Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Lead me not into Temptation ❯ Chapter 2
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By: Serenitas 
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.15.2002 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 660 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 09.15.2002 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 660 | Status: Completed
Well hello there! I don't appear to be off to a bad start with my new story although the reviews have to go up. Thank you for all the reassurance I have gotten though. To those who had questions, I will answer them in this chapter, so read and enjoy! Standard disclaimers apply…I do not own Sailor Moon so don't bother to sue me…
As Usagi raced towards the location of the youma de jour which for once was not in the park but rather the shopping mall for a delightful change, she thought of how her life had changed. None of the senshi knew that her family was dead, none of them knew that she lived in that house alone. Her greatest failure was the inability to protect her family and it was her greatest and most frequent nightmare. It was years ago, just after the defeat of Nehelenia when one of the enemies, she figured it must have been Siren had attacked her family. She had thrown caution to the wind and transformed, revealing herself to her parents who were too busy being scared to care that their daughter was Sailor Moon. Trying to distract Siren long enough to get them out of the house she told them to run. They ran all right with Shingo into the car and sped away, knowing Usagi would find some way to protect them. They were wrong. Siren had known who Usagi was and she wanted to use her family as leverage to make her give up her star seed. She had taken off after that car chasing them and hounding them and no matter how hard Usagi tried she couldn't stop her. Siren had finally sent a youma to attack the car, sending them into the other lane of traffic and causing a nine-car pileup that no one had survived, but just to be certain, she had stolen their blank star seeds, turning them into a phages forcing Usagi to destroy them. They would not have lived irregardless because their injuries were fatal.
She had wiped their memories long ago of Chibi Usa and Luna had left her years ago, preferring to live with a serious senshi. She was Ami's cat now. Usagi didn't care. By her parent's will she inherited all that they ever owned, including the house and all that was in it, and so she lived there alone, having used the ginzuishou to convince the authorities that she was indeed old enough to live by herself. She had never told the senshi of what had happened but preferred to let them believe her family went on a lot of trips without her. She had failed in her duty as Sailor Moon, failed to protect those who mattered most and it gave her another reason to close off her heart. She had not even cried on the day of their funeral, just stood there blankly, staring as they three coffins were lowered into the ground, unable to make herself feel anything other than a void of nothingness.
Arriving at the battle scene, she saw that she was the first to arrive, other than Minako who had called it in and joined her. She didn't give her speech having realized the thing just took too much time to give. Almost detached she attacked, not caring how badly she hurt it, but wanting it to hurt. These youmas had slowly stripped everything from her, they had taken all that had ever mattered in the world to her making her a cold and almost heartless bitch. Lunging at the youma she threw it over her hip, sending it sailing through a plate glass window. Following it she lifted the thing and kneed it in the so-called stomach throwing it into a potted tree. Sighing she decided to take pity on the creature that was starting to wail in pain from her unexpected assault. Pulling out the Tier, she threw her attack and watched with blank blue eyes as it became human once more. She turned to see the other senshi and Tuxedo Kamen had arrived. Saying nothing she turned to leave.
"Usagi." Haruka's voice broke the silence.
Usagi paused. "Yes Haruka?" she sighed.
"Let me give you a ride home. Your parents might be worried."
Such a small phrase, such a simple phrase, but one that lanced through her heart causing her more pain than any other words could. "They are gone for a few weeks Haruka and I'm on my own. You don't have to worry about me. I'd prefer to be alone in any case." She replied walking off again. "I'll see you later."
She left behind the stunned and silent senshi, not seeing the black shadow that took off after her to follow.
Haruka turned to the other senshi, frustration evident on her face. "What has happened to kitten? Does anyone ever see her smile anymore?"
Minako shook her head. "There is great pain in her heart and sorrow, but I can't figure out what."
"How can you read those emotions?" Makoto nudged her friend.
Minako put her hands on her hips. "I am the manifestation of the Goddess of Love you know. I can feel strong emotions in people and I feel no love in Usagi at all."
