Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Letting Go ❯ Life Continues On ( Chapter 1 )

Chapter 1

 

Usagi stared out the window in her room, eyes watching each snow flake as they fell to the hard cold ground, forming mountain after mountain of bitter frost, melting together as one. She yawned then slid back from the bed, plopping back on to her bed. She sighed to herself as she stared at her white ceiling, now, feeling lonelier than ever.

 

It had been a three years since she defeated Galaxia along with the help from all of the senshi, and six years since she had become a Sailor Senshi. She was now out of high school and living with her parents, even though she so wanted to move out of her house. But she had no place and didn't have enough money to afford an apartment. She was planning to move in with her beloved, Mamoru, but her parents said that she could only move in after they were married, and they weren't to marry until in March, which was now two only months away, but seemed like eternity for her.

 

Usagi remained as friendly and beautiful as ever, loving the people of the Earth more than her than her own life, but then again she felt like no one seemed to notice her or to care about her. All of her friends had gone away or have become to busy to stay with her, but Usagi didn't show how upset she was about this. It was almost the usual thing to her now. She just bit her tongue and didn't say anything to stop them from leaving her. She wanted them to be happy, and she understood that they were starting their lives, as was she, but she wanted to be their life.

 

Ami, the smarter one of the group, as many stereotyped the blue haired, blue eyed girl, had gone to Germany to study medicine, but promised to come back for the wedding, as did all the Senshi. She rarely had time to talk to any of her friends, because she was a bit of a crazed about working and learning all she could, before she left.

 

Rei was training to become full time priestess at the temple, still giving Yuuichirou as a hard time, but Usagi knew they were secretly in love. She could see it every time she would visit Rei at the temple. The long stares and then blushing when someone would notice or say something (Usagi always said something so she could see their reactions. It reminded her of Mamo-chan and herself), she would snicker at them every time.

 

Makoto had gone to France for a few months to study cooking with the best of the chefs. She had called Usagi telling her the cooking was going great (She was the top in her class), and that she had found a few really great guys while she was there, but none of them turned out to what she wanted them to be.

 

Ah, and the wonderful Minako had finally had her dreams come true. She finally became a teen idol, even though she was a bit older than the normal idol, the agent that signed her said that she would be perfect for all of the girls who dreamed of becoming a beautiful woman. She was touring England now and very frequently called Usagi to talk about her superstar life and all the rumors going around in the tabloids. Usagi could tell she was enjoying herself very to a great deal and wished the best for her.

 

“Mamo-chan…” Usagi eyes glistened as she watched the snow. Oh, her beloved Mamoru, the man that promised his only future with her and her only, had gone to America to finish his studying, since they had been cut short before because of some “minor” complications. Usagi missed him dearly and wanted to see him, but she knew it was for the best. She saw him off with a smile and a kiss, as she had done before, except the tears now strangely had not come. It was almost a feeling of relief that Mamoru was leaving. Some thing between the two ancient lovers just wasn't there anymore. When she called him, he seemed so detached from her, almost hate towards her. She figured it was just a stage in their relationship and shrugged it off, but was it really? Was it just nerves?

 

So, Usagi waited, ever so patiently for everyone to return to her, as they all had promised. Slowly the days turned into weeks, the weeks turned into months and still no one had committed for sure for coming back, even Mamoru wasn't sure if he would be done with his studies, but something told Usagi that he was hiding something from her, but she didn't wish to agitate him so she didn't mention anything about her suspensions. She sighed then laid her head back on her bed, sulking as she had often done nowadays. After a few minutes of thinking and staring, she once again sighed then she picked herself up and forced herself to get up off her bed. She then walked to her door, opening her it then looking out. Her eyes wondered for a moment throughout the hallway. She then looked at the door across the hallway that led to that room; a sudden look of sadness came to sweet Usagi's pink flushed cheeked face.

