Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Shared Destiny ❯ Chapter 7: Words Will Never Hurt Me Or Not… ( Chapter 7 )

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Chapter 7: Words Will Never Hurt Me Or Not…


(Neptune and Uranus’ rooms two week later)


Neptune walked down the stairs from her room wearing a robe over her swim suit she and Mercury had promised to teach Hotaru how to swim today. The young senshi of destruction sat on one of the sofas downstairs with Uranus or rather sat on Uranus. Neptune wondered to herself how this young girl could be Sailor Saturn. She seemed so young and so innocent wanting only to be happy and for those around her to be happy. A few days ago Uranus had failed one of Pluto’s tests and Hotaru had spent the entire day trying to cheer her up. Course Neptune had to mention later that if someone had been studying instead of finding out who was the better fighter was both she and Jupiter might have passed the test.


“Neptune!” Hotaru said jumping off Uranus’ lap and running to her. It had taken several days to get her to say all their names correctly and even longer to get her to stop calling Queen Serenity tall lady with funny hair. She had even started calling Princess Serenity short lady with funny hair. Though now Hotaru called them both Serenity she could never get it right which one was the Queen and which was the Princess, neither seemed to mind as long as they weren’t referred to as the lady with funny hair.


“Are you ready to go swimming?” Neptune asked and Hotaru nodded up and down excitedly. “Uranus are you sure you don’t want to join us it will be fun.” They had been released from their page duties and this was their first free weekend.


“No thanks I’m not much of a swimmer.” Uranus said.


“You know Uranus if you really wanted to we could swim in the garden pond. Queen Serenity might get mad at us but it wouldn’t be the first time. Besides it’s been a whole month since we got in trouble.” Neptune said.


Uranus laughed then shook her head. “I’ll have to pass.”


“Fine, suit yourself.” Neptune said taking Hotaru’s hand and leaving. Neptune wondered what was wrong with her partner she seemed distracted ever since the Moon Ball.


“Neptune, why would Uranus want to swim in the pond?” Hotaru asked as they walked off Neptune chuckling.


Uranus stood from the couch walking over to a mirror and looking at her reflection. “Come on Haruka you can do this. Just walk up to her and tell her how you feel. You’ve never been afraid of anything.” Uranus said as she ran her hands through her hair, “Ok let’s do it. You can do this you are going to do this. Haruka go.”


Uranus grabbed her sword hooking it on her belt before leaving ever since Queen Serenity gave it to her she didn’t go anywhere without it. She had noticed that Neptune always carried a green silk bag with the Neptune symbol on it. Once she had peaked in and seen the Deep Aqua Mirror and she didn’t feel so much like a dork for taking her sword everywhere. She headed straight to the princess’ room but noticed she wasn’t there. “Alright Haruka you tried she wasn’t there just give up. No I have to find her. I have to tell her.” Uranus argued with herself.


“Uranus are you alright?” Venus asked seeing Uranus just staring at Serenity’s door mumbling to herself.


“Yeah I’m fine. Have you seen Serenity?” Uranus asked.


“I think she is in the rose garden.” Venus said.


Uranus started heading down the hallway pretty fast, “Thanks” she yelled as she ran.


“Are you sure you are feeling alright?” Venus asked herself shaking her head.


Uranus ran through the palace dodging people until she reached the rose gardens and saw Serenity staring at a red rose in their hand. Uranus stopped a few feet from her catching her breath and it seemed that Serenity hadn’t seen her. She seemed lost in thought. “Serenity.” Uranus said though it came out just a little louder than a whisper.


Serenity looked up barely hearing her, “Oh Haruka, hi.” Serenity said handing her the rose. “Isn’t it the most beautiful thing the world?”


“No you are.” Uranus thought to herself then said, “Yeah it is.”


“How much do you know about roses? Did you know that on Earth the different colors mean different things? Red is supposed to stands for love, pink shows gratitude, white means innocence and friendship, yellow stands for joy and friendship, orange passion and burgundy means beauty.” Serenity said.


“Wow I never knew a little flower could mean so much.” Uranus said staring at flower.


“Is there something you wanted?” Serenity said.


Uranus took a deep breath and looked up, “Yeah there is something I’ve wanted to say to you for a long time. You know I’m not really good with words so I… I’m just going to say it… Serenity I love you.”


