Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Love and Fire (One Shot) ❯ Love and Fire ( One-Shot )

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Notes: Okay, first time writing a one shot/songfic, especially about Rei/Minako. I know it's pathetic, but hey. XP Oh, it alternates view as Rei - Minako - Rei - Minako, until the end. The last two are Rei. Hope that's not too confusing... Anyway, R&R please!


..Yes, I did get inspiration from the top pick "Bittersweet Reunion" by Bardockgurl.

Oh, and the song is by Selena, called "Dreaming of You".

We met when we were fourteen. Protecting her... My friend, my best friend. We all protected her, the one who was to rule over us, Neo Queen Serenity. Our ruler, our leader, our friend. The person we could depend on in times of need. She was always there for us. I fought with her, but honestly, I liked her. She was my best friend.

But apart from her, there was someone else.... Someone similar, with flowing blonde hair, gorgeous blue eyes, the color of sapphires. Her hair was pulled back, and put up with a bow. Oh, Minako... I had never spoken of my feelings about her, but they were there. When Seiya, Taiki, and Yaten came to Earth, Minako and I had an unspoken agreement. We didn't need boyfriends. We had eachother. Oh, how my heart soared, at hearing her say that to them! We both agreed that day.

That day....


Her black hair and dark eyes. They always distracted me. Me, the one who dedicated her life to our princess, our ruler........

Our friend...........


And to the one.... My love. Yes, although I was not to be the one who could ever find her love, that I had done. Though, fate's cruel twist attacked me, keeping me from ever truly being with her. She had her love interests, and I mine. Oggling over random boys..... An act.

An act, that used to be sincere. I looked at each person carefully, the thought constantly 'could they be the one?' flowing through my mind. I remained uninterested, though. Uninterested, that is, until..

Until that beautiful free creature, Rei.


I feel so much for her. I am going to a reunion with her today. I haven't seen her in years; none of us have. I've missed her terribly. Although I cared for her so much, she was always constantly running after random boys, falling in 'love' almost as many times as she breathed. There were so many times........... So many, I longed to reach out to her, to pull her close to me, to tell her how I felt. So many times.......

And I never did.

I couldn't make myself do that to her. She didn't want to be tied down to me. She cared about me, but I knew... She didn't feel the same way about me. I could have consulted the fire, to find out for sure, but I didn't. It was just a gut-feeling. I never pursued it, refused to let the false hope invelope me, consume me. Although, the thought of her was almost too much to bear.

Rei..... The girl that I had also dedicated my life to. I never said a word, but made an oath to myself. I've kept it in a diary; I can recall it perfectly.

Those eight simple words, I have kept with me ever since I first realized my feelings for her. As the Goddess of Love, I should recognize the emotion, but.... It had been months before I realized it. After that, I could hardly talk to her without turning red, something I forced myself to constrain as much as possible. I knew that she didn't feel the same way about me, so I never told her how I felt. Instead, I kept it inside, and decided I would protect her while I was able, even if I couldn't hold the position of lover; I'd hold the position of friend. Some day, I will be able to tell her.

Today, I will see Minako-chan for the first time in years. I have been thinking about it, ever since I lost contact with her. I will tell her how I feel, and tell her that she doesn't have to feel the same way, or even respond. She just has to listen. I know that she will respect my feelings -- she is my friend after all. Friends forever, through whatever. Through the years, I've carried a feeling of regret.

I'm finished with regrets. Life's too short; Minako-chan taught me that. I wanted to tell her before it was too late; but I've never been able to work up the courage. I suppose, I was waiting for the circumstances to suit me. For her to tell me first; even though I knew she wouldn't. She didn't feel the same way. I wanted to tell her so badly.

However, today, I will make reconciliation for everything I have put off saying. I will ease my mind slightly, and finally speak the words I have yet to say, although presented with the opportunity various times. I'll tell her.

Until then......


Rei. Some day, the way I feel will be known, and we can be together... If you are willing. Since we went our seperate ways, I've been thinking about it, endlessly. There were so many times I could have told her.. I always supposed she knew how I felt, but I could never guess how she felt. Stubborn Rei, she refused to tell me if she liked me or not. I know she knew how I felt, I made it obvious with my gestures, my words......

....Didn't I?

We're supposed to meet tomorrow, maybe I can tell her then.... Ugh. I have to go around the crowded city. I hate the crazy lunatics, the people who drive their cars with serious cases of road-rage. But that aside, I'm excited. I can finally tell her..

I sit in the seats placed outside. It's a private occasion; not very big. I look towards Minako. Tears well up in my eyes. She has beautiful golden flowers, flowers to match her hair. It's appropriate. Zennias; for rememberance. Looking at her, I hope that she is happy now. I kneel on the grass, looking down. My formal black dress is getting ruined in the dew-stained grass, but I don't care. I can't take it.....

It's my turn to see her. I walk up to her, a final goodbye to what could have been; what should have been. What never had a chance to bloom. This is a day of endings, and new beginnings, isn't it appropriate to tie up my past with this day?

"Minako, I love you..."

I look up at the priest. He is speaking, but I am not listening. I watch as Minako's casket is lowered slowly into the hole. I continue on with what I was saying.

"I love you...... I've loved you.... I always will love you......."

There is nothing I can do, but mouth these words to myself, watching the coffin sink. I shut my eyes. Minako should be here, laughing at us all, for being so upset. She shouldn't have been killed by a car. The senshi that survived countless attacks, to be killed by a piece of metal. It would be comical, if this were a story. As it is, it's my life.

I am barely holding on, but I'm sure Minako is in a better place. I watch as dirt goes flying onto the coffin, burying my dear one in an eternal darkness. The girl who brought so much light to our lives, and she's the one who is in the dark. It isn't fair......

I am about to leave, to do my own private mourning, when the priest's words crash upon my ears, the way only the irony of life could.

"Now, we shall read exerpts from her diary, to remember the person we loved so dearly, and will miss."

I am enraged. Who is this person, to speak of her as if he knew her?! He didn't know the sweet Minako-chan, the girl who was supposed to be with us. With us. Not in some hole in the ground.

Then the words register further. Diary?

"....I can finally tell her. Rei, the one I've loved all along. We're supposed to meet today, after so many years apart. I don't know how she will react, I can only pray she will accept my feelings, which I am sure she will, as my friend. I can't wait to tell her! Rei, I love you.."

It's just too much. I'm sinking to the ground slowly, hands to my ears. It's not fair, not fair..... Why didn't she ever tell me? Why didn't I ever ask..?

Slowly, numb to the emotions swirling around inside me, I stand up. The ceremony isn't finished; the priest is still reading from her diary. My friends watch me as I turn to walk away. They may think what they want. I'm rude, or I don't care, but I'm sure they understand. We've been through so much together, they have to understand this... That I need my own time to mourn. Alone, to honor what we could have had.....

What we will never have the chance to have again.

Minako, I still love you. I always will. Someday, I will meet you in Heaven, if Heaven exists. Or, I will meet you in Hell, in the swirling flames, as they consume me.

..Flames...... The perfect way to describe my emotions towards you.

I walk away, away from her, as I always have done. Only this time, there's no hand on my shoulder to call me back, to comfort me..

..My angel is really, truly gone.