Mommy what's wrong?" Madelyn said going up to her mom.
"She can't hear you or see you," Shelbi said. "Come there is more to see."
The two reappeared inside of the Mercury household. "Come on Ariel, you have to go to school today. I know that you don't want to but you really need to," Ami said trying to coax her daughter, Ariel, out of her room.
"No, I'm not going to school anymore. You can homeschool me. Also, I don't want to be a sailor scout anymore," Ariel said throwing her transformation pen out of the room.
"What happened to Ariel?" Madelyn asked.
"When you died, Ariel went into depression and locked herself into her room. She barely came out for food and to use the bathroom. She cries herself to sleep every night now," Shelbi said. "Ami has tried everything she can think of but nothing works with her."
"I don't want to see this anymore can we go somewhere else?" Madelyn asked.
"Yes, we've still a few more places to see," Shelbi said as the two teleported somewhere else.
"I recognize this place. This is Aunt Haruka and Aunt Michiru's place," Madelyn said. "Why are we here?"
"Just watch and see," Shelbi said.
"Haruka, have you tried to get Hotaru out of her quarters today?" Michiru asked.
"Hai, and it's the same as every other day, 'I can't stand to face life anymore without Madelyn.'"
"She really said that?" Michiru asked.
"Yes," was the curt reply.
"I'm going to go get Setsuna and try to talk some sense into her," Michiru said. "She's just about pushed Anthony out of her life now. I overheard him talking to the other knights the other day about him leaving her."
"If he does that she may kill herself too. I'll go talk to him, he needs to be there for her," Haruka said.
"Daddy would never leave Mommy, would he?" Madelyn asked Shelbi.
"Yes he would here. Your mother has been devastated to the point that all she does is mope around and mourn the loss of you. She completely ignores your father and it has driven a wedge between them," Shelbi said. "Come there are a couple more scenes you need to see."
The two reappeared in a field and watched as the other chibi scouts fought a youma. "I wish Ariel was here so we could find this thing's weakness," Chibi Jupiter said.
"Well she isn't so we have to keep going!" Chibi Venus said just before being grabbed by the lizard-like youma. "Ahhhhhhhhhh! Help Me!!!!"
The scene quickly faded into another one. "Where are we now?" Madelyn asked.
"It's a week after that fight you just saw," Shelbi answered.
"Oh Gloria, why did it have to be you in that fight? Why?" Mina cried into her husband's shoulder.
"I'm sorry Mina, but she fought for a week and now has slipped into a deep coma. I don't know if she'll ever come out or not. Right now I'd have to say that she has a very low chance of waking up," Ami said entering the waiting room.
"Ami, why didn't you have Ariel fight with them? She could have pin-pointed that youma's weak spot and they could have won and this never happen! If she dies I will never forgive you for making your daughter move on. She should be able to get over Madelyn's death by now, all the others have started moving on. Why can't yours?" Mina said before fleeing the room while crying her eyes out.
"Ami, I'm sorry for Mina's words. She doesn't mean..." Asai started.
"No don't say that she doesn't mean them, because she does. I saw the conviction in her eyes. She meant every word she said and she's right. I should have made Ariel do things and start to move on. If anything happens to Gloria it is my fault," Ami said as she turned around and left.
"I can't watch anymore. I don't want to die now. All it does is cause everyone to get hurt. Take me back please Shelbi," Madelyn pleaded.
"Alright, just step through this portal and you'll be back in your room. Just remember what you saw here," Shelbi said smiling.
"Don't worry I won't forget," Madelyn said as she stepped back into her room.
"Madelyn, dinner time," Hotaru called from the dining room.
"Mommy!" Madelyn called as she ran up to her mother and gave her a big hug.
"What's all this about honey?" Hotaru asked.
"I just was visited by Shelbi again. She showed me how life would be if I died. Everyone was too sad and Gloria got hurt and you and daddy split up," Madelyn said.
"It's okay now honey. If you're having those kinds of thoughts though, I should schedule you in to see your Aunt Ami. I'll see if I can get you in tomorrow or the next day," Hotaru said.
"Okay, but can we eat now?" Madelyn said.
"Of course," Hotaru said as they sat down.
*AN: Well that's it for chapter one, come back for chapter two.
*Addition Notes: Suicide is a very real thing. I don't personally endorse it, in fact I abhor it. Anyone who is having thoughts of killing themself should seek help immediately, whether it be a friend, teacher, parent, psychiatrist or what ever. Just talk to someone.
By: drama81
*Disclaimer: I do not own Sailor Moon or any of the sailor scouts. They are owned by Naoko Takeuchi. The chibi scouts (with the exception of Chibi/Cosmic Moon) is owned by Angel Raye. Go read her stories they're wonderful. :)
Chapter 1 : Madelyn
"Hi Madelyn, how was school today?" Hotaru asked as her daughter walked in the door to their quarters.
"Mommy, the other kids were picking on me again today. Why won't they leave me alone?" seven-year-old Madelyn asked when she came in.
"Oh honey, I don't know but I had the same problem as a child. I guess they're just scared because they don't understand you," Hotaru said reassuringly. "People tend to be scared of what they don't understand and then they make fun or chase it away so they don't have to face it."
"But why me? I just want to be their friend, and they tease me and pick on me," Madelyn said, her eyes brimming with tears that were threatening to spill over.
"I know you do, but until they can get over being scared they're just going to pick on you. I wish you didn't have to go through life like I did," Hotaru said. "Dinner will be ready soon, why don't you do your homework or work on a puzzle. I bought you a new one, it's in your room."
