Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Rei Hino: I Dream of Usagi ❯ Rei Hino: I dream of Usagi ( Chapter 1 )

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Rei Hino: I Dream of Usagi

"Rei, you're being ridiculous."

Here I am, sitting in my bedroom, being told by all my friends that I'm over-reacting.
That's easy for them to say. They didn't go through what I did a week ago.

Ami's standing in front of me. Makoto and Minako are sitting on the floor, and Usagi's
sitting next to me on the bed. I really wish she wasn't sitting there. She wouldn't be
either…if she knew…

"Ami, I can't help it. I'm afraid to go to sleep at night. I'm afraid I'll dream it again."

"Rei, even Sigmund Freud said 'sometimes a cigar is just a cigar.' It was just a dream. It
doesn't mean you're…that way."

"Easy for you to say. Have you ever had a dream where you were with another girl?!"

Ami's face instantly turns bright red. She looks away quickly.

"I'm sorry guys, I'm hogging the floor."

She quickly sits down beside Makoto, who leans over and whispers to her.

"It's none of our business right?"

Usagi takes my hand in hers. I break into a cold sweat. I'm afraid to look at her. What
if she sees?

"Rei, you called us here to help, and from the looks of things you could really need it.
Not to sound insulting, but you look like Hell."

"Good," I say to her, "I'd hate to feel this bad and have it be my little secret."

"Rei, I'm worried about you. We all are. You can't go on like this. What happened in
this dream? Talk to us? Please?"

"I…I can't."

"Then what did you call us over for?!" Minako is kneeling in front of me now, "Now
look Rei, I can't speak for everyone else, but I get just a little tired when you call us out
here, and then you don't tell us what we need to know so we can help you. Now do you
tell us what's up, or do we leave?"

I look her square in the eyes. I'm not afraid to look at her.

"Leave. Please."

Minako and the other girls stand up.

"Okay, but you're only lying to yourself if you think you can deal with this on your own.
The fact that you called us at all proves that."

The girls walk out the door, with Minako staying behind for a moment.

"Look Rei, Usagi was right. You can't go on like this."

She puts her hand on my lap.

"We're here. Call us anytime."

"I know Minako. I guess I'm not as ready to talk about this as I thought. But thanks for
being there for me."

"Always Rei. You know that."

She finally leaves and I'm left alone with my thoughts. What am I going to do? Minako
was right. I look terrible and I feel even worse. I'm so tired, I can barely walk straight,
much less think straight. My arms and legs feel like tree trunks, my coordination is shot,
I feel like I'm going to burst out crying any second, and for what?

I can still see it, as clear as if it were just happening. I can't escape it. It happened a
week ago; the dream, I mean.

I see myself. It's like I'm having one of those out-of-body experiences you always hear
about. I was standing in a room. I can't remember one detail of that room, but I could
see myself, standing there. She was there with me. We were both wearing our uniforms.

What happened next shocks me even now. We walked closer, wrapped our arms around
each other and started kissing. It looked like I was ten feet away watching this but I
could feel her mouth pressed against mine. I could feel our breasts touching and rubbing
against each other through our uniforms. I could feel her fingers fluttering up and down
my back.

She unbuttoned my jacket and slid it over my shoulders, letting it fall to the floor. She
lifted her arms as I pulled her uniform shirt over her head and dropped it behind her.
Then we started kissing again as she slowly unbuttoned my shirt and slid it off. We
unfastened each other's skirts and let them slide down our legs to our ankles. Stepping
out of them, we then started caressing each other through our bras and panties, gradually
removing them.

We lay down beside each other and started caressing each other again. Her hand found
my clit and started stroking it slowly, almost painfully slowly. I twisted and pinched her
nipples while my other hand was rubbing her own smooth sex. Eventually, she rolled
over and lay on top of me. Then we rolled back over so I could lay on top of her. And
we kept rolling back and forth like that for some time. I don't know how long this lasted,
but I know we never stopped kissing the whole time. It was as if our mouths were locked
together.

The pleasure was starting to get to me. I was losing control. Then we finally broke our
kiss and just looked at each other, panting and moaning. She slid away from me and
spread her legs wide, beckoning me to do the same. I spread my legs just as wide as she
did and slid over. Our clits touched and we began pumping against each other, rubbing
back and forth, and our moans just kept getting louder and louder. And we just kept
pumping.

Why is it I can still see this so clearly but I can't remember one detail of that room we
were in? Please, just a picture, a chair, anything! But all I could see was the two of us,
bucking and squirming against each other, hearing the panting and the moaning and the
pleasure being almost too much to bear. I could feel the heat between our legs, the
wetness that made our smooth areas slick and slippery and only beckoned us further. It
was too much. I was…I …

All I remember was a flash of light. At that point I woke up and screamed "I love you!"
When I came to my senses, I looked at the clock. Three a.m. My body was covered in
sweat. I tried telling myself it was just a dream, but when I felt the heat and the wetness
between my legs, I was terrified. Too terrified to sleep.

For the last six days, I've maybe only gotten a few hours sleep. At this rate I'm going to
start going crazy.

Well, this is where you came in. I'm still sitting on my bed wondering what I'm going to
do. I can't tell the others can I? No, that's crazy. Suddenly, my mind drifts back to
when I was trapped with Sailor Neptune in Queen Nepheria's dream realm. I can hear
her, crystal clearly, as the words she spoke come back to me.

"You and Usagi are good friends. Just like Haruka and me."

I hold my head in my hands as the words I spoke once again cross my lips.

"Oh, I wish you hadn't said that."

Then, I hear my door close. I look up and Usagi is standing by the door. I look away
quickly. I still can't face her.

"What… what are you doing here? I thought you'd left."

Usagi looks away. There's an awkward silence that almost makes me want to scream. I
can't take much more of it. Then she speaks.

"That dream you had. It was about me wasn't it?"

I turn and look at her in shock.

"I was the girl you were with, wasn't I?"

I look away. I can feel the tears welling up and I can hear I my voice cracking.

"W-what…makes you think that?"

"Come on, Rei. The whole time we were here you ignored me. You've been avoiding
me all week. What other explanation is there?"

"M-maybe I just didn't want to see you, okay?" I was still looking away. I know she's
looking right through me, but I have to say something, "Maybe I'm tired of h-having you
around."

I can feel my heart breaking to say those words. I can't hold back the tears any more.
Then I feel her sitting on the bed, next to me.

"Rei, look at me."

"Usagi, please don't…"

"Look at me! Please."

I turn to her. The tears are streaming down my face and I can barely speak anymore. I
look at Usagi and she looks like she's about to cry too.

"Damn it Usagi! What do you want from me?!"

"I want you to tell me how you feel!"

I can't take it anymore. I throw my arms around her and start crying.

"I…I don't kn-now how I feel," I tell her between sobs, "That's why that d-dream scares
me s-so mu-huch."

That's all I can say. I'm crying too hard to speak anymore. Usagi holds me close and I
can tell by her voice that she's crying too.

"Ssssssshhhhhhh. It's all right. Don't hold back. Just let it out. Everything's fine."

She never leaves my side the whole time I'm crying. She just sits there hugging me.
Even when Grandpa and Yuichiru come in she wisks them off.

"She'll be fine," she tells them, "She just needs a good cry right now."

When I finally stop, I look at the clock. I've been crying for an hour and a half!

"Sometimes it's just something we all need," Usagi tells me, "And take it from me, you
really needed that. How do you feel."

"Actually, I feel a lot better. Thank you."

"Good. Now, tell me about this dream."

She giggles.

"Was I good?"

I have to giggle a bit myself. After a week of misery and an hour and a half of crying, it
feels good to laugh again.

"Actually, as far as girls go, you were great. I just wonder if I was any good."

"Explain."

So I tell her everything about the dream, right down to the last detail. Every dirty game
we played, every nasty little act that we performed. The more I tell her the easier it gets,
although she's very wide-eyed at the end.

"Well, that…certainly was…vivid."

"Wasn't it though?"

"So what do you think this means? You don't really think you're in love with me. I
mean, it was just a dream Rei."

"I know, I know. But I haven't been able to get it out of my head for a week. I keep
seeing us together in the back of my mind."

"Maybe you just needed to talk about it."

"Maybe."

She lifts my chin and our eyes meet.

"Hey, are you all right now?"

"I hope so. But you can go now if that's what you're wondering. I've bothered you for
long enough."

"It's never a bother helping you Rei. Well, I'd better go. I'm meeting Mamoru."

"Are…are you going to tell him about this?"

Usagi thinks for a moment.

"Should I really tell him anything at this point?"

"No…no, I suppose not."

She gets up and walks to the door, but as she reaches it, she stops and turns.

"Was I really that good?"

I look away for a moment and turn back to her and chuckle.

"Yeah…yeah, you were really that good."

"Wow."

"Usagi?"

She turns back to me.

"I love you Usagi."

"What does that mean?"

I turn away again and look back.

"…It means I love you."

Usagi smiles at me.

"I love you too Rei."

She walks out of the room and I have to smile, for the first time in a week.

That night, I sleep like a baby.

-The end-

To Audience: I hope you like this one. I kept it as open-ended as possible so you can
draw your own conclusions, but I partially patterned it to my own views on Rei's feelings
about Usagi.

Frankly, I don't believe Rei is in love with Usagi. There are some people out there that
would disagree with me, but it's not a theory I have ever subscribed to. Don't get me
wrong. I believe Rei loves Usagi, but let's face it. All the Sailors love Usagi and Usagi
loves all of them. Rei just feels that love a little stronger because we all know what an
emotional person she is. There's a difference between loving someone and being in love
with someone.

You agree? Disagree? Did you like the story? Didn you not? Why? E-mail your
comments today. If you have any story ideas, e-mail me as well, but I do have standards.
You can see them at the end of my story "Makoto's Friends with a Lesbian." I look
forward to hearing from you.