 

“Chibi-Usa…” She walked to the door, leaning against it, eyes closed and cheeks becoming pinker and pinker. Her hand lay upon the golden handle of the child's door. She wanted nothing more than to hear the footsteps of the girl run down the stairs and open the door, but nothing came except complete utter silence. Tears slowly formed in the sweet eyes of Usagi's. She opened the door, smelling the scent of sweet candy, and then sullenly crept up the stairs, which now seemed so long to her, but had seemed so short before when she would dash up them to get Chib-Usa. The room once full of stuffed animals and baby dolls, painted in the colors of pink and white was now…empty. It was completely gone. Everything that had reminded her of the sweet child was gone now, not even a single picture of her pink haired self was left for Usagi to treasure. She plopped down on the bed, the only cover being a thin pink cotton cover. Tears flowed down her cheeks now, sending cool ways down her burning face, silently leaving small scars mentally. She from the bottom of her heart missed that little girl, even though sometimes she was a pain in the ass, she loved her more than beyond words could ever explain. She still remembered finding the letter that smelled like cotton candy on that bright sunny day.

 

Flashback

 

“Chibi-Usa!” Usagi called up from the bottom of the stairs, waiting for a response. She looked at her watch, checking the time, “Chibi-Usa!” She ran a few steps up the stair, looking up for the girl's head to pop out. “Chibi-Usa?” Once Usagi had made it fully up stairs, she saw that nothing was there except a small bed. She looked around for a moment then saw the small letter sitting of the stand next to the bed. She slowly stumbled over to it and picked it up. She read to whom it was addressed to seeing that it wasn't her though. She looked around quickly, checking that no one was by her. She then opened the letter slowly, reading it.

 

 

Everyone,

 

Usagi! This letter wasn't addressed to you! But I knew you could resist from opening it. Mama and Papa sent a letter requesting for me to come back to the palace now. They said that you guys will need your privacy? What does that mean? Well, I will miss you all.

 

 

Love,

Chibi-usa

P.S. Usagi, I'm sorry…

 

Flashback End

 

Usagi buried her face within her hands, tears streaming down her bright red cheeks, “Why did you have to leave me, Chibi-usa…” She whispered to herself, voice cracking a bit. The girl had come back about a year after she had defeated Galaxia. She apologized to Usagi saying she was sorry that she left her at such a hard time in her life, but Momma and Poppa said that is was for the best. Usagi forgave her of course thought. In all actuality Usagi was glad to have the small child back with her. All Usagi could do then was to hug her and tell her that she was happy to have her back with her at last.

 

Usagi then heard a soft knock at the door, “Usagi, are you up there?” A soothing voice rang from behind its wooden seal. A motherly tone that had often comforted her in even the hardest of times, she smiled to herself slightly at the sound.

 

Usagi then quickly wiped away her tears, cleared her throat, then as calmly as she could, replied back to her, “Yes, Mama!” She got up from the bed, coming down the stairs, jogging down, opening the door then leaving out the room.

 

Mama looked at Usagi, “Why were you up there, again?,” She stared at the door then back to her daughter, “It seems as though something up there was dear to you, Usagi,” Ikuko-mama bluntly said, not remembering that Chibi-Usa had even lived with them or existed, “All that;s up there is your old bed…” She then looked at Usagi's face, which was red and puffy, “Usagi, are you ok? You've been acting strange lately.” She felt her heard to see if she was sick.

 

Usagi pulled away from her mother's hand, felling a bit hurt by what her mother had said about Chibi-Usa, “Yes, I'm fine. I think I am going to go to the park though...” She spoke sharply to her.

 

“Usagi, your cheeks are red and your eyes are puffy-”

 

“I'm ok, it's just cold up there,” Usagi stopped her then weakly smiled, making up another excuse, as she had been doing often, trying to convince Ikuko-mama she was fine.

 

“Well it's snowing outside so put your coat over your sweater…” Usagi nodded then walked down the stairs to the door, putting on her jacket over her sweater, grabbing the umbrella then leaving the house, not saying anything as she did.

 

Disclaimer- I don't own Sailor Moon or any of characters in the Sailor Moon original series. This is my story and it is not to be used without my permission. Also, any characters not seen in the original Sailor Moon belong to me unless other wise noted.

 

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Update- This story has been update on March 10, 2005. I have corrected the grammar and added some more sentences to complete this chapter. Please, if you see any grammar or anything that doesn't any sense please tell me by reviewing, but it is up to you. Hope you enjoy