Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ I Wish I Was Dead ❯ Faith ( Chapter 5 )
[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]
By: drama81 
Faith tell Ami about what she saw in her vision of her death.
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.30.2001 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 189 | Status: Completed
Faith tell Ami about what she saw in her vision of her death.
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.30.2001 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 189 | Status: Completed
I Wish I Was Dead
by: drama81
*Disclaimer: I own absolutely nothing here except the plot. The sailor scouts belong to Naoko Takeuchi. All the chibi scouts except Rini belong to Angel Raye. The guardian angels also belong to Angel Raye.
*Author's Note: I'm skipping a little ahead here. I'm having Faith tell Ami about what happened to her to make her want to kill herself. Also if you are having thoughts of suicide TALK TO SOMEONE!!!! Anyone will do, friend, family, teacher, etc. Just talk to someone. There are organizations out there to help. One is The Yellow Ribbon Project. The addy for it is www.yellowribbon.org.
*WARNING: This one gets a little graphic. If you have a weak stomach, please do not read. You have been warned.
Chapter 5: Faith
"Now why don't you tell me from the beginning Faith," Ami said as the session started.
"Well, even though I would never admit it, I was scared of water. Mainly because I couldn't swim. I know that Michiru-mama is the soldier of water, but I always stuck closer to Haruka-papa. I mean we worked on cars and motorcycles and such. I never thought of swimming as being important," Faith started.
"Now I know being scared of the water didn't make you want to kill yourself. What did?" Ami said.
"Well, as I was saying, I was scared of the water. Unfortunately, for me the teacher decided to have a field trip to the water park with Hope's class. I thought maybe I could get around swimming by staying on the shallow water attractions. Of course, I couldn't have been more wrong," Faith said.
*Flashback*
"Oh man, this sucks. If I don't go on the Cannonball Shoot I'll be the laughing stock of the school, but if I do I might not be able to get to the edge in time and drown," Faith said to herself. "Well I just hope that the lifeguards are alert and I can make it."
Faith walked up the stairs to the ride and ended up behind her twin sister, Hope. "Hi Faith. This is one of the best slides here. When did you learn to swim, though?" Faith asked.
"Umm, I had Michiru-mama show me a few months back. You know when you went to your violin camp," Faith quickly lied.
"Oh, ok. Maybe you will go swimming with Michiru-mama and me sometime," Faith smiled going on up.
At the top Faith quickly jumped on the slide and jetted down the tube. She plummetted out of the end and landed in the water making a huge splash. Faith looked down and gulped. She couldn't chicken out now too much was on the line. If she ran away she would be labeled a sissy. She knew she could make it, if she hurried.
Faith quickly jumped onto the slide so she wouldn't back out. She slid down going faster all the time. She let out a cry of excitement because she always loved the rush of wind passing over the body when going fast. She was noticing the wind so much she never realized when she left the tunnel and headed towards the deep water below. As she plunged in she had been breathing in and water quickly ran up her nose and filled her mouth.
She quickly began to flail to get to the top of the water and fresh air. After a moment of stuggle she felt someone's hands pick her up and out of the water. She coughed up the water that had gone into her lungs. As she looked around she saw her classmates start to snicker and laugh at her. She knew that she had just become what she had feared most, the laughing stock of the school. By the next day everyone would know that she couldn't swim.
She quickly shoved the lifeguard aside and ran away hoping no one would see her cry. She reached the bathroom and ran into a stall locking the door so no one could see her. "I wish I was dead," she cried.
"Child, are you sure you really want that?" a voice said.
"Who's there?" Faith demanded looking around.
"Relax, it's me, Leona," the angel said appearing.
"Leona! It really is you! What are you doing here?" Faith said hugging Leona.
"I came to grant your wish," Leona started. "Well sorta. I'm going to show you what life would be like if you died here and now. Just step into the portal and all will be revealed."
The portal shimmered to life and Faith stepped through hesitantly. When she looked around she saw she was outside the stall at the water park.
"Well it looks like it didn't work," Faith said.
"Oh it worked alright, you'll see in just a moment," Leona said.
Faith saw Hope walk into the rest room, 'Probably to cheer me up' Faith mused.
What she didn't expect was to suddenly hear Hope erupt into a blood curdling scream. She ran over to her sister to comfort her but only saw her hand pass through her sister.
"Oh, yeah, did I forget to mention you can't do anything here?" Leona said.
Faith gave a quick glance towards the angel then looked towards where her sister was looking. What she saw nearly made her vomit. She was looking at her dead body. She had appearantly decided to climb up on the stool and jump off. As she looked she saw blood pouring out of the smashed head. She suddenly turned around and ended up vomiting.
"Ugh, get me away from here now," she said weakly.