Serenity smiled and looked at Uranus, “I love you too Haruka.”


“Really?” Haruka asked.


“Yeah I’ve always loved you.” Serenity said hugging her. Uranus held her tight and raised her chin up kissing Serenity on the lips. The kiss deepened then Serenity pulled away a surprised look on her face. “Oh gods, Haruka I’m sorry.” Serenity said stepping back her hand covering her mouth.


“What?” Uranus asked a pained look on her face.


“Haruka I love you but I’m not in love with you. I love you like I love all my senshi. Maybe I love you a little more but Haruka I’m sorry it’s not a romantic love.” Serenity said a few tears in her eyes realizing she had hurt her friend. “Haruka I’m so sorry.”


“It is alright forgive me Princess.” Uranus said bowing then leaving not wanting Serenity to see that she was crying. Serenity wanted to follow but Uranus was too fast and already gone.


(Palace swimming pool)


Neptune leaned on the edge of the pool half watching as Mercury held Hotaru helping her swim. She was worried about Uranus something about her this morning didn’t seem right. Like Uranus was worried about something. Neptune had been struggling with herself remembering her conversation at the ball where Uranus told her that she should just say no and be free to love who she wanted. She had decided a while ago that Uranus was right and she knew she was going to tell Uranus how she felt but hadn’t been able to find the courage to do it. Neptune jumped as Hotaru swam or better splashed over to her, “Neptune I’m swimming!” Hotaru said swimming into her arms.


“Yes you are.” Neptune said then turned the child around getting her to swim back to Mercury who had taken a couple steps backwards. Neptune laughed watching her swim over to Mercury. She looked up seeing Uranus walk down the hall past the pool very fast an upset look on her face. “Mercury I have to go will you be alright without me?” Neptune said climbing out of the pool.


“Yeah is everything ok?” Mercury asked she knew something was going on with her cousin but she wasn’t sure and Neptune hadn’t said anything about it.


“I just have something I have to do.” Neptune said drying off and putting her robe on leaving. “You’re doing good Hotaru.”


(Uranus and Neptune’s room)


Uranus sat on a stool in the living room she had managed to stop herself from crying and now she just sat there staring at the floor her head in her hands. How could she be so stupid to think the Princess would actually feel the same? “Damnit why did you kiss her you fool?” Uranus said aloud unaware of the fact Neptune had just stepped in the room. All Neptune heard though was “you fool.”


Uranus dropped her head down even further and Neptune stepped forward putting her hands on Uranus’ shoulders gently rubbing them. Uranus turned her head sharply seeing who it was and Neptune said, “Relax you are really tense.” Uranus compiled dropping her head again and closing her eyes letting Neptune continue to rub her shoulders.


“Gods, Neptune that feels really good.” Uranus said. Neptune smiled and didn’t stop. Before she even realized what she was doing Neptune had leaned down and kissed the back of Uranus’ neck. Uranus felt it but didn’t open her eyes; she felt it again as Neptune kissed the side of her neck. When she opened her eyes Neptune was kneeling beside her and had just kissed her cheek. “Neptune what are you doing?” Uranus asked a little surprised.


“Something I’ve wanted to do since the first time I saw you.” Neptune said kissing Uranus on the lips. Uranus didn’t respond at first still a little shocked then returned the kiss gently pulling Neptune into her lap. Neptune straddled Uranus’ lap as Uranus’ tongue brushed her lips pleading that she open them. She did allowing Uranus’ tongue to slip into her mouth and deepen the kiss as their tongues danced. Uranus broke the kiss but didn’t stop there she moved in and started kissing her neck. “By the Gods, Uranus.” Neptune hissed in pleasure. Even with the images she saw in her mirror and the dreams she had been having she never imagined Uranus would be that good of a kisser.


She was a bit surprised when she felt Uranus shift her hands from her hair to her rear and cup her butt standing up still holding on to her. Neptune wrapped her arms around Uranus’ neck and legs around Uranus’ waist holding tight as she walked up stairs. As she walked both of them still kissed the other mostly on the neck, a kiss to the lips sneaking in every now any then. Uranus fumbled at the top of the stairs trying to open the door but finally got it. She laid Neptune down on the bed and looked at her hungrily. She unbuckled her sword belt letting it fall to the ground then unbuttoned her over shirt before climbing on top of her and straddling her hips. Her hands traced circles on Neptune’s shoulders pushing the robe off of them. For a few minutes she just stared at Neptune’s body admiring her beauty. She leaned down again capturing Neptune’s lips in a kiss then moved to her neck once again. She didn’t stay long on Neptune’s neck much to Neptune’s displeasure but quickly found her chest kissing her way down to the cleft of her breasts kissing it gently her hands running up and down Neptune’s sides and over her stomach. Neptune let out a long sigh then whispered, “I love you.” Uranus just stopped mid kiss shocked at the words not moving. “Uranus?” Neptune asked wondering why she had stopped.