Haruka sighed. "She's keeping secrets, no doubts there, but which ones?"
"Perhaps the answer is only important if you ask the right question." Artemis, Minako's white cat interjected. "Ever notice that she allows no one into her house at all? She managed to get rid of Chibi Usa - no loss there in my estimation, and drove off Luna."
"So what are you saying?" Michiru cut in. "That the answer to all her problems is there? I thought most of the blame lay squarely on the shoulders of Mamoru."
"Oh it does make no mistake." Ami nodded. "But there is something else behind all this. When I first met Usagi, other than her frequent battles with Mamoru she was as shiny and cheerful and open as anything on this world. She embraced life and it embraced her back. She never recovered from their break-up no, and has dated total losers since then and over time just stopped speaking to us at all."
"And her fights with Mamoru!" Minako added. "Like we don't know what's REALLY going on there!"
"I don't follow."
Minako sighed. "The two of them so obviously still love each other but are too stubborn to show it. They watch each other when they think no one else can see. Half the things she says to us, or he says to Motoki I am convinced they say so the other can hear and they can get their point across."
"Minako's right." Makoto nodded. "I've noticed it myself."
"So what do you want to do?" Haruka drawled.
Minako giggled and rubbed her hands together. "With the help of Motoki and Yuuichirou (A.N - For the sake of the story he knows about the senshi and is friends with Motoki and Mamoru) and you guys if you want it, I am going to invoke all the powers of Venus to get them back together."
Michiru's head dropped to her hands. "And suddenly I feel a great surge of pity for both Usagi and Mamoru."
Minako let out a laugh that was almost a cackle. "Are you in?"
Haruka's eyes gleamed dangerously. "We're in."
"WHAT?" Michiru's head shot up as she glared at Haruka who shrugged innocently. "It's for the sake of Kitten Michi. Remember that."
Michiru narrowed her eyes at her girlfriend. "You owe me." She hissed.
"I'll pay you back tonight." Haruka murmured.
Mamoru followed Usagi, a black shadow stalking her through the night. He noticed curiously that she no longer entered her house through her window no matter what time of day it was. He no more believed that her family was always gone than he believed that she loved this Hitodri bastard she was dating. His ex was up to something and he was determined to find out what it was. She walked back into his line of vision, entering her bedroom and his mouth dropped as she stripped off her clothes and flopped on her bed. Mamoru could not have moved if a lighting bolt had been headed right for him. He sat on the tree limb and stared at her flawless beauty. He frowned and leaned closer. Those marks on her skin…what were they. His eyes widened in shock as he realized she was covered in scars, most concentrated on her back and stomach. It looked like she had been whipped or something. Usagi slowly pulled herself off her bed and pulled out some pajamas, thick flannel ones that were like a tent.
Mamoru shut his eyes convinced that the sight of a naked Usagi was going to be burned into his retinas permanently. He had never imagined she could be so beautiful. He saw how empty she was and how she gradually was growing bitter. He knew and he understood for he had been much the same way before he met her. Temptation, that's what she was. He had broken up with over dreams and she had been so furious she had refused to take him back no matter how much he had pleaded otherwise when he realized the error of his ways. She had not fled as he had thought she would, rather she stayed and faced him every day as he watched their love turn slowly to hate, her passion for him turn into disgust. As she grew older, she grew more beautiful and drove him to distraction. Case and point. He should have been at home studying for his family law exam, but instead he was stuck in a tree watching the woman who he yearned for.
"Usagi." He murmured. He could not let anyone else know he still loved her, though Motoki and Yuuichirou had guessed - the price he paid for having best friends. They fought like two blood enemies and he had to keep it that way. He didn't trust the senshi for a moment and if they knew that he didn't hate her, he'd never hear the end of it. Groaning and deciding to call it a night, he let himself out of the tree and took off for his apartment, not seeing Usagi staring blankly after him.