Leona nodded and teleported them elsewhere. Faith glanced around and saw it was her quarters. She looked again and saw Michiru and Haruka nestled together with soft sobs coming from them.
"Haruka, why? Why did she do it? We gave the best we could. Why did she kill herself?" Michiru cried.
"Michi-chan, please don't cry and don't blame yourself. I wish I could tell you why, but only Faith knew the real reason. I think Hope may have a very good idea though," Haruka said tears falling down her cheeks.
Faith saw this and started to cry. "Michiru-mama, Haruka-papa please don't cry," she said softly.
"I have another scene which I need to show you," Leona said.
Faith nodded weakly and felt herself transport. When she looked around she saw she was in Hope's and her room. She looked over towards Hope's bed and saw a huddled form and heard crying.
Faith walked over, already knowing it was her sister, and tried her best to comfort her. "Please Hope, don't cry. I'm not worth your nor anyone's tears. Just don't cry," she cooed.
Hope reacted, unexpectedly. "Faith are you here, I can feel you. Are you really here?" Hope said looking around.
"Before you ask, no she cannot actually feel you, child. She has gone mentally insane since she was the one to see you die. Michiru and Haruka have been trying to keep her from being locked up, hoping that she would come out of it. Unfortunately their time is up and Ami is coming even as we speak to take her to the hospital for treatment," Leona said at Faith's confused look.
The door was suddenly ripped open by some men in orderly uniforms. The grabbed Hope, who had began to kick and scream, and sedate her. They quickly carried her out of the room and Faith followed. She saw they had to restrain both Haruka and Michiru so they could take Hope.
"Haruka, Michiru, I truly am sorry for this but it must be done for Hope's sake. If she has any chance of getting better, I have to take her to the hospital," Ami said nearly crying.
"Leona, I've seen enough I want to go back now!" Faith demanded. "I cannot let this happen, I must live!"
"That is what I was waiting for," Leona said, smiling.
*End Flashback*
"When I next opened up my eyes, I was back in the bathroom stall. I heard Hope come in and I came out and talked to her. I'm still scared of the water, but both Michiru-mama and Hope are helping me with that," Faith finished.
"Good, I'm glad to see that you're getting better. I see our time is up. I'll see you next week Faith," Ami said as Haruka came in.
"Thank you Aunt Ami. I'll see you then," Faith said leaving with Haruka.
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As I said before DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!!!! It's not only a bad idea, but a misdemeanor or felony if you fail. Plus you could end up a paraplegic for life. Please if you have these thoughts just talk to someone. Thanks.
by: drama81
*Disclaimer: I own absolutely nothing here except the plot. The sailor scouts belong to Naoko Takeuchi. All the chibi scouts except Rini belong to Angel Raye. The guardian angels also belong to Angel Raye.
*Author's Note: I'm skipping a little ahead here. I'm having Faith tell Ami about what happened to her to make her want to kill herself. Also if you are having thoughts of suicide TALK TO SOMEONE!!!! Anyone will do, friend, family, teacher, etc. Just talk to someone. There are organizations out there to help. One is The Yellow Ribbon Project. The addy for it is www.yellowribbon.org.
*WARNING: This one gets a little graphic. If you have a weak stomach, please do not read. You have been warned.
Chapter 5: Faith
"Now why don't you tell me from the beginning Faith," Ami said as the session started.
"Well, even though I would never admit it, I was scared of water. Mainly because I couldn't swim. I know that Michiru-mama is the soldier of water, but I always stuck closer to Haruka-papa. I mean we worked on cars and motorcycles and such. I never thought of swimming as being important," Faith started.
"Now I know being scared of the water didn't make you want to kill yourself. What did?" Ami said.
"Well, as I was saying, I was scared of the water. Unfortunately, for me the teacher decided to have a field trip to the water park with Hope's class. I thought maybe I could get around swimming by staying on the shallow water attractions. Of course, I couldn't have been more wrong," Faith said.
*Flashback*
"Oh man, this sucks. If I don't go on the Cannonball Shoot I'll be the laughing stock of the school, but if I do I might not be able to get to the edge in time and drown," Faith said to herself. "Well I just hope that the lifeguards are alert and I can make it."
Faith walked up the stairs to the ride and ended up behind her twin sister, Hope. "Hi Faith. This is one of the best slides here. When did you learn to swim, though?" Faith asked.
"Umm, I had Michiru-mama show me a few months back. You know when you went to your violin camp," Faith quickly lied.
"Oh, ok. Maybe you will go swimming with Michiru-mama and me sometime," Faith smiled going on up.
At the top Faith quickly jumped on the slide and jetted down the tube. She plummetted out of the end and landed in the water making a huge splash. Faith looked down and gulped. She couldn't chicken out now too much was on the line. If she ran away she would be labeled a sissy. She knew she could make it, if she hurried.