Madelyn slowly picked up her book bag and went to her room. When she got there she started working on the puzzle and thinking about how the other children were treating her. "I wish I was dead so I wouldn't have to feel bad anymore," she said as tears slowly fell down her face.
"Are you sure you want that? Cause if you do then I can show you what would happen if you did die now," Shelbi said as she appeared next to Madelyn.
"Yes I do. Nobody at school likes me, and I can't take it anymore!" Madelyn said.
"Okay well here we go," Shelbi said opening a portal. "Now just step through."
The two stepped through and were immediately transported to what looked like Madelyn's home. "Shelbi where are we? This looks like my home but it's too dark, Mommy always has the lights on except when we're all asleep and even then there's a night light in the hall," Madelyn said.
"We are in your home. We came to a place where you killed yourself. Just watch now child," Shelbi said.
"Oh my poor baby. Why did you do it? I should have had you see Ami," Hotaru said tears staining her cheeks. She had become even thinner than before and now looked like nothing but skin and bones, her hair and eyes had lost their shine. She appeared to be nothing but a shell of her former self.
"Mommy what's wrong?" Madelyn said going up to her mom.
"She can't hear you or see you," Shelbi said. "Come there is more to see."
The two reappeared inside of the Mercury household. "Come on Ariel, you have to go to school today. I know that you don't want to but you really need to," Ami said trying to coax her daughter, Ariel, out of her room.
"No, I'm not going to school anymore. You can homeschool me. Also, I don't want to be a sailor scout anymore," Ariel said throwing her transformation pen out of the room.
"What happened to Ariel?" Madelyn asked.
"When you died, Ariel went into depression and locked herself into her room. She barely came out for food and to use the bathroom. She cries herself to sleep every night now," Shelbi said. "Ami has tried everything she can think of but nothing works with her."
"I don't want to see this anymore can we go somewhere else?" Madelyn asked.
"Yes, we've still a few more places to see," Shelbi said as the two teleported somewhere else.
"I recognize this place. This is Aunt Haruka and Aunt Michiru's place," Madelyn said. "Why are we here?"
"Just watch and see," Shelbi said.
"Haruka, have you tried to get Hotaru out of her quarters today?" Michiru asked.
"Hai, and it's the same as every other day, 'I can't stand to face life anymore without Madelyn.'"
"She really said that?" Michiru asked.
"Yes," was the curt reply.
"I'm going to go get Setsuna and try to talk some sense into her," Michiru said. "She's just about pushed Anthony out of her life now. I overheard him talking to the other knights the other day about him leaving her."
"If he does that she may kill herself too. I'll go talk to him, he needs to be there for her," Haruka said.
"Daddy would never leave Mommy, would he?" Madelyn asked Shelbi.
"Yes he would here. Your mother has been devastated to the point that all she does is mope around and mourn the loss of you. She completely ignores your father and it has driven a wedge between them," Shelbi said. "Come there are a couple more scenes you need to see."
The two reappeared in a field and watched as the other chibi scouts fought a youma. "I wish Ariel was here so we could find this thing's weakness," Chibi Jupiter said.
"Well she isn't so we have to keep going!" Chibi Venus said just before being grabbed by the lizard-like youma. "Ahhhhhhhhhh! Help Me!!!!"
The scene quickly faded into another one. "Where are we now?" Madelyn asked.
"It's a week after that fight you just saw," Shelbi answered.
"Oh Gloria, why did it have to be you in that fight? Why?" Mina cried into her husband's shoulder.
"I'm sorry Mina, but she fought for a week and now has slipped into a deep coma. I don't know if she'll ever come out or not. Right now I'd have to say that she has a very low chance of waking up," Ami said entering the waiting room.
"Ami, why didn't you have Ariel fight with them? She could have pin-pointed that youma's weak spot and they could have won and this never happen! If she dies I will never forgive you for making your daughter move on. She should be able to get over Madelyn's death by now, all the others have started moving on. Why can't yours?" Mina said before fleeing the room while crying her eyes out.
"Ami, I'm sorry for Mina's words. She doesn't mean..." Asai started.
"No don't say that she doesn't mean them, because she does. I saw the conviction in her eyes. She meant every word she said and she's right. I should have made Ariel do things and start to move on. If anything happens to Gloria it is my fault," Ami said as she turned around and left.
"I can't watch anymore. I don't want to die now. All it does is cause everyone to get hurt. Take me back please Shelbi," Madelyn pleaded.
"Alright, just step through this portal and you'll be back in your room. Just remember what you saw here," Shelbi said smiling.
"Don't worry I won't forget," Madelyn said as she stepped back into her room.
"Madelyn, dinner time," Hotaru called from the dining room.
"Mommy!" Madelyn called as she ran up to her mother and gave her a big hug.
"What's all this about honey?" Hotaru asked.
"I just was visited by Shelbi again. She showed me how life would be if I died. Everyone was too sad and Gloria got hurt and you and daddy split up," Madelyn said.
"It's okay now honey. If you're having those kinds of thoughts though, I should schedule you in to see your Aunt Ami. I'll see if I can get you in tomorrow or the next day," Hotaru said.
"Okay, but can we eat now?" Madelyn said.
"Of course," Hotaru said as they sat down.
*AN: Well that's it for chapter one, come back for chapter two.
*Addition Notes: Suicide is a very real thing. I don't personally endorse it, in fact I abhor it. Anyone who is having thoughts of killing themself should seek help immediately, whether it be a friend, teacher, parent, psychiatrist or what ever. Just talk to someone.