Usagi had known when he was there. Did he think her a fool? They had a bond and there were times when against all her better judgement, she used it. She didn't care if he saw her naked. She knew she was ugly, her body fat and scarred. The shrill ringing of the phone cut into her brooding and black thoughts. Lifting it she sighed. "Hitodri." She said tonelessly, listening as he went into a rapid explanation of how he hadn't meant to act like such an ass earlier that day. She realized she didn't care what he said or did, he was just another person to shut out. Sighing, she hung up on him in mid sentence and went to bed.
Setsuna watched her princess worriedly from her gate. "She's shut herself off from everything and every body your Majesty." She reported.
Queen Serenity sighed. "She can't use the ginzuishou like this."
"I don't think she really cares." Setsuna replied. "She doesn't care about anything."
"Not true, she allows herself one release. Her writing. Everything she thinks and feels is in the writing she hides from everyone. If we could get our hands on that, we can figure out what has happened to that girl. I cannot stand seeing her so miserable, and her agony cries out through time." Queen Serenity closed her eyes.
"She is the Moon Princess so her hurt runs deeper than most."
"We must find the catalyst here." Queen Serenity declared. "I'm ordering you to my daughter's side. Do not leave it until we figure out what is going on."
"And if she gives me an order?" Setsuna arched an eyebrow. "Her authority supersedes yours."
"Try to avoid having her give them." Queen Serenity explained.
Setsuna nodded.
Usagi lowered her pen, unable to sleep once more. She had long ago surpassed the need for sleep and now just existed on one or two hours a night. (A.N - Welcome to my world. Insomnia Central.) Since the middle of the night was when her best ideas came, she wrote. Reading over what she had jotted down, she decided to turn off the light and try to let some form of relaxation come.
**Through the blackness she ran, unseeing and uncaring. Through the never-ending and all pervasive darkness that lived in her soul and fought to find a way out. The girl ran faster hoping to escape the horrors that she knew stalked her steps, unknowing that she could never outrun them, unknowing she could never escape them. The echo through the still air, the only other sound other than her rapid breathing were the words that spoke of damnation, the words that condemned her in any life…'Nevermore…'**
And that is the end of this chapter. I hope everyone enjoyed it! Once again please read and review but be kind. NO FLAMES. I remind people that I write based on reviews, so no one reviews and I don't write and I have some great ideas for this story line. I know it's a little dark right now, but it gets better! Honest!
Ja ne!
As Usagi raced towards the location of the youma de jour which for once was not in the park but rather the shopping mall for a delightful change, she thought of how her life had changed. None of the senshi knew that her family was dead, none of them knew that she lived in that house alone. Her greatest failure was the inability to protect her family and it was her greatest and most frequent nightmare. It was years ago, just after the defeat of Nehelenia when one of the enemies, she figured it must have been Siren had attacked her family. She had thrown caution to the wind and transformed, revealing herself to her parents who were too busy being scared to care that their daughter was Sailor Moon. Trying to distract Siren long enough to get them out of the house she told them to run. They ran all right with Shingo into the car and sped away, knowing Usagi would find some way to protect them. They were wrong. Siren had known who Usagi was and she wanted to use her family as leverage to make her give up her star seed. She had taken off after that car chasing them and hounding them and no matter how hard Usagi tried she couldn't stop her. Siren had finally sent a youma to attack the car, sending them into the other lane of traffic and causing a nine-car pileup that no one had survived, but just to be certain, she had stolen their blank star seeds, turning them into a phages forcing Usagi to destroy them. They would not have lived irregardless because their injuries were fatal.
She had wiped their memories long ago of Chibi Usa and Luna had left her years ago, preferring to live with a serious senshi. She was Ami's cat now. Usagi didn't care. By her parent's will she inherited all that they ever owned, including the house and all that was in it, and so she lived there alone, having used the ginzuishou to convince the authorities that she was indeed old enough to live by herself. She had never told the senshi of what had happened but preferred to let them believe her family went on a lot of trips without her. She had failed in her duty as Sailor Moon, failed to protect those who mattered most and it gave her another reason to close off her heart. She had not even cried on the day of their funeral, just stood there blankly, staring as they three coffins were lowered into the ground, unable to make herself feel anything other than a void of nothingness.