“We… we can’t do this.” Uranus said rolling off of Neptune lying next to her looking down at the sheets.


“Uranus I don’t care about the Senshi Laws I don’t care if they forbid us from being together, I love you.” Neptune said lifting Uranus’ chin forcing her to look at her. She noticed that there were tears in Uranus’ eyes and that this was the first time she had ever seen the Uranian Princess cry.


Uranus looked into Neptune’s deep blue eyes easily seeing the love there and not wanting to say what she was about to. She knew no matter how she said it she would hurt the girl, “That’s the problem. Neptune I don’t love you. If… if we did this for you we would be making love but for me it would just be sex. I can’t do that to you. It’s not fair. Neptune I’m sorry.” Uranus said then looked down at the bed not wanting to see the hurt in Neptune’s eyes knowing exactly how she must feel.


There was silence between them before Neptune finally said, “It’s because you love her isn’t it?” Uranus looked up seeing Neptune’s eyes were clouded with tears that she tried not to let fall. “It’s because you love Princess Serenity.”


“But she doesn’t love me.” Uranus whispered then looked down at the bed again the tears still falling. Neptune nodded then stood from the bed putting her robe on and starting to walk to the door. “Neptune wait. Do… do you want to sleep here with me?” Uranus said then her voice got real quiet but Neptune still heard her. “I don’t want to be alone.”


Neptune stopped mid step still facing the door then nodded before turning around. “Okay.”


Uranus stood and walked over to the closet grabbing two sets of pajamas. She handed one to Neptune then headed to the bathroom. “I’ll change in here just knock when you are done.” She closed the door behind her and quickly changed just staring at the mirror. Her eyes were red and blood shot from crying there still were tears on her cheeks. She hadn’t cried in a long time not since her father died. There was a faint knock on the door and Uranus at first didn’t hear it but then she heard it again.


She wiped her eyes then stepped out of the bathroom seeing that Neptune only wore the top to the pajamas and it was way too big for her. “The pants were too big.” Neptune said quietly.


Uranus chuckled a little. “Looks like the shirt is too. Come here.” Neptune stepped closer and Uranus took her arm rolling the sleeves up so you could actually see Neptune’s hands. Neptune stood easily within arms reach from Uranus and after she was done rolling her sleeves she didn’t really move just stood staring at the floor. Uranus lifted her chin up bring Neptune’s eyes even with hers. “Let’s go to bed.” Uranus said taking Neptune’s hand and leading her to the bed. She pulled the covers back and climbed in but Neptune just stood there still staring at the floor. “Neptune.” She whispered. Neptune nodded then climbed into the bed with her lying down next to her. Uranus smiled a little then pulled the smaller girl closer to her who instantly curled up close to her resting her head on Uranus’ chest. “Good night Neptune.”


(The next morning before dawn)


Uranus woke up surprised she had the dream again only it was more vivid and not clouded anymore. She knew that her mystery woman smelled of a cool sea breeze. She knew that she had deep blue eyes. She knew how those feathery kisses felt. She knew that her hair was soft to the touch and an aqua color. She knew that her mystery lover was Neptune. Someone else shifted in the bed clinging tighter to her and Uranus looked down seeing that Neptune lay in her bed cuddling close to her for warmth. Uranus pulled the sheets back over Neptune who must have kicked off during her sleep. She then idly stroked her hair hearing Neptune mumble her name in her sleep. Every night for weeks Uranus had been having the most intense dreams in her life not knowing who it was that starred in them and all along the person had been right there in front of her. Why hadn’t she seen it? She knew Neptune had seen it. She knew Neptune had been having dreams about her she read it in Neptune’s diary. Why hadn’t she seen it before? Why hadn’t she seen it before she had broken Neptune’s heart just as her has been broken?


To be continued…