Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ It Takes Two ❯ Chapter 9 ( Chapter 9 )

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Chapter 9

(Outer Manor week eighteen of pregnancy)

Haruka stood in the kitchen looking out the window she wore her track suit. She had seen several old trophies and had been told that she had been a track star in high school. Setsuna had said she used to run all the time when she was younger to clear her thoughts, that the wind was her element. She had woke up early today thinking to go for a run. Since coming back she had been sleeping in one of the guest rooms so everyone in the house was still asleep. She had snuck into Michiru's room finding her jogging suit. She finally stopped staring out the window and started jogging down the street. She kept going faster and faster until she found herself running along the beach stopping when she was finally out of breath. She sat down on the beach looking over at the sea watching waves crash into the shore. How did this happen? She felt so lost she had no idea what was going on. Everyone kept telling her what she was who she was but she couldn’t remember anything, And then there was Michiru the girl was obviously in love with her but she didn’t feel anything. Michiru was an attractive woman and Haruka liked her but she wasn’t sure if it was love. Haruka sighed then looked out at the waves again.

(Back at the manor)

Michiru woke up and looked over at the other side of the bed seeing it empty and not slept in. She sighed then stood up walking over to the closet and pulling out her robe. She noticed it was open and some clothes thrown about. Had Haruka woke up before her? She walked down the hall past Hotaru’s room to the guest room Haruka had been staying in. The bed ad been made a rare thing for Haruka usually Michiru ended up making the bed. Michiru sighed again Haruka was home but so much was different. Haruka seemed like a stranger to her a totally new person. Whenever Haruka held her or kissed her it seemed almost forced like she was doing it just for Michiru’s sake they didn’t even sleep in the same room. She walked down the stairs thinking Haruka was down there having breakfast. She found the kitchen empty, where did she go? Michiru looked up seeing Setsuna come down in her robe heading straight to the stove to make some tea. “Setsuna have you seen Haruka?” Michiru asked.

“No can’t say that I have I just got up. She’s not in her room?” Setsuna said.

“No, it was empty and the bed made.” Michiru said.

“Haruka actually made her bed? That’s a change.” Setsuna said.

“There are so many changes I don’t even know her anymore.” Michiru said.

“She’ll come around Michiru just give her time.” Setsuna said.

“I’m just worried about her.” Michiru said. “Where do you think she went?”

“I don’t know probably just to clear her head. This has to just as hard for her as it is for you.” Setsuna said.

“I know.” Michiru said pulling out her mirror. She called forth an image of Haruka and saw her sitting on the beach wearing her track suit. “She’s at the beach. I’m going to go to her.”

Setsuna grabbed Michiru’s arm stopping her from going upstairs and getting dressed. “No, let her have some time to herself.” Setsuna said as the doorbell rang. “Michiru please just give her some time." Michiru nodded then Setsuna went to answer the door she found Usagi standing on the porch. “Princess what are you doing here?”

“Setsuna-san I came to see how Haruka-san is doing.” Usagi said.

“She went out running,” Setsuna said.

“Oh. How is she?” Usagi asked.

“Scared and confused.” Setsuna said.

“And Michiru-san?” Usagi asked.

“Just as bad. They’ll be ok though I know it.” Setsuna said.

“Do you know when Haruka-san will be back?” Usagi asked.

“No, I’m sorry.” Setsuna said.

“Thanks anyway I guess I should have called first.” Usagi said turning to leave.

“Princess, try looking on the beach.” Setsuna said.

“Thanks Setsuna-san.” Usagi said,

(The beach later that day)

Haruka still sat on the beach staring at the waves feeling the wind blow through her hair and smelling the cool ocean breeze. She didn’t know how long he had been sitting there just thinking trying to remember something, anything but no she had nothing. She was so focused on the ocean and her thoughts that she didn’t hear Usagi walk up or sit down next to her. “Hi.” Usagi said pulling Haruka from her thoughts.

“Hi, Usagi-sama right?” Haruka said remembering her from a photo; Michiru had said that this girl was Chiba Usagi their princess.

“It’s weird you’ve never called me that before. It is rare that you even use my name let alone such honorifics.” Usagi said.