Arriving at the battle scene, she saw that she was the first to arrive, other than Minako who had called it in and joined her. She didn't give her speech having realized the thing just took too much time to give. Almost detached she attacked, not caring how badly she hurt it, but wanting it to hurt. These youmas had slowly stripped everything from her, they had taken all that had ever mattered in the world to her making her a cold and almost heartless bitch. Lunging at the youma she threw it over her hip, sending it sailing through a plate glass window. Following it she lifted the thing and kneed it in the so-called stomach throwing it into a potted tree. Sighing she decided to take pity on the creature that was starting to wail in pain from her unexpected assault. Pulling out the Tier, she threw her attack and watched with blank blue eyes as it became human once more. She turned to see the other senshi and Tuxedo Kamen had arrived. Saying nothing she turned to leave.
"Usagi." Haruka's voice broke the silence.
Usagi paused. "Yes Haruka?" she sighed.
"Let me give you a ride home. Your parents might be worried."
Such a small phrase, such a simple phrase, but one that lanced through her heart causing her more pain than any other words could. "They are gone for a few weeks Haruka and I'm on my own. You don't have to worry about me. I'd prefer to be alone in any case." She replied walking off again. "I'll see you later."
She left behind the stunned and silent senshi, not seeing the black shadow that took off after her to follow.
Haruka turned to the other senshi, frustration evident on her face. "What has happened to kitten? Does anyone ever see her smile anymore?"
Minako shook her head. "There is great pain in her heart and sorrow, but I can't figure out what."
"How can you read those emotions?" Makoto nudged her friend.
Minako put her hands on her hips. "I am the manifestation of the Goddess of Love you know. I can feel strong emotions in people and I feel no love in Usagi at all."
Haruka sighed. "She's keeping secrets, no doubts there, but which ones?"
"Perhaps the answer is only important if you ask the right question." Artemis, Minako's white cat interjected. "Ever notice that she allows no one into her house at all? She managed to get rid of Chibi Usa - no loss there in my estimation, and drove off Luna."
"So what are you saying?" Michiru cut in. "That the answer to all her problems is there? I thought most of the blame lay squarely on the shoulders of Mamoru."
"Oh it does make no mistake." Ami nodded. "But there is something else behind all this. When I first met Usagi, other than her frequent battles with Mamoru she was as shiny and cheerful and open as anything on this world. She embraced life and it embraced her back. She never recovered from their break-up no, and has dated total losers since then and over time just stopped speaking to us at all."
"And her fights with Mamoru!" Minako added. "Like we don't know what's REALLY going on there!"
"I don't follow."
Minako sighed. "The two of them so obviously still love each other but are too stubborn to show it. They watch each other when they think no one else can see. Half the things she says to us, or he says to Motoki I am convinced they say so the other can hear and they can get their point across."
"Minako's right." Makoto nodded. "I've noticed it myself."
"So what do you want to do?" Haruka drawled.
Minako giggled and rubbed her hands together. "With the help of Motoki and Yuuichirou (A.N - For the sake of the story he knows about the senshi and is friends with Motoki and Mamoru) and you guys if you want it, I am going to invoke all the powers of Venus to get them back together."
Michiru's head dropped to her hands. "And suddenly I feel a great surge of pity for both Usagi and Mamoru."
Minako let out a laugh that was almost a cackle. "Are you in?"
Haruka's eyes gleamed dangerously. "We're in."
"WHAT?" Michiru's head shot up as she glared at Haruka who shrugged innocently. "It's for the sake of Kitten Michi. Remember that."
Michiru narrowed her eyes at her girlfriend. "You owe me." She hissed.
"I'll pay you back tonight." Haruka murmured.