Faith quickly jumped onto the slide so she wouldn't back out. She slid down going faster all the time. She let out a cry of excitement because she always loved the rush of wind passing over the body when going fast. She was noticing the wind so much she never realized when she left the tunnel and headed towards the deep water below. As she plunged in she had been breathing in and water quickly ran up her nose and filled her mouth.
She quickly began to flail to get to the top of the water and fresh air. After a moment of stuggle she felt someone's hands pick her up and out of the water. She coughed up the water that had gone into her lungs. As she looked around she saw her classmates start to snicker and laugh at her. She knew that she had just become what she had feared most, the laughing stock of the school. By the next day everyone would know that she couldn't swim.
She quickly shoved the lifeguard aside and ran away hoping no one would see her cry. She reached the bathroom and ran into a stall locking the door so no one could see her. "I wish I was dead," she cried.
"Child, are you sure you really want that?" a voice said.
"Who's there?" Faith demanded looking around.
"Relax, it's me, Leona," the angel said appearing.
"Leona! It really is you! What are you doing here?" Faith said hugging Leona.
"I came to grant your wish," Leona started. "Well sorta. I'm going to show you what life would be like if you died here and now. Just step into the portal and all will be revealed."
The portal shimmered to life and Faith stepped through hesitantly. When she looked around she saw she was outside the stall at the water park.
"Well it looks like it didn't work," Faith said.
"Oh it worked alright, you'll see in just a moment," Leona said.
Faith saw Hope walk into the rest room, 'Probably to cheer me up' Faith mused.
What she didn't expect was to suddenly hear Hope erupt into a blood curdling scream. She ran over to her sister to comfort her but only saw her hand pass through her sister.
"Oh, yeah, did I forget to mention you can't do anything here?" Leona said.
Faith gave a quick glance towards the angel then looked towards where her sister was looking. What she saw nearly made her vomit. She was looking at her dead body. She had appearantly decided to climb up on the stool and jump off. As she looked she saw blood pouring out of the smashed head. She suddenly turned around and ended up vomiting.
"Ugh, get me away from here now," she said weakly.
Leona nodded and teleported them elsewhere. Faith glanced around and saw it was her quarters. She looked again and saw Michiru and Haruka nestled together with soft sobs coming from them.
"Haruka, why? Why did she do it? We gave the best we could. Why did she kill herself?" Michiru cried.
"Michi-chan, please don't cry and don't blame yourself. I wish I could tell you why, but only Faith knew the real reason. I think Hope may have a very good idea though," Haruka said tears falling down her cheeks.
Faith saw this and started to cry. "Michiru-mama, Haruka-papa please don't cry," she said softly.
"I have another scene which I need to show you," Leona said.
Faith nodded weakly and felt herself transport. When she looked around she saw she was in Hope's and her room. She looked over towards Hope's bed and saw a huddled form and heard crying.
Faith walked over, already knowing it was her sister, and tried her best to comfort her. "Please Hope, don't cry. I'm not worth your nor anyone's tears. Just don't cry," she cooed.
Hope reacted, unexpectedly. "Faith are you here, I can feel you. Are you really here?" Hope said looking around.
"Before you ask, no she cannot actually feel you, child. She has gone mentally insane since she was the one to see you die. Michiru and Haruka have been trying to keep her from being locked up, hoping that she would come out of it. Unfortunately their time is up and Ami is coming even as we speak to take her to the hospital for treatment," Leona said at Faith's confused look.
The door was suddenly ripped open by some men in orderly uniforms. The grabbed Hope, who had began to kick and scream, and sedate her. They quickly carried her out of the room and Faith followed. She saw they had to restrain both Haruka and Michiru so they could take Hope.
"Haruka, Michiru, I truly am sorry for this but it must be done for Hope's sake. If she has any chance of getting better, I have to take her to the hospital," Ami said nearly crying.
"Leona, I've seen enough I want to go back now!" Faith demanded. "I cannot let this happen, I must live!"
"That is what I was waiting for," Leona said, smiling.
*End Flashback*
"When I next opened up my eyes, I was back in the bathroom stall. I heard Hope come in and I came out and talked to her. I'm still scared of the water, but both Michiru-mama and Hope are helping me with that," Faith finished.
"Good, I'm glad to see that you're getting better. I see our time is up. I'll see you next week Faith," Ami said as Haruka came in.
"Thank you Aunt Ami. I'll see you then," Faith said leaving with Haruka.
*******
As I said before DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!!!! It's not only a bad idea, but a misdemeanor or felony if you fail. Plus you could end up a paraplegic for life. Please if you have these thoughts just talk to someone. Thanks.