“What do I usually call you?” Haruka said.

“Kitten.” Usagi giggled at her nickname.

“Kitten? Why do I call you that?” Haruka asked.

“I don’t know. You just always have ever since we met. Mina-chan and I thought you were a guy. We followed you around trying to figure out anything about you. When we saw Michiru with you we were so jealous and we didn’t even know you. I guess we were just foolish girls.” Usagi said.

“Another story, another memory that I lived but don’t know. That I don’t remember. Is that what I am now? An empty husk of someone else?” Haruka said standing up.

“Ano?” Usagi said.

“I’m sick of everyone telling me who I was! What I did. Everyone knows me but me! They are all quick to tell me who I was but no one will tell me who I am.” Haruka shouted then starting to walk off.

Usagi stood there not knowing what to do or say then ran up next to Haruka grabbing her wrist and stopping her. “Haruka you are you.” She said.

“What hell is that supposed to mean?” Haruka asked.

“It means that even if you can’t remember who you were you still are you. Stop worrying about the past and live in the now. Be who you are now and if it’s meant to be the past will catch up with you.” Usagi said.

Haruka stared at Usagi, “Maybe you are right. But what about everyone else? What about Michiru? Will she still love me if I can't be the person she knows? The person she fell in love with?” Haruka said.

“Michiru-san will always love you. No matter what you do or who you are. She will still love you.” Usagi said. “Haruka-san do you love her?”

“I don’t know.” Haruka said. “Whenever I am around her I feel something but I don’t know what it is. How can I love someone I barely know?”

“Love works in strange ways.” Usagi said. “Like how I love you. I’ve always loved you but it’s not the same way I love Mamo-chan. It’s different it’s not a romantic love but it’s there anyway I can't descibe it. You and Michiru-san have a love I can’t even begin to explain. Maybe what you are feeling is love you just don’t know it.” Haruka smiled then kissed Usagi on the cheek and started walking back leaving the blond haired girl standing on the beach.

(That evening the Outer manor)

Haruka finally made it home late that night she didn’t realize how far she had ran this morning and it took her most of the day to walk back. She could have ran it and been home sooner but she wanted more time to think about what Usagi had said. Be who you are now stop being who everyone wants you to be. “Haruka!” Michiru said seeing the blond walk in.

“Hi.” Haruka said.

“We were worried about you.” Michiru said.

“I just needed some time to think.” Haruka said.

“Do you want anything to eat?” Michiru said.

“No, I think I’m just going to go to bed.” Haruka said.

“Well good night.” Michiru said gently kissing Haruka on the cheek.

Haruka nodded then started walking over to the stairs but she paused, “Michiru.”

“Yes?” Michiru asked.

“Can I sleep with you tonight?” Haruka asked.

“Haruka are you sure? I don’t want to push you too fast. I know this must be hard for you not knowing who you are.” Michiru said walking over to Haruka looking like she wanted to lean into Haruka but was holding back.

“Michiru, I know who I am. I just don’t know who I was and you know I don’t want to know who I was. I want to focus on who I am. The here and now. To hell with the past. I care about the future. My future with you. I don't know if I can be the person you want me to be but I want to be with you anyway. I want to start over again. Can we start over again?"

"Of course Haruka, I don't care what we do as long as I am with you." Michiru said.

"Lets go to bed then.” Haruka said pulling Michiru close and kissing her. Haruka lead her upstairs to their room then shut the door behind her before turning back to Michiru. She put her hands on Michiru’s shoulders rubbing them then trailing down to the buttons on her shirt. She leaned in kissing Michiru while her fingers worked on the buttons of the long sleeve button up shirt. “This is my shirt isn’t it?” Haruka said kissing Michiru’s neck.

“Yea none of my night gowns fit anymore so I borrowed it.” Michiru said sliding out of the shirt and not mentioning that she wore it because it smelled like Haruka.

“I’ll have to take you shopping tomorrow then.” Haruka said kissing her way down to Michiru’s belly. “You are so beautiful.” She said planting a kiss on her belly. Still amazed that this woman was carrying her childern.

Michiru took Haruka’s chin in her hand and pulled her so she was standing again. “I love you.” She said then kissed Haruka.

To be continued…