Mamoru followed Usagi, a black shadow stalking her through the night. He noticed curiously that she no longer entered her house through her window no matter what time of day it was. He no more believed that her family was always gone than he believed that she loved this Hitodri bastard she was dating. His ex was up to something and he was determined to find out what it was. She walked back into his line of vision, entering her bedroom and his mouth dropped as she stripped off her clothes and flopped on her bed. Mamoru could not have moved if a lighting bolt had been headed right for him. He sat on the tree limb and stared at her flawless beauty. He frowned and leaned closer. Those marks on her skin…what were they. His eyes widened in shock as he realized she was covered in scars, most concentrated on her back and stomach. It looked like she had been whipped or something. Usagi slowly pulled herself off her bed and pulled out some pajamas, thick flannel ones that were like a tent.
Mamoru shut his eyes convinced that the sight of a naked Usagi was going to be burned into his retinas permanently. He had never imagined she could be so beautiful. He saw how empty she was and how she gradually was growing bitter. He knew and he understood for he had been much the same way before he met her. Temptation, that's what she was. He had broken up with over dreams and she had been so furious she had refused to take him back no matter how much he had pleaded otherwise when he realized the error of his ways. She had not fled as he had thought she would, rather she stayed and faced him every day as he watched their love turn slowly to hate, her passion for him turn into disgust. As she grew older, she grew more beautiful and drove him to distraction. Case and point. He should have been at home studying for his family law exam, but instead he was stuck in a tree watching the woman who he yearned for.
"Usagi." He murmured. He could not let anyone else know he still loved her, though Motoki and Yuuichirou had guessed - the price he paid for having best friends. They fought like two blood enemies and he had to keep it that way. He didn't trust the senshi for a moment and if they knew that he didn't hate her, he'd never hear the end of it. Groaning and deciding to call it a night, he let himself out of the tree and took off for his apartment, not seeing Usagi staring blankly after him.
Usagi had known when he was there. Did he think her a fool? They had a bond and there were times when against all her better judgement, she used it. She didn't care if he saw her naked. She knew she was ugly, her body fat and scarred. The shrill ringing of the phone cut into her brooding and black thoughts. Lifting it she sighed. "Hitodri." She said tonelessly, listening as he went into a rapid explanation of how he hadn't meant to act like such an ass earlier that day. She realized she didn't care what he said or did, he was just another person to shut out. Sighing, she hung up on him in mid sentence and went to bed.
Setsuna watched her princess worriedly from her gate. "She's shut herself off from everything and every body your Majesty." She reported.
Queen Serenity sighed. "She can't use the ginzuishou like this."
"I don't think she really cares." Setsuna replied. "She doesn't care about anything."
"Not true, she allows herself one release. Her writing. Everything she thinks and feels is in the writing she hides from everyone. If we could get our hands on that, we can figure out what has happened to that girl. I cannot stand seeing her so miserable, and her agony cries out through time." Queen Serenity closed her eyes.
"She is the Moon Princess so her hurt runs deeper than most."
"We must find the catalyst here." Queen Serenity declared. "I'm ordering you to my daughter's side. Do not leave it until we figure out what is going on."
"And if she gives me an order?" Setsuna arched an eyebrow. "Her authority supersedes yours."
"Try to avoid having her give them." Queen Serenity explained.
Setsuna nodded.
Usagi lowered her pen, unable to sleep once more. She had long ago surpassed the need for sleep and now just existed on one or two hours a night. (A.N - Welcome to my world. Insomnia Central.) Since the middle of the night was when her best ideas came, she wrote. Reading over what she had jotted down, she decided to turn off the light and try to let some form of relaxation come.
**Through the blackness she ran, unseeing and uncaring. Through the never-ending and all pervasive darkness that lived in her soul and fought to find a way out. The girl ran faster hoping to escape the horrors that she knew stalked her steps, unknowing that she could never outrun them, unknowing she could never escape them. The echo through the still air, the only other sound other than her rapid breathing were the words that spoke of damnation, the words that condemned her in any life…'Nevermore…'**
And that is the end of this chapter. I hope everyone enjoyed it! Once again please read and review but be kind. NO FLAMES. I remind people that I write based on reviews, so no one reviews and I don't write and I have some great ideas for this story line. I know it's a little dark right now, but it gets better! Honest!
Ja ne!