Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ SgAltima Presents: Dear Diary ❯ Sifting Through Memories: March 5th, 2000 ( Chapter 11 )

SgAltima Presents:

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

It's Wednesday, only 3 days since my last entry. Minako left yesterday to go on tour throughout China. She invited me to come with, but I declined. If she and I are going to be together, there will be lots of times when I won't get to see her because of her career. Might as well start getting used to it now, I suppose. Besides, it'll be nice to have a little bit of private time.

But anyways, it IS Wednesday, which is unusual for me! I always write this in bed on Sunday night. But I decided that I would take my diary around with me today and write as I did things. It is now ten in the morning, and I'm going to walk to the coffee shop for a donut and some tea.

Alright. I've had my tea and two donuts. And ran into Mamoru. He and I sat and ate quietly for the most part, talking a little bit, but mostly just enjoying each other's company. I don't even understand why he still talks to me. I've killed our little girl, Chibi-Usa, whose name I can only remember because I wrote it down in here. I guess that means that she'll never be born if I can't remember her or why she came here without reading back.

But he talks to me kindly. Sometimes I wish that he would hate me, but maybe the kami prevent him from that so that my guilt would weigh twice as heavily upon my shoulders. Oh well. I suppose that Fate doesn't look so kindly upon those that would dare to change its course. Minako taught me a new term for things like that. I'm not sure how it's spelled because it's from France, but it sounds like "say la vee". She says it means "Oh well".

Anyways, after the tea and donuts, he and I walked through the park that I've fought in so many times. I kept expecting something to jump out from me from behind the trees. I'm just so accustomed to fighting there. I guess that some things never change.

We came to his house after a few minutes of exiting the park. Mamoru has a house! It's really nice and spacious, but I didn't go inside. It's funny, I never imagined him in a house. I always remember him in that condo he lived in when I was in school.

I gave him a kiss on his cheek as I waved and began walking back towards the house. I'm on my way there now, but out of the corner of my eye, I see the arcade that the girls and I frequented back in those days. I wonder if Motoki still works there. I'll go in and find out.

Well, I just spent two hours in the arcade! Motoki isn't there anymore, but it's still almost the same as I remember it. Well, the games have changed, of course... but at least the Sailor V game I loved as a teenager is still there. I played it for a long time, and did surprisingly well. In fact, I don't think I ever got as high a score as I did today when I was in school.

I've been walking around for a while now. It's been a long time since I've just gone exploring and shopping a little bit through the city. Talk about a great way to pass the time, but I can't help but to think about Minako a lot. Maybe I am actually falling for her.

Maybe this time away from Minako will decide whether she and I have a chance to be together after all. I mean, if I'm completely obsessed with having her back here with me by the time she gets back, that should tell me something, right?

It's still only a little after 5 in the afternoon. I'm not going to go home yet. I think I'll drop by Makoto and Ami's apartment. I'll write more later.

Oh Diary, the effects that the fight between Rei and I are even present between Ami and Makoto. Makoto is gone. She told Ami one morning that she was going up into the mountains to the temple she trained at so many years ago, and then just left. Ami is a wreck. I'm going to take her out to dinner, and then we're going to get some movies and a lot of ice cream and go back to my house.

Well, it's like midnight, and Ami is finally asleep. She and I are going to pack up some stuff tomorrow morning and go find Makoto. I'll talk some sense into her myself if Ami can't get through. Makoto had better listen to me. All of this happening just serves me to be even angrier at Rei and her selfishness. She is at the root of all of this. After I make Makoto come to her senses, I'm gonna finish this with Rei once and for all.

I'm tired. See you on Sunday, Diary.

Tsukino